This night, Xiao Yan sat in his study all night.

This is the study room prepared by Shen Qingyi for her, the same as the bedroom where she lives, it is arranged according to the Qingning Courtyard, but the furniture in the study is replaced with the same pine and cypress wood as her bedroom. Because the study room in Qingning Courtyard belongs to his mother, and it is made of agarwood, although his mother has left and will not come back, Xiao Yan still regards it as his mother's study, and has not changed in the slightest. This study is Shen Qingyi for her arrangement, if it is arranged by her mother, she must also choose pine and cypress, her mother said, "A gentleman is like a pine and a cypress, and the wind and frost are not withered", this is to make her tenacious, face the difficulties of life, do not retreat, do not avoid, do not hide, face the wind and frost, will be more strong, evergreen and depressed.

Xiao Yan thought of her mother, she couldn't help but be happy and sad, but she also strengthened her belief that no matter what kind of life she had, she would face it head-on, not retreating or avoiding, including feelings.

Her hand firmly took out the rosewood letter box from the low cabinet next to the bookcase.

The red sandalwood was heavy and thick, and Xiao Yan only felt a thousand pounds in his hand.

It is not the red sandalwood that is heavy, but the heavy affection inside.

But Xiao Yan didn't open it immediately, but solemnly put it into his own line.

Tomorrow she will be gone.

Before the state of mind is not stable, I can't and dare not look at these lovesickness.

She got up and walked slowly in the study, the room was very clean, spotless, and there was no smell of emptiness that had not lived for a long time, and her sister must have come here often. She walked slowly, touched the coffee table, looked at the flower stand, touched the bookshelf, and lay down on the couch with a soft mat for a while, the faint fresh wood fragrance stretched her heart. Lying here, she didn't feel strange at all, the qiē in the room was familiar to her, the shape of several racks, the style of the vase, the direction of the bookcase and bookshelves, and the details of the placement of the musical instrument mallet and the pen inkstone washing tube, all the same. She knew that Shen Qingyi's observation was keen and her memory was also very good, just a glance, and she remembered all the details, it was not surprising that Shen Qingyi remembered this, but it was difficult not to be touched with such intentions, not to mention, her heart was already unstable.

Xiao Yan suddenly turned over, stretched out his hand and touched under the study. When she was a child, she was always frustrated that her mother was not eager to treat her, so that her enthusiasm had nowhere to express, so when her mother was not in the study, she quietly carved the word "Wu Nian" under the study couch where her mother liked to rest. She remembered that when she was talking and laughing, she told Shen Qingyi a lot of naughty things when she was a child, if it was exactly the same...... Her fingers had already touched the notch under the bed, and there was only one word: read.

There is only thought, not nothing.

Xiao Yan was stunned for a moment, lay on the couch, and laughed in a low voice, but his eyes were against the pillow, a little sour.

Reading is a name, and it is also reading.

Chao Si Si, Nian Zi is in Zi.

……

After thinking about it in the study all night, it was not until dawn that she calmed down, crossed her knees into meditation, and changed into a short brown as usual to practice boxing in the court, and it was estimated that Shen Qingyi would go to the bath room to bathe and change clothes when she was about to get up. The two had breakfast together, and while walking in the peach and plum forest, Xiao Yan said, "Sister, I am going to the Pure Yang Residence today to meet Master Daoyangzi. Well, it may be a while. ”

Shen Qingyi's expression froze, "How long?" ”

Xiao Yan thought for a while, "Maybe a few days, maybe a month or two, I can't say." ”

Who knows how long it will take her to comprehend the realm of lust?

Shen Qingyi looked at her silently.

Xiao Yan's heart softened, and he was a little scorching, and said, "When I think about it, I'll come back." ”

I'll come back when I'm done...... It's coming back, not coming.

Shen Qingyi's eyes were shining, staring at Xiao Yan and a little blazing.

These words revealed Xiao Yan's own intentions that he might not be aware of.

Shen Qingyi's heart was pounding, and the sound was so intense that Xiao Yan couldn't have heard it.

Her eyes couldn't help but glance down at Shen Qingyi's chest, and she turned her eyes a little uncomfortably, only to feel that her heart was also a little urgent, and she immediately restrained her mind to calm it down.

"Ah Yan! ......" Shen Qingyi's affection was uncontrollable for a while, and he couldn't help but want to hug her, but he restrained himself when his fingers were on her shoulders, took half a step back, raised his eyes to look at her, his eyes contained thousands of affections, and said softly, "I'll wait for you to come back." ”

"Hmm." Xiao Yan responded, only to feel a feeling of reluctance in his heart, this reluctance is a little different from the reluctance when he was separated before, and there are some different feelings in it, as if his heart is entangled with silk, and there is a feeling of constant involvement.

But after all, she had to leave, Xiao Yan returned to the courtyard, took the Xingzheng and said goodbye to Shen Qingyi, and resolutely stopped her from sending her to the bottom of the mountain after sending out the medicine hall, and only went out of Shennong Peak under the guidance of Songyin. When she arrived at the foot of Shennong Peak, she stopped again, glanced back at the mountain, resolutely turned around, and went to Tianmu Mountain.

Songyin led her to the foot of Shouyang Peak, the easternmost part of Tianmu Mountain, and passed it up, and soon a young Taoist priest came down the mountain and made a mockery to Xiao Yan, saying that he was ordered by Lu Daojun to pick her up.

Xiao Yan looked back and asked Songyin to return to the Medicine Palace, thought about it, and then advised: "Let your Taoist master be more quiet." "Think less, think less.

Songyin left respectfully, and after returning to the Yuan Court, he relayed the original words word for word.

Shen Qingyi sighed slightly after hearing this, a slight smile was condensed on his lips, but his eyes were already full of longing.

How can people not miss, only when she turns around, the thoughts are already like a tide.

She stood there, looking at the north with a stupid expression, Songyin and Bai Su glanced at each other, and understood in their hearts, so they retreated silently.

……

Xiao Yan followed the young Taoist priest to the east of Shouyang Peak, entered a secluded bamboo sea, crossed the bamboo sea and then crossed the green forest into a mountain valley, along the narrow upward □□ north, out of the valley mouth, suddenly opened, then saw a alpine meadow wind surging green waves, flowers like stars, upward is the top of the mountain, the rocks are varied, rippling around the blue waves, such as a large piece of jade embedded in it. The lake is a large garden-like courtyard, and a long trestle bridge stretches into the lake, and Michiyoko is sitting leisurely on the trestle and fishing.

The Taoist priest led her in, took a horse from the garden and gave her a look, "Please please", and went to the garden to make tea. Xiao Yan was stunned, took the horse and went up to the trestle, stopped when he was a foot away from Daoyangzi, put down the horse, saluted respectfully, and said softly: "Xiao Wunian greets Master Daoyangzi." ”

Daoyangzi only returned his hand and beckoned to her, Xiao Yan took the horse and went over, Daoyangzi patted the position beside him, and Xiao Yan sat side by side with this congenital at a distance of three feet. Daoyangzi casually handed her a fishing rod, Xiao Yan saw that the fishing rod was hanging but not hooking, his eyes blinked, how to fish? Do you take the bait if you want to learn from Jiang Taigong?

Dao Yangzi turned his face and smiled at her, the sun shining on his handsome and dashing face added to his brilliance, this smile was more dazzling like bright gold, but Xiao Yanduan's face didn't blink his eyes. Dao Yangzi laughed out loud and said, "You are determined, but you are not determined." ”

Xiao Yan was solemn, "Please also ask the master for advice." ”

Daoyangzi waved his hand lazily, "Enter my Dao Gate, don't call me master." Reminds me of those bald, goose rice tofu, and I'm not happy. Xiao Yan couldn't help but want to laugh, "master" is the honorific title of the Taoist congenital and high Dao, and later Buddhism entered the Central Plains, and the Taoist monks were also called masters, it is said that the masters on both sides are very wrong, and Master Daoyangzi is one of them.

"Like those juniors, just call me Daojun."

"Yes, Daojun."

Xiao Yan hung his fishing rod and caught a fish seriously.

Of course, the fish will not take the bait, not to mention that there is no hook, but there are curious fish who occasionally bite the hanging wire, Xiao Yan does not move with the fishing rod, and sits there as if a clay sculpture wood carving.

Since Daojun asked her to "fish", there must be a deep meaning.

Daoyangzi has left, Xiao Yan is still sitting by the lake, sitting from morning to afternoon, from afternoon to sunset, night □□, the stars are bright; and sat until the rising sun of the second day, and then into the evening; And then another day.

On the fifth day, Daoyangzi waved his big sleeves and came over with clogs, leaning on the wooden railing of the trestle casually, and said, "Why are you still sitting here, this child?" If you are asked to fish, why do you keep fishing? The fish in this lake are fine, and they are not stupid, how can they catch without bait? Ouch, you kid, you look pretty smart. ”

Xiao Yan took the fishing rod, put it aside, stood up calmly, saluted him calmly, and said, "Wu Nian is here to meditate as Daojun instructed." ”

Daoyangzi laughed and walked out with his hands behind his back, "Then have you calmed down?" ”

Xiao Yan followed slowly and said honestly: "There is a thought in my heart, my heart is calm, and I can't make a decision." ”

Her floating heart has calmed down in the five days of motionless fishing, but there is a thought in her heart, and her state of mind still cannot return to the previous clarity and transparency, as if it is covered with a layer of mist, and if she does not pull out the clouds, her state of mind will not be able to return to clarity.

Dao Yangzi flipped his hand and threw an object backwards.

Xiao Yan reached out to catch it.

It was slippery and almost impossible to hold, but when I looked at it, it was a red, clear, round, and smooth stone, and the size was just right to grasp.

Daoyangzi said: "This is a stream stone of Wanma Stream, I don't know how many years I have been in the stream, I am washed by the stream every day, spotless, clean. When I came back from the stream, I still had some edges and corners, and when I had something in my heart, I took it in my hand and grinded it, and gradually it became this round stone. It's still clean and spotless, but it's clearer than the original color. The further you go into this stone, the purer the color becomes. ”

Xiao Yan looked at the stone in his hand and was distracted.

So...... The heart is like a stone.

Her heart was originally quiet, but this is not enough, just like this stream stone, it seems to be clean and spotless, but there are always impurities, only the more it is rubbed in, the purer and purer the color is.

Therefore, her heart is not to restore the original clarity, but to make her heart "like a cut, like a study", to learn and ponder clearly, to think through the thoughts in her heart, and her state of mind is naturally stable, and pure and pure, to a higher level.

Daoyangzi looked at the red sun hanging on the peak, and said leisurely: "If you have a thought in your heart, you will think about it." Thinkers, the top is the brain, the bottom is the heart, the heart and soul are all involved, can you be quiet? ”

He walked forward with his big sleeves fluttering, and said in a chic and natural manner: "Seven emotions and six desires are human instincts. My generation seeks the Tao, you have to be ruthless and desperatory, the avenue is a kind of attachment, if you are really ruthless and desireless, then what do you want to live forever? What avenue to seek? Human life is no different from grass, trees, and stones. ”

"Yes." Xiao Yan nodded, her pursuit of the Great Dao is to seek the rules of heaven and earth, to explore the mysteries of the Heavenly Dao, if she becomes as emotionless as a stone, can she still be happy in the pursuit of the Great Dao?

The pursuit of the original is a kind of desire.

"There are seven emotions and six desires in life, love starts from the heart, and desire starts from the body." Doyoko said, "Love is a kind of affection, and it is also a kind of desire. Therefore, among the seven emotions and six desires, only 'love' is the saddest. To love together is to draw the ground as a prison and trap your heart in the field. If Tian does not come out, how can he be free? ”

Loving together is to draw the ground as a prison...... Xiao Yan frowned, Daojun is against love?

After thinking about it for a while, he shook his head slightly, "My generation seeks the Tao, and I have to be ruthless and despairing", Daojun is not against being affectionate.

She muttered and repeated, "If you don't get ahead, how can you be free." ”

Heartfield......

What does this mean?

Xiao Yan fell into confusion.