I've always loved you dearly.

When he said this, his eyes seemed to have regained the brilliance of the past, and he looked at me fixedly, as if he wanted to burn my person, my soul, and even my shadow into his eyes, and his heart would never let go for the rest of his life.

And I'm speechless.

I have long known that my feelings for me have been heard before the battle, but it is the first time I have heard such a straightforward confession.

Every word fell heavily on my heart, almost overwhelming me.

I never even dared to think that I would get the affection of this man for the rest of my life.

Thinking of this, a wave of sadness and guilt welled up in my heart, because of his lovesickness for all these years, and also because I didn't know anything over the years, I choked up and said: "Pei Yuanxiu, don't say it...... I, I'm not worthy, I'm not worthy. ”

As I spoke, I gently pulled my wrist out of his hand, but immediately felt him grab me again.

It would have been an easy task to break free from his hand, but now I don't dare, for fear that I will break free from him, and if he grabs me hard again and touches the wound in his chest, it will be incorrigible. In this way, I could only stop moving, and I heard him say slowly: "I don't want to hear you say whether you are worthy or not, I just want to hear you say whether you are willing or not." ”

I was stunned for a moment, and looked at him with hazy teary eyes.

Would you like to?

Willing to what?

His gaze looked at me fixedly, and said, "Qingying, I never wanted to force you, but I also know that if I didn't force you, you wouldn't be willing to come to any of us princes." So now, I want to make a bet with you. ”

"Bet? What to bet on? ”

"If I can't survive today, it will naturally be like a lamp going out, what happens in this world, how Jiangnan is, and even how you are, I can no longer see and care about it."

“……”

"If I can survive, Qingying," he grabbed my wrist with a little more force, "will you marry me?" ”

My eyes widened as if a thunderclap had exploded overhead, shaking me out of control.

What did he say?

He wants me, marry him?!

No, no!

I subconsciously wanted to shake my head, but the pair of eyes, although his whole body was cold from blood loss, his eyes were so hot that they seemed to be burning with flames.

For a while, all the words of refusal were choked in my throat, and the movement of wanting to shake my head froze.

I...... I can't bear it.

Because I know, those eyes have been watching me, and he has not given up for more than ten years, even when I married a wife, lost my memory, completely forgot about him, and maybe even hurt him because of my amnesia, he never gave up.

With such persistence, how can I bear to refuse?

What's more, he is my daughter's lifesaver after all!

However, I know better that I can't agree to marry him because of these things!

I was silent for a long time, and then said softly, "But I, I—"

"I know," he snatched my head from the side, "you don't want to be sorry for me." ”

“……”

"You don't want to enjoy the privileges I have given you, and cheat on me after I've loved you for so long."

“……”

"Because—you don't love me."

Although he was very calm when he said this, I could clearly see that the cold light on his chest shook violently a few times, and his breathing became short, and his brows tightened, as if he was enduring great pain.

Seeing him like this, my heart seemed to be pierced by a red-hot needle, bringing a burst of pain that almost suffocated.

and guilt.

Yes, no matter how much he loves me, how many years of bitter lovesickness he has endured for me, no matter how much he rescued Li'er and how many hardships he went through to raise him, but after all, I don't love him, my feelings can't promise me to marry someone I don't love at all, and reason can't allow me to repay my kindness with my own marriage.

So, destined to let him down.

At this moment, I even hated myself a little, why didn't I fall in love with him, why did I stick to those principles, why couldn't I lie to him and marry him? Even if he promised to avoid these pains when he was in Jiangnan, even now, it would be a benign deception to promise him!

But, no matter how much I blame myself, I still can't say those words.

I thanked him for saving him and was touched by his affection over the years, but as he knew - I didn't love him.

I have no choice but to promise to marry someone I don't love at all, no matter how kind he is to me, even if he loves me again.

Seeing that I was almost biting the tip of my tongue in pain, he smiled softly, reached out and carefully pinched my chin, making me loosen my teeth, and couldn't help but meet those crooked, gentle smile eyes.

"Qingying, don't be like this, I never blamed you."

“……”

"People's feelings can't deceive themselves, and maybe they can't deceive others. Even if you really lie to me, I can feel it, and Yue Qingying, whom I fell in love, is not a woman who will deceive those who love her. ”

“……”

"I just wanted to tell you something."

“…… What's up? ”

"I wasn't born to love you."

I was stunned, I didn't know what he meant by this, and I didn't open my mouth for a while, when I heard him say calmly: "No one is born in love with someone, or should fall in love with someone; Love must be accumulated day by day, little by little, and slowly become a promise of life and death, and it cannot be a look and a smile that can be achieved overnight. ”

“……”

"Even if you really fall in love because of a look and a smile, it is a seedling to grow, that kind of love is not stable in the first place, if the other party is not worth it, then the next few days love will be day by day, little by little, subsided, until the heart is cold, until you don't love."

“……”

"I think that love is alive, like a seed, if you give it the land, water it, let it bask in the sun, it will grow. Because you are willing to allow yourself to love someone, you will be willing to feed this seed. ”

“……”

"The seed that belongs to you, I have fed and raised; But the one that belongs to me, maybe you still keep it, because you feed other people's seeds, you don't need it. ”

“……”

"Qingying, I don't ask you if you will fall in love with me, I ask you, would you like to take out the seed that belongs to me and raise it well?"

“……”

"Qingying, would you like to try to fall in love with me?"

At this point, I was speechless.

It's shocking, it's moving, I didn't expect him to have such a thorough view of love, and so open-minded, he saw through the human feelings from nothing, from there to nothing, and can accept all of them, he doesn't even ask for a relationship, just a chance.

Would you like to try to fall in love with him?

Can I fall in love with him?

Just when my heart was struggling and my heart was in a mess, there was a sudden noise outside, as if someone was hurrying here.

As soon as I turned around, I saw the door being pushed open and a tall figure appeared in the doorway.

The candle flame in the room flickered wildly by the sudden gust of wind that came in from the opening of the door, and shone on the dark face and the darkness of the eyes, and also illuminated the anxiety and panic in the eyes, and he immediately tightened his brow at the sight of the scene on the bed.

I had already stood up: "Yao Lao! ”

The person who came was Pei Yuanxiu's father, Yao Lao.

Those who went to invite him moved quickly, and it was indeed because the current situation was critical, in case Pei Yuanxiu had any accident, these people were afraid that they would not be able to escape the fate of being killed, and as soon as Yao Lao appeared, it also made me feel a little relieved, and said with a sigh of relief: "You are finally here." ”

Yao Lao's medical skills, when he was detoxifying me, he had already seen it, such a wonderful hand appeared, Pei Yuanxiu should be able to escape this catastrophe!

Without saying a word, he hurried in.

As soon as he approached the bed, the little cold light on Pei Yuanxiu's chest immediately pierced his eyes, Yao Lao squinted his eyes slightly, then immediately turned around and put a wooden box on his back on the table.

He first picked up a vial, poured out three crimson pills from it, and handed them directly to Pei Yuanxiu's mouth: "Eat it." ”

Pei Yuanxiu opened his mouth and immediately swallowed the pill.

After taking the pill, Yao Lao stopped talking, just looked at him, I stood at the head of the bed, and I didn't know what I should do for a while, but I knew very well that the last thing I should do at this time was to ask questions, because I was absolutely unable to help, so I just watched, and after a while, I saw that Pei Yuanxiu's face was getting paler and paler, and his lips had turned white into a piece of paper, reflecting the blood donation at the corner of his mouth, which looked particularly scary.

At this time, Yao Lao picked up a pair of scissors from the medicine box, and as soon as he turned around and saw me, he said, "You go out first and close the door." ”

I nodded, hurriedly walked out, and when I turned around and closed the door, I saw Pei Yuanxiu still lying on the bed, those eyes stubbornly looking at me, I gritted my teeth, and closed the door first.

In the courtyard, it was already pitch black.

The attendants stood in every corner, all of them frightened, and when they saw me come out, they all looked at me in horror but expectation, as if they wanted to ask, but they did not dare to ask.

I only said lightly: "Wearing guilt and making meritorious service is what you are doing now." ”

As soon as these words came out, they all nodded, and no longer looked at me, but looked around cautiously.

I slowly walked to the middle of the courtyard.

Although most of the night has passed, the smell of gunsmoke and sulfur that has dispersed in the courtyard has not yet dissipated, and faintly, there is still the laughter and excitement just now, but in a blink of an eye, everything has changed.

It turns out that things are so impermanent.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but look back at the back of the house, the dark mountain forest.

Who is the person who hurt Pei Yuanxiu?

It's something I can't figure out. Pei Yuanhao? It's not like what he does, and if it really were, I wouldn't be able to stay here; Yan Qingchen? He didn't dare, at least he couldn't have had someone assassinate me when I was so close to Pei Yuanxiu, in other words, he didn't dare to offend me; Shen Xiaokun? He is the most likely, but he has just gained a firm foothold in Jiujiang, and he has the help of Wei Ningyuan, with Wei Ningyuan, this person can grasp the overall situation, he should persuade Shen Xiaokun to focus all his energy on the management of his own forces, and it is impossible to come here to assassinate Pei Yuanxiu.

But if not them, who are they?

Who can lie dormant by my side for so long, just to hit tonight's blow.

This person must know the relationship between me and Pei Yuanxiu very well, so he knows that staying here will one day be able to wait for Pei Yuanxiu to appear; And I also understand why the first time a thief burglarizes, there will be a crossbow to help me, because in these people's plans, I am a bait, if I am injured by the thief, or even killed, they will not be able to wait for Pei Yuanxiu; And the second time, I was robbed by thieves, but they didn't show up, because their purpose was to assassinate Pei Yuanxiu, not to protect me, and they naturally wouldn't follow me to travel, so in that crisis, they weren't there at all, and naturally they couldn't talk about coming to the rescue.

That is to say, these people have a very strong purpose, there is only one, that is, to kill Pei Yuanxiu, tonight's arrow is directly shot at Pei Yuanxiu's heart, people's hearts are dead when they see iron, they must have seen it, and they left immediately, without the slightest drag.

It's just-

Pei Yuanxiu is not dead yet.

Although I don't know why he didn't die immediately when he was hit by an arrow in his heart, I still thanked God anyway.

He's not dead, he's not dead......

He didn't die, but he gave me a problem at the same time.

Willing or not, raise the seed that belongs to him; willing, try to fall in love with him; Would you like to marry him?

How exactly should I answer and what should I do?

Just as I was struggling, a brilliant light shone over Yangzhou City in the distance, illuminating almost half of the sky.

It also illuminated my gloomy eyes.

At this time, I had a bit of a trance to react, it was the New Year.

There will be a fireworks show in Yangzhou City all night, I am afraid that everyone there is cheering, everyone celebrating, it is a sea of joy, but this small courtyard in front of me is full of coldness and sadness, and there is a person, now in my home, life and death are uncertain.

This is really, a few families are happy and a few are sad.

It's been a difficult year......

I sighed and lowered my head slightly, suddenly, the door behind me was opened, and a burst of light spread from the ground, I was startled, and hurriedly turned around, and saw Yao Lao coming out of it, he first closed the door, and then slowly walked in front of me.

I hurriedly asked, "Yao Lao, how is his injury?" ”