The more I grow up, the more lonely I become, which probably means that I have thought about some things clearly, seen through some people, and seen through all the illusions of the world, but I still face life with a smile. It's just that I don't have the impulse of youth. Exercise restraint like a gentleman's demeanor.

Growth is also scratched all over the body, who has not been contaminated by a body of dust. Shredding is for splicing, only staying on words, not in life. Maybe the life of a truly self-deceptive person is the happiest, and I don't want to grow up to be an unattainable thing, so I know the value of cherishing.

It's rare to see each other once, and the endless topics seem to be sometimes calm, sometimes high-pitched. The feeling of gaining and losing that has been buried for many years has been excavated in one brain. Time and opportunity are really precious, if you let go of this opportunity, I don't know if we can meet again in the next decade.

Ling Shan said that when she first came that year, she lived in her second sister's house, and she was not used to it. After all, in someone else's house, no matter how good a sister is, she is not comfortable, not to mention her brother-in-law. The taste of sending people under the fence is self-evident, and it can only be at the mercy of others. Since he came, there was no way to change anything, and he was hopeless.

Later, I met a person under the introduction of others, that is, my husband who got married later, who was engaged in decoration, and the economic conditions were okay. Later, he got married and had a son, and he often worked outside, and when he earned money, he spent all day drinking outside and rarely cared about the family. Naturally, the relationship between the two people is not so good.

Whenever something doesn't go well, or a difference of opinion, she will add fists and kicks, Ling Shan is often beaten with a blue nose and swollen face, how can a weak woman bear such a toss. Later, I couldn't stand it anymore and divorced, and now I live a simple life alone.

After many years, those dusty past events have resurfaced in front of me, as if returning to yesterday. And each other is not the same version of themselves that they once were, there is no longer waiting and any expectations, and there is no longer passion and demand. I just feel that I have completed a spiritual old dream in my heart.

Just like Zhuangzi said: "It is better to forget each other in the rivers and lakes than to be in the foam." If you can't give each other happiness, then it's better to forget each other and find your own happiness. Such words are full of grief and heartache to understand, but they can be a good choice.

When Ling Shan asked me about the purpose of this trip, I smiled and said that it was to find someone and realize a dream. Maybe even I don't know if I'm here for Xinyue or Ling Shan, maybe both. People are always struggling in contradictions, sometimes some things are subconsciously germinated, and they may not want to think so, so there are countless reasons, sometimes the reasons are for facing others, sometimes they are deceiving themselves, who can completely distinguish it!

It's late at night, or don't leave, just lie down here! Chatting and chatting passed. Don't mind, right? I looked at Ling Shan.

Don't mind, I feel like I can't live with you in this life, you're the best person for me, I've always been at ease. I just didn't understand it before. I understand now, but it's too late, and that's fate. What's still unpredictable, you say! Ling Shan was a little more calm, indicating that there were no distractions, but it seemed how narrow-minded I was in comparison.

You've really grown up, but I still think you're a child.

Ling Shan smiled and said okay! Are you old, but what about children? I've been through too much, and who hasn't been covered in bruises, and now I'm almost invulnerable.

Ai, do you remember the first time you called me after we separated, it was many years later. Why are you smiling so happily? I never understood.

That's what you've always called! I was never called by my name. I've always called you Ling Shan. I remember that time, because I found your phone again and learned the news of your marriage on the phone, so I laughed. To be honest, I don't know why, but on the one hand, I am really happy for you, and on the other hand, I am very happy to find you and hear your voice. Maybe there's also the loss! Mixed tastes, don't laugh, do you make me cry!

At that time, I may be waiting for you, maybe I am not waiting, this is the reality of life, so at that moment, it is involuntary. When you don't see each other, it seems that you think about it every day, and there are so many things I want to tell you. I really met, but I didn't really want to say anything. When I looked at Ling Shan, for a moment, I wanted to hug her fiercely, but I was finally defeated by reason.

I don't really know what to say, so I'm afraid to contact you, and sometimes I want to talk, but I don't know how to say it. Ling Shan lowered her head and said silently. Do you want to go to me?

I said to Ling Shan that I thought about it. But I wouldn't go, I didn't expect to have the opportunity to tell you in person why I wouldn't go to you. I didn't expect you to ask that.

Why is that, what do you think? Ling Shan asked inquiringly.

I didn't think much about it, I just think that the person who left me is you, if you have me in your heart, I will come back, if you come back, I will not leave. If you don't come back, it means you don't have me in your heart. What can I solve if I go to you.

But that's all in the past, and now it's not awkward to talk face-to-face, right? It's finally time to be honest with each other. I said to Ling Shan.

Oh, yes! Time flies so fast, more than ten years have passed, and there is no going back. I miss my mom. If she had been around that year, we might have had a different outcome. Ling Shan choked up as she spoke, sobbing and plunging into my arms.

I don't know why she's so sad at this point. I don't know how to comfort them. Sobbing for a while, Ling Shan buried her head and said, I didn't know I already had yours when I left. I found out more than a month later. I was scared, so I went to buy medicine and secretly gave it away, I can't stand you. Then there was another choked up.

After listening to Ling Shan's words, it was really like a thousand arrows piercing the heart, his brain was blank, and he was stupidly at a loss. Didn't think of it, never thought of it. I really love and hate, I hate that Ling Shan is too ruthless, and what I love is that I let her bear too much alone.

It's too late to say anything. At that time, the love was gone, and it was futile to keep it. Perhaps this is also the best arrangement. It's just that hearing the truth more than ten years ago at this time doesn't make me shudder, there are too many ifs in life. If love is providential, it is not you.

All he has to pursue in his life may be making wedding dresses for others. What else can be believed! Disheartened, yes! If Ling Shan's mother was still there at that time. How nice it would be! It's a pity that life never has ifs.