But the madman just smiled, and didn't start immediately, and picked up the nail clippers and began to cut the nails, Yaping was helpless, but she didn't say anything, because the madman was just afraid that the nails would scratch her, cut the nails, and sharpened the nails with the small file on the nail clippers for a while, and then wiped the root of his life with antiseptic wipes, and then prepared the condom.

It is said that Xiao Biesheng is newly married, and I don't know who this sentence came from, but the person who said this sentence must have a deep understanding, and the current madman and Yaping are also deeply experienced, in short, the two have only been separated for a week, but at this moment, it seems that they haven't seen each other for many years, and they have been tossing for most of the day.

……

When the madman picked up the phone, he saw that he had been tossing for almost an hour, both of them were sweating profusely under the air conditioner, and both of them were lying on the bed like mud, and the madman asked his doubts: "You haven't moved much, why are you so tired, I can't figure it out." ”

Yaping just said a word like mud, and then stopped talking, and finally the two hugged each other and fell asleep, maybe they were too tired, so the madman got up in the afternoon, and Yaping was lying on the quilt with a book and reading, and the madman didn't wear clothes after he got up, so he sat naked at the desk, opened the cabinet not far away slightly, and stuffed some torn clothes or something, of course, the most cigarettes.

Looking at these large quantities of cigarettes, I suddenly had a lot of thoughts, thinking that when I was in an Internet company, although the cigarettes I got every month were also carried in plastic bags, and those cigarettes were not as expensive as these, but those cigarettes had a different meaning, and the pile of cigarettes in front of me at this moment seemed to only record my infinite sins.

That's right, this is his own sin, so he lit a cigarette, looked at the notebook in front of him, yesterday Yaping left a lot of words scolding himself on it, and then took his diary, this diary is not in the right place every day, it is not difficult to imagine, Yaping must have looked through it, but recently this diary has been recording her own sins, and occasionally recording some of her helplessness and despair, it is not difficult to imagine that these have been seen by Yaping.

Smoking a cigarette in numbness, this is very worried to speak: "Tomorrow you go home, send me a text message when you get in the car, and send me a text message when you get home to report safety, if there is anything on the way, you must contact me, I will definitely not look for you for small things, at most comfort you a few words, if it is a big event, I will definitely go to you as soon as possible." ”

Yaping put down the book in her hand, grinned indifferently, and just said that she knew, so she continued to read, but the madman proposed: "Let's do it again, right?" ”

Yaping didn't speak, and the madman thought that this was her acquiescence, so the two began to linger again, as if they would be more tossed than in the morning, in short, the two were lingering for a long time, and finally the madman was just full of emotions that didn't know whether it was uncomfortable or what, so he began to wash, because he was about to go to work in the company.

It wasn't until he was about to leave the room that Yaping got up, hugged the madman and kissed him, and then told the madman to take care of himself, and then the two hurriedly parted.

……

The madman just took over the shift at night, and then he saw Lingling sitting in the small room, and she was wearing a very thin look, that is, a pair of off-white skinny jeans, with a factory uniform on top, and it seemed to be a particularly thin sweater inside, and the madman just yawned and watched her continue to play with her mobile phone, as if she was really playing with her mobile phone, right? Above is the interface of the chat.

At this point, the madman asked: "Why don't you use your phone to watch TV, such a good mobile phone." ”

Lingling grinned directly: "You don't have money, traffic is very expensive, you don't dare to post too many pictures when chatting, and you still watch TV?" ”

The madman felt that he didn't seem to understand this, so he didn't say anything more, but directly took out his book and continued to read, because now Lingling was sitting here, almost completely occupying the entire small computer desk, so she couldn't write normally.

Finally, at about twenty o'clock, Lingling just said that she was going back to the workshop, and then said that she would see you next year, and the madman also said that she would see you next year, which locked the roller shutter door of the dock from the outside.

Now it's another lonely night for a person, and it's a confusing night, all I think about is Yaping, it's really her besides her, and in the end I can only take out my mobile phone, which sends a text message to Yaping: Rest early, take the car tomorrow, don't sleep in the car, sleep again when you get home, it's not safe in the car.

Yaping replied to this text message in an instant: I know, you copy the book well, I'm cleaning up, and I'll go to sleep after cleaning up.

The madman saw the text message replied, but did not continue to reply, just picked up his pen and continued to copy the book, yes, like a neuropath, his fingers hurt and gritted his teeth, and sometimes it hurt so much that he shed tears, but when he thought of his incompetence, and even his confused future, he could only grit his teeth and endure this pain that went deep into the bone marrow, and continued to write, because he really didn't know what he could do except write, so he could only write in crying, And after up to ten hours of writing a day, my fingers are actually cramping all the time, but what can I do?

At night, at the request of the security squad leader, I went into the workshop to patrol, and found that there were obviously more than half fewer people, and it seemed that they all went home, right? But even so, this still caught a few people sleeping, and then reported it to the squad leader.

That's right, work life is so boring, so helpless, even desperate, once thought that as long as I can keep copying books, it's like going to heaven on earth, but is my current self really in heaven on earth? No, no, it's still in hell, as if every minute and second of this hell on earth is fighting with the incompetent and desperate self, but I don't know what I'm fighting for, it's really strange.

When I get home from work in the morning, the air conditioner at home is turned off, turned on, and the whole room is quiet, of course, except for the hum of the air conditioner at this time, but this air conditioner is really head-on, but it is comfortable, and the electricity bill last month was more than 500 yuan, which is really terrible.

No, I shouldn't be thinking about this now, so I sat at the desk again, and immediately found that this room was just empty to the point of being horribly empty at this moment, and here was just one person missing Yaping, smoking a cigarette in numbness, looking at the bed, except for Yaping on the bed, and the fluffy rabbit was gone, everything else seemed to be there, and even a few pairs of Yaping's underwear were thrown on the pillow, which should be dirty? Perhaps.

Then I saw Yaping's messages on the notebook, there were a lot of them, all of them told me to take care of myself or something, and to text her often, saying that she could only send text messages, because she also needed to pick up calls on her mobile phone at home and roam a lot, yes, now Yaping told herself a lot.

But what's the use of all this? But think about it, at most, it's just more than 20 days apart, it's not a big deal, and it's not that Yaping insists on separating from herself, Yaping invited herself to her home, and even met her parents directly, but she is useless, she can really only refuse, inferiority, yes, a deep inferiority complex.

With this deep sense of inferiority, I lit a cigarette again, and then smoked a cigarette, looking at this room like a nerd, everything in this room was quiet except for the hum of the air conditioner, and this silence made me feel scared, this is a feeling of loneliness, really scared, but what can I do?

After a while, in this small room, it was like a densely populated Internet café, it was almost smoky, it seemed that he had smoked too many cigarettes, and now he didn't want to wash his face, let alone brush his teeth, trouble, or when he thought that the water was cold, he didn't want to boil the water, so he took off his clothes and went to sleep, picked up a few pairs of Yaping's underwear on the pillow, looked through it a little, it was indeed dirty, and then threw it on the edge of the bed, thinking about washing it tomorrow, anyway, Yaping is not there now, and she can't wear it after washing.

But for some reason, I couldn't sleep in bed until more than ten o'clock in the morning, I received a text message from Yaping, Yaping said that she got in the car, said that she would be able to get home in the evening, and he immediately replied: Well, you must pay attention to safety, don't sleep in the car, there are many thieves and bad people in the car.

Yaping just replied that she knew, so far, the madman he was a little relieved, and then looked at the alarm clock on his phone, and then began to fall asleep, yes, maybe only when he learned that Yaping was absolutely safe, he could fall asleep, right?

……

When I got up in the afternoon, the room was still terrible empty, of course, except for the hum of the air conditioner, and then I lit a cigarette first, and kept telling myself that Yaping would come back in more than 20 days at most, it was really like this, yes, I really have been warning and comforting myself like this.

Then he picked up the pen, sat at the desk and began to record, and now he is writing a diary, as for the most important thing to record at present, it must be the big event of Yaping's homecoming, and other things are not important at all.

At night, I went to work again, and according to the squad leader, the employees in the company walked a lot today, and they were all going home, so they didn't patrol at night, and the madman just sighed, and then returned to the small room on the dock.

At present, everything in the small room on the dock is the same, nothing seems to have changed, whether it is the large electric heater, or the plastic stool and computer desk, or even the stainless steel cup in the computer or even the filing cabinet, there is really no change, the only thing that has changed may be that Lingling is not here at the moment.