I was a little confused by Sun Xiaoxiao's words, so much so that I was stunned for a while before looking up at her.

She said to me, "I have a spacious place there, so you don't want to live outside, just live with me." ”

"It's not right."

"What's wrong? I have four bedrooms there, isn't that enough for you? ”

"I didn't mean that, it's inconvenient for me to live with you."

"I don't think anything, don't be verbose, I have ready-made ones here, you don't have to spend all that unjust money."

"I don't pick, just find a cheap place to live."

Sun Xiaoxiao glanced at me and said with a smile: "Are you afraid of living with me and can't insist on thinking about me?" ”

"You're thinking too much, I don't feel anything about you at all."

"! Men are duplicitous. ”

"Really, I don't have any desire for that right now."

I really didn't lie to her, since An Lan died, I began to hate men and women, and I almost didn't feel that I had that kind of need.

No matter how beautiful a woman is, even if she stands in front of me without wearing anything, I really won't take a second look.

Of course, I know that these are one of the typical symptoms of depression, and I would love to change it, but it is really hard.

Sun Xiaoxiao didn't talk to me about this topic anymore, I guess she didn't believe it, and it didn't matter.

When I got back to her house, I was ready to leave with my suitcase.

But she stopped at the door and said to me, "Don't go, I need you very much." ”

I looked at her expressionlessly and said, "What do you need from me?" ”

"You...... You can cook for me, clean up the house, and so on. ”

"Did you make me your babysitter?"

"Anyway, don't go, even if you find it inconvenient, then when you find a new place to live and move out, I will definitely not stop you."

"I've found it, I'll stay in the hotel, I've booked a room."

"Cancelled, not going to the hotel."

"Why?"

"I'm your boss now."

I sneered, "I haven't joined the company yet." ”

"You...... Why are you like this! Do I have to make it clear? ”

I suddenly had a bad feeling and frowned and asked her, "You're not going to say you're in love with me, are you?" Don't! I'm not interested in women right now. ”

Sun Xiaoxiao immediately gave me a blank look and said, "You think too much, I'm just ...... Just ......"

She only lasted for a long time, and finally sighed and said, "Chen Feng, tell me, are you depressed?" ”

I was stunned for a moment, and it took me a moment to react and ask her, "How do you know?" ”

"Don't ask me how I know, if you tell me if it's over."

"Yes."

Sun Xiaoxiao looked at me with a heavy face and said, "So you can't go, I've seen a lot of people who committed suicide because of depression, and there have even been such people around me." So you can't go! ”

I smiled wryly: "You think too much, I'm not to that point, not as serious as you said." ”

"Then I don't care, if you dare to go out today, I ...... I'll just ......"

"That's it?"

"I'll die for you, I'll make you blame yourself for the rest of your life."

I laughed and said, "Do you think I'm really going to blame you?" You're thinking too much about it again. ”

"Then you can give it a try!"

I didn't bother with her anymore, grabbed the box and walked outside.

I thought she was just saying it to scare me, but she actually ran to the balcony and climbed over the railing.

This is the 22nd floor, and the wind blows very loudly outside, and as soon as she climbs the railing, her hair is instantly blown by the wind from the wine glass.

"Hey...... You, don't mess around! ”

"You go, I'll jump down when you go, I'm not kidding you."

I said helplessly, "As for it? I'm really convinced. ”

"I don't care, in short, you can't leave me half a step until your depression is gone."

"Crazy, you're crazy."

She stopped talking, but I could tell she was scared to fall too, clinging to the railing with both hands.

I don't know if she's trying to scare me, but I don't want to see anyone around me die in front of my eyes anymore, it's a desperate feeling.

I finally put down the box in my hand and said to her, "I promise you won't go, you can come down quickly!" ”

"I ...... I've got cramps in my feet, you're ...... Come and help me......"

I was convinced, and when I walked to the balcony I grabbed her hand and prepared to drag her back.

And at that moment, my mind resurfaced that day at sea in the face of a storm, I grabbed An Lan's hand......

That scene suddenly came to my mind like a movie screening, and I remember vividly that she told me to let go, that she slipped out of my hand and fell into the sea.

As soon as I thought of this, I suddenly pulled Sun Xiaoxiao back from the railing.

Because of the excessive force, the moment I pulled her back, I was also thrown to the ground by this inertia.

Sun Xiaoxiao just pressed on my body, she instantly bounced up and said to me; "So what are you trying so hard for?"

I haven't come back to my senses yet, and I'm still in a sluggish state.

"Hey, what's wrong with you? You okay? Speak! Hey......"

Sun Xiaoxiao saw me lying motionless on the ground, and suddenly became anxious: "What's the matter?" Did you hit your brain? Let me see ......"

I closed my eyes and let out a long breath before I came back to my senses and said to her, "It's all right. ”

"It scared me to death, I thought I hit my head."

"Don't be so stupid in the future, life is more important than everything."

Sun Xiaoxiao rolled his eyes and said, "Do you think I will really seek death?" I'm not, isn't it good to live? ”

"So what are you doing here? Just to scare me? Sun Xiaoxiao, you are really excessive! I was suddenly a little angry, and turned to roar at Sun Xiaoxiao.

Sun Xiaoxiao was a little stunned by my yelling, and said innocently: "I...... I don't want you to stay, what are you murdering? ”

"Don't force me to stay in this way, it's really stupid, you know?"

With that, I went back to the living room, sat down on the couch, and habitually lit a cigarette and smoked.

Sun Xiaoxiao also seemed to realize it, came to me, lowered his head and muttered: "I was wrong, don't be angry." ”

I ignored her, and she continued, "Don't do that, I'll give you a dance, or a song, you can laugh." ”

"Can't laugh."

"Then I'll tell you a joke."

"No, you don't."

"Oops! Don't be like this, I was really wrong, never again, I didn't do this because I didn't want you to stay, because I asked you to come to Chengdu, and I have to be responsible for you! ”

"You don't have to, I chose to come here because I wanted to come, not because of whom."

Sun Xiaoxiao pursed his lips and said with some disappointment: "Yes, yes, what you say is what, then I don't care about you, I'm going to take a bath, you can do it yourself!" ”

With that, she went back to her bedroom.

I was sitting alone on the sofa smoking a cigarette, I really thought of An Lan at that moment just now, and I didn't mean to be angry with Sun Xiaoxiao.

It's just that because I hate this feeling so much that it even turns into fear, I don't want the people around me to joke with their lives anymore.

After a long time, Sun Xiaoxiao came out of the bathroom, and she had already changed into pajamas.

Because the heating was on in the room and there was floor heating, she wore very little even in winter.