Chapter 151: If you can't help him, you can live the rest of your life with your guilt

The climate outside was cold and dry, and the cold wind was whistling with flakes of snow, but the house was as warm as a spring in March.

Shi Xin leaned lazily on the bed, she was seven months pregnant, her body was bloated, and her complexion was fine, but for some reason, her eyes were covered with a layer of depression.

The newspapers on the bedside table were scattered, all of which were some current news, these were all the spices in her almost isolated cultivation life for a while, but she couldn't control herself from reading the information about the Zheng family over and over again.

This time was no exception.

In fact, for a while, it has been calm and waveless, almost nothing major has happened, the anniversary reception, Mu Yifei bloomed for the second time, and got very close to a foreigner designer, and VV's jewelry company is going well, as for Zheng Weixi, except for a few times at the entertainment to see his unknown shadow, it is almost silent.

He's such a person, shouldn't he be so bland, right?

When the phone rang, she came to her senses, got up, carefully got out of bed, and picked up the microphone at the table.

On the other end of the phone, it was Xiao Gu, an obstetrician and gynecologist she was familiar with: "My heart is cold, I asked you about the things I asked me to ask, and the situation is not very good." Excellent"

She was stunned, what does it mean that the situation is not very good?

"I also know the attending doctor of the internal medicine department of the S hospital, and he said that the slices came out and belonged to the cancer vesicles. ”

Shi Xinliang felt that his head was almost sitting on the ground, holding on to the corner of the table dangerously, so as to control the balance of his body, but because of nervousness, he couldn't even say a word.

No wonder, he's rarely been here lately.

No wonder, every time I see him, I don't look good.

It's no wonder that he often takes those painkillers.

She had imagined that he was sick, and that he should still be very sick, but she never imagined that it would be such a disease.

She doesn't understand medical science, but she is very sensitive to this word, cancer, what a terrible word, she is terrified to hear it.

He is such a good person, and he is still so young, how can he get such a disease?

"The heart is cold, don't be nervous, this is not good for the child, and I told you, his condition is not very serious, and his physical function is good, and he will be fine with the treatment, and he should be able to recover soon." ”

On the other end of the phone, Shi Xinliang couldn't listen to Dr. Gu's words: "You give me the address, I'll go over, I want to ask the doctor in person why this happened, it must be a mistake." ”

"How can this be, the weather is so bad today, let's go another day, I have time to accompany you. Dr. Gu is a warm-hearted person who is familiar with her physical condition, and of course she is against it.

"Then I'll go over to you now, can you take a leave of absence, okay?" Shi Xinliang was stubborn.

At this time, the doorbell rang.

There should be no second person who will come to her, except for Qin Kainan.

Her heart was beating faster, and she spoke into the other end of the phone: "Okay, I'm not going to go today, and I'll make an appointment another day when the weather is better." ”

Slowly lowering the microphone, barely had the strength to walk to the door and open it.

Qin Kainan came in with a cold air, still with a gentle smile on his face: "My heart is cold, it's okay today, I brought some ingredients here, and I'll make a fool of you at noon."

He didn't notice her strange appearance, and directly brought in the large bags of ingredients.

Today, the nanny has something to take a vacation, and she didn't worry about being alone, so she took the time to come.

Shi Xinliang followed him with snail-like steps: "Actually, I'll just order takeout."

"Takeout is not nutritious, how can you do it without eating something big with three mouths alone?"

Qin Kainan took off his coat and hung it up, poured himself a glass of boiling water, put it in his hand to warm it, and looked at her at the same time: "What's wrong, your complexion is not very good?"

"No, I just fell asleep, and the doorbell for you was noisy, and I was a little sleepy" squeezed out a smile, Shi Xin said coldly.

"Oh, I'm still sleeping so late, have you eaten breakfast?"

"Ate and eaten, ate a lot"

"Ham omelette?" Qin Kainan looked at her with a smile.

"How do you know?"

"You can't make anything else but that. ”

Shi Xin smiled coldly, yes, when she used to eat alone, most of them were instant noodles, but now that she has a child, she can't eat that kind of junk food anymore, so she has to change her method, ham and omelette are simple and trouble-free, and they have become her favorite.

But even so, she didn't have a few chances to eat, because Qin Kainan found her a nanny, unless there was something special, three meals a day were arranged sumptuously.

But today, she didn't actually eat this, and only ate a bag of sausages in the morning.

It was still early before lunch time, and the two of them sat on the sofa, one drinking water, and the other casually sipping sunflower seeds, chatting a few words from time to time.

"The child is seven months old, look at your belly, it's as big as a ball" Qin Kainan laughed and teased her.

"Yes, this month, there is no danger, even if it is born prematurely, the child should be fine, so I don't have to continue to be afraid. Shi Xinliang swallowed melon seeds, in a casual tone, she rarely ate this kind of thing before, it was time-consuming and laborious, and now she is uncomfortable every day, but she loves this snack, so she often prepares it at home.

"What are you saying, of course the child is healthy at full term, and your brain is in water, and you say these headless words. ”

Qin Kainan counted her, like a junior of his own.

Shi Xinliang was silent for a while, and buried his head low: "That, your stomach disease is still not good, it is better to find an authoritative hospital to take a look, don't delay." ”

She avoided talking about this topic, but when she faced him, she couldn't control her mouth, especially when she looked at his thin face, her heart suddenly ached, and her eyes were a little astringent, but she didn't dare to let the tears flow out.

"I'm fine, minor illness. ”

Qin Kainan finally sensed her strangeness and stared at her face.

He didn't say a word to her, except for the regular inspection, she never even came out of the door, he wasn't sure if she really knew anything? After all, here, she had no friends, and because of her physical condition, she was unable to move, and she almost lived a life of isolation, what would she know, and through what channel?

But if she doesn't know, looking at her reaction now, why is it so abnormal?

"But I see you've lost weight lately. "The voice is low.

"I've lost weight, I don't think I'm doing it myself, I measured my weight yesterday, and it's the same as before."

She didn't say anything more, and he didn't continue to dwell on the question, drinking the boiled water in the cup in silence.

"I'll go to the bathroom. ”

For a long time, Shi Xinliang couldn't stand this silent atmosphere and made an excuse to leave.

In the bathroom across the door, the sound of rushing water continued.

Qin Kainan frowned, looking at the door, distracted.

In fact, he only knew his test results, stomach cancer, which he did not expect, and always thought that it was just a small stomach disease.

The doctor's advice is to do surgery, because it is detected early, there should be no danger, and there is a high possibility of cure.

This is a small county town that is not very advanced, if he wants to have surgery, he naturally has to choose another hospital, or go abroad, there is a world-class senior internal medicine expert he knows, if he is allowed to do this operation, the success rate will be higher, then he can only leave for a while, but the current situation of the cold heart is really reassuring.

Originally, he wanted to hide it from her, at least not to let her know until she gave birth, but now it seems that he can't hide it.

He smiled wryly, what was she doing in the bathroom so loud for so long, was she crying?

If he is in danger this time, perhaps, he will be able to influence her one day.

However, it is too early to say anything, who knows for sure what the future holds, everything is just unknown.

......

Zi Xiao is like sitting on pins and needles.

Looking at the familiar man on the screen, listening to the announcer's righteous report, it was as if someone had stabbed her in the heart, and it hurt so much that she couldn't breathe.

Now Cheng Gefan, with handcuffs on his hands, anklets on his feet, and a prison uniform, is being taken away from the courtroom, he is still holding his head high, and there is still that playful smile in his eyes, as if he has no focus, and he seems to be looking at her outside the screen.

She used to disdain that kind of look, but now, she felt that it was so ironic.

She turned off the remote control of the TV out of control, then quickly got up, put on her coat haphazardly, and rushed out of the house.

But when she arrived at Zheng Weixi's company, she had a closed door, and the front desk lady told her that Mr. Zheng was not there.

She didn't believe it at first, but after thinking about it, it's not surprising that today is the day of Cheng Gefan's trial, he should go to observe, and he may still be on his way back now.

She broadcast his phone, no one answered, there was no way, she just stood outside the company and waited.

I thought that if Zheng Weixi was on the way back from the court, it should not take long to come back, but she waited for an hour, but the person did not come back, and after waiting for another hour, the person still did not see the shadow, she continued to wait, ignoring her already frozen and numb feet, regardless of the biting chill on her body.

On the street, people come and go, and another New Year is approaching, she looked at their elation, and suddenly had an urge to cry, so she really cried, tears fell like broken beads, I don't know if it was for herself, or for Wei'an, or for her sister who slept in another world, or for this man she hated for so long, used for so long, and ignored for so long?

"Yo, isn't it, Mrs. Cheng. The female voice sounded familiar and abruptly, and behind her, there was a pungent smell of perfume.

She ignored it, because of the arrival of this person, she wanted to leave, but a pair of feet were so numb that she didn't listen to the call, and it was extremely difficult to take two steps.

The person behind him walked directly in front of her with high heels: " Mrs. Cheng, who are you looking for, are you crying, what are you crying about, that person is just your ex-husband, you have been married for so long, and I haven't seen you look at him squarely, why is he in a lawsuit because of you, he is in prison, your conscience has been discovered, you want to turn back, but it's too late, Wei Xi can't help him, you just live your life with your guilt, we feel disgusted when we see you, it's better not to appear in front of us again. ”

Mu Yifei, who has not been seen for a long time, is becoming more and more radiant, not at all like an old woman fifty miles away, with jewels and exquisite makeup.

Zi Xiao looked at her coldly, as if she was stunned with her gaze.

She hated her, no doubt.

"If you want to continue to wait for Wei Xi to come back, I won't object, but I want to remind you that Wei Xi didn't go to the trial at all, he should have found a place to drink. Men, it's like this, I like to use alcohol to kill my sorrows, but with Wei Wei by his side, I don't worry about me persuading you to leave, if there is anything to talk about another day, but if it is Cheng Gefan's business, I advise you to forget it, he can't help. Mu Yifei smiled, but he smiled with a deep meaning.

"That's the case, then I'll go back, originally I didn't come to help Cheng Gefan, but I just wanted Mr. Zheng to let me meet him, husband and wife, I don't want to get away with it as if nothing happened, I didn't think about it at all, Skynet is restored, and if you do bad things, you have to pay the price, no one can get away with it, it's just a matter of time, isn't it, Mrs. Mu?"

After Zixiao said this, she turned around and left......

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