Chapter 181: What to Say
The end of this drama made Berlin cry and laugh a little, he looked at Jiang Ran, and didn't know how to describe his mood at this time.
"She told you, is it my favorite food?" Chen Kexin was curious.
“..... Well. ”
Chen Kexin chuckled and said, "You were deceived by her once a long time ago, and now you are so fooled?" ”
A long time ago?
Berlin felt a wave in his heart...
How long?
Eight years ago? Deceived something like that?
Watching Jiang Ran and Nini talk with great interest about the various flavors of snacks, communicating like a big child, Berlin couldn't help but go back to the scene in the supermarket....
Jiang Ran and Le Yao's words.
Disgusted with each other...
The two did not have only one side in the past, and they should have intersected for a period of time.
Although Berlin was speechless about this scene, it made him more eager to know what happened ten years ago...
However, what surprised Berlin the most was that Jiang Ran didn't plan to mention to Chen Kexin about meeting Le Yao in the supermarket.... Why? Doesn't she care about Chen Kexin very much? At this time, it seems that this matter has nothing to do with her... Could it be that she knew that Chen Kexin would give her a response?
What the hell was Jiang Ran thinking?
What is hidden in her heart?
What kind of person is she?
How complicated is everything in the past story?
Suddenly, Berlin had a hunch. He doesn't know the past, he can forgive Jiang Ran now, and he doesn't think about all this. If he knew the past, he would hate Jiang Ran, this woman.... In a trance, he remembered Jiang Ran's complicated demeanor when he faced him again after many years, the heavy tone hidden in the simple greeting, and after asking if he still 'hated' her, he expressed his relief, but what he got was Jiang Ran's surprised look...
The family had dinner, which was different from the usual Jiang Ran, and the simple and warm atmosphere added a little excitement and cheerfulness.
Nini likes Jiang Ran very much, likes to listen to her tell those new things, beautiful worlds, growth stories, all kinds of things....
Suddenly, Berlin remembered that at a very young age, he also seemed to like to communicate and communicate with such an adult. Passionate about him, chasing him, eager to grow into someone like him. It's just that with the years and the growth, the original hope has been polished clean in the years.
You will always be yourself.
The good of others is always someone else's.
No one can grow into whom...
At least that's not a bad thing, though.
"I bought too much, I can't finish eating, let's continue to eat tomorrow." Chen Kexin finally looked helplessly at the leftovers on the table.
There was a hint of distress on Jiang Ran's pretty face, and she was obviously not very happy to eat these things again tomorrow.
Berlin is in a good mood.
The seeds that are planted and the bitter fruits are tasted for themselves.
"Berlin."
Chen Kexin went back to the bedroom to rest, and Jiang Ran found an opportunity to communicate with Berlin.
"Huh?"
"Do you like Kexin?"
(The above is a modification and addition from the previous chapter.... Five hundred words, I'll make up another five hundred in this chapter, not to make up the number of words, but for fear that readers who have read the previous chapter will not see it. Some of the chapters that are published, I sometimes revise some of the chapters, sorry)
This sudden and strange question baffled Berlin for a while.
Without hesitation, he replied, "Yes." ”
"Really?" Jiang Ran smiled, "Berlin, what do you define as liking?" ”
"Like is like, is there a definition?" Berlin is puzzling.
"You know, Berlin, I've been observing you a lot in these days since I came back. I've always wanted to see your life. The result is ridiculous, only four words are seen in you, peace of mind. It's as if this is your life, and as long as you can achieve it, it doesn't matter what you sacrifice. Jiang Ran spoke slowly, looking at him with beautiful eyes with light eye makeup.
“....”
Clear conscience?
Berlin didn't know how to taste this sentence for the first time...
The two looked at each other.
Then, when Berlin reacted, his face suddenly changed...
"Do you think it's gentle? Is that correct? Jiang Ran asked, without waiting for Berlin's reply, she said lightly, "This is selfish." You are selfish. ”
"Take a bath...."
Jiang Ran didn't seem to be interested in mentioning anything about Le Yao with him anymore, turned around and left the living room and walked towards the bedroom. Staying in Berlin, he looked at the empty living room in front of him, looked at the endless darkness outside the window, and after a long time, he sighed lightly, got up and put away the dishes and chopsticks on the table. Subsequently, he told Chen Kexin to go out for a walk, and under Jiang Ran's gaze, he left the house and walked towards Le Yao.
The night was hazy.
The streetlights, which were already dim, looked even more dim when they were not repaired for many years.
It's like Berlin's heart at this time, like walking in a chaotic labyrinth, anxious to leave, but unable to find an exit.
He came to Le Yao's house.
The lights are still on, and the confinement lady has not left yet.
Entering the house, the confinement lady helped coax the child, and Le Yao lay on the bed reading a book.
She saw Berlin and asked, "Why are you free tonight?"
"I just wanted to come and see..."
"What do I have to look at here. Not a big room, a tired person, a child who doesn't care.... Looking for groundedness? Nothing to worry about, I'm fine. Le Yao replied calmly.
"It's been cold lately, do you want to buy some clothes?"
"Not for the time being, at least not for the next few days... I don't go out now, it's not necessary. Le Yao refused.
Unable to find a topic, Berlin, as usual, sat on the stool next to Le Yao, looking at the book she was reading. The dense text was printed in Berlin's eyes, turning page by page, and guessing from the title and content of the book, he thought it should be a boring love story.
"Why is she there?"
The two were silent for a long time, and Le Yao suddenly spoke.
The 'she' Berlin that Le Yao was referring to naturally knew was Jiang Ran. The two have only met...
After a moment of silence, Berlin replied, "She went back to China and came to help take care of my wife." Come late with me tonight to buy dinner because my wife is in health and can't go out right now. ”
"When is she leaving?" Le Yao continued to ask.
"It's been two months..."
"Really?"
The conversation between the two ended like this.
Berlin didn't understand what Le Yao meant by asking Jiang Ran. He could only see that Le Yao was dissatisfied with Jiang Ran and had something to say...
It's just that Berlin can't see the picture of the past from Le Yao's eyes that remember the long past.
"Berlin, I wanted to talk to you in a few days. After thinking about it, it doesn't matter what I say now. Le Yao suddenly closed the book gently, looked at Berlin, and said slowly, "Are you satisfied with your current life?" ”
"Uh.... Well. ”
Berlin didn't understand the meaning of Le Yao's words.
He frowned and stared at her. Waiting for her words and remarks to continue....
Le Yao smiled.
It was Le Yao who smiled at him for a long time.
Le Yao is very beautiful, cold and beautiful.
She laughs really charming....
"It's good to be satisfied.... Yes, in fact, I can see that this kind of life is very good for you, and this is also the life you want, simple and carefree. If it weren't for me, I don't think you would have any worries to worry about. Your family, your life, has become deformed under my mixing... I knew I was wrong early on, but I just didn't want to fix it. But the child was born, and these days, when I am alone, I think a lot, really think a lot, I think, it's time to solve the mistake. ”
She said very slowly, very seriously, her smile remained the same, and there was a trace of relief and relief in her eyes, like a heavy stone in her heart thrown away, and she continued to say softly, "I will leave this city next month after I am well." To go far, far away, to a place where we will never see each other again. It's really tiring to be cold to you every day, it's tiring to pretend not to talk to you every day, and I want to take off these disguises, but you know, I'm such an unwilling person. ”
She glanced at the child held by the confinement lady in the distance, and there was a hint of softness in her eyes, and said, "I love you very much, Berlin, I really love you." These words are not vulgar, they are the most sincere in my heart. In the world before me, it was like a drowsy patch, it was always raining, I was hiding in the corner alone, and you were the only one standing in front of me with an umbrella. Every day you come over, I want to talk to you a lot, a lot, but I know that you don't know how to face me when you talk too much. Probably silence is the best time we can get along. ”
Berlin listened to her ...
Looking at this Le Yao, who was no longer in his impression, for a moment, he had mixed feelings.
A gust of autumn wind blew into this hut.
A little chilly, a little cool...
"I don't like winter, I'm the only one who can keep warm." Le Yao muttered softly. "I don't like to be separated, and when we are separated, we really can't see each other again."
The gentle voice echoed in the hut, echoing in Berlin's mind.
He looked at Le Yao in a daze, looking at her relaxed expression, her calm and deep eyes like a lake.
"If I could, I wish we had stayed that summer... It's a pity that time doesn't stop. Maybe five, ten, a long time from now, I won't remember you all the time. You rarely think of me in your mind. Time can dilute everything... Time will change many, many times...."
Le Yao sighed.
She didn't give Berlin a chance to reply, and she knew that Berlin had no words to reply. Even if he has mixed feelings and complex emotions in his heart, and he can't say a thousand words, he won't be able to say it after all....
"Go back, Berlin... I'm going to say it all today. Le Yao continued to open the heavy book....
The cottage is quiet.
The wind stopped the hustle and bustle.
The confinement lady held the child and stood silently in the distance.
The child didn't cry, he was very well-behaved...