Yaping smiled, then closed her eyes and made a wish, which blew out the candle. But maybe it was out of the curiosity of normal people, so the madman asked Yaping what wish she made, and Yaping just smiled slightly, just said, and it didn't work.

After eating cake with Yaping, he took out his pen again and sat at the desk, mainly to write a diary, because today is Yaping's birthday, so he needs to focus on recording, and then continue to be in a daze, because in addition to being in a daze, it seems that he doesn't know what to do.

However, Yaping will be very happy, she hugged the newly bought little fluffy rabbit, while watching TV, while saying: "You don't have to contribute to only one website, you can contribute to many websites, try them all." ”

Well? The madman actually thought about this problem, and now it can be said that under Yaping's suggestion, this really did this thing, and really began to apply for account passwords on several websites, and then submitted.

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As for the time, it is also very fast, after all, the life at work is just the so-called boring, this blink of an eye is to celebrate the New Year, and in the past time, first of all, the madman has been rejected on many websites, but the reason for the rejection is very outrageous, because the website says that what they need is an article of a commercial nature, not this kind of article written by a madman, it can also be said that the purpose of the website is only to get money in the reader's pocket, and the rest is empty.

Therefore, the editors of some websites are also well-intentioned, saying that his kind of article is not suitable for publication on the website at all, but only suitable for submitting to the publishing house of the physical book, so it is recommended that he try to submit it to the physical publishing house, anyway, the editor said that the book they want on the website is not a literary work at all.

But anyway, the article written by the madman was rejected by all the websites anyway, so strictly speaking, it is impossible to say that there was no blow, and there have been dozens of submissions back and forth, and none of them have passed, no matter how powerful the person is, it will be a huge blow, right?

Therefore, the madman has been in a very bad mood lately, and it seems that he can write books and become a wonderful man, which seems to be delusional, because our world seems to be full of endless malice for the poor, or for the simple.

At present, the madman is sitting at his job, listening to the colleagues around him are discussing the matter of going home for the New Year, some people have saved enough money, they look very happy, and they are very looking forward to going home, while some people have no money, so they are reluctant to go home, saying that they are preparing to spend the New Year here, because there is no money, so they feel that it is very embarrassing to go home for the New Year.

But anyway, these people who have money and are ready to go home, or people who don't have money and feel embarrassed to go home, they at least have a home, and the madman doesn't even have a home, even if Yaping said, let's go home with her this year, but the madman also felt that he couldn't become an outstanding man, so he rejected Yaping again.

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The big city of the New Year, sparsely populated, the city is like dead in an instant, there is no one on the long street, but the traffic light or something is operating normally, at this time the madman walks alone on such a long street, the cold wind is howling, but he feels that it is not cold at all, because the clothes are thicker, and in addition to the howling cold wind in the sky, there are snowflakes.

Yes, it's snowing in this big city, but this snowflake is not very big, it's not goose feather snow, but it's a real snowflake, reaching out and trying to catch the snowflake on this long and uninhabited street, but I don't know if it's because the cold wind is too strong, or the temperature of my palm is too cold, and the snowflake falls in my hand for only a short time, that is, it disappears.

A person is insensitive, holding some food in his left hand, and then returns to the rental house, the air conditioning in the house is not turned off, the whole room is really warm, but I don't know why, my heart is terrible cold, like a depraved rotten thing, take off your clothes and lie on the bed, don't want to do anything.

As for the current lack of three things in this room, a pair of fluffy rabbits, and Yaping, Yaping has been using her mobile phone to send messages to her chat software in the past few days, saying that her family is arranging a blind date for her, but he doesn't know why, but he just said, then don't come.

That's right, he doesn't know why he said such words, maybe it's just because he is poor, because he is poor, so he doesn't even have the courage to love, because he is poor, so he understands that he can't give Yaping the so-called happiness, and he can't always let Yaping follow him to work, right?

Maybe Yaping is also disappointed in herself, right? So at this time, he lit a cigarette, remembering that Yaping said in this small room that when she was going home, he refused to follow home again, Yaping got angry, and then the two quarreled, and he just said that he had no money, no home, even if he followed her home, there would be no good results.

That's right, the madman is very afraid to go to her house, thinking that if her parents dislike her, then it will be a big problem for her to return to the city during the Chinese New Year, after all, there is no car or anything.

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The year is over soon, and recently he has been quarreling with Yaping on the chat software, Yaping even said cruelly, she will never come over again, but even if he has thousands of sadness in his heart, what can he do? So the only way to accept the truth of this fact is to accept that you are single again?

That's right, it's been more than two months now, Yaping really didn't come over, she was alone in the company tearing the mobile phone film, she was drunk and dreaming of death, although many colleagues in the company were asking where Yaping went, why she didn't come yet, but she didn't know how to answer, of course, she didn't tell any colleagues, in fact, she resigned, and today is the last day of work.

The next day, I didn't say goodbye to anyone, I just handed over my clothes in the company by myself, and then I went back to the rental house again, looking at everything in this room in a daze, the floor was full of cigarette butts and wine bottles, the desk was a mess of books, and a pen that hadn't been touched for a long time, and of course there was a laptop, but it hadn't started for a long time.

As for this room, although Yaping has been lost for several months, there are still memories of Yaping in it, because the dirty and terrible fluffy brown bear has recently been used as a pillow, so it looks like it has turned black, and it is all deformed, and there are some cosmetics left by Yaping at the head of the bed.

Re-lit a cigarette, smoked a few puffs, picked up the wine bottle again, drank a few sips, touched his chest, the pen given by Lili was still there, but now this fountain pen has long become an ornament, and the so-called truth is exactly like this.

Under the burning of the spirits, she turned on the computer again in her insensitivity, and subconsciously got on the chat software again, Yaping didn't seem to send any messages to herself anymore, and her avatar only showed that her phone was online, so she wanted to say something to her, saying that she missed her very much, but she just couldn't press the keyboard.

Only looking at the chat history with Yaping, almost all of them are quarrelling, Yaping said that she didn't love her, she just wanted to play with her, and she never thought about marrying her or anything, but she also saw the text that she had justified, saying that she has nothing now, so poor, what to marry? Not even a home.

Seeing these words, the whole person unconsciously became extremely melancholy, only to continue to drink liquor with a bang, and then open his mobile phone, there are many text messages on it, and they are sent by Jing, Jing recently borrowed money, but the madman did not reply to a single text message, even if it was a call from Jing, it was also a direct disregard.

Now, what do you do? Is there something you can do to save Yaping? No, maybe Yaping is already engaged, right? After all, according to the chat log, her father introduced her to several of them, and even said that one of them had a very good family, a car, and even two houses in their town.

Seeing this, the madman smirked and smiled bitterly, and then carried two plastic bags, which contained a few torn clothes, a notebook and a pen like ornaments, and two books, but only two books, although there were many books on the desk.

Then I lit a cigarette again, and this put the laptop in the newly bought tote bag, with the mouse, but without the keyboard, because it was not valuable, and it was still very large, and it was inconvenient to carry.

Then he did not make any farewell ceremony with this residential area, and then, once again stepped into the road of extreme confusion, and was still a lonely person, but he did not blame Yaping for anything, but was endlessly grateful to her, it was Yaping who once again made herself deeply realize the importance of money, yes, without money, you don't even have the courage to talk about love, what a terrible world this is.

Another thing I want to thank Yaping is that because at her instigation, I did write a book, but what I could write did not have any meaning, and it was not recognized by the editors on any website, and I hated that this was an era of money, and the articles that the editors wanted were only those that could meet the tastes of readers, and the words that could take out the money in the readers' pockets were not those words that showed their talents and their own ideas at all.

I don't know how long I walked, and I don't know how much alcohol I drank, anyway, in an Internet café on the way, like a puddle of mud, lying on a chair, on the chair next to it, is my own luggage, in fact, it seems that there is nothing, right?