Chapter 196: It's been so long, I'm going crazy thinking about it
found a nearby KFC, Ya'an ordered something, and Shi Xinliang took Shan to the bathroom.
Just pouting, it was obvious that what had just happened made her feel very bad.
Shi Xinliang turned on the faucet and helped her wash her hands, one of the long nails she left didn't know when it broke, and there was a hair hanging on it, not very long, the hair was very hard, and it could be seen at a glance that it did not belong to her.
Shi Xinliang twisted up that strand of hair, a little distracted.
"Mom, it's the bad boy's hair, I just didn't catch him, I pulled his hair off in two. Just mentioning what happened just now, he still had an indignant face: "When I meet him again in the future, I will definitely not be able to get around him." Silverfish"
"Oh, it's not good to be a good boy, it's not good to fight with people. Shi Xinliang's smile was a little astringent: "Let's wash our hands, wash them and go eat KFC." ”
Ya'an called for a lot of food and drinks, but the fact, except for the scar and forget the pain, the two adults didn't have any appetite, and after symbolically eating a little something, they both held the drink and drank it slowly.
"The heart is cold, in this situation, don't worry too much, no matter what, Qinglan is also a person who wants to die, you can also understand Zheng Weixi, it is difficult for him to be difficult"
"I don't have anything to worry about, and besides, it's yours, I can't get rid of it, it's not yours, I can't earn it, wait and see what happens, it's a big deal, it's not like before, live your own free life, it's not very good, you don't have to have a man to live well."
Shi Xinliang didn't seem to pay attention to what happened before, and his face was indifferent.
Ya'an always felt that there was something wrong with her, but she really couldn't say it.
For any person, he shouldn't behave so calmly when he encounters this kind of thing, not to mention, no matter how deep her feelings for Zheng Weixi are, she is still a pregnant woman now, even if she hangs her husband aside, she has to see him and other women sticky, who can stand it, let alone act like nothing happened, calmly, unless there are two possibilities, first, she doesn't love that man, and second, she has decided to quit.
But obviously, it's not the former, so is she already going to let go?
"Xinliang, no matter what, let's talk about this matter and wait for it, give Zheng Weixi a chance, and give yourself a chance, isn't it, it's not easy for you to get to where you are today, and besides, you have to think about it for Shan Shan and the child in your belly."
Ya'an really doesn't want to see them go their separate ways in the future, she has always felt that they are the most compatible pair in the world, she has witnessed their bumpy journey, originally, they can already come to the bitter end, but there is such a thing.
However, she also knew that she might not be able to persuade her, unless she herself did not intend to let go.
Although Ya'an didn't worry about Shi Xinliang's side, because there were children at home who needed to be brought, he sent them back to the villa and left overnight.
After sitting in the car all the way, I was tired of tossing and turning, and I fell asleep soon after returning to the villa.
Shi Xinliang didn't feel sleepy at all, because of pregnancy, she was usually very sleepy, but today, she couldn't close her eyes.
A man put on his clothes and stood in front of the wide floor-to-ceiling window, looking out, the lights flickering in all directions, stunned.
At this time, it should be the time for family reunion, I believe that most people are a family together, chatting, and having fun.
However, I rarely enjoy that kind of atmosphere.
Since she can't really have it, why do she insist on waiting, hasn't she waited long enough?
In the huge villa, there was no light on, and she was alone in the lonely night, and her heart was full of loneliness, overwhelmingly drowning her.
The door opened, though not loud,
Shi Xinliang subconsciously turned his head, which was particularly abrupt in the dead silence.
The heartbeat accelerated at that moment, as if many years ago, when she was in her prime, she met him for the first time, under the different eyes of everyone, she fell directly in front of him by mistake in order to save a set of cosmetics, and when she looked up, she felt that she had found all the hope and happiness in this life at once.
However, at this moment, she no longer has the confidence and joy she had at that time, and it was only for a moment.
Zheng Weixi didn't expect that at this time, she hadn't slept yet, and the lights weren't turned on, she was alone in front of the floor-to-ceiling window in the living room, her long hair was like a waterfall, and her face was reflected in the moonlight projected outside the window, cold white.
In my heart, there is an indescribable pain.
He approached step by step, staring at her delicate and immaculate face, and could not remember how long it had been since he had been with her so quietly.
He thought about giving her happiness and wanting to be with her forever, but the truth was always too much of a surprise, his promises were always delayed, and the day of fulfillment seemed so far away.
He thought he hadn't let anyone down, but he didn't believe in her again and again.
He knew that she loved him deeply, and he also knew that he hurt her the most.
"The heart is cold. ”
He called her, but he couldn't utter a word of explanation.
All explanations are weak, aren't they?
Not as good as the actual meaning of a fulfillment.
"You're back, Qinglan is okay there, leave her alone, okay?"
Shi Xinliang met his gaze, his unwavering eyes.
Zheng Weixi felt his heart tingle.
"Actually, I can't do it, the doctor said, she can't stand a little stimulation now, she is very, dependent on me, I'm not there, I don't eat or drink, for Chenchen, I can't let her fend for herself, I don't want my child, when she grows up, she will hate me. ”
"Yes, it's actually a very cruel thing to let your own flesh and blood hate yourself, and I sometimes think, if, if our son is still alive, if he hates me, you and I are really sad and want to die. ”
Shi Xinliang looked at him, for some reason, the decision just now turned into nothingness at this moment, and she had no resistance to him, until now, it is still the same.
However, let's still say what I have to say.
Zheng Weixi was slightly stunned for a moment, and sighed: "Don't think about it, the past is over, Qinglan, even if you have suffered this time, it is impossible for us to come to a long time, give me a little time, okay?"
"Good. Shi Xinliang easily said this promise: "However, you can't lie to me, you know, I don't like to keep everything in the dark, and I don't like to hide everything from me before I came here." ”
If betrayal is the most unacceptable thing in love, then concealment may be the second unforgivable mistake.
It doesn't matter if it's good intentions or something else.
Zheng Weixi thought that she would have an awkward quarrel with herself because of the scene she saw in the hospital, she would be very angry, and she would not give up, but she didn't.
She was so calm the whole time, as if those things had never happened.
But for some reason, her calmness brought him inexplicable unease.
"I think, I think I'd better go back to Ya'an, I don't like the environment here. ”
"Nope"
Zheng Weixi blurted out.
He couldn't explain why he reacted so strongly, but instinctively rejected her offer.
The moonlight was projected from the window, and the silver-white light spread on her face, as if because of his statement, a smile loomed on her lips.
It's hard to catch, but it doesn't escape his eyes.
He reached out and confined her body firmly in his arms, breathing in the familiar but long-lost faint lemon fragrance in her hair, and the long-standing mania in his heart disappeared without a trace at that moment.
Once, he thought that she was his fingertips, but when she disappeared from his side one day, he realized that getting used to being alone was more tormenting than falling in love with someone.
When he dreamed back again and again, it was only because her shadow suddenly fell asleep that he realized that he had completely fallen for her.
No reason, no excuse.
No matter what happened, he wouldn't let go of her, but now, he really couldn't care about the life and death of another woman, but it wouldn't be long, it wouldn't be long.
"The heart is cold, whether you are hungry or not, I will go and get you something to eat. ”
Zheng Weixi has always been a careful man, and what he has experienced in the hospital, he concluded that she must not have been able to eat.
Shi Xinliang wanted to shake his head, but after hesitating, he nodded: "I'll get it myself, after I get pregnant, I am very picky about eating, and I don't like to eat what you make." ”
Zheng Weixi smiled, and did not pierce her thoughts: "When, my wife who can't go to the kitchen has also learned to make food, make more, and I will also try to see if I can eat it." ”
Shi Xinliang glanced at him fiercely, didn't speak, turned around and went directly into the kitchen.
In fact, although her cooking skills are much better than before, they are limited to what she can eat.
She actually misses Zheng Weixi's craftsmanship very much, which is much better than what she eats outside, but she sees that he is too tired, because of poor rest, his eyes are red, and he has lost a lot of weight.
Moreover, it is said that now that Weiwei and Wei'an have left one after another, the company's affairs are enough for him to be busy for a while, he is an iron man, and he will collapse if he continues like this.
In the kitchen, there are all kinds of ingredients, almost everything.
"You don't usually eat at home, why does Auntie still prepare these things, and there are so many, enough to set up a few tables for a banquet. ”
Shi Xinliang couldn't help but ask, while checking the refrigerator.
"I didn't have it before, because you were coming back, and I told her to prepare. ”
Shi Xinliang's hand paused, her words were never doubted.
"I have explained to her what you like to eat, and if the taste is different from before, I will tell her about it. ”
"No, nothing different. ”
Shi Xinliang shook his head, took out a piece of meat, took a few more vegetables, came out, picked them one by one, washed them, and cut them out.
Zheng Weixi leaned against the door, watching her every move intently, neither reaching out nor speaking.
"Didn't you say you helped, but you didn't reach out."
Shi Xinliang looked at her uncomfortably and asked.
"I just want to see how my wife's craftsmanship is, and besides, aren't you reluctant to let me sit because you feel sorry for me, and I don't want to distract you. ”
"Who feels sorry for you. With a fever on his face, Shi Xin muttered coldly.
A simple bowl of rice and a plate of vegetables, two people were very hungry and ate with relish.
Zheng Weixi exaggerated his praise: "Not bad, yes, I can't think of cooking." ”
Shi Xinliang was silent, he was good at seeing what he was good at, but compared to him, it was far worse, but he could just make do with the entrance.
When you eat, you can't help but eat the taste, but also pay attention to the mood, and when you are in a good mood, anything unpalatable is delicious.
She's not the same.
After a meal was tossed, it was already the middle of the night.
The two of them are really tired and sleepy.
Coming out of the bathroom, Shi Xinliang wanted to go directly to the bedroom, she was worried that the child would kick the quilt alone, but when she walked outside the door, Zheng Weixi happened to come out of it, tiptoeed, and waved at her: "I've already given her a good armpit quilt, let's go to sleep." ”
Shi Xinliang was stunned for a moment, and wanted to say something, but opened his mouth but didn't say anything.
But my heart beat faster in that moment.
Zheng Weixi hugged her with a smile and led her towards their bedroom, while hanging his head in her ear, he whispered: "I haven't seen you for so long, I'm going crazy thinking about it." ”
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