Shao Chengzhi laughed straight away, but after laughing, his expression was a little lonely.

Ling Ran frowned slightly, thinking, "That night, were you impulsive?"

"Do you mean, sexuality? There must be, I was 22 years old at the time, and I went to Tsinghua West Gate to watch the video outside the West Gate of Tsinghua University. However, the biggest impulse is emotional, I know she likes me, I know she longs for me, and I, too, like her."

That is, your feelings, your physical desires, are supporting your home run, but you are holding back. Why, what are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid of disappointing her for life. Shao Chengzhi replied immediately, after a pause for a second, " At that time, I only had a graduate allowance of 450 yuan a month, enough to eat, but the odd expenses of life were very tight, in order to go home for the New Year, I had no money to buy a thick coat, in winter, I hunched my back and shrunk my neck, I could not go out without going out, I don't know if I went abroad smoothly, applying for schools, what direction to study, scholarships, visas, everything is too variable; I don't know what kind of situation I have to face after I arrive in the United States, whether I can find a job, whether I can get a high salary, whether I can apply for a green card, as long as there is a problem in this link, I can't give her a superior life, and she, she could have lived a very nourishing life in the small town, by the side of her parents。 I was afraid to promise her, because I was afraid that I would not be able to keep my promise. ”

Ling Ran groaned: "It should be said that at that time, you were studying for a master's degree at Tsinghua University, the hottest major, and the first undergraduate grade, although you plan to study abroad, although you don't know which school to go to, but there is no suspense about the full award of the famous school." Even if you refund 10,000 yuan, your visa will be denied, and you will not be able to go abroad in the end. With the master's degree of Tsinghua University's computer science department, you can find a job in China with a starting salary of 100,000 yuan a year, which is looking for it with your eyes closed, and you can expect a salary increase and promotion in the future. I think you know your own strength better than I do, and you've always been confident, and you're so confident that no one else is there."

Ling Ran suddenly raised his eyes and looked at Shao Chengzhi and smiled, "Tell me, what was the reason for running away from the desert that night?"

Shao Chengzhi was stunned and confused: "I was really afraid that I wouldn't be able to afford that responsibility, I had nothing at the time, and I was afraid that she would follow me all over the world, so I didn't dare to accept it." ”

Ling Ran smiled, half-narrowed her eyes, her eyelashes fanned like a fan, she pouted, and said in a snorting voice: "Then what if, I was the one who undressed with my back to you that night? If it was me, would you take it or not." ”

Shao Chengzhi's face was "brushed" red, his heart was "thumping", and his cavernous body was rapidly congested, so that he didn't speak until he spoke after half a sound: "Well, if it's you, I'll hit a home run." ”

"Why? Aren't you afraid that you can't afford my life? I'm more expensive than your female classmate, and I'm with my parents, and I'm not just nourishing, you have to provide me with a better life. ”

"This one, it's different. Shao Chengzhi said, and couldn't help frowning himself - why is it different?

Sure enough, Ling Ran asked: "Why is it different, is it because I can sleep casually, can I not pay responsibility after sleeping?"

Shao Chengzhi couldn't help laughing: "Oh, that's right, it makes sense"

Shao Chengzhi was silent, thought for a long time, and said slowly: "I don't dare to accept her, because, one, she is a virgin, and our small place still cares about this very much, if I accept her that night, I must marry her, if I don't marry her, it will be very troublesome for her to marry someone else, and I am afraid there will be sequelae." Then I haven't been a loser to her for the rest of my life. I do like her, but we haven't really been in love yet, and I can't make a marriage commitment to her yet, so I can't and don't dare to take this step, and second, I know that she has high expectations for me, and she wants to be with me, and I can give her another life, and it may not be necessary to go abroad or not, but life is definitely completely different from her going back to that town and marrying a man in a small town. I was still a student at the time, and I had been very financially struggling, and I didn't dare to make a commitment to the development in 7-8 years, so I held back; If she had given up such a good job for me, left her hometown, left her parents, and relied on me with all her heart, but was abandoned by me, would I not have flown her kite and cut her ropes? I was afraid, I was afraid that I would not be able to bear her life, so I didn't dare to take that step. ”

Ling Ran smiled: "What about me, why do you dare to do it to me." Is it because I'm not a virgin? ”

Shao Chengzhi smiled: "It has nothing to do with whether a virgin is a virgin or not." If it's with you, then these psychological burdens are completely gone. If I and you, then the sex-relationship is just two people's emotional and physical-physical attraction to each other, we can develop in the direction of marriage, we can not get along, we can face it rationally, and you don't rely on me to change your life, if we can't break up, whoever leaves will have a wonderful life, in this way, I have a relationship with you, I don't need to buy a ticket first, and then get on the boat, but in the end because I am not sure whether the boat can reach the other side, I neither bought a ticket, nor got on the boat. ”

"Why am I so at a loss. Ling Ran muttered, "No, we must change our past." Whoever falls in love with me in the future must first get a license and then go to bed. Refuse to drive without a license. ”

Shao Chengzhi laughed: "Miss, are you sure you want to do this?

Ling Ran's thoughts had already turned back to Shao Chengzhi, and he couldn't help pouting and taunting him: "What don't you want to live up to other people's lives, what don't you want to delay other people's youth, what don't you want to hinder other people's lives, the essence is that you are afraid that your wet hands will get flour and stick to them, and you can't get rid of them." So, I didn't even touch it. ”

Shao Chengzhi stopped laughing and was silent.

Ling Ran hurriedly said: "Hey, in fact, a man like you is good enough, and he will think about the consequences first when doing things." The virtue of Chinese men, we all know that we will never let go of the opportunity to be white, especially virgins, who simply can't wait to put the bloody sheets on the door of their heads. ”

Shao Chengzhi suddenly laughed.

After a while, Shao Chengzhi said slowly: "This matter has always been a knot in my heart, I used to think that it was the pressure of reality that forced me to give up my beloved girl, I was bowing to life in order to preserve her happiness to the greatest extent." You don't know how much regret and depression I have in my heart because of this. Today I realized that, in fact, I didn't like her as much as I thought I would, and I didn't want to make a commitment to her, not for her, but out of protection for myself. It turns out that my feelings are not as great as I thought, with the meaning of self-sacrifice, my renunciation is actually just an instinctive selfishness, in an unstable state, I want to maintain my freedom to the greatest extent, I don't want to be dragged down, I don't want to bear the pressure of responsibility, thank you, help me untie the knot. ”

Ling Ran smiled: "Isn't it easy to stop nailing yourself to the altar?"

"Yes, it's like heaven and earth suddenly opening up. It turns out that I didn't choose her, and it has nothing to do with poverty and incompetence. Shao Chengzhi smiled, "Realizing that you are selfish and admitting your selfishness is more comfortable than complaining about the heavens and blaming the unfairness of fate." ”

Ling Ran secretly pouted in her heart: You are really enough, in order to flaunt your noble character and excellent character, you have deceived yourself, all kinds of pain and melancholy, all kinds of hugging all day long, to put it bluntly, don't you just don't want to get married.

Elite men, all like this, everything else is easy to say, all kinds of thoughtful and elegant, all kinds of tall, just don't get involved with the word marriage, for fear that you will be trapped. Ye Ling repeatedly stated before going to the woman: My dear, I am a man who is not in love or married, baby, we are just a one-night stand, please enjoy the glory of this night (meaning don't expect me to find you again for the second time); This Shao Chengzhi is even more straightforward, because he is afraid of being entangled by a woman, he simply can't even get on it

Thinking of this, Ling Ran suddenly said, "Wait. I'll also ask, what if you hit her home run that night?"

"How could it be. I knew what she wanted from me, I wasn't ready, I didn't know if I could afford it, how could I swallow the bait in one bite like a stupid fish. Shao Chengzhi said immediately.

Ah, bah, you know their virtue.

"That's hard to say, who knows what will happen when a man's lust is impulsive. Ling Ran said deliberately.

"A man's lust and impulse depends on the occasion to see the object, and if the occasion is not right, the target is dangerous, and the man's impulse will be greatly reduced. Shao Chengzhi waved his hand to stop Ling Ran's mouth from opening his mouth to retort, "Anyway, the facts have proved that a man's reason and reason can still control his passion." ”

Ling Ran didn't give up: "Then suppose you hit a home run that night"

"No way. ”

"I said hypothetically, hypothetically you guys that night, then think about it, what happens next?"

Shao Chengzhi stopped laughing, and rubbed his temples with his fingers: "You asked me down, this kind of thing that didn't happen is too difficult to infer according to assumptions, should I build a database and weight all the possibilities Anyway, if it happened that night, then I would definitely be very serious about developing with her and working hard towards marriage, but if we can't get married, my personality is not easy to compromise, then it will be very troublesome and troublesome, and my character is not very good at compromise, and the following process will definitely be very tragic." So, hey, I actually, I couldn't have had a relationship with her that night. I don't do things that I'm not sure about. ”

Ling Ran rolled her eyes: "Now you don't regret not having children to give you soy sauce?"

Shao Chengzhi smiled embarrassedly.

Ling Ran sighed: "Okay, the incident is defined as follows. You didn't really love her, but you didn't ruin her either. This 'ruined' does not refer to the sex-relationship, but to the expected value. If you fall in love with her, she has a beautiful blueprint in her mind about what kind of life she might live with a top Tsinghua IT student like you, whether in China or in the United States. But later, you said goodbye to her because of whether you can get along, whether you can communicate, whether you can be harmonious, or because of what kind of household education you have and whether you can afford to pay American tuition. You let her psychologically, how to live a small life in that town that is often nourished by civil servants who are often owed wages, how to let her marry a small section chief of the county government, how to let her get promoted for her husband, and how to make her children play soy sauce and be full of happiness, although you lack the chivalry to climb 7 mountains, cross 7 rivers, destroy castles, and slay dragons for women, but you have achieved a gentlemanly demeanor of being polite, polite, elegant and hypocritical, and rejecting people thousands of miles away. There is a passing grade. ”

"Also, there's the logistics of the TV station you met later. You don't have to say anything from now on: Does she think I'm not sincere enough? You are not sincere at all, not enough. ”

"Yes, you issued a single certificate, and you spent a round-trip ticket for her. However, you hide the certificate of singleness, for fear that she will see the paper, in order to make her not too aggressive (too aggressive), you repeatedly emphasize that you will not consider getting married this year, which means that no matter how hard she tries, it will be in vain. Your round-trip ticket is actually an opportunity to get in touch with that girl and get to know her more deeply, because the cost of the ticket is too small compared to the marriage certificate. And I believe that even if that girl does not have a 180-degree change in attitude, but is as passionate as fire, and even succeeds in hooking you into bed, you will break up with her for a month, because men like you have a very accurate intuition, even if you swallow the bait, you will not bite the hook. You have known her for a year and the relationship has not progressed, which illustrates this. Ling Ran thought to herself: If you want to fish, it's best to think about how much your IQ is and how much the fish's IQ is, "Actually, the big change in her attitude has a lot to do with the fact that she has tried to fish you this year, and you have always refused to take the bait." You and she both subconsciously understand that her chances of success are slim, so as soon as she sees another opportunity, she puts you aside and cools down. ”

Shao Chengzhi was trained by Ling Ran without saying a word, so he could only bow his head and drink coffee: "It's already cold, let's have another cup." ”

The waiter brought another pot of coffee to the two, Shao Chengzhi poured it for Ling Ran, added milk to her, and added a sugar cube: "Drink so much, will you not be able to sleep at night?"

"Well, when I was in the United States, I drank coffee to refresh myself, at least 5-6 cups a day. ”

Shao Chengzhi stirred coffee for himself: "You are right, in fact, in those years, I didn't want to get married, I was just mentally lonely and needed some sustenance." But I'm not as unkind as you say. I want to make it clear that I really like that female classmate, if she is now unmarried, or divorced, I will pursue her, and if we can get along, I will marry her. I'm serious. ”

Ling Ran nodded: "I understand, you have the ability now, and you are willing to consider marriage, so naturally you will screen from acquaintances first, and she will be ranked first." It's a pity she's already unavable (not at hand, can't get). ”

"Yes, she can't wait for me to be 29 years old, in the town, she got married at 23, which is already considered old. ”

"Forget it, the past is a thing of the past, and life has to go on. You look for someone else, good horses don't eat grass back, because there is no grass when you look back. Ling Ran said.

Shao Chengzhi laughed: "Is this a comfort?"

"Aren't you asking people to introduce you to your girlfriend everywhere, what are you looking for?" Ling Ran was curious.

Shao Chengzhi smiled: "What, do you want to introduce me? Okay, are there any of your college classmates who are unmarried, and their age just matches me." ”

"College classmates, yes, there are a lot of what's going on, how can our class get rid of the surplus girls? Ling Ran fussed and said, "The first one is Wang Xia, do you want a female doctor?"