Listening to Chen Min's incoherent voice on the other end of the phone, I was quite calm.

"Hey, hey...... Did you hear me? Answer me! ”

"I hear you." I replied calmly.

"What's the matter with you? Aren't you excited at all about such a big news? ”

"I know."

"What?! You...... Did you know she's still alive? Chen Min was surprised.

"Yes, I only found out today."

"Do you know where she is now?"

"Didn't she tell you?"

"No, I asked her, and she told me not to inquire and not to tell anyone the news."

I smiled wryly and said, "Is that me, too?" ”

"Not really, don't you already know that? She told you, right? ”

I laughed miserably and said, "No, I also know it from other people." ”

"Then she will contact you, and the last person she can let go of is you."

"Really?"

Chen Min seemed to notice my abnormality, and then said in a deep voice, "What's the matter with you? How I feel like you're not happy at all. ”

"I'm happy, I'm so happy, haha...... Anyway, I want to sleep for a while. ”

After that, I hung up the phone and turned off my phone and threw it aside.

I'm just angry, why didn't she contact me?

It's not that I'm emotional, it's that I really can't figure out why she's hiding it from me.

Even if you're really afraid of being known by others, you should reveal a little bit of the news that she's still alive, right?

In the past six months, does she know how I survived?

Now that she's inexplicably appearing again, how can I figure it out?

I didn't want to think about it anymore, so I opened the liquor and drank it directly to the bottle.

Stimulated by the alcohol, I felt more and more miserable, I felt that I was worthless, and I felt that I was the one who had been deceived from beginning to end.

Xiao Wei lied to me, Liang Jing lied to me, Sun Xiaoxiao lied to me, and even An Lan lied to me!

Why? I, Chen Feng, are so easy to deceive.

Is it really because I am blackened that the world will treat me well?

Gradually, resentment grows in the chest until it is filled with anger.

Emotions of pain and sadness swelled up and rolled in my chest, and after staring blankly at my phone on the sofa for dozens of seconds, I grabbed the bottle again and poured a large sip of liquor.

The spicy moment of baijiu made my stomach feel like a fire burning......

Scenes from the past came to my mind like movie clips, and tears flowed out of my eyes, blurring my eyes......

I don't know how else I can meet her, for so long, she doesn't tell me anything about me if she has me in her heart.

She only has her career in mind, in fact, I knew from the beginning that she was a strong woman in the shopping mall with a strong sense of competitiveness.

I'm not the same person with her at all, not from the beginning to the present.

It's just that there are thousands of bustling and dim lights, and our casual encounter has become my eternal pain.

Perhaps our encounter is itself a kind of mistake, although it is unforgettable, willingly wrong, and so meaningful.

But now, the dream is broken, the heart is broken.

I grabbed the bottle again, and the thick smell of white wine hit my face, and I took a sip of it, spicy until it was deep in my throat.

Then this hot sensation spread to the cheeks, then to the ears, and finally rushed to the brain.

The immense pleasure of the liquor quickly diluted the pain in my heart, and I drank it one sip after another......

Gradually, my eyes began to blur, and I seemed to see a sky full of stars, twinkling in front of my eyes, and like countless fireflies flying around me......

I'm drunk, drunk thoroughly!

In a trance, the corridor outside the door faintly heard the footsteps of high heels.

Immediately after that, there was a knock on the door of the room, and then a familiar voice came in: "Chen Feng, are you at home?" ”

It was Huang Li's voice, and I staggered to my feet, staggered over and opened the door.

Huang Li, who was standing at the door, subconsciously covered her nose, looked at me in a panic and said, "What's wrong with you?" Why is it so big! ”

I pulled her in from the outside, closed the door with my backhand, and asked her with a stiff smile, "Are you here?" ”

"Are you alright? What's wrong? I call your phone and turn it off. ”

I burped and laughed bitterly at myself, "It's okay, I'll just die, what else can I do." ”

As soon as I finished speaking, I leaned back and almost fell.

"Why do you drink so much? Tell me, what the hell is going on? ”

Huang Li helped me and pulled me to sit on the sofa, and then there was a surprise: "I'll go...... You still drink liquor, and you drank the whole bottle! What's the matter with you? ”

I didn't speak, I turned around and hugged her.

She's so soft, so warm, so comfortable......

When I woke up from the hotel in the morning, I was still wondering how I was going to meet her, but now I desperately wanted to be by my side.

Huang Li was puzzled, she was so helpless to let me hold her, and it took a long time before she patted the back of my hand and asked softly, "What's wrong with you?" Tell me. ”

"It's not really, you let me hold it for a while, just for a while."

"What's so sad? Tell me! ”

"Lily, I've been trying to explain to you what happened last night, but now I don't want to."

After saying that, I kissed her directly on the mouth, Huang Li was kissed by me suddenly, and she didn't struggle.

Her passion pierced my whole soul through the tip of her tongue.

I could feel her pounding heartbeat and her fiery cheeks.

The desire swelled very quickly under the stimulation of alcohol, and the fire in my body was instantly ignited, and it burned brightly in my body.

I carried her into the bedroom and pushed her frantically onto the bed.

She began to cooperate silently, and catered to me a little rustily.

At this moment, I am sanity, not as irrational as last night.

The room was dimly lit, and the air echoed with chaotic gasps......

After a long, long time, we were leaning against this little bed, looking out through the half-covered window.

It was probably evening, and the setting sun was just in the sky, dyeing the surrounding clouds golden yellow, reminiscent of the world depicted by Hayao Miyazaki.

I was drunk and dreamed of death in this world, and I completely lost the direction of my life in this world.

Suddenly, an inexplicable sense of loss surged through my heart.

I don't know why, but suddenly the image of another woman floated in my mind, and the breeze that seeped in from the window made my body tremble.

I tried to take a deep breath to wipe away the image of her in front of my eyes, but what I inhaled was a cold breath that stimulated my fragile nerves, and I felt dazed......

Yes, it was Huang Li lying next to me, but I was missing another woman.

I know it's a shameless thing, but the longing is so intense.

I can even see my thoughts clearly, floating in the air I breathe, choking on the love that I still hide in my heart.

I felt suffocated by this love, and I felt a strong pain in my chest.

That's right, on one side there is responsibility, and on the other side there is betrayal.

No, it's not a betrayal, it's just that she may never have thought of me.

I should have let go of this relationship, and I didn't want to see her again.

I looked up, and suddenly I was relieved.

It's like something you've always regarded as life, struggling to give up, exhausted but never willing to give up, but accidentally losing it.

It's okay now, no longer have to be entangled, it's so tired.