It is always difficult to see a cool breeze at noon in the middle of summer, even if there are a few pedestrians who come and go, they are also walking in the shadows, and in the hot sun, the street is so empty and deserted.

At the door of the supermarket, Fang Yuan touched his pocket, took out a box of cigarettes, and handed one to Berlin, seeing that Berlin even shook his head and refused, he smiled, put the cigarette in his mouth and took out a lighter to light it, spit out a mouthful of rich smoke, and said, "It's okay if you don't smoke, it's a hundred yuan a month, there's no need for this." As he spoke, Fang Yuan smiled, looked up at the building in front of him, and slowly spoke, "Let's go back to the topic just now." Berlin, you're 27 now, I remember we're both the same age. ”

"What do you mean?" Berlin was stunned.

"It was because of our birthdays in the same month that we started to become friends. At that time, we were not very sensible, we skipped class every day, went to the river to catch loaches, no worries, carefree... But you said that now that we are at our age, we can't deal with problems like we did back then, don't you? ”

"Hmm..."

"Then I'll mention it to you again, Berlin."

Fang Yuan spoke very slowly, not in a hurry, in the hot afternoon, there were few customers coming and going in the supermarket, only Berlin listened quietly.

"I've known you for over a decade, I know you, and sometimes I even know what you're thinking better than you know. You don't want to abandon your family, you don't plan Le Yao to be responsible, but you still want Le Yao to give birth to a child for you, Berlin, don't you think you're a little whimsical? Yes, Le Yao's tone towards you is deliberately mean, but in fact, you haven't seen her fragile side, and she is more reluctant to kill the child than you. But that's it, she's confused now. Think to yourself, if you give birth to a child, how will she face your other family? ”

Berlin knew that Fang Yuan must be bringing up this similar topic.

He gritted his teeth and lowered his head.

It's not that he doesn't understand these truths, he chose a family, and Le Yao's abortion is the only way out. But Berlin didn't want to accept it... Even if he knew that the idea was wrong... Therefore, he has been contradictory and entangled, and has been evading.

Glancing at Berlin at this time, Fang Yuan's heart was like a mirror, and he sighed lightly, "Okay, then take 10,000 steps back, the child will be born to you, and you don't have to be responsible for Le Yao." So what will she do then? She is not a yellow flower girl, she has been waiting for you for more than ten years, and like us, she is almost 30 years old. A 30-year-old woman, she has given birth to children, no matter how beautiful she is, can she marry a good family? Who will be genuinely good to her? Even if Le Yao may accept that you have two families in the end, can you afford the living expenses of the two families? Berlin, have you considered it from Le Yao's point of view? ”

Fang Yuan's words were like a hammer, and they smashed into Berlin's heart one after another.

His face couldn't help but turn a little pale, and he looked at Fang Yuan again, not knowing how to respond to this remark for a while.

He tentatively fantasized about the future, and soon stopped thinking about it again.

If it was Fang Yuan who said that Le Yao married a man who didn't accept her past, what kind of life would she live.

Berlin could even guess what that man would have been like: with an expressionless face, stabbing her up and down with a cold gaze, sarcastically mocking her with a cold tone, and degrading her to worthless...

Berlin suddenly felt bitter.

Yes, Le Yao has been waiting for himself for more than ten years, and he didn't say anything to Le Yao, so do you want to delay her any longer?

Suddenly, Fang Yuan handed over a cigarette, Berlin was stunned, and then caught it and lit it.

The smell of smoke wasn't as pungent as airborne, just slightly choking... He didn't hate the feeling, as if he was used to it.

The smoke lingered in midair, and gradually, through the shadows, rose into the warm sunlight. Even in the dazzling sunlight, it disappeared without a trace... Looking at this fading white smoke, for a long time... In Berlin's heart, it seems that something has also been scattered...

"I know how to do it, Fang Yuan. Thank you. ”

In the middle of the night, Berlin answered. Saying this, Berlin seemed to use all his strength.

"Opposite the second floor, let's go and make it clear. I took the morning off and was ready to go to work. ”

Fang Yuan handed Berlin a bag containing a pile of daily necessities such as laundry detergent, shampoo, and toilet paper, and then turned around and left.

Looking through the sunlight on the second floor of the building opposite, Berlin felt inexplicably uncomfortable. He was indeed unwilling to let Le Yao kill this child. But what Fang Yuan said was right, he was not a 17-year-old child anymore, he couldn't always think from his own point of view, he had to make a choice.

In the future, he chose Le Yao, and his 17-year-old self chose his family.

Different choices, different paths. Reality is not a story, it is cruel... There is no real best of both worlds in terms of relationship and family.

..

Walking to the bottom of the old building, Berlin stepped into the dark hallway and stepped on the uneven mudstone staircase to the second floor. After knocking on the iron door on the second floor, soon a voice came from inside.

"You put it at the door, Fang Yuan, I'll wait to get it myself."

"I'm Berlin..."

“...”

Le Yao's voice stopped.

After a long time, the iron plates creaked open.

In the dimly lit corridor, he could barely see Le Yao's face through the little sunlight emanating from the house. Her eyes were red, the makeup near the corners of her eyes was a little messy, and there were a lot of tear stains, obviously she had just wiped them indiscriminately. She looked at Berlin, and the coldness in her eyes had faded much from before. After staring at each other for a long time, she said, "What are you doing here?" ”

“...”

Berlin said: "I want to talk to you. ”

Le Yao was silent, and then turned sideways, "Come in." ”

Berlin walked into Le Yao's house and looked around after putting the household items on the floor.

Le Yao closed the windows, and the windows were pasted with various newspapers, so that the house was dim. This house is not big, some of the furniture is just a bed, and the space of his house is almost the same as that of his house. However, compared with his house, the decoration here is a little more exquisite, and a fan turns slightly, which brings a lot of coolness to the house.

After he came in, Le Yao sat back on the spring bed in the room, staring intently at the TV in front of him, as if he didn't bother to care about Berlin.

"What's the matter, you can tell it." Then, in a flat tone, she spoke.

Berlin paused.

He took a deep breath, and in the face of Le Yao's flat tone, he spoke, "... Otherwise, just knock the child out. ”

Le Yao turned her head sharply and stared at Berlin.

Berlin looked at Le Yao, his eyes were innumerably complicated, and he didn't choose to escape her gaze.