After thinking about it for a while, I smoked several cigarettes, and finally turned on the computer, the unique system boot sound, and then clicked on the web page, because it was the network cable of the landlord's house, so it was very stuck, especially at night, and it seemed to take a few minutes to open a web page, but in the end it was opened.

This is a small book-writing platform, enter the account password, enter the author's background, and the news does come in the background, click on it to see, as expected: the review failed.

The madman didn't understand what he was wrong with, he obviously used a lot of devotion and hard work to write, and even the first chapter of the book alone, only a few thousand words, but it took four or five hours to get off work before it was revised and uploaded, but why? Is it because you haven't worked hard enough?

I've been thinking about it for a long, long time, but I still can't get an answer, in short, I'm very frustrated, and I even feel that the editor has no eyes, because I feel that the article I wrote is really good and good, and there is nothing wrong with it? So to comfort yourself, it must be that the editor didn't look at it carefully, so far it was revised again, and then waited for review again.

That's right, the first failure, this doesn't mean that you have completely failed in this life, it's just a failure, it's really like this, and it's really like this, and it's really comforting yourself all the time.

But no matter how to comfort me, I was still so depressed, and finally went downstairs and bought liquor, which was a strong Beijing Erguotou, as if there was no wine, which was like no stable mood, yes, in the next ten days, the madman spent his time completely in alcohol, because he was rejected again and again, and even the editor on the small platform may not be able to stand it, and directly called the madman him, saying that what kind of bullshit he wrote.

Again and again, again and again, this made the madman suspicious, suspecting that even if he read and wrote all these years, he actually didn't learn anything, and he was still a third-grade garbage level, although Yaping had been comforting herself during this time, but what was the use?

Yes, it's really useless, he just drinks every day, all the time, and even when he goes to work, his colleagues around him dislike the smell of alcohol all over his body, and then he stops writing books, because this is not a failure once or twice, because the number of failures is too much, so much that that little bit of self-confidence has been completely eroded, and even has completely lost the courage to look up.

So the recent madman has always been depressed, and he doesn't even read books, and he doesn't even write his diary occasionally, because he feels that all of this is actually meaningless, really no, and he really feels in an instant that the so-called reading and writing, or even writing books, is an extremely ridiculous thing.

But for some reason, it was so painful and painful, and after work that night, the big city was also welcoming the arrival of winter, so the unique scenery swept the land again.

Under the incomparably beautiful sunset street lamp, the whole land is wet, there are splashes everywhere, the madman and Yaping she hid in an umbrella, the umbrella came out with a crackling sound, this is the extremely cold rain, the madman feels that this extremely cold rain, just like his mood at the moment, confused to suffocating.

A gust of cold wind whistled by, not only bringing the noisy car horns in this cold city, but also bringing extremely cold rain, which was like a steel needle every winter, piercing his skin fiercely, at this moment he was afraid that Yaping would be drenched, so the umbrella tried to protect her.

And Yaping has been silent lately, because she knows what the madman is going through recently, although Yaping has been comforting the madman by saying that he has written well enough, and it must be a bad editor's vision or something, but this kind of comfort seems to be meaningless at all, so maybe Yaping thinks that all she can give to the madman now is warmth, right?

No, now Yaping just wants to put her own hand into the madman's clothes to keep warm, because it will be really too cold, and the winter in this big city seems to have come a little early this year? But that's just God's business.

Anyway, Yaping also tried her best to get closer to the madman and him, and finally became the two of them hugging each other, she was willing to give up, and the madman just continued to smile bitterly, because she was really annoyed, so she would be full of thoughts in her heart, and when she returned to the residential area, the first thing she did was to buy alcohol and drink, and it was best to get drunk, maybe only when you were drunk, could you temporarily forget the helplessness and confusion at the moment, and even the most intense despair, right?

But I suddenly remembered something, and then took out my mobile phone and looked at it, there was a memo on my phone, and it rang at noon today, and this memo recorded that today is Yaping's birthday.

After seeing the mobile phone, I quickly put it in my pocket again, because I am afraid that the rain will seep in, this mobile phone is really very precious to myself, although everyone says that they are old age machines with this mobile phone, and they have long been unable to keep up with the trend of the times, but they don't care at all.

And at present, in this cold wind, in this cold rain, it seems very happy to be able to be carried by Yaping and walk? No, no, because it was very difficult to walk by her, I pushed her and said directly: "Don't hold it, I won't be able to walk." ”

Yaping knows that he has been in a very bad mood recently, and his mood is occasionally very unstable, yes, Recently, the madman occasionally loses his temper with Yaping, but it is not too serious, so Yaping is very obedient now, but she let go of her hand in a wordless manner, so she stupidly continued to stand under the umbrella, the cold rain on the umbrella was still crackling, and then the madman moved the umbrella to her side as much as possible, and she said: "Your shoulders are soaked." ”

"It's fine."

Yaping stopped talking, just walked, and finally the two walked to the door together, and the madman was half soaked, and Yaping was too, so the madman said: "You go home, turn on the air conditioner, change your clothes first, then boil some hot water, wash your feet, I'll buy some wine to drink, and I'll be back soon." ”

The madman wants to say this because Yaping is not only half of her body wet at the moment, but she is also wearing a pair of flower sneakers, which are also canvas, so they have long been completely watered, and Yaping just pursed her lips and really didn't say anything, so she opened the door and started to do things according to the madman's instructions.

And the madman went downstairs with an umbrella, and then downstairs first bought a bottle of spirits and drank a few sips, which was to expel the cold, because it was really too cold now, and then walked to a cake shop, which was directly customized, and the boss said that it would be done in about half an hour, after all, it was written on it to wish Yaping a happy birthday, and the boss also asked Yaping how to write the two words.

Then the madman paid a deposit of thirty yuan, and then went to the big supermarket, and searched for a long time in the plush toy area, but he couldn't find a little rabbit, and finally ran to several supermarkets and didn't find it, and this will Yaping's phone call, and asked the madman what he was doing on the phone, why he hadn't gone home for so long, and the madman just said, he would go back immediately or something.

Then the madman continued to search, and finally the effort paid off, and found the fluffy rabbit in a small boutique, but it looked a little small, and the largest was the size of a palm, but he still bought one, and it was not expensive, just a dozen yuan.

When he returned to the cake shop, the boss said that it had been done a long time ago, and the madman was about to pay, Yaping called again, and the madman said helplessly, wait ten minutes at most to go home, and then Yaping was willing to hang up the phone.

Then he carried the cake and the small fluffy rabbit, as well as the liquor in his hand, braved the cold wind and cold rain, rushed to the door of the house, knocked on the door directly, as soon as the door opened, suddenly a puff of smoke in the house flew out, Yaping actually smoked in the room? Oh, I almost forgot that Yaping would have smoked in the first place.

Yaping looked at the madman's thing in his hand and asked, "What is this?" ”

"It's your birthday today, hurry up and take it in, I'm going to change my shoes outside, my shoes are full of water, and I'm cold."

Yaping pursed her lips and smiled, quickly took the items in his hand, and then put them on the bed, directly picked up the little fluffy rabbit, and played happily, and the madman quickly changed his shoes, and went directly to the bathroom on the second floor to rinse it indiscriminately, and then went back to the room, the air conditioner in the room was on, so it was very warm.

The madman blows his wet hair with a hair dryer, and Yaping will sit on the bed, holding the new fluffy rabbit while happily watching TV, and speak: "I just thought you couldn't stand the recent blow and went to kill yourself." ”

"What are you kidding? How could I kill myself? Is the pen in my hand a joke? Won't you fail a few times, what's the big deal, I'll vote again tonight. ”

Yaping laughed after hearing this, she smiled very sweetly now, but the madman regretted it at the moment, because she didn't know why she had just told such a ridiculous lie, and now, so painful, so confused and desperate, how should this lie be rounded?

Forget it, the more I think about it, the bigger my head becomes, why don't you celebrate Yaping's birthday first? So blow your hair, and then open the cake, which is also a cake with a lot of fruit on it, and it says: Happy birthday to Yaping.

It was a very good night, yes, in recent days, Yaping has basically not laughed, and has always been depressed, but the madman understands that all this is because of his own reasons, so this will also light some candles on the cake, which says: "Happy birthday to you, make a wish?" ”