Chapter 39: Xinyue's farewell

said goodbye to Chu Lingshan. I returned to Shanghai with mixed feelings. It was as if he had just said goodbye to a long-lost heavy rain, holding an umbrella in his hand, but the rain was too strong and useless, and even his head and face were pouring rain, and he couldn't open his eyes at all, and he couldn't see the direction clearly. It was windy and the body was cold.

At this point I began to doubt everything. A world without true love at all is like a huge empty shell, gorgeous on the outside, but empty on the inside, and you can only hear your own echo when you use all the power of the wilderness. The true feelings that have been paid in the past have never been reciprocated in the same sense in a realistic sense. Often the more you give, the less you get. When you unreservedly try your best to protect her, what you get is not cherished and easy to be ignored.

When I wanted to love Chu Lingshan with all my heart, fate played a big joke, and finally let you love it. The fact that you can't change even with all your strength makes you have to accept the reality. The doomed ending has to be slowly gifted with time.

Whenever loneliness climbs the wall of the night, only a dim orange lamp looks into your eyes, it is an inseparable companion. After experiencing an unforgettable emotional entanglement, he was no longer able to escape from love, and the other party had gone ashore without a trace. But you climbed ashore weakly, sat by the river, and refused to leave. There's always someone who has to go first.

When I met Chu Lingshan, I no longer had the innocence I had at the beginning, and the word love was just a word. The word love has been removed from mind. It's just that you can be accompanied by a good person, but if you don't meet and be free.

Chu Lingshan, who returned to Shanghai, called again, and had already stepped on a plane to the United States with her father, Xing Zhenyun. I was completely thrown out of the clouds like an outsider. It had to put me in an embarrassing and cramped situation.

It is a virtue to fulfill the wishes of others, and if you need me, go to the soup. If you don't need me, you can go to the end of the world. It's time to plan your career and goals in life, after all, life goes on.

After finding a few former colleagues and partners, it was not easy to make a comeback. The mode of operation of the capital market is to have capital. People always want to help people who will soon see the benefits to solve their problems. Friends made when conditions are good are often unreliable.

I'm afraid the hardest thing for people is to start anew. When all the blood is in vain, hope becomes a dream that cannot be fulfilled. The youth, passion, and galloping years are also destined to bow their arrogant heads.

It's never as good as starting the first time. planned to find an errand, but Xing Xinyue had nothing to plan for. I can't reach it even if I want to!

Yuan Sisi worked as a planner in an advertising company, and there was a lack of a director in the advertising department who recommended me to go. So I said yes. Yuan Sisi is still asking questions in a hurry, and the whole one is endless, digging into the roots. I could only meet her requirements and recounted it from beginning to end.

The trajectory of life is back on track. It's too late to let go of a little tiredness, and the successive bad news mercilessly whipped your body.

Xing Xinyue came back, it was her father who called, her condition deteriorated, and she was in first aid, and not long after I rushed to the hospital, Xinyue died. When she was leaving, she told me if she looked good, was she haggard? She also told me that she knew Chu Lingshan, and that the person who had kept me in my heart for so long would definitely be different, and finally met.

Xing Xinyue is extremely attached and reluctant. The eyes seem to see some corner of the future, smiling and shining. I feel so sorry for her for not being able to give her a complete love, or even a complete home.

Laughing like this, he left this cold world in pain. Although I knew that such a day would come sooner or later, it was still so difficult to accept when I actually came. The deepest self-blame is not doing my best to give her warmth and love, so that this girl who has been strong and competitive since she was a child, lonely in her heart but generous in appearance, feels a little safe and warm.

Indifference struck every nerve, but there are some things that really can't be forced. For example, parting is an irrevocable future. Maybe in this life, no one can hug each other, and I didn't expect it to be like this in Xinyue's last moments.

The grief of the world is like love and can't stay together, and I love life deeply but is always tormented by fate. Thinking of the experience over the years, no matter how many setbacks there are, there will always be a day in the past, but the pain of life and death parting cannot be discharged.

How many times did you wonder what the meaning of existence really is? What kind of life will not live up to the encounters in this life. What kind of stay together can there be no regrets in this life. What kind of nostalgia lives up to the past. Often in a daze, tears will flow down from time to time.

The residual warmth in the palm of his hand is still there, and the enthusiasm of Xinyue seems to have just turned around and left, and he will never come back. It is said that time can dilute everything, but the time experienced is full of memories and painful!

She took all my energy away from me, and I will never meet again. I didn't dare to touch such beauty, and I told myself countless times in my heart that I would no longer want the patronage of love from now on. There will also be no more time and energy to capture and manage similar emotions. Just like the plot imagined before, a person is free and free, and it is good to wander the world.

Thoughts loom like a dark cloud over the city's sky. Hollowed out the soul, the body moved through the empty house. No one wants to see it.