The moment I heard this, I felt that Pei Yuanxiu's breathing was stagnant.

But there was still not much expression on his face, not even surprise, just a slight tremor of his lowered eyelashes. After a while, he looked up at me, "Are you—for him?" ”

"......" My throat was a little choked for a while, and I couldn't speak, and after a while, I spoke with some difficulty, and my voice was a little hoarse: "No, but there is no way to say that it has nothing to do with him at all." After all, I got news of him yesterday and am leaving today. ”

Pei Yuanxiu said: "But you know, he and Yuanzhen have been assigned to marry." ”

I turned pale and said in a hoarse voice, "I know." ”

"Although the third child is right to Yuanzhen, after all, it involves the eldest princess, and his will cannot be changed overnight. Even if Yuanzhen is filial piety now, they can't get married, but as soon as the emperor Chrysostom opens, they will be together after all in the future. ”

"I know ......"

I nodded, a little miserable smile on the corner of my mouth: "I know everything." ”

I can really understand that I have already figured it out when I walked all the way to the inner courtyard this morning. This time, the emperor pointed out that the object of marriage was Hubu Shangshu, and before that, Qing Han took me out of the prison, privately released the felon, and burned the Jixian Palace, these mortal sins were enough for Pei Yuanhao to cut off his head, but now, not only did he not die, but he was promoted.

There is only one reason, the eldest princess is in the middle, which plays a big role.

Pei Yuanzhen can protect him for the first time with his life, and naturally he can protect him for the second time, and Pei Yuanhao - as Pei Yuanxiu said, even if he doesn't have much affection for Pei Yuanzhen, but when the eldest princess comes forward, he has to consider it somewhat.

It's just-

Those big sins committed by Qinghan, if all of them are exposed, it is not something that the eldest princess can suppress, since Pei Yuanhao can let him be promoted, I am afraid that the things he did have not been fully exposed, of course, there are too many such methods in the officialdom, and it is not uncommon. Especially this time, there is a masked Yan Wu who has no desire to participate, they can completely seal the mouths of a few people, and then detain this matter to the body of that "mysterious person", and Qing Han was injured in the fire of Jixian Palace, after all, he is also a disciple of Fu Badai, and it is reasonable to appear there.

There's just one thing I don't understand.

I don't know how Pei Yuanhao swallowed this breath.

His temperament, I still know very well, Qinghan robbed the prison like this, let me go, not in front of the world, but also slapped the emperor heavily. But now, Pei Yuanhao not only didn't blame him in the slightest, but even promoted him, such a contrast is really not something Pei Yuanzhen can do.

However, no matter how unclear I am, and how unreasonable there is, he was promoted and had a marriage contract with Pei Yuanzhen, which has become a fact.

As Pei Yuanxiu said, even if Zhao Shuyuan dies and Pei Yuanzhen is filial piety, now they are just getting married, but in the future, they will still be married after all.

There will be an end to me and him......

Pei Yuanxiu still looked at me, looking at my pale and almost transparent face, and after a while, he said softly: "You decided?" ”

"Hmm."

“……”

He was silent for a moment, and then seemed to smile faintly, but the smile was far more bitter than the crying expression, and said in a dumb voice: "Actually, when I received the news yesterday, I already knew, but—"

I also smiled faintly, there was no joy in my smile, but all bitterness: "Actually, Childe should have known about it earlier." ”

He looked up at me.

I looked at him calmly.

He knew from the beginning that I was leaving, even before seeing me again.

I remembered that I had asked him, and I had also asked Yao Lao, when he sent Li'er to the temple to fast, that is, in the days when I went south, and during that time, he had already asked Yangzhou Mansion to post my portrait everywhere, and Nan'an also sent people to cross the river to find me on the official road, that is, he already knew that I was going south, and even entered Yangzhou, and he could find me at any time; He also knew very well that I went south to leave Li'er, but he sent Li'er away at that time.

Because he knew that if he found Li'er, I would leave, and he firmly believed that time could change my decision, but he was afraid that I would not give him this time at all, so he would send Li'er away after knowing that I had gone south, so that I had to stay with him and wait for Li'er to come back.

However, when I looked at those gentle eyes, I could not say anything more.

I can't blame him, because I know that he never wanted to hurt me, and he was really nice to me during that time.

It's not a life of poverty and luxury, but he really gave me the privilege that a happy woman can enjoy, and after so many ups and downs and changes, it is a rare little peace.

Therefore, even if Li'er was almost robbed by the people of Xichuan because he went to fast, and later encountered Shen Xiaokun and experienced some thrilling twists and turns, I didn't blame him at all.

It's just that he can't stay anymore.

After a long silence, he slowly lowered his head, with a little sadness in his eyes, and said softly, "I'm sorry. ”

I smiled faintly, and my smile was full of sourness: "If even a person who is seriously injured and saves my daughter when she is in danger, and makes my daughter safe and happy to grow up to such a big age, and still says sorry to me, then there are not many people in this world who are worthy of me." ”

He looked up at me, "But you're still—"

"I'm still leaving." I interrupted him and said softly, "Because I don't want to be sorry for you." ”

"I'm sorry for me?"

I looked at him, and then looked up at the elegant house in front of me, and the verdant bamboo around, moistened by a spring rain to verdant, the quiet air is full of warm fragrance, such a place, no prosperity, no luxury, but really nostalgic. A wry smile appeared on the corner of my mouth, and I said, "Live in the house you gave me, let your people serve me, enjoy the privileges you give, and understand your heart for me...... But in my heart, I think about others. ”

“……”

"That's just sorry for you."

“……”

"I'm sorry." I looked into his eyes and said these three words solemnly, and with each word, I could see the broken light in his eyes, and I could also feel my pain: "I can't change myself." ”

It has been decided to go, so there is no need to hesitate to stay any longer. Pei Yuanxiu seemed to understand, and he didn't do anything to stop him, just gave an order, and someone took care of it for me.

said that it was to take care of it, but in fact, I didn't have anything to pack, after all, I came alone and was a guest; But Li'er, since she was a child, she naturally has a lot of her things, and the two maids have packed five big burdens for her, and there are many that I can only leave aside for the time being and put in the carriage.

Early the next morning, I carried Li'er out of the inner courtyard.

The weather is very good, after the rain in the spring in the south of the Yangtze River, it is often a sunnier weather, the spring breeze blows the willows, the warblers sing and swallow dance, sweeping away the haze and anger in the bottom of people's hearts. Along the way, the attendants around us looked at us with reluctance, in fact, they were more naturally looking at Li'er, after all, she had been following Pei Yuanxiu, and many people here had watched her grow up, and they had some affection.

And the people who raised her, not to mention.

After passing the corridor, he arrived at the gate, and when he looked up, he saw Pei Yuanxiu standing at the door.

He was still dressed in white, but perhaps because his clothes were too thin, his whole body looked a little haggard and thin, and the warm silence on his body turned into silence, and when he heard the footsteps and turned his head to look at us, his face was pale, and the corners of his eyes were slightly red, as if he had not slept all night.

However, his expression was still gentle, with a faint smile.

Not far behind him, there are still Han sisters, and it is also a big deal for Li'er to leave with me, and the two sisters, as half of the masters here, came to see each other off, which is also their thoughtfulness.

I walked over and nodded at them gently, Han Ruoshi looked at us reluctantly, and Han Zitong next to me just glanced at me coldly and turned his face away, with an expression of "too lazy to say", and he didn't even look at me anymore.

Her preconceptions about me weren't for a day or two, and I didn't expect to be converted.

As soon as I approached, Pei Yuanxiu smiled and said, "What's wrong with Li'er?" ”

I looked down at Li'er, who was lying on my shoulder and had been dozing off, and smiled bitterly: "She didn't sleep well last night." ”

I didn't tell sù Li'er that we were going to leave her child, I only told sù her, I want to take her to Jiangbei to see.

Speaking of which, I didn't mean to lie to her, but at this point, I didn't want to let this matter change any more variables. And this girl was originally a character who couldn't sit still, plus the mother wanted to take her out to play, naturally excited, lying on the bed last night turned off the lights, and hugged me hard to ask this and that, until the outside bangzi knocked three times, I pretended to be angry and no longer answered any of her questions, or I could feel this girl's big and bright eyes cranky.

As a result, it is not surprising that I can't get out of bed this morning.

Pei Yuanxiu stroked her hair: "Li'er? ”

Li'er glanced back at him in a daze, her eyelids were fighting, and she murmured vaguely: "Ah...... Daddy......" he said, stumbling his head again and falling on my shoulder.

Pei Yuanxiu smiled faintly, waved someone to come over and take the child from me, hugged her into the carriage, and specially told the coachman to be careful later, not to rush too much.

I didn't follow the carriage, but still stood at the door, watching him carefully instruct the people around me, and when the order was finished, he turned back to meet my blurred vision, and both of them were speechless for a moment.

I said softly, "Childe, thank you." ”

"Here you go again."

I smiled and said, "Actually, I want to repay you more, but--I think what I can give, Childe is not rare, so I won't say those nonsense." Thank you for your kindness, Childe, this is a farewell, not a farewell, Childe will always be the father of the child, and our family will always welcome Childe to be a guest. ”

"Okay."

"I will set up an immortal tablet at home, pray sincerely, and pray that God will bless my son with a long life, happiness and health."

"......" When he heard this, he didn't speak, just looked at me, that kind of knowing gaze made my heart palpitate, I thought about it, and still said: "But, please forgive me for not wishing the prayer that the child's wish is fulfilled." ”