"Looking forward to it, looking forward to you discovering my love ......"

As soon as the chorus sounded, Shen Yize sat up from the sofa with a pout. He held his breath and pressed down to answer, "Hey? ”

"What are you doing? Are you done with it? ”

An An's voice could not hear the slightest fluctuation.

"I'm done early, I'm waiting for your call."

"Come back, do you really want to wait another year?"

Shen Yize's hanging heart landed instantly, and he said tentatively: "Have you finished reading it?" ”

Yang Jiu'an said "um": "Let's talk about it later, I have a lot of questions, it's inconvenient on the phone, I'm afraid that the wall has ears." ”

Listening to An An's tone, she shouldn't mind, not only didn't she mind, but she seemed to be a little excited?

"I'll be right back!"

"Slow down, don't be in a hurry. You drank alcohol and found someone to help you drive. ”

"Good!"

……

Hanging up the phone, Yang Jiuan went downstairs to cook quick-frozen dumplings.

If you don't eat for a day, and if you don't pay your salary, your stomach will be uncovered.

Reading a diary while cooking dumplings.

Until now, she is still a little dizzy, she believes that what Mr. Shen said is true, such a thick diary, so many details, recording all the key nodes and interesting things from childhood to adulthood, he can't afford to spend so much effort to make up a piece of paper, just to make her happy.

And compared with the content in the diary, many things make sense, such as why he knows the Shu dialect, why he knows everything about Shu, why he has never studied music theory, but he plays the piano so well, and why his personality has changed greatly after breaking up with his ex-girlfriend......

It's not so much a diary, it's more like Mr. Shen's autobiography, his past, the reason why he became him, are all in this autobiography.

After reading it, she realized that Mr. Shen's musical literacy was not created out of nothing, but after more than ten or twenty years of hard work, his social skills were not achieved overnight, but survival skills learned through hard work.

Before this, she had always thought that Teacher Shen was born in a warm family and had an enviable and beautiful childhood, but in fact it was the opposite.

She and his childhood can be said to be two completely different extremes, the only thing that is the same is that neither of them gave up on themselves, and in the end they can be regarded as the same goal.

Turn off the heat, remove the dumplings with a colander, pour a small amount of chili oil, soy sauce, vinegar and garlic juice into a saucer, and stir well.

Licking the dipping sauce on the tip of the chopsticks, it was so fragrant that she couldn't wait to feast on it.

I sat down at the table, ate a few bites, and suddenly realized that something seemed to be missing.

Something that almost went down to dinner.

Yang Jiu'an thought about it and took the diary, although she had read it carefully word by word, she still wanted to take another look, one last look.

She flipped through it.

"Friday, 2005.07.01

This summer vacation is the beginning of all changes.

My parents signed me up for a month's summer camp. It is said to be a summer camp, but in fact, it is a make-up class to conduct targeted training for the entrance examination of the junior class of Xi'an Jiaotong University.

Maybe I did have some talent, maybe it was just that I started early, and I won the first prize in the Olympiad and Huasai when I was in the third grade, which caused my parents to have a lot of unrealistic expectations for me.

Their income is not high, and they are usually reluctant to buy me clothes and toys, but they are willing to give me a year's salary to send me to Xi'an (that is, Chang'an here) to participate in this summer camp that is fueled by seedlings.

Anyway, it was the first time I left Shudu, and it was also the first time I got rid of my parents' control.

I stayed at my uncle's house, and it was there that I met my cousin, who was a music teacher......"

"Thursday, December 31, 2008

As my parents wished, I successfully got the recommendation of the school and obtained the reference qualification for the entrance examination of the junior class of Xi'an Jiaotong University.

But on the eve of the exam, while they were asleep, I stole all the cash from them, left the hotel overnight, and never went back.

I will never forget the moment I walked out of the hotel, the air was exceptionally fresh and free that night, I stood in front of the hotel, looked back at their room, and felt the pleasure of revenge in my heart, for all these years of beating, persecution and suffering.

The dream they imposed on me, I finally ruined with my own hands before it was about to come true.

After that, I followed the plan and went to find my cousin......"

"Sunday, December 24, 2017

Good people don't live long. My only relative, my music teacher, my cousin Zhuang Ran, left me forever on this unsafe Christmas Eve.

When the clock rang at zero o'clock, my girlfriend of four years proposed to me to break up.

On the banks of the Huangpu River, there are many couples, but I am like a stray old dog, holding a rose in my hand that no one will receive, waiting for someone who will not come again.

I looked at the sparkling waves on the river and my reflection in the sparkling waves, and I knew that from now on, I would be alone......"

"2020.08.21, Friday

My ordinary life was marked with a comma on this day.

The cause of death is unknown, I guess it was sudden death, because before I died, I was playing tricks in the crew, and when I hung Weiya, my brain suddenly twitched, and I woke up here.

I very much suspect that I may have established some kind of connection with Shen Yize a long time ago, so when he dies, I also have to be buried with him, which should be what people often call one corpse and two lives (serious face)......"

There was the sound of a key twisting in the doorway.

Teacher Shen is back.

Yang Jiu'an didn't move, only looking at him with a smile.

"What are you doing?"

Shen Yize changed his shoes and entered the house, put the briefcase on the sofa, picked up the meowing Douding and slowly walked towards her.

Yang Jiuan raised the diary in his hand and waved: "Look at your memoirs." ”

"Didn't you say you finished reading it?"

"Two brushes."

"What's the deal with here?"

Yang Jiu'an didn't answer, she put down her diary, beckoned, and said, "Come here." ”

Shen Yize obediently walked up to her.

"Put the cat down."

He bent down and put down the pee, and as soon as he got around, he was hugged by a soft embrace.

Yang Jiu'an leaned into his ear and whispered, "Shen Shen, I love you." ”

Shen Yize was stunned for a moment, and then smiled, this was the first time he heard An An say these three words, and these three words were enough to explain her attitude.

He reached out and put his arm around her waist and kissed her.

Yang Jiuan immediately covered his mouth: "Don't!" You just drank wine, I just ate dumplings, go rinse your mouth first. ”

After rinsing his mouth, Shen Yize hugged her and kissed her, and asked directly: "So...... Even so, do you still want to marry me? ”

"Of course!" Yang Jiuan didn't think about it, "Why do you think I will regret it because of this?" ”

"Because I'm probably not as good as you think."

"Isn't that good, you're so good, I'm worried that my family's throne won't be guaranteed."

“……”

Seeing that Teacher Shen rolled his eyes to the sky, Yang Jiu'an laughed and said, "I'm teasing you!" I really don't think this is very important, I like you because you understand me, you are good to me, I am very happy with you, it has nothing to do with whether you are Zhuang Yi or not, whether you can write songs.

You should know, I already liked you long before I found out that you were Zhuang Yi. Moreover, even if you remove all your current halo, you are still very good, you can sing, play the piano, dance, and act, you are already stronger than many people!

Besides, you even won the first prize in the Olympiad in elementary school! Isn't this better than singing and dancing? ”

Shen Yize was moved and angry: "Okay, you, I have the material to complain in the future, right?" ”

Yang Jiu'an stuck out his tongue and looked proud: "This is called applying what you have learned, after reading such a thick biography, you have to learn something." ”

This girl is so cute even when she gets up, Shen Yize couldn't help pinching her little face, and said with emotion: "I didn't expect you to call me so soon, I thought it would take you days just to convince yourself to believe it!" ”

Yang Jiuan tilted his head: "Why?" ”

"Because of the crossing—"

"Shhhh Be quiet, don't be heard. ”

"If you can't hear it, don't be suspicious."

Saying that, Shen Yize lowered his voice slightly: "Because this matter is too supernatural, it's like many people say that they have seen UFOs, but few people really believe it." I hesitated for a long time before giving you the diary, and one of the reasons was that I was afraid that you would not believe me. ”

Yang Jiuan disagreed: "Whether I believe it or not depends on your attitude towards this matter." If you say it like a joke with a hippie smile, I can't believe it. But if you tell me openly and very seriously, even if you say that you have seen ghosts, I will definitely believe it. ”

"Are you scared then?"

"Why should I be afraid? You're not a murderer. On the contrary, I am happy that you are willing to tell me this secret. I thought about whether I would tell you about it if I had crossed over. I probably would, but it's really, really hard to decide, and it takes unconditional trust and enough love. This is the most important thing I have seen in your diary. "It's really lucky to have an understanding and open-minded girlfriend, Shen Yize hugged her again and kissed her.

"Alright, let's go!"

"Where?"

"Go to the balcony."

Yang Jiu'an moved two small square stools and a brazier to the balcony, she took the notebook and lighter, and turned the first page.

"What are you doing?"

Shen Yize could guess what she wanted to do, but she still asked.

"Burned it. God knows about this matter, you know it and I know it, so don't leave the hidden dangers. I don't want to wake up one day and find that the chef is halfway done in the kitchen and the chef has been arrested and researched. ”

Yang Jiu'an's tone was very calm, obviously he had already thought about doing this.

She tore off the first page, lit it with a lighter, and threw it into the brazier.

Shen Yize looked at the dancing flames in the brazier, and was a little stunned for a while. The pure white paper turned into charred crumbs in a matter of seconds, and disappeared with his past.

"Do you want to go over there?"

Yang Jiuan asked suddenly.

Shen Yize shook his head: "I don't want to, there are no people and things worth remembering me." ”

"I still remember when you recorded "Heartbeat", you told me that in the dead of night, you will often be restless and panic, and you will feel that this world does not belong to you, and you do not belong to this world. No matter how successful you are in your career and how much money you make, it will not bring you a solid and stable sense of belonging.

I didn't really understand it at the time, but I understand now. If I could travel back in time to that day, I would give you a hug. ”

Shen Yize was very touched, and he couldn't imagine the conversation three years ago, An An still remembers it.

He was silent for a long time before he said slowly: "Then you will be beaten to death by the choreographer." ”

"Poof!"

Yang Jiuan didn't hold back for a moment, and laughed out loud.

She immediately smiled and glared at him, "You're so annoying, I want to talk to you heartily, can't you be serious?" ”

Shen Yize said coldly: "I found it." ”

"Huh?"

"I've found a sense of belonging."

Yang Jiuan looked up at him, he was also looking at her, his eyes were full of tenderness.

The sense of belonging he found spoke for itself.

She lowered her head and pursed her lips and smiled, the beating light of the fire lining her side face and neckline particularly charming.

"Then the ex-girlfriend you mentioned to me before shouldn't be Ju Ran, right?"

"No, I'm just taking the blame."

"It's good that it's not the one who took the plate."

Shen Yize laughed: "That's right, it's good to break up, if I'm pregnant, then I'll be miserable." ”

Yang Jiuan then asked: "Then is your ex-girlfriend beautiful?" ”

"Does it matter?"

"It's not important, but I'm curious!"

Shen Yize said calmly: "When I like her, she is the most beautiful in my eyes." ”

"And now?"

"Right now, you're the most beautiful."

Yang Jiu'an wanted to hear this, and he was immediately overjoyed.

Shen Yize stretched out his hand: "I'll burn it." ”

"No, your past will be buried by my own hands."

This girl, the second middle school disease has flares up again.

Yang Jiu'an took it slowly, and always took a look at it before tearing it off, to see what was written on this page, and to see if he could recall it.

"So the songs you put in "To Yang Da Beauty" are all original by you?"

"Yes," Shen Yize nodded, "Do you think there is a big gap with the songs I published?" I really don't take the good ones and leave the bad ones to you, because that's the only level. ”

Yang Jiuan said: "No, I think your original song is also very good!" And it's exclusive to me, and what is exclusive is the most precious. ”

"If you like it." Shen Yize smiled, "You should know after reading the diary, I used to be very stubborn, and I always wanted to prove my ability with my grades, but after meeting you, I calmed down a lot and let go of a lot of obsessions." Some things really don't matter that much, especially when compared to you. ”

"There's really no need to be too obsessed with results, like us documentarians, everyone is super Buddhist, because we know that it is difficult for documentaries to produce results. The reason why I am willing to do this is not to go for fame or success in the worldly sense, but because of love, as long as I don't starve to death, I will always persevere. ”

An An's mentality is really good, which Shen Yize is ashamed of.

The two talked a lot, Yang Jiuan was full of curiosity about the other world, and she pestered Teacher Shen to tell her the similarities and differences between the two worlds.

This is a very big topic, from 1912 to the present, more than 100 years of history, there are many things to talk about.

Shen Yize chatted with her all over the world, and said what he thought of.

He is a person who can speak well, and he actually doesn't remember a lot of history so clearly, but he can make it reasonable, anyway, An An doesn't really want to hear historical stories, just for the sake of curiosity and fun, so there is no need to be too elegant.

But when it comes to the entertainment industry after the 21st century, this is his home field.

He started from the golden generation of the millennium, to the heyday of the Chinese music scene in 04 and 05, to the green and yellow around 10 years, to the 15 years of divine comedy everywhere, and then to the 20 years of saliva songs; He also talked about the reform of the film and television industry, the rise of new media, the chaos of traffic being king, and the reshuffle of the pan-entertainment era......

The speaker gushed endlessly, and the listener relished.

Shen Yize has also held back for too long, and once the valve of confiding is opened, he can't stop at all.

Yang Jiu listened to him quietly, and said casually: "It sounds like the entertainment industry over there is not getting better and better!" ”

"Anyway, when I crossed over, it was still very bad, and the rice circle was especially chaotic, and I don't know if it was rectified."

"I feel that we are about to enter the era when traffic is king, and now it is also a variety of drafts, all kinds of idols, one after another, and the replacement is too fast, I can't name many new stars at all, and I don't have any works that I can handle."

Shen Yize sighed: "Yes, the fans' money is too easy to make, a saliva song, the production cost is less than 100,000, and you can easily cut off millions of leeks from fans." A few years ago, when we attended the conference, we were still discussing how to promote the development of the industry, but now it has all become how to make money. ”

Yang Jiuan was worried: "Then wouldn't it be a loss for you to move those good works over and PK with them?" ”

Shen Yize Zhengse said: "Although fans are fanatical, ordinary listeners still have the ability to discern, they will vote with their feet, and this is especially true for singers with pursuits." Packaging idols do make money quickly, but people who want to do everything quickly also wilt quickly.

I use good works to connect with them, in fact, I use the foil of my peers to enhance our company's industry status to attract more outstanding talents to come to them. I run a marathon, and I don't compete with those sprinters for a while. ”

Yang Jiu'an glanced at him, and little stars flashed in his eyes. She didn't understand business matters, she only thought that Mr. Shen, who talked eloquently, was so handsome.

"Alright, it's burned!"

She got up, dusted off the crumbs from her clothes, and went into the house with a brazier.

Shen Yize followed behind her with two small square stools.

After destroying the diary, Yang Jiuan finally breathed a sigh of relief.

She didn't care if Teacher Shen was a traverser or not, the only thing she was worried about was that others would know the secret.

How will the world treat a traverser?

In short, it will not be treated well, after all, it involves major scientific issues such as souls, parallel universes, and over-distance transmission, and there is a high probability that they will be tied up as guinea pigs by relevant institutions.

"Shen Shen, shall we agree on one thing?"

"What's the matter?"

"From now on, whether it's a party or a party, let's not get drunk outside. I'm afraid that if I slip out of my mouth when I'm delirious, let others know that you're a traverser. ”

Shen Yize smiled and said: "No, even if you say it, no one will take it seriously." ”

"No way!" Yang Jiuan didn't follow, "You have to promise me, otherwise I won't worry." ”

"Okay, okay, I promise you, I'll report to you when I go out to socialize in the future, okay? You supervise me. ”

"That's pretty much it!"

Yang Jiu'an put his arms around his neck, pressed his body close to him, blinked and said, "My relatives have already left." ”

Shen Yize instantly smiled evilly, wrapped one hand around her small waist, and the other hand reached into her thin suspender pajamas.

She snorted, "First, well, take a shower first." ”

He immediately grabbed An An's buttocks and picked her up frontally.

Yang Jiu'an cooperated and wrapped his legs around his waist.

He hugged Ann and moved to the bathroom while kissing.

The door slammed shut, and there was a quick humming sound in the bathroom.

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