I held my head and slammed it with my fist.

But I still can't vent the depression in my heart, it is like countless thorns, pierced in the most vulnerable place of my spirit.

I almost broke down and said, "I really don't know about this, and it's not clear whether there was a relationship or not, maybe she's just pranking me...... Because I don't feel it at all, I ......"

"Don't talk about it!" An Lan suddenly said angrily, "You make me feel scared!" ”

With that, she pushed me away and glared at me with eyes I had never seen in my life.

That's when I realized that with that photo, no matter how I explained it, it was superfluous......

But I'm not reconciled, I don't want to just say that it's divided, it's too hasty.

Seeing that An Lan was about to go back to the bedroom, I caught up again and grabbed her hand.

This time, An Lan didn't give me any chance to speak at all, and her right hand was raised and slapped at my face.

I didn't hide, I didn't even blink my eyes.

But An Lan's slap didn't fall on my face, but stopped a few centimeters away from my cheek.

She was kind after all, but I knew that picture hit her hard.

But for a while, I didn't know how to explain it to her, and it seemed that it was useless to say anything at this time.

I suddenly remembered a saying circulating on the Internet, couples quarrel, the best way to solve the quarrel is to kiss, if one kiss doesn't work, then two......

So, the moment her slap landed next to my cheek,.

I didn't hesitate anymore and threw myself at her......

Throwing the unsuspecting An Lan squarely, I didn't give her any chance to react, and leaned over to her red lips.

An Lan couldn't dodge it, and was kissed by me.

With my rude movements, Anlan began to struggle, his hands constantly trying to push me away.

But I held her so close that I barely gave her a chance to push me away.

I was getting deeper and deeper into her movements, almost losing my mind, and I just wanted to let her know how reluctant I was to give her ......

My hands were already on her belt and I wanted to undo her clothes.

For me, it's crazy.

Crazy to possess, crazy to tear, crazy to release yourself......

I feel like it's called love.

Until An Lan bit my lip, until the pain exceeded the physical pleasure.

I stopped and took the initiative to let go of Anlan.

I looked up at her, disheveled, and her hair was disheveled......

She was looking at me, too, but with a look of utter disgust that I had never seen before.

I know she must hate me at this moment, I deserve to die!

I avoided her gaze and slapped myself hard in the face, feeling a burning pain.

"I'm sorry, I'm a beast, I'm really sorry ......"

"Don't say any more!" An Lan interrupted me sharply, and then said coldly, "Let's go, you go!" ”

"Don't do that, okay?" I looked up at her again, and my tone was a little humble.

"Let's go! I don't want to see you anymore. ”

Anlan's indifference made me feel strange, as if I had never known her.

I don't know what I did wrong, it wasn't my intention, and it's still unknown if it happened.

And, it happened before I confirmed my relationship with her.

Why did she bite this thing and not let it go?

Then I felt irritable and depressed.

With a sigh, he lit a cigarette in his irritability, and he didn't know how to redeem it.

An Lan turned around and walked into the bedroom, and with a loud sound of the door closing, my heart suddenly went cold.

I suddenly felt tired, and I didn't even have the strength to try to regain it, but stared blankly at the closed door.

At that moment, my heart felt as if it had been thrown into an ice cellar, and I couldn't even breathe.

I haven't loved a few people in my life, Xiao Wei counts as one, and An Lan counts as one.

But between them, I didn't end well, and this time it was even worse.

This kind of encounter makes me feel terrible, and I dare not hope for the so-called love anymore.

I only felt that I had fallen into the grief of love again......

I didn't knock on that door anymore because it didn't make sense, and if she had given me a chance, she wouldn't have treated me with that attitude.

In that case, so be it!

It's just that I was unwilling in my heart, and that unwillingness was transformed into tears, and there was an overwhelming sense of powerlessness in my heart.

I couldn't do anything to restrain An Lan and let her stay with me.

……

I finally left Anlan.

I will never forget the night I left her house in the rain with my suitcase.

I had to look back every few steps, and I didn't know what I was expecting, and maybe I had a little illusion about her!

The security guard at the gate of the villa area was already familiar with me, and when he saw me dragging my suitcase out, he took the initiative to come up and hold me with an umbrella.

"Mr. Chen, why don't you drive when you go out? It's raining so heavily. ”

I squeezed out a smile at him, and without saying a word, I walked out of the door.

Standing at the gate of the community, I glanced back at the gate of the south gate of Palm Springs and gave one last hard look.

I don't think I'll come back again.

She's so cruel that I don't want her to forgive me anymore.

I took a taxi and I didn't know where to go, so I just let the driver drive casually.

In order to make money, the driver didn't say anything, and took me around the city on this rainy night......

I couldn't find a way to get myself out of the pain, which was like the traffic in front of me, with no end in sight.

At that moment, I felt an extremely strong sense of frustration in my heart, as if I couldn't get along well with any kind of woman.

What's even sadder is that the moment they gave up on me, I didn't even know what I was doing wrong.

Including Xiao Wei, I am so good to her, but why should she cheat?

And Anlan, why can't she give me a chance?

It wasn't my fault in the first place!

Perhaps! Maybe I don't deserve love.

I lit a cigarette and opened the window, the wind blowing in from the window made me even more lonely.

But at the moment I would rather be lonely than plunge into the rolling red dust.

At one point, I lost the motivation to live.

I don't think about the fucking mess in my company anymore, and I don't want to think about why my company went down.

Let it all be in the wind! How do you love it......

At this moment my soul is dead, and I have thrown all the pain I am suffering to this innocent body.

I suddenly hated An Lan very much, and I suddenly felt that she was not perfect.

Oh, yes! No one is perfect, and no one has shortcomings.

And An Lan's biggest shortcoming is that she is too ruthless, she doesn't give me any chance at all, and she doesn't give me any affection.

I have also come to understand that the most unplanned thing in this world is love.

What if you can't bear it?

The heart-rending retention is just a manifestation of unwillingness.

Originally, life is a process of constantly seeking, constantly experiencing, constantly being let down, and constantly redefined.

This time, it's just a retrace of the way you came.