The sky was overcast, and at first the sunlight only exuded a faint yellow, which was so faint that it was difficult to notice. The faint light was blocked out by the glass window, and it felt warm, and soon, the sunlight was a little presumptuous, tentatively deepening the color little by little.

After breakfast, Qin Shen went back, and after sending him away, I returned home.

But my father sat at the table coldly as if he had changed his face.

At first he didn't say a word, but when he saw me approaching, he slowly opened his mouth.

"He's your boyfriend, isn't he, you've been playing with him at school all this time, right? No wonder your grades are dropping so fast, when is it now, do you have any points in your heart? ”

My father was an extremely self-righteous and strict man, and he never changed from childhood to adulthood.

In my father's eyes, no matter what I do, it seems that I will never be satisfied, as if in his eyes, I am always worthless.

Growing up, I quarreled with my father more than once, and I had a cold war countless times.

I don't even think I want to stay in this home for a moment.

Since I became an adult, it seems that our relationship has eased a lot, but in fact, we all have a lot of dissatisfaction and estrangement in our hearts, but in order to maintain the apparent calm, no one has spoken out.

"What does my bad grades have to do with him, I say no, it's not."

"You're just not sensible, and every time you come back, you make people angry!" His tone began to grow caustic, and he began to yell at the top of his voice.

Not again.

Every time something happens that doesn't suit his mind, he starts yelling at me and scolding me, belittleing me for being worthless.

Because of him, I couldn't believe that I was worthy of love in high school.

Even though I behaved normally, I couldn't ignore his sarcasm and blows to me, and my heart was always shrouded in loneliness and fear.

Maybe I'm excellent in the eyes of others, but I'm actually an extremely sensitive and timid person.

Tears were already rolling in my eyes, and my reason reminded me again and again that you are already a big girl, you are 30 years old, you can solve the problem well.

But when I tried to speak, I didn't know what to say.

It turned out that the nightmare that had been haunting me for so many years had not been eliminated, it was just hiding.

Going around and around, this unsolved problem came to me again.

My maturity and experience over the years turned out to be just self-deception, and I was vulnerable to nightmares.

Sometimes, even if you do it all over again, you can't find the answer.

I didn't yell at my father like I did when I was younger, I just was speechless and let the tears fall like broken threads.

Then, I pushed the door open and walked out.

There was a violent roar from the father: "Do you still have the ability to go out?" If you go out, don't come back! ”

The caustic voice wafted behind my ears, and my heart was gushing with blood as if it had been pricked.

I didn't take anything with me when I went out, and I fumbled for my purse, and there were a few coins in it.

So I got on the bus.

When I'm in a bad mood, I like to do a 1-way ring car to go around.

Asakawa is a small city, and it only takes two hours to walk around the city.

I usually don't bother to walk and get on the city bus and lean my head against the window to watch the scenery.

I used to feel as sad as the heroine in a Korean drama, but in fact, my head would only be shaken and hurt.

I stared blankly at the scenery on the road, and I didn't know how long the car had been driving.

Suddenly, I saw Li Yunling through the thick glass.

I waved at him, and he saw my pupils dilated in surprise before running after the bus I was on.

I got off the bus at this stop, and Li Yunling just ran to the bus stop.

I got out of the car and greeted Li Yunling.

Li Yunling asked, "Why are you here?" ”

I looked around, I had never been here before, and it seemed to be some distance from the city.

"I'm just going to wander around, what about you, do you live so far away?"

Li Yunling shook his head.

"I don't live here, I went to the hospital to see my mother."

I suddenly remembered, so I blurted out: "Aunt Su's kidney disease is still not cured, why is she hospitalized again?"

I regret it as soon as I say it.

Li Yunling immediately seized the loophole in my words: "How do you know that my mother has kidney disease, you know my mother?" ”

I can only make up the excuse and lie that my mom knows his mom.

Li Yunling said that he had never heard his mother mention me, so I could only explain awkwardly that it was because I was not as famous as you.

I don't know if he believes it or not.

Li Yunling's mother, Aunt Su, my mother-in-law.

All in all, in the two years that Li Yunling and I have been dating and marrying, Aunt Su has always been very good to me.

Aunt Su has always been in poor health, but her personality is very gentle.

When I met Aunt Su, she was very kind to me and completely treated me as if I was a daughter, so I dispelled my worries about my mother-in-law.

Legend has it that mother-in-law is generally a very vicious image, but Aunt Su is completely like an angel.

I was quite worried about Aunt Su, so I proposed to follow Li Yunling to the hospital.

Li Yunling was obviously worried, but after I repeatedly emphasized that I was really familiar with Aunt Su, he relented and took me over.

When I walked into the ward, I saw Aunt Su, whom I hadn't seen for a long time.

She was much younger than I remembered, and her hair was very dark.

Although Aunt Su's face is relatively pale, she is still very beautiful.

Her facial features are exquisite, just like a female star in Hong Kong and Taiwan in the 80s. If you look at Li Yunling again, you will know that it is no wonder that she gave birth to such a handsome son, it turns out that her mother is a beauty.

I greeted her as soon as I saw her.

She asked very affectionately: "Hello little girl, you are Li Yunling's girlfriend, right?" This was the first time he had brought his girlfriend to see me. ”

Li Yunling was very confused: "Mom? I don't have a girlfriend, don't you two know each other? ”

I looked at him with wide eyes, and my eyes were asking, you don't have a girlfriend? Zhang Churan, isn't it?

Li Yunling looked at me with wide eyes, and his eyes were asking, don't you know my mother?

Her eyes were tired, and Aunt Su looked at us with a smile and told us to find a chair to sit down first.

I found a chair and sat down in front of the bed.

Aunt Su took my hand and looked at my face carefully.

"The little girl is so handsome, her eyes are bright, and she feels very kind when she looks at it, as if she has known each other for a long time."

I smiled. I've known each other for a long time.

"Aunt Su, how are you doing, how are you doing?" I asked.

"Very well, don't worry." Aunt Su replied.

Li Yunling's tone was not very good: "Mom, what's the matter, how can your situation drag on?" Li Jun won't come back to see you, he's going to have kidney dialysis soon, what if he can't get the money at that time. ”

Aunt Su's eyes drooped: "Don't talk about your dad like that." ”

"Can he be considered a father like this? Every time I ask him for living expenses, I shirk it, and I don't even come to see you when you're sick! ”

Li Yunling was so angry that his ears turned red.

The emotional Li Yunling suddenly realized that I was still there, so he said to me: "I'm sorry to let you hear about my family affairs, I shouldn't mention this in front of my classmates." ”

"It's okay, I know all these things."

Li Yunling's eyebrows furrowed suspiciously, as if asking, what do you know?

I seemed to be leaking my mouth again, so I could only change the conversation: "Because my dad is like this, so I can understand your feelings." ”

The voice lingered in the ward, and everyone's pain was clear at a glance.