In an instant, the blood on my face faded, as if the blood in my whole body had been frozen into ice in an instant, and I shook my head: "No, no-"

"Young Baby."

She shouted my name, there was also a helpless look on her face, both hands reached over and gently held my weak hand, feeling the tremor coming from the deepest part of my heart, I raised my head and looked at her helplessly and sadly: "I don't want it!" ”

She frowned slightly, and said softly: "Qingying ......"

I couldn't hold on to her hand, because my arm couldn't exert any strength, and my ten fingers could only struggle to entangle with her ten fingers, and said, "I didn't come out of the cold palace to stay here, no!" ”

Although I have no way to leave now, I can only stay in Jingren Palace with expediency, but I know that I can't always be like this, as long as I have the opportunity, as long as I have the opportunity, I will definitely do everything I can to get out of here.

Because, I'm going to find my departed son!

My daughter, who had been away from her mother for so long, and the thought of it almost drained my heart, how could I tolerate myself again-

Thinking of this, my eyes were red: "Queen Mother, I don't want it!" ”

She listened to my words, her eyes showed a trace of unbearability, and after a while, she said softly: "This palace knows." ”

"I, I want to leave ...... in my dreams"

"Hongu knows."

"I don't want it, I really don't want ......"

"Hongu knows."

She didn't seem to know what else to say to comfort me, so she could only repeat these words all the time, but there was a sour feeling that made me want to cry, she looked down at my hand, and after a while she said softly: "However, this palace still wants to ask you." ”

I looked up at her, "What? ”

"You and the emperor...... Really, are you really not looking back? ”

I looked at her with some trepidation.

There are a lot of people in the harem, the purple and red, the country is fragrant, like flowing water in this iron-beaten harem slowly prosperous, and quickly withered, but only she, the queen, is not like a thin peach blossom passing away from the water, but like a stubborn stone standing in the rivers and lakes, not intending to compete for favor, nor caring about wealth and wealth, just coldly looking at the love and hatred here, so, maybe only she will remember what happened between me and that man.

Sweet, tender, painful, hopeless......

Only she would have this question.

Me and him, will I ever go back?

Thinking of this, I let go of my hand and smiled faintly. It's not like I haven't asked myself this question, I once made a firm decision, but I repeatedly overturned it, and people are in such a torment, and they are getting old. But after I jumped off the dragon boat in Tiger Leap Gorge, I didn't think about the answer to this question again.

Because, I don't ask myself this question anymore.

I raised my head and looked at Chang Qing's eyes as clear as autumn water, thought for a long time, and said solemnly like her: "Queen Mother, I have something I want to ask you, I hope you can promise Qingying." ”

She was a little surprised, and I didn't answer her, but asked her for something.

"You say."

"Qingying, I never wanted to involve the queen, and I didn't want you to be hurt in any way, so, under this premise, if one day, I have one step left from the palace gate to leave, I beg the queen mother to help me with that last step."

“……”

She looked at me with wide eyes and stunned expressions on her face.

And I, without any hesitation, looked at her firmly.

"You, really?"

"Yes."

"......" She was so shocked that she couldn't speak for a long time. I don't know how long it took before she finally returned to normal, but when she spoke, her voice was not as calm and indifferent as she used to be, but with a hint of trembling, she said slowly: "Okay." ”

“……”

"Hongu promises you!"

I looked at the sparkling eyes and smiled at her: "The young baby is here, thank the queen for her grace." ”

My hand was held by her again, and it was warm.

Life is in a hurry for decades, like a white horse passing by, fleeting, but in such a wandering life, there are always one or two people, who have nothing to do with Fengyue, no love/love, no grievances, no hatred, and you obviously have no blood relationship, but you can give everything you have to him, as long as a word, a look, or even a knowing smile, is worth a thousand words.

Even if many years later, I am still surrounded by red walls, even if I really have to face the last step, I even feel that even if I can't take this step, but in my life, there have been such people, these people have appeared, stayed, and known each other, and I have no regrets in this life.

I don't know how long Chang Qing guarded me before I woke up, but seeing that she was also full of tiredness, not only physically exhausted, but also seemed to have a lot of heavy baggage in her heart, I repeatedly urged her to go back to rest, she told me a few words, and then went back to Jingren Palace.

As soon as she left, Mama Wu and Shui Xiu immediately entered the house.

As soon as they saw that I was still sitting at the head of the bed, Mama Wu hurriedly came over to help me scrub it a little, and brought me the decoction sent by the imperial pharmacy to drink, I obediently finished drinking, and was about to retract my hand back into the quilt, but Shui Xiu grabbed my wrist: "Don't." ”

"Huh?"

I looked at her with some doubts, and Shui Xiu said: "My lord, you have a wound on your arm now, it will be very itchy, if you put your hand back in the quilt, you will unconsciously scratch the wound when you fall asleep, and it will crack again." ”

"Ah, but my hands are cold when I put it outside."

"So, now I'll warm you up."

After Shui Xiu finished smiling, she sat on the edge of the bed, holding my hand with both hands, Mama Wu finished cleaning up the soup bowl, looked at her sensible appearance, didn't say anything, and went out with a smile.

Once again, the warmth was coming through my fingers.

I looked at Shui Xiu's intimate actions, and my heart warmed up, and I remembered that Chang Qing had been holding my hand just now, so I smiled and said, "Is it the queen's mother?" ”

Shui Xiu was stunned for a moment, lowered his head and did not speak.

I originally asked in passing, but looking at her appearance, it seemed that there was something unspeakable, and I suddenly asked, "What's wrong?" ”

“……”

The boy looked at me again, tilting his head away from me.

I became more and more puzzled, and stretched out my other uninjured hand to grab her: "Shui Xiu, what's going on?" You tell me! ”

She bit her lower lip, as if she hesitated for a while, before finally turning her face to look at me and softly, "Girl...... It's not the queen's mother. ”

"Who's that?"

"Yes—" She looked at me again, as if she had made up her mind, looked out the window, and made sure that there was no one around, before leaning down and whispering in my ear, "It's Liu Qinghan, Lord Liu." ”

"What?!"

I suddenly looked up: "It's him?!" ”

"Hmm."

I couldn't react for a while, and I was stunned for a while before I asked, "Is it really him?" ”

"It's him."

“……”

I only felt that my breathing was disordered, even the heartbeat in my chest was disordered, and there was a feeling that I was still in a trance - just now in the dream, he was still standing in a cold snow, looking at me with cold eyes, and I couldn't touch it even if I stretched out my hand, but when I woke up, it seemed that it had suddenly transitioned from the cold winter to the warm spring of March.

This dream-like gap made me a little at a loss.

"My lord, what's wrong with you? It's so red......"

Shui Xiu stretched out his hand and touched it, and immediately said, "Ah, your face is so hot, is it a fever?" ”

"No, it's fine."

I waved my hand gently, trying to calm myself down, but found that it was in vain, and my heart was beating so much that I was a little flustered.

It's him, it's him who has come to take good care of me......

Shui Xiu sat on the edge of the bed and looked at me, but for some reason, her eyes looked a little solemn.

And I, after the initial euphoria, calmed down and felt that something was wrong - he came to explain how to take care of me? Although this is not the residence of the concubines, it is also an inner palace in the end, and foreign men can't come in without an edict, why would Qinghan come here?

I raised my head and looked at Shui Xiu: "Why did Lord Liu come?" ”

Shui Xiu said: "After the emperor sent you back, he passed the meal in the warm pavilion, I heard that Lord Liu also came to accompany him, but it seems that not only the meal, but also talked about some things, the two of them talked about the kung fu of a meal, and when Lord Liu came out, he came to ask the queen for instructions, and he wanted to come over to ask the queen for peace." Niangniang originally wanted to ask His Highness how he learned in Jixian Palace, so she passed him over. ”

"So, did they say anything?"

"I didn't say anything, I just said that His Royal Highness has studied very well recently, and Niangniang rewarded Lord Liu, and later-"

She looked at me, her tone was a little hesitant, I frowned slightly, and hurriedly said, "What happened?" ”

"Later, Lord Liu said that he was a minister in the same palace as you, and he was also a half-teacher, and he wanted to come to visit your injury, and the queen mother was a little hesitant, but she still agreed to him."

"So, what about later?"

Shui Xiu said: "When he came, the adult was still asleep and didn't wake up, and I kept following, but then I went out to serve medicine to the adult, and when I came back, I saw the adult keep stretching out his hand, as if he was calling someone, Lord Liu was afraid that the adult would hurt his arm again, so he held your hand." ”

“……！”

I just felt a heat in my chest, as if something was about to swell out.

I still remember that I kept calling him in my dreams and kept reaching out to grab him, but I now know that it was really him who I called, and it was really him who I caught!

It turned out that it was a dream, but it was not a dream.

No wonder in my dream, I felt that the hand holding my hand was a little rough, and Chang Qing's pair of soft wattles were as delicate as jade, how could it be rough, I didn't expect it to be a light cold!

I looked down at my pale and slender fingers, the fingertips seemed to still have the rough touch left by his palm and the warm body temperature, at this time, no matter how much I tried to control myself, I couldn't suppress the smile on the corner of my mouth.

Originally, in Jixiang Village, after hurting him like that, I don't have the luxury of hoping to get back together with him in this life; And when I met in the annex outside the city, he told me that the fire in his heart had been extinguished, and he would forget all my past, so no matter how unwilling I was in my heart, I could not take my relationship with him any further, or go back to the beginning, to be able to look at him and smile like in the Jixian Palace, to work closely in the Gongyuan, to talk heartily in the snow, and to get along like ordinary friends, it was already a great joy and redemption for me.

But now-

It was he who took this step!

According to his personality, he will not show favor to a woman for no reason, nor will he behave beyond the norm, and he is willing to take this step, does it mean - in fact, he and I still have a chance.

This opportunity is not given to us by others, nor is it a gift from anyone, but he is still willing to open his heart to me, and it is possible to go back to the beginning with me?

The fire in his heart may have been extinguished, but there is still a little charcoal red, and something continues.

When I think of this, I just feel hot all over my body, and I can almost hear my own heartbeat in my ears.

"But—"

Just when I was so excited that my cheeks were flushed, Shui Xiu hesitated to speak, and I looked at her: "What? ”

Shui Xiu glanced at it, hesitated for a moment, and then said: "However, Lord Liu told the queen mother not to sue you, he once came here to visit you." ”

“…… What? I froze.

Shui Xiu said: "He said, I don't want you to know, Niangniang can only agree to him, and then he leaves." ”

“……”

"I happened to be passing by the door and heard about it."

“……”

"It's just that I don't know what the hell is going on, and whether it will affect you, adult, so I sue you. My lord, you must not sue anyone else, for I will sue you, lest I be punished again. ”

“……”

"Girl, you said Lord Liu was okay, right?"

“……”

My chest, which had been hot, slowly cooled down, and I sat at the head of the bed, losing my reaction for a while.

He didn't want me to know...... This, in fact, I am not surprised, he is not a person who is too emotionally exposed, even when he was in the fishing village, he only knew how to do it, and he was not very good at speaking, and it was indeed not suitable for other people to know about the situation I was in now.

I just suddenly thought, why did Chang Qing say to me just now that the emperor wanted to admit me into the harem again?

Is there any relationship between the two?

This matter, did Pei Yuanhao instruct Chang Qing to ask, or did Chang Qing ask me for other reasons?

If it's the latter, then -- what could be the reason?

My heart was completely chaotic at this moment, and after the ecstasy because of the light cold, there were more factors that made me uneasy, and even if I didn't think about it, I knew that there was one of the biggest obstacles in my life, not only for my relationship with the light cold.

What the hell is he's going to do?!

Once there is something in my heart, the whole person can no longer be calm, I almost want to get up immediately and go to Jixian Hall to find him, but Shui Xiu and Wu Mama persuaded me to be better injured before moving, and the emperor also explained before, let me rest for a few days, I don't have to go to Jixian Hall to do things.

In this way, I can only stay in the palace.

For the next few days, it was as if I had suddenly entered a confined space, no news came in, I didn't know what was going on outside, I couldn't see the light cold, Chang Qing only sent people to ask about my injuries every day, and even the emperor, even him, did not come again.

Although I didn't want to see him, I just knew his temperament, after experiencing the incident in Yaowulou, and after he said those words to me again, he should continue to press me step by step, but now he suddenly seems to have completely forgotten about it, which is not his usual style.

Such an abnormality made me feel a kind of mountain rain about to come and the wind was full of air.

Like, something big is going to happen.

On this day, Mama Wu and Shui Xiu went out to do their own business, I stayed in the house alone, and the imperial doctor also explained again and again before, I was injured by iron nails, if I don't recuperate well, I am afraid that this hand will be abolished in the future, so these days I have to rely on them for things like eating and washing my face, and as soon as they leave, I stay in the house alone, with nothing to do, and it is even more depressing.

I held my unconscious hand, and cautiously tried to pick up a pen on the table, but my fingertips still had little strength, and I was already sweating profusely just trying to hold the barrel.

Just then, there was a knock on the door.

When I heard this, I was startled, for fear that Shui Xiu would see me like this and nag again, so I hurriedly reached out and wiped my sweat, and went over to open the door as if nothing happened.

But when I opened the door and saw the person in front of me, I was stunned.

Standing outside the door, it turned out to be a pearl!

The personal palace maid by Shen Rou's side!

As soon as I saw her, I was stunned, and she seemed to be a little uneasy, her pretty face was pale, her forehead was covered with cold sweat, and she looked back cautiously when she stood in the doorway, as if anyone had seen her.

"You-"

"Lord Yue," as soon as she saw me, she immediately made a not-so-good-looking smile: "Are you okay?" ”

“……”

I frowned slightly-Mingzhu, she is the closest palace maid by Shen Rou's side, she was brought into the palace from the Shen family at the beginning, and she is the most trusted person of the concubine, why did she suddenly come to me? Although she hasn't been here before, every time it's a big fanfare, arrogant, and there is also a little girl from Jingren Palace to report the news, but this time, it seems that she is looking for me in private.

And looking at her appearance, she seems to be terribly afraid, what are you afraid of?

I smiled quietly: "Sister Mingzhu, your feet are cheap." I don't know what to advise? ”

When she saw me standing at the door, she didn't seem to intend to let her in, her face became a little embarrassed, and after thinking about it, she reluctantly smiled at me: "Lord Yue, I have something I want to say to Lord Yue alone, and I can't let others hear it." Can we go in and talk? ”

“……”

I looked at her again, thought for a moment, and finally took a step back and turned sideways: "Please come in." ”