"But now, I'm going to sue you."

With that, he stopped again, and was silent for a long time, and I almost thought he would not speak again, but I saw his gaze fixed on a candlestick by the bedside, the flame flickering, and emitting a warm orange glow in the dark night.

And the light reflected in his eyes also dyed his gaze with a warmth.

In an instant, he seemed to be in the warm spring of March, and his whole person became lighter.

At this time, the corners of his mouth hooked up a smile, and then he looked at me and said, "Do you remember, I once told you that when I first learned about my background, I was hit hard, and I almost couldn't survive." ”

I don't know why he suddenly said this, but I could understand why he wanted everyone to go out, and I nodded silently at his pale face.

"Do you know how I survived?"

"......" I shook my head, but my heart seemed to be illuminated by the candlelight.

Why did he tell me about this at this time, in this situation?

Looking at my somewhat dazed eyes, his smile showed a little helplessness of "sure enough", and said: "It's because, when I knew my background, I also met someone." ”

“…… Alone? ”

"Yes."

He nodded slightly, because that movement seemed to involve the wound on his chest, and suddenly his brows tightened "Hmm", and I hurriedly said, "You still don't say it." If you have anything to say, let's talk about it when it's cured, isn't it? ”

He gritted his teeth, as if enduring great pain, a thin layer of cold sweat appeared on his forehead, and finally eased for a while, his face became even paler, but he raised his head and smiled at me again: "I must say it now." Because only this moment, you won't be scared away by me. ”

"......" I couldn't speak, looked at the sweat on his face, gently took out a silk handkerchief from his arms, and wiped him.

With this move, I no longer stopped him, Pei Yuanxiu smiled and breathed a sigh of relief, and continued: "At that time, I inadvertently knew my life experience, and I knew that I, the crown prince who was regarded by the world as the foundation of the country and flattered by the ministers of the court, was not the son of the royal family, and the Ninety-Five Supreme Sitting on the dragon chair was not my biological father...... You know, how sad I am? ”

I was silent and nodded.

Even ordinary people, knowing that their father who has been with him for decades is not his own, will feel like a bolt from the blue, and he, his identity is so special, this truth is not only the truth for him, but also a heavy blow.

If you are a little weak-hearted, you may really be unable to get through it, as he said.

But he-

Pei Yuanxiu looked at the candle flame and said slowly: "At that time, I was hit hard, as if the sky was falling, and the people around me, they greeted me, were deferential to me, and even smiled at me, which would make me feel terrified. Not fear of them, but fear, and as soon as the truth is revealed, the flattery of these people will immediately turn into irony; Their obedience will turn into harm; They, no one will smile at me anymore......"

“……”

"My qiē will be gone."

“……”

"On that day, I was like a ghost, I couldn't find my own home, I could only wander around the palace aimlessly, but no matter where I went, there were people who saluted me and flattered me, but I became more and more afraid, and I was even afraid of seeing a figure."

“……”

"I'm not afraid that they will save zài, I am afraid that they will leave."

“……”

"So, I ran almost in panic, avoiding everyone."

“……”

"Then I walked onto a quiet path."

When he said this, I don't know if it was because his breath was weak after he was injured, or because of the tenderness in his memory, his voice also became softer, like a dream.

"The path was very narrow, with dense bamboos on both sides, covering the whole path, and when I walked in it alone, it was as if the path had finally separated me from everyone else, and made me feel quiet for a moment.

Then, I heard someone reading words.

Yayi Pavilion is wide, and the heart is forbidden. Zhilan Yushu courtier's house. A drawing of Lobin.

I have seen each other for two years, and this year is full of happiness. More from the head of the people to add some. But it's 8,000 years old.

You must not have imagined that my heart was full of hesitation, full of helplessness, and after hearing that voice, it completely disappeared.

I followed the voice and walked slowly, and I saw the inner pavilion, the door was still hidden, and the shadow of the bamboo leaves fell on the door, swaying, as if the voice was undulating. When I opened the door, I saw a clean girl sitting by the window, holding a book, laughing.

Her skin was very white, as white as a whole piece of mutton fat jade, without a single blemish; She sat at the window, and the sun shone right on her forehead, clear and dazzling; She is not only dignified, but also very clean, without any makeup, no rouge, no moth eyebrows, but her eyebrows and eyes are very delicate, those eyes are especially beautiful, like a pool of spring water, and as if there are stars in the sky are melting in it, compared to the sun shining on the face are brighter and more agile; Her eyelashes were long and curled, and when she looked down at a book, they looked like a perched bird, but when she looked up at the sun outside, the bird seemed to take off.

Moreover, in her eyes, I saw the cleanliness of the entire imperial city, which was almost extinct......

and wisdom.

Then, I walked in.

She was startled when she saw me appear, and those eyes, like the fawn I had almost shot in the paddock, were clean and innocent, for I was so frightened that I had suddenly broken in. I didn't shoot the deer, and she -- I felt like I had made up my mind at that moment not to hurt her.

Moreover, I found that her manners were very good, and although she performed the courtesy of a palace maid, she was neither humble nor arrogant, and she was more dignified than the daughters of princes and ministers.

I asked her to find a rare ancient book, in fact, I just wanted to stay in the Inner Pavilion for a while, look at her a few more times, and say a few more words to her, but I didn't expect her to find it soon, I found out that she had compiled all the ancient books in the Inner Pavilion according to the almanac, and sorted them out clearly, which is what the Royal Library has always wanted to do, but has not had time to do it, I didn't think that she was a little palace maid, and it was done.

And when she took the book to the book, although she hid the paper that she usually used for waste, I still saw that there was her handwriting on it, which was a good Lingfei Sutra.

I realized that in the inner pavilion, there is a rare treasure.

At that time, I realized that I couldn't take my eyes off her face.

Perhaps, that girl is not a top beauty, I have really seen a lot of stunning beauty, she is indeed inferior to them, or rather, much lighter.

However, whether you believe it or not, after seeing the faint scenery, I can't see anything else.

At first sight, I knew that the peony was not beautiful, and it was expensive. ”

After he said this, he slowly raised his head, looked at me who was almost stunned, raised his hand with difficulty, rubbed my cheeks that had been **** with tears with his palm, his eyes were almost obsessed, he smiled lightly, and said: "After so many years, you are still the same as when I first saw it." ”

Another burst of hot tears poured down, wetting his palms.

How is that possible?

How could I be, haven't changed?

After so many years, how can the ones I have experienced still be the same as the girl who was in the inner pavilion and was full of expectations for her life and future.

I choked up and said, "I'm different. I've long since been, different. ”

Pei Yuanxiu didn't speak, but he still looked at me with a warm smile in his eyes, and he said, "Later, I often went to see you. ”

“……”

I was stunned for a moment, and subconsciously said, "But I-"

"Yes, you don't."

“……”

"You never knew when I looked at you."

“……”

"So, I know that when you laugh, there is a shallow laugh on the right side of your face; I've heard you tell stories, and you've heard you tell that Yu'er a blockbuster, a story about a ruin, and a story about a guilty plea; I know that you like Li Bai's poems, and you are well versed in the way of social checks and balances for the Hidden Spirit Sect to release Lingzi, although you said it, that Yu'er didn't understand it at all...... Perhaps, it is precisely because you don't understand that you will say it to her; I also know that you are usually very frugal, and you save up the rewards you get, your monthly salary, and you have almost no money, but you will spend money to take care of a friend who is locked up in the cold palace. ”

“……”

"I ......know better," he looked into my eyes and said slowly: "You don't want to climb the dragon and the phoenix, you don't want to have anything to do with any of our princes, you just want to spend a few years in the palace quietly, and then go out of the palace and live your own life." ”

“……”

Every time he said a word, my face turned white, and by the time he finished his last sentence, my face was pale.

He really knows everything.

Even Yu'er often said those things that embarrassed me, and even what I thought in my heart and what I once inadvertently revealed to Yu'er, he also knew it.

I didn't expect that what I thought was my own life turned out to be someone else's footprint.

It's just that he has been behind me, quietly waiting, so his footprints, I have never seen, his gaze, I have never cherished......

"Young Baby."

He called my name, and even his breathing became a little heavier, and I hardly dared to, and I couldn't help but raise my head to meet his gaze, and those dark eyes looked at me with a solemnity that I had never seen before, and said word by word:

"I've always loved you."