"You, in fact, have been doing what Wei Ningyuan said, making Pei Yuanxiu's scabbard, right?"

“……”

I looked at him with some confusion - why, all of a sudden, I was talking about it?

"Then what I want you to do is—"

“……”

"Qingying," his voice grew heavier and hoarse, and seemed to tremble with a hint of fragmentation, "if possible, you must fall in love with him." ”

“……！”

My eyes widened in disbelief.

What did he say?!

He wants me to fall in love with Pei Yuanxiu?

I just felt like my whole mind went blank and I lost consciousness completely for a while. I don't know how long it took before I came back to my senses, I looked at him and smiled lightly: "Huang Ye, why did you suddenly talk about this?" I, I'm already husband and wife with him, raising my eyebrows, my husband and wife, how can I say that I don't-"

He interrupted me: "You must fall in love with him. ”

“……”

At this moment, I only felt that my chest was tight, and the smile that was originally pretending to be relaxed was a little unbearable at this moment. A heavy breath weighed on my heart and his heart, I looked at him for a long time, and finally said softly, "Why? ”

He looked at me calmly: "Do you know where the most knife wounds are in this world?" ”

I shook my head: "I don't know. Where is it? ”

"It's the inside of an ill-fitting scabbard."

“……”

"Scarred."

“……”

"Anywhere we could see a knife cut, it hurt more than anything else."

“……”

"Qingying, I don't know if you're in love with him, and I don't know what it's like for you to marry him now. I'm just going to tell you a fact. ”

“……”

"If you haven't fallen in love with him, if you can't fall in love with him, how you feel right now is just the beginning."

I just felt my heart tremble violently.

This feeling...... Just getting started?

If, I didn't fall in love with him...... What if, I can't fall in love with him......?

It was as if a black hand was tightly gripping my heart, making me almost suffocate at this moment, and the blackening in front of me was bursting with a wave of blackness, and the whistling wind in my ears carried a surging feeling, and after a long time, I realized that it was the sound of blood rushing.

I slowly raised my head to look at Huang Tianba, and asked softly, "Master Huang, why did you suddenly tell me this?" ”

He turned his head to look outside, the wind ruffled his forehead, the hair was entangled in the wind, and it also wrapped around his gaze, but his gaze was always the same firm, and the direction he looked at did not change in the slightest.

"Over the years," he said, "Roche has often said to me that if I wanted to, he and I would be happier than any loving couple in the world." ”

After saying this, he suddenly smiled.

I was stunned for a moment.

The smile was fleeting, so fast that I could barely tell if it was a trance smile or a chilling sneer.

It's just in this smile that I seem to see what he has experienced over the years.

Painful, struggling.

Angry, desperate.

Life turns out to have the best times and the worst times.

At this time, he suddenly turned his head to look at me: "Sometimes I think that in fact, he is right. ”

“……”

"If I want to."

“……”

"Qingying," he suddenly looked at me solemnly, and his expression was so solemn that I couldn't ignore it, and hurriedly sat up straight, and heard him say at a long time: "I have grown up to be in my thirties, and I have responded to every call in Jiangnan, and I have had many brothers in life and death, and I have friends with each other; Ever since I was a child, there have always been many people who have admired me, and I have been, the one I love the most," his throat suddenly choked as he said this, and his voice became more and more hoarse, "but I have never met someone like him who has been so kind to me." ”

"Huang Ye!"

He looked at me with a smile, and the smile was like a light breeze: "He is right, if I want, he and I can live happier than any loving couple in this world." ”

“……”

"If, I do."

I looked at his smile, handsome and eye-catching, people couldn't take their eyes off, but such a smile made me feel a painful tearing feeling.

I choked up and said, "But you don't want to." ”

"Yes."

When he said this, he still had a smile on his face, but that kind of was already covered with frost.

It seems that this kind of frost has frozen his feelings, all these years.

He said word by word: "For eight years, I have tortured him and tortured myself. ”

"Huang Ye."

"So, you know why I'm telling you this."

“……”

He slowly stretched out his hand, that hand, wide and warm, slender fingers with strength and beauty, but now, I can no longer see the original holding the golden dart, a glimpse of the wind as fast as a meteor, he just gently stroked my hair, I seem to be able to feel from the temperature of his palm, he has little emotion left now, little by little, extinguished, melting: "Nowadays, there are not many people I care about, you are one." ”

“……”

"Whatever you do, I want you to succeed. But I hope that you will not suffer as much as I do on the road to success. ”

“……”

"I wish you could be selfish."

“……”

"Torture anyone, don't torture yourself anymore."

“……”

"You're already in pain."

When I heard him say this, I didn't even have time to feel anything in my heart, but the tears had already snapped and dripped down.

I felt a scorching heat on my fingertips, and the little blood stained on it was quickly diluted by tears and slowly dispersed.

And more crystal droplets, drifting down, diluted the blood on my fingertips, and also **** my cheeks, I raised my head and saw that it was starting to rain outside again, and the light rain became a pouring rain after a while, and the rain was blown by the cold wind, messy falling, and also sprinkled on our bodies.

I heard them say before that it is rare to have rain in Wuwei, but it has rained for two days in a row since we came.

Heavenly Father also seems to understand the human heart.

He and I didn't speak again, just sat quietly, listening to the pouring rain around us, and faintly, as if there was thunder rolling through the clouds.

Around, it has become an ocean, and this high pavilion seems to be the last piece of land in the ocean.

But I can't stay here forever.

I don't know how long it took, Huang Tianba raised his head and looked at me.

"Young Baby."

"Huh?"

"Is she okay?"