However, this kind of helplessness and pain will continue to continue, and I don't know what to do to save this love, because even if I pass this year and follow the proposal of my chubby boss, even if I am in debt in this big city and buy a house and a car, what can I do? In this way, it will only make me more busy, and I will have no time to accompany Yaping, maybe in this case, it will only make my love die faster.

As for my terrible idea before, yes, it was the so-called boiled frog in warm water, in fact, seriously, is it really necessary to be so troublesome? In fact, according to the current situation, it is completely unnecessary, because if his relationship with Yaping continues like this, the so-called future is already doomed.

Thinking of this, the madman raised his head and continued to look at the street lamp, the street lamp is still a beautiful sunset color, once he was intoxicated by this beautiful brilliance countless times, and he was intoxicated by Yaping under this beautiful brilliance, but now, he can only watch the flying insects everywhere rushing to the light in their hearts, just like his own life, the street lamp is created by human beings, and the direction of his life is also created by the handsome boss, all of these things that everyone envies are just the so-called happiness of others, It's also the happiness I don't want.

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After returning home, Yaping didn't even say a word, just took off her clothes, and then went to bed, and the madman is too, as for the so-called diary, or reading, or even writing books, all these things seem to have nothing to do with themselves, yes, this is the case now.

And what's even more terrifying is that the current madman and Yaping she, both of them are sleeping with their backs to each other, the madman is lying on the edge of the bed, and he can't sleep, so he lights a cigarette in the dark, maybe he also understands that the current Yaping is not asleep at all, so he said softly: "Pig, what should I do, so that I can save all this?" ”

No matter how bad a madman is, and at this moment, at least his words are sincere, and he has exhausted all his courage, but I don't know why, Yaping didn't say a word, just sleeping, it was really like this, the only sound that could be heard in the whole room, except for the humming air conditioner, there was no sound.

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The next day, everything was as usual, whether it was the extremely hot weather, this was still indifferent Yaping, or the extremely indifferent himself, in short, all of this would not change at all, so today's madman just rode an electric bicycle, ran to two Internet cafes, and then returned to the Langtaosha Internet Cafe.

And now, the madman is still smoking a cigarette, and then sitting at the counter indifferently, staring blankly at the world outside the Internet café, as for the world outside the Internet café, in fact, nothing has changed, it is still so hot, and the flow of people is still so hurried, as for Wang Yu on the side, he is still so polite to himself, yes, he is the boss's assistant, and his identity is so special.

Wang Yu was talking, and she was smiling sweetly, but what was she talking about? I don't know, I really don't know, the madman just understands that he himself has been smoking all the time, he has been looking at the outside world all the time, in short, he is in an extremely bad mood, to say that this is the so-called thoughts, in fact, this is still not a real description, yes, it is really so.

In short, Wang Yu said a lot of things, but as for what she said, the madman really didn't understand, but the madman he understood, he seemed to be in a daze for a long time, and then he went out of the Internet café, and then ate outside, and then returned to the Internet café, and then started his own work again, which is the so-called sorting out the accounts, as if his life should be like this.

And at the end of the evening, around 20:20, Yaping came to pick up the madman, and the madman was happy with everything Yaping was doing so far, but what could this be?

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In the blink of an eye, this crushing life is boring and boring, and there is no joy at all...... In short, this kind of boring life to the extreme, it has been going on like this, until now, this is almost the New Year, yes, time is so fast, but why is time so fast? And I have no way of knowing all this.

As for now I will face a bigger choice, now I am sitting in the rental house, and it is also more than twenty-three o'clock in the evening at this moment, and now I am drinking the strongest Beijing Erguotou liquor, watching the air conditioner buzzing, the temperature of the air conditioner shows that it is running at a high temperature of 30 degrees, and Yaping is just half lying on the bed and whispering: "Will you go home with me this year?" I want to get married. ”

Tie the knot? That's right, for the lowest people, marriage is the biggest thing in life, and now as long as I choose to get married, maybe I can really marry Yaping, because marriage is originally a matter of two people, yes, as long as Yaping agrees, then everything will no longer be a problem, but is this really good? Because in the past countless days and nights, between himself and Yaping, this is not the so-called happiness at all, every day is to get up early and be greedy for darkness, and have never gone out to play together, and after getting married, he will eventually continue this life, what is the difference between this and before he got married?

Besides, if you really get married, then when you and Yaping are entangled, don't you need to wear a condom? In this way, do you also want to have your own children? But if this is really the case, then the pain and helplessness that we are currently experiencing, isn't this case worse again?

So the madman continued to drink liquor, but didn't say a word, just seemed to be an extremely lonely person, stupidly playing with the special lamp on the desk, all the time changing the light, and Yaping because he couldn't get the so-called correct answer, so he would speak again with a face full of anger: "I don't care if you go home with me this year, or get married, but I must go home this year, but I tell you, if I go home alone this year, from next year, you will never see me again, words, That's all I have to say. ”

And when the madman heard this, he continued to drink, and really didn't say a word, it was as if the madman didn't care about this matter at all, but the truth of the matter was not the case, in fact, the madman cared about this matter very much, because this matter would affect the direction of his entire life, but he really didn't know why, he just couldn't say a word, and as for the damn liquor, he didn't know why, it was suddenly gone at this time.

So the current madman, this can only keep smoking, because except for smoking, at this moment, it seems that nothing can be done, yes, it is really like this, so the current madman he looks more confused, more helpless, and more emaciated than the summer that has long since disappeared.

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The next day, the madman continued to work, because in his life, he still went to work except for work, or in other words, there was only labor except labor, after all, labor is glorious, and where did he get the money if he didn't work? Without money, how can you maintain your long-soured love? So this is really too bad, it's really too bad, so he continues to be confused and helpless, but this can't change anything, so he has to keep smirking in his work life.

Until the afternoon of this day, the air conditioner in the office on the second floor of the Langtaosha Internet Café was on at a high temperature of 30 degrees, so he sat in the office in a shirt and looked at the outside world through the window. Even sitting in the current environment, listening to the humming sound of air conditioning, it seems that you can hear the cold wind howling and the cold rain drifting in the outside world.

That's right, this is really too bad, and what's even worse is that Yaping is going home, Yaping has been saying such things recently, as if to remind herself, as if to tell herself that her trial is coming, and what's even more outrageous is that she has not had even one lingering with Yaping in recent months, and what's even more outrageous is that Yaping has been in a situation where she can't return at night, but is all this really important?

Through the window of the office on the second floor, the madman saw the sunset lights of the outside world, which was really charming, and he really wanted to be able to lose his memory in this moment, and he was really looking forward to it, and he could forget who he was in an instant, maybe only in this way could he get an incomparably short period of relief, yes, for the past few months, everything was really overwhelming.

But I don't know why, at about 21 in the evening, Yaping actually came to the office on the second floor of the Internet café to look for herself, in fact, I have occasionally spent the night in this office recently, because I don't want to go home, I don't want to see Yaping? No, it's not like this, I really want to tell Yaping, it's really not like that, but I don't know why, I just don't know how to tell Yaping about her current mood.

Now Yaping, she is no longer like before, she really no longer sits in front of the accounting computer like before, and then plays her QQ farm, she is now just full of indifferent expressions, holding a plastic stool, sitting opposite herself.