But on such a barren and cold street, if you really cry loudly, maybe no one can see it at all, right? Even the so-called surveillance video of the transportation department, which can't find yourself crying? Maybe it's true, I just don't want to cry here.

Riding an electric car, I returned to the Langtaosha Internet café again, because today's matter has been successfully concluded, I locked the electric car and entered this Internet café again. For some reason, under such a warm air condition, in this place that also exists like heaven, the scenes that once existed were almost like some kind of pervasive, a so-called strange desolation and helpless picture, which appeared in my mind without warning.

That's right, it was the first time I carried a plastic bag, and there was my own pen in the plastic bag, which was given by Lili, and it was also the direction of my life, so strictly speaking, at that moment, I came here with the direction of my life.

And now at this moment, all those things seem to follow the cold wind and desolation outside the Internet café, and dissipate, yes, after the joys and sorrows, people will finally meet the so-called silence, but why, the heart is still so painful? But why, tears seem to break the embankment again?

Subconsciously, he took out his own cigarette and lit it, the smoke rose in a curling manner, and the cashier at the counter, she was very beautiful, but what was her name? It was as if at this moment, everything in this world made me feel extremely strange, and even so frightened.

Cashier, smiling, she smiled and said hello to herself?

Myself?

No, no, no, no......

The beautiful cashier, she was just saying hello to a man who was called a madman in this world, because the madman was the assistant to the boss here, yes, all that was all, so she smiled bitterly, and gently spit out the cigarette in her mouth, and smiled at her.

The madman continued to walk, in this such a warm Internet café, on the first floor of the Internet café, this group of big bosses did not go home, they were still playing their so-called games full of meaning of life, they seemed to never have a home, seeing this, the madman smiled silently, in fact, the madman understood that they have a home, just like they have a home, but they just don't want to go back? No, it's not home, so this group of big bosses, their home, in their hearts, is not the so-called home, right?

The madman didn't say hello to this group of big bosses, and this group of big bosses were too involved in the game, so they couldn't find the madman's return, so the madman returned to the second floor of the Internet café and opened the office, everything in it was as usual, it was so familiar, but it made people feel so strange, even on the desk, this thick stack of 100 yuan bills, giving people the feeling of being so strange.

The madman sat down, let out a long sigh, picked up the wine bottle on the side again, cooed and cooed, drank the liquor, and then smoked a cigarette. I don't know, maybe it is, maybe it isn't, it's just so in a daze and it seems like I'm thinking about something, and it's been a long time.

……

Suddenly the mobile phone rings, the unique Motorola mobile phone ringtone, but it is just a text message, could it be Yaping? After all, today is the New Year, and today is the first day of the Lunar New Year, so Yaping misses herself? So texted yourself?

Pick up the phone, open the flip cover, hehe, it's not Yaping, yes, on the first day of the Lunar New Year, which is so full of the so-called New Year's flavor, the only person who can think of himself may be the mobile company, the amount of the mobile phone is less than 20 yuan, and the mobile company is really intimate.

……

That's right, the madman just passed this year in such a trance, in fact, nothing special happened, and nothing worth remembering happened, so soon, soon it will be the fifteenth day of the New Year, it seems to be the Lantern Festival, right? In short, the managers of this big city are really rich, and this year's lantern festival is still very grand.

But all these things, as if they have nothing to do with the madman at all, in fact, to put it bluntly, these things have nothing to do with the madman, but in this new year's fifteenth, in this heartbroken city that is still cold and cold, at this moment, the madman walks alone on this long street with a surging flow of people, and the street lamp like the warm sunset sun is above his head, which is dizzying, because once under this beautiful light, he also kissed Yaping because of impulse, and now, he is only alone.

But seriously, no matter where you go, in short, you still have to continue to live, because you don't have any courage to commit suicide, which is really too sad and helpless, but today's madman is ready to go home.

Family? No, in fact, I am just going to go back to my rental house, the location of the rental house is very good, just on the edge of the moat, the scenery is very beautiful, and the environmental sanitation is also very good, which is not the same grade as the so-called dirty residential area where Yaping was once located, but is this really the so-called home?

And going back to the rental house today, it's not because the madman wants to go back, it's just that the landlord called, saying that it was the deadline to pay the rent, yes, in this world, the only people who can think of themselves at the moment are the so-called mobile companies, and the so-called landlords, and other than that, no one remembers themselves.

Returned to the familiar place, looked at all the strange and familiar scenes, saw the landlord on the first floor, paid him the money, and then went upstairs, and once again saw the rental house he rented, the door next door was still locked, did he go home for the New Year? Or is it because of something else?

Another dazed madman, once again opened the door of this room, turned on the electric light, inside were familiar and unfamiliar furnishings, of course, there are more memories of Yaping, whether it is the large number of books in the bookcase, or the desk on the side, as well as the expensive pen holder on the desk, and even the pens inside, and even the flowers and plants raised by Yaping, and of course, Yaping's last gift to herself.

Because it was too cold, I turned on the air conditioner, lay on the extremely soft bed, and smoked a cigarette in my weakness, and after a while, the room was full of smoke, and fortunately Yaping was not here now, if she was there, she would definitely be angry at the moment?

No, in fact, from the very beginning of this room, there was really no girl named Yaping to live in from the beginning, yes, it must be like this, and the so-called past, the so-called hazy memory, and the so-called Yaping left traces in this room, all of this, in fact, is just a dream, as long as you wake up from the dream, all this will disappear, yes, it must be like this.

Then I kept rummaging under the bed, but what was this looking for? I don't know, I really don't know, but I've been looking for a long, long time, and in the outside world, there is still the sound of tom firecrackers from time to time, yes, in fact, the New Year is not over yet, strictly speaking, today is the last day of the New Year.

No, no, what are you thinking? In other words, I shouldn't think about anything, so I continued to look for something, but I still couldn't find what I wanted, and I sat on the bed in a daze, looking at the desk in a daze, thinking about whether I should open Yaping's last gift to herself, no! There has been no Yaping here since the beginning, and in my life, I have never known a girl named Yaping.

So now the madman, all he sees is some wine bottles under the desk, but where do these wine bottles come from? Did you buy it yourself? It's just that I don't have any memory of this matter, I really don't, but these are not important, and the so-called important thing is that the current madman just picked up a bottle of wine.

But as soon as I picked up this bottle of wine, I was instantly stunned, because this was Du Kang wine, and it was absolutely impossible for me to buy this wine, so where did this wine come from? Now, the madman suddenly realized something, but he just smirked, gritted his teeth, opened the bottle of Dukang, and drank it.

In an instant, the spirits burn the heart, in the nose, in the mouth, and even in the entire esophagus and even in the stomach, which is the brain...... It's all a flurry of intoxicating sensations, right, what's called a strong burn? It's a wonderful feeling, and it's like drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes for a long, long time.

Suddenly, really suddenly, the madman laughed dumbly, picked up the pen in the pen holder, the pen carved more and more serious, carefully wiped the pen with toilet paper, turned on the ink, took out the notebook, and wrote on it: I understand that you are back in the city, and I drank the wine.

That's right, after writing these words, the madman is still smiling, as if he has encountered the most beautiful thing, but he is very confused, confused and extremely looking forward to it, but what are you expecting? Is it the person who is expecting to leave this bottle of Du Kang, and in an instant, this will appear in front of his eyes? Maybe so, or maybe not.

Anyway, the madman slept all night in this little rental house. The next day, after dawn, I returned to the Langtaosha Internet Cafe, but today's madman was completely different from the previous him, because there was a smile on his face, while the previous madman would be darker and more silent.

Today, the cashier at the counter greeted the madman, and the madman responded with a smile, and even sat on the side of the group of big bosses on the first floor, and talked and laughed with them for a long time, and the big bosses said that today's madman has changed, and he has returned to the past all of a sudden, but only the madman himself understands, laughing and happy, just because of all this, or his own life, in fact, is about to meet the final end.