Again, I asked quietly: "Second uncle, who is my mother?" ”

Zhengjue looked at me calmly, although the candle flame flickered, but his eyes did not flicker at all, and even his voice was as calm as a pool of deep water, and he couldn't hear any waves: "Light, you must have heard that your second uncle received ten fold precepts when he was just shaved. ”

"Yes."

"What is the fourth of the Ten Precepts?"

"The fourth commandment, don't lie."

"Yes, no lies." He smiled calmly and said, "So, the question you asked, the poor monk can't answer. ”

"Why?!"

"Because, about your mother, it is not something that a poor monk can explain."

“……”

I just felt extremely shocked, and I couldn't come back to my senses for a long time.

Enlightenment said that he had taken the tenfold vows, so he could not speak falsely, which means that what he just said is also true!

Regarding my mother's affairs, even he, as a bystander of the same age, a clear person in the red dust, could not see it clearly at all, explain!

It suddenly occurred to me that I seemed to understand something better.

My mother's past, and many of the things that happened between her and my father, were indeed not simple, as I had guessed.

It's just that I don't know when I'm going to figure these things out.

Raising his head and looking at this elder who was close at hand, I couldn't help but feel a little powerless in my heart, I knew that if a great monk like him made a decision, he would not change lightly, then it was almost impossible for me to take out anything from him.

However, it is not necessarily impossible.

I poured myself a cup of tea and took a sip, although the weather was hot now, but such a cold tea slid into my throat, it still made me shiver, Zhengjue immediately noticed it, and said with a smile: "If you are not used to it, the poor monk will go and boil you some hot water." ”

"No!" I hurriedly stopped him, and took the opportunity of him to speak, and said, "Since the second uncle doesn't want to talk about my mother's business, is he willing to talk about his own business?" ”

He raised his gray eyebrows and looked at me, a smile floating in his eyes, "What do you want to know?" ”

"When did the second uncle get married?"

“……”

He may not have imagined that my first question was so direct, almost stinging, and unexpected, the eyes that were still floating with a smile flickered, but I clearly saw that he did not get angry, but at that moment, he lost his mind.

After a moment, Zhengjue said: "Lunar New Year." ”

Year of the Emperor......

I chuckled in my heart, and was thinking about it, it was actually my father who suddenly reacted when he met my mother in Yunchifeng, Xishan: "Second uncle...... Got married before my father? ”

No, he is a concubine, and he is younger than my father, normal family rules, he should not get married earlier than my father.

Zhengjue smiled and shook his head: "It's not earlier than him." ”

"Huh?"

"Our two brothers are married in the church together."

"What?!"

I was stunned - they were married together? But—

"But, at that time, my mother-"

"At that time, your mother was not your father's bride," he said calmly: "The bride at that time was the second lady of the Xue family." ”

“……！”

My eyes widened in surprise: "You mean that my father, who once married Xue, married his fiancée?" ”

Zhengjue's face darkened slightly, and after thinking for a moment, he said slowly: "Originally, I should have married." At that time, my father wanted to be happy, so we let the two brothers go to church together and get married, and the wedding date was set without consulting with the elder brother. But the elder brother hurried back from Xishan, but he refused to visit the church. ”

I only felt as if my head had been hit hard again, and I couldn't come back to my senses for a long time, and said, "Father, he left Miss Xue Er in the Xitang?" ”

"......" may be because he doesn't want to speak ill of him, Zhengjue paused again and nodded silently.

I subconsciously wanted to ask why, but as soon as the words came to my mouth, I stopped and changed it to: "When is your wedding date?" ”

"The ninth day of September."

“……”

I frowned.

On the ninth day of the ninth month, that is, three days after his father met his mother in Yunchifeng, Xishan, he rushed back to Chengdu and refused the family business.

It only takes three days, and it takes about three days to rush back to Chengdu from Xishan.

I can hardly imagine what he was like.

On the wedding hall, the bride dressed in red was left behind, and then, the shadow of Yun Chifeng was torn apart.

But over the years, Xue Qian has only love for him and hatred for his mother.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile bitterly.

As a child, you can't discuss the fault of your parents, but in people's hearts, how can you not have that fair scale to measure right and wrong?

It seemed that I felt a faint anger in my heart, and Zhengjue looked at me for a while, and suddenly said: "I have experienced 108,000 eons, and all I know is an illusion. Lightness, you know? ”

I nodded.

"Since my brother is Miss Xue's second calamity, Miss Xue Er's calamity should be here, and after this fate, she will test this certificate to get the world of Supo, and the treasure is solemn."

"Second Uncle thinks, what Mrs. Yan is getting now is the world?"

"Peace of mind is the spiritual mountain. Everyone has their own Shura field, and naturally, everyone has their own world. ”

Everyone has his own Shura field, and everyone has his own world.

I don't know why, this sentence is obviously very light, but when I hear it in my ears, it seems to be thunderous, which shocked me a little for a while.

Old Mrs. Yan's love and hatred, I have seen it before, but I am actually thousands of miles away, and I may not be able to really see and hear it.

And my own ups and downs are by no means explained by other people's words.

It dawned on me.

It is no wonder that the fourth of the tenfold precepts is "not to lie."

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile indifferently, and when I raised my head to look at the pure and waveless eyes of the enlightened monk, I suddenly thought of something, and said softly: "Then - whose calamity is the second uncle?" ”

When I ask this, it's actually a bit offensive.

For a monk who has been a monk for many years, perhaps there is no difference to him when he is a monk, as he said, his heart is at peace in the spiritual mountain, so he does not shy away from calling his father and brother, but to ask him who he is, this is obviously unexpected.

So, he had a moment of apprehension.

After being silent for a while, he said slowly: "Poor monk, it is probably the catastrophe of Ah Xian's life." ”

Ah Xian......?

I was almost stunned for a moment before I remembered that this seemed to be the name of his wife, my second aunt.

Ah Xian.

No wonder I don't have any impression of this elder, because she passed away before I can remember. And the second uncle became a monk, so naturally no one would talk about his wife when he was alive.

Although, I suddenly want to know now, what kind of woman is that, with such a demure name, after marrying into the Yan family, there is almost no trace of zài.

I asked softly, "Second aunt, what kind of person is she?" ”

Zhengjue said lightly: "She is a raccoon girl. ”

Raccoon Girl?

"She works in a dyeing workshop that dyes a very special kind of red yarn. That kind of red - the Shu people called it 'soft rouge'. ”

Rouge? What a beautiful name.

I almost had such a picture in my mind, in the clear river water, a soft light veil as if rouge had fallen into the water and gradually dissolved, being gently brushed by a white jade-like hand. The yarn seemed to have life, and every wave, every ripple, flowed with the soft fingertips.

I subconsciously sighed.

But Zhengjue, who was sitting across from me, was only faint from beginning to end, as if the night breeze was cool, and gently pulled away the monk's robe.

Even his face showed a hint of tiredness.

I also knew that I shouldn't continue to bother, but when I thought about it, I found that he was playing meditation with me tonight, and I was a little unwilling, thought about it, gritted my teeth and said, "I still have a question I want to ask Second Uncle." ”

"What?"

I looked into his eyes and said solemnly: "Back then, did my father bring a batch of foreign goods into Sichuan from overseas?" That thing is called Franc-"

Before I could finish my sentence, I suddenly saw his eyes change.

He stared at me with wide eyes, as if he had suddenly seen something fierce, and that frightened look made my heart palpitate at once, but before I could say anything, I heard him interrupt and say, "Stop! ”

“……”

I was startled and stunned.

I never imagined that the moment Zhengjue heard this, his attitude changed drastically, and he could almost control himself.

For a moment, my voice was choked in my throat.

The flames kept fluttering in my eyes and his, as if everyone was in their minds at this moment, and I could clearly feel the fright and shock he was underway.

"Second uncle, you-you know?"

His eyes were a little red, he glared at me almost hard, his chest rose and fell sharply, he was silent for a while, he spoke, his voice was so low that it was almost inaudible, but the words fell on my heart: "Light, do you know the purpose of Confucius's deletion of the Six Classics?" ”

I don't know why he suddenly said this again, but I quickly replied: "Righteous people's hearts, keep heavenly principles, and eliminate human desires." ”

"Yes, go to human desire!"

He gasped again, his face turned slightly pale, and said: "In this world, how many things that violate the conscience of heaven, Confucius omitted it, because he is afraid that people will be more lawful. ”

“……”

He raised his head and looked at me, and said word by word: "This is true of personnel, and so is the utensils!" ”

“……”

"Don't mention this again!"

My heart chuckled.

What he meant was that if the artifacts were still there, they might ......

At this time, Zhengjue had already waved his hand: "It's late at night, you go back." ”

I only felt a sudden throbbing pain in my chest, as if something was surging and almost bursting my body, and my mind was surging with a tide, but I was so numb that I couldn't think of anything.

Zhengjue had already gotten up and slowly walked towards the stone bed.

His steps even stumbled a little.

I also know that he won't speak again tonight, and what he said before was enough to keep me up at night.

When I got up, the person also staggered a little, and stood on the edge of the table for a while, before slowly walking over and opening the door, a gust of night wind swept the cool suddenly, the courtyard was quiet, a darkness, only the surrounding gray wall stood silently, I don't know why, I was shocked to see it.

I suddenly turned around and watched Zhengjue sit down slowly on the edge of the bed, his pale face even darker in the flickering candlelight.

I suddenly said: "Second uncle, you said that there is no life without regrets, who do you regret in your life?" ”

“……”

He didn't say a word, just sat there with his head bowed.

The wind had blown through my clothes, obviously it was only slightly cold, but it made me feel a chill to the bone, and I said slowly: "Is it Qinghan?" ”