But now the atmosphere in the company is obviously not very good, everyone is lifeless, just numbly playing games, and no one is discussing the New Year, maybe just because the New Year has long been meaningless for everyone, right?

The madman picked up the wine bottle at his feet, took a few sips, and looked at the air conditioner behind him, and this air conditioner unit, which will seem to be covered with dust, in short, it feels not as new as before, and it is not as exciting as before, it is like the New Year, when we were children, we all got a few dollars of New Year's money, and happily thought that we had the whole world, and now? Spring festival? Maybe you can't even figure out what the Chinese New Year is, right?

Zhang Na on the side went to the bathroom, and after coming back, she was insensitive to playing games, now she will never think that the so-called network company, the so-called game, this is a very magical and happy job, she has a deep understanding that this is the place to destroy the dream of life, she should have left a long time ago, but because of contentment and happiness, she stayed.

This is boring work, it's so boring that it's suffocating, there is not even a trace of waves, if you have to look for the so-called waves? Maybe it's only the heartbreaking despair of paying your salary every month, right?

……

Time is still fast, and the madman is still just a record, he can't find Lili, he can't find it anyway, and even prayers are useless. And what Lili left him was just a direction, but this direction seemed to have passed through time and the baptism of this cruel world, and slowly, it seemed that it was about to be lost again.

Is it because the direction is not clear enough? Or is it because the pen in your hand is no longer sharp? No, in fact, the direction is very clear, and the pen in his hand is also very sharp, but the reality is too cruel, the madman is sitting in his rental house at the moment, with a tattered tungsten light bulb above his head, and it is still an extremely quiet night outside the room, there is no one next door, and there is no next door next door, only the whirring wind that whistles by from time to time in the cold night outside.

He continued to record, record some of the trivial things that happened during the day, but? Nothing seems to have happened, and I don't know what to record, except for the thick calluses on my fingers, which seem to be of no other use to record this matter, perhaps for this prosperous and beautiful world, recording these trivial things is completely meaningless, because what is important in this world is only money, and as for recording these trivial things, it is obvious that there is no money.

He lit a cigarette and tried to dispel the sudden despair with the paralyzing sensation of nicotine, but he couldn't dispel it, because all he thought about was the salary problem in the company, yes, the salary was terrible, he knew that he had created too much wealth for his boss over the years, but he had not gained anything.

Looking at the bank card thrown at the bedside, there are less than 6,000 yuan in it, if you continue to stay in the Internet company? It is estimated that we are going to die, because 80% of the pain in our lives comes from work, but if we don't go to work, 100% of the pain comes from lack of money, and the current situation is that even if we go to work, day and night, there is still no money, which is the current situation of Internet companies.

There was also a lot of pen ink on the bedside floor, and a small bottle of three-second super glue that only used a little bit, and even the madman picked up the plastic bag at the bedside again, and took out a handkerchief from it, which was wrapped in a complete fountain pen that was no longer the torn pen it once was, but a complete fountain pen, and the glue and the new nib restored the pen to its former appearance.

Looking at this fountain pen, he smirked, and drank a few sips of wine, thinking, how much he wanted to use all his piety to introduce this fountain pen to Lili, how much he wanted to tell Lili in person, the heartbreaking and desperate, but intoxicating and charming stories of this fountain pen, but unfortunately everything seemed to be just a fantasy.

The tungsten light bulb above her head is still there, and Lili used to live in this room, and now, he lives here too. Lili used to cry here in despair, and he cried here in despair. Lili had been desperate to say goodbye from here, and he had done it, only to come back, and now, it seemed that it was about to really go about the so-called goodbye.

Turn off the light, get ready to sleep, kiss the pen in numbness, with tears in your eyes, no longer mumble to yourself, because the desire to blame yourself is inflated, obviously you have already received the most precious thing from Lili, but now you still want her infinitely, want her to accompany her for a lifetime, what a big desire?

……

After dawn, it's boring work, looking at the computer, I feel that the computer is insensitive, so far another month has passed, it's very unfortunate, even Zhang Na and her eldest brother around her have left here, because the salary is not enough to support herself, it seems that her salary is less than five hundred yuan, right? What's in the mood to go to work? As for the madman, what about him? I only took more than eight hundred dollars, and that seems to be a lot.

There are no so-called old employees in the company, and the only one who has been here for about the same time as a madman is the administrator, but the administrator is a fixed salary, and he doesn't play games, he's just a manager.

At this point, the madman finally made his final decision, and he knew that he would never see Lili again if he left here, because he himself did not know where Lili was, and Lili would no longer know where he was. He got up and looked at the new employees around him, who were laughing and talking about the words in their hearts, saying that they could do anything in the game, that they could go to heaven and earth......

Boring, really boring, boring and empty to the point of terrible rhetoric, yes, for a madman, that's exactly what it is, so he's banging lightly on the door of his boss's office at the moment.

The boss whispered: "The door is open, please come in." ”

The madman pushed open the door and saw that the boss was still sitting on his luxurious leather chair, but the boss's face didn't look very good, because the company's benefits were really not good recently, but despite this, the boss still smoked his incomparably expensive cigarette and flicked the ashes: "Is there something wrong?" ”

The madman smiled bitterly, sighed, and then whispered: "Boss, I still have more than 5,000 gold coins on my account, and other goods, don't want it, can you settle it for me?" ”

The boss was unhappy after hearing this, his face looked very ugly, and he was even more distracted for a while, and said that he was thinking about developing a new game, and he was also communicating with the German side, but he had not been able to get sales, but he was working hard, saying that he would be able to win it after a maximum of one or two months.

The madman has long heard enough of the boss's strategy of painting cakes to satisfy hunger, the boss is the boss, he will always be like this, he will always be painting cakes to satisfy hunger, but the painted cakes not only can not fill the stomach, but make people feel more hungry and even more painful, because the reality is like this, so the madman is completely disdainful of the boss's current painting cakes to satisfy hunger.

So the madman just smiled softly and shook his head at the moment facing the boss, indicating that there was no need to say anything more. The boss understood the madman's determination at this moment, and even said that he wished the madman that he could find a good job, saying that the madman was a very good person, and for these, the madman just smiled.

The madman got more than 130 yuan from the boss, and 5,000 gold coins used to be more than 500 yuan, but now the madman, he didn't stop, let alone look at the new employees who were still telling bold words, he just walked with his own confused and extremely confused steps, and even carried a wine bottle in his hand.

He didn't say goodbye to anyone, because he didn't know anyone, it was really like that, he got out of the company like this, the sun outside was so warm that it was intoxicating, and all of a sudden, he felt so tired and tired, as if he had never been so tired in his life.

Thinking that since I worked in an Internet company, I have never had this kind of confused and overwhelmed mood, with this feeling of complete despair, so far at this point in time, I have left here. And at this moment, he drank two large sips of wine, and in an instant, the spirits burned his heart, ah! It's been a long time, it's been a long time since I've had this burning feeling of spirits, and I'm in tears again in the bright sunshine, in the bustling city, and on the long street where people are surging and cars are coming and going.

The heartache was so bad that it was like being cut with a knife in life, and he was still sprinkling salt on it while cutting, completely unaware of what was wrong with him, and the pen that Lili gave himself was not still in his chest underwear? Is it the closest distance to your heart? Isn't this fountain pen still so hot at the moment because of his body temperature?

No, farewell, Lili......

That's right, is the life of a migrant worker, the so-called dreamer from all over the world! Isn't it exactly, turning around is forever? This is our world, but this world is a little too cruel, since it is a destined farewell, why did you ever let each other know each other, but also know each other, and even rely on each other?

This damn world! That's right, the madman cursed the world for the first time in tears, he thought it was not his fault, it was the fault of the world, he was like everyone thought of as a psychopath, or a madman, full of swear words and complaining.

The wine bottle in his hand was soon empty, and he walked to the alley at the entrance of the ancient town, the old man in the small shop was still sitting in it, still holding his purple sand cup, still squinting his eyes, at this moment, the madman suddenly realized, it turned out that the old man was a wise man, and he was the wisest in the world, because the old man knew what life was, and he was enjoying his life.

Back in the big courtyard, everything here is like the sun, the colorful soap bubble-like dream, everything is vivid, but it is suddenly shattered and turned into nothing. He opened his door and began to pack his things.