Lili took a puff of the cigarette in her hand, her eyes changed, and she lost the arrogance she had when she first came here, which she had fully understood that the madman had already given up everything he had before, and it was that kind of iron-hearted abandonment, which was irretrievable for a long time.

Lili didn't answer the madman's question, just took out her own ID card, and then asked Xiaohong to open a computer, only pressing twenty yuan, after all, no one can stop her from surfing the Internet here, she is here to consume, she is a guest, and now Lili She really just came here to consume, she sat on a computer not far from the account desk, watching a TV series, and wearing headphones.

At this time, the people who watched the excitement gradually left, after all, some of them were playing games, although Lili was so beautiful, but what could this be? Some people still have so-called self-knowledge.

But now the madman is sitting in the account, Xiaohong is on the side, and the current Xiaohong looks like she is in a trance? And the madman just smoked a cigarette silently, and sighed incessantly, because the madman really didn't understand what he should be thinking now.

But Xiaohong will speak: "Your ex-girlfriend is so beautiful." ”

The madman took a puff of the cigarette in his hand, looked at the slightly scorching sunlight that came in through the glass window, and even saw Lili not far from the sun, she was wearing a light red lace shirt, and her hair was as black as a black waterfall, and she was still smoking while watching TV series. There are several of them, I don't know which one you're talking about. ”

The madman is obviously pretending to be confused, and Xiaohong will not be so stupid that she doesn't understand what the current madman is saying, so Xiaohong didn't say anything more, but just looked at the madman blankly, and then looked at the computer screen for a fee, and finally maybe didn't understand what to watch, right? So she took another look at the unfinished braised pork, and then picked up her black smartphone and played games on it.

It's just that there are still people who come to surf the Internet, so strictly speaking, Xiaohong is still very busy now, and in the end, about ten minutes or twenty minutes have passed? In short, the madman did not understand how long it had been, but the madman got up anyway, went back to the office, and then became distraught, and sat in a comfortable leather chair, half-reclining, with his eyes closed.

……

The madman didn't come out of the office, he really didn't come out, but in the afternoon, he was still in a state of confusion, picked up the tattered Motorola mobile phone on the desk, and saw that the time on it was seventeen and forty o'clock in the afternoon, which was almost eighteen, and he hadn't eaten much at noon, so he would be very hungry, so he really got up.

When I got out of the office, locked the door, and then walked to the counter, I was really uncontrollably subconscious, looking at the computer where Lili was sitting before, and I couldn't say in my heart whether it was expectation, or longing, or some other emotion, in short, the madman saw that Lili was still sitting here, continuing to watch her movie?

When the madman was about to walk to Lili's side, a regular customer of an Internet café said to the madman: "You are really cold, such a beautiful beauty, people are specially coming to you, you just hang them there, if I have such good luck, I will go to her kneel down and beg her to take me away." ”

The madman just grinned when he heard this, and then said indifferently: "You don't know what's going on, so stop thinking about it." ”

How does a madman answer the concerns of others? But does he really care? No, he just thinks Lili is too beautiful, just envy and jealousy, yes, the madman understands all this very well, besides, the madman himself has read all the books before, there are originally books on psychology, and this is not a joke.

Xiaohong obviously found the madman him, but now Xiaohong at this moment did not speak, but the madman directly subconsciously walked to Lili's side, and then sat down, looking at the black screen computer monitor in front of him, of course, the peripheral vision of his eyes also saw a bottle of peanut milk on Lili's desktop, as well as a black kerosene lighter, and of course, cigarettes.

At this time, the madman cried out...... He let out a long sigh, then looked at the world full of sunlight not far away, outside the glass window, and then spoke: "Lili, it is impossible for us to go back to the past, I have three relationships, all of them lost without money, I am fed up, but there have always been only two ways to get happiness, one is to keep chasing, and the other is to give up."

Chase? In fact, for me, it is full of pain, I really can't stand the heart-wrenching pain, I think everything is too beautiful, and even think that the so-called beauty is originally the so-called for granted, but the reality will always be in the end, with its extremely arrogant posture, tell me, what is the law, what is the so-called cruelty, again, again, again, I can't help repeating, this cruel cycle in vain, the love I want to chase, the love I desire and expect, in our world, It didn't exist, I should have realized it the first time I was taught, but I didn't repent, I felt like a joke, and I was tired.

Give up, is what I should choose, I no longer envy those boys who have beautiful girlfriends, I no longer envy those so-called harmonious couples, I don't have to feel, I just need to slightly beautify these beautified love, a little bit in my thinking logic analysis, I can also understand that everything is hypocritical, all are just a vain existence, if it is just so, of course, giving up is the best choice, after all, it is not what I need, it is too tiring to live like that.

A lot of times, I use the same mindset to try to understand this so-called beautiful world, and guess what I see, maybe the answer ......"

Before the madman could finish speaking, she was forcibly interrupted by Lili, who had already taken off her headphones, and she heard everything that the madman had just said, and at this point, she said: "You don't have to tell me the answer, I know that there is nothing in this world, as you said before, our world has nothing but selfishness." ”

The madman grinned: "yes, what else is there in our world besides selfishness?" There is really nothing, because it is needed, so it is liked, because it is not needed, so it is hated, and at this point, lies, betrayals, killings, and begin to be gorgeously staged in this world, what a disgusting world, isn't it? We all want the most authentic beauty, but who has really pursued it? ”

"Isn't everyone like that?"

Lili inexplicably said such a sentence, but the madman thinks that the most hated sentence in his life is this sentence, from the very beginning, he thinks that the person who said this sentence is denying his own possibilities at the same time, which is also a relative denial of the infinite possibilities of others, but now at this moment, the madman feels that this sentence really contains the most profound wisdom in our world, yes, all of us are selfish, It's just that some people's selfishness has been brought into play, and many more people's selfishness, because of the threat of guns, has not been relieved from being suppressed from birth to death.

Yes, this is our world, everyone is like this, all of us exist and are born just to vent our ugly selfishness, but all of us always say the inexplicable words of beauty and beauty, and use these inexplicable words to completely cover up our selfishness, this is our world.

Hehe, the madman laughed, took out a cigarette from his pocket, and then lit it with Lili's lighter, and after lighting it, he said: "Use a small cotton swab to wipe the lead, there will be a lot of flint residue on it, and it will be easy to ignite after wiping it off." ”

Lili was a little angry: "Crazy, am I talking to you about these things?" Do you know what you're doing? Books have long been stopped, and you haven't practiced calligraphy lately, have you? Even throwing away all your books and whatever, are you really crazy? Those are your dreams, the only reason that sustains you to live worthily, you throw them away, what are you living for now? ”

The madman indifferently spat out a cigarette: "I write books, I work hard, that's just my selfishness, I originally wanted to find wisdom, use the pen in my hand, write down the wisdom I found, and then give this wisdom back to the world, but along the way, I am too tired, or rather, I am just for my own selfishness, I have long sunk, I am no longer suitable to find those wisdom that does not exist at all."

Forgive me, whatever I ever needed was just out of my selfishness, I was the same as everyone else in this world, and in my opinion, it was just a thing, so you don't need to worry about my downfall, or get angry, it's not necessary, it's really not necessary.

That's it, so, you're out of here, right? If you're just trying to give me something that you got from that shitty rental house, I can only tell Lili that you're delusional, because I don't need anything anymore, you like those things, and if you really need a so-called bullshit reason or excuse, well, I'm giving you the right to dispose of the shit, which I'm a madman, don't need anymore.

Now, you've got everything you want, so may I ask you, girl, can you get out of here? Actually, I longed to see you, I looked forward to seeing you, just subconsciously, and my reason is telling me that I don't need you at all, understand, I will be the first person in this world to be true to my absolute sanity, this will be my faith, thank you. ”