I've been here since I was born, and I never thought I'd ever be able to leave. The big dancer said that this was fate, and she couldn't escape it. She said it so seriously that I believed it.

Cher is different.

She is the only one who talks about her life every day, but she doesn't believe in it at all.

She said that there are too many dangers in this world, and women have to go with the flow to live a long time. She also said that she was afraid of death and that she had to use all means to live.

But she's a liar, and I know it from the time she went to Shangjun without hesitation after Fusu Gongzi committed suicide.

She went to Shangjun, and I was imprisoned forever in Xianyang Palace.

We are different people after all.

Ying Zheng is a legendary man, who spent just ten years to make the iron hooves of the Qin State trample all over the Central Plains and conquer all the people on this land. He was in awe and admiration to all, but he never opened his secret to anyone.

Except for the woman named Ah Fang, the only woman who made Ying Zhengji hang for the rest of her life and commemorate it in a palace.

She was the love of his life, unlike my mother.

I don't know what kind of man my father was, and I don't know how much he gave to me and my mother, but I saw the rest of my mother's life, so I know her pain and struggles better than anyone else.

She hated Yingzheng who took my father's life, but at the same time she fell deeply in love with him.

She is a pathetic woman who has spent her life looking for reasons for her change of heart.

I don't want to be the second Feixue Ji, that's why I rejected Qin Yuji so decisively.

It was my choice to become Yingzheng's concubine, and I won't regret it. But even so, whenever the Xianyang Palace is full of flowers again, looking at the pink petals falling on the ground and on my shoulders, I always miss the simple years when I was an ordinary dancing girl with Xue'er.

In the first month after becoming Concubine Xu, Zhao Gao once came to me.

"The slave has seen Concubine Xu. His eyes were lowered, and he arched his hands slightly, and there was not even a hint of respect in his tone.

The adults teased. I respectfully offered him a cup of tea, and said with a smile: "Xiao Xu can only have today because God pities him, this is ...... Aren't adults more aware than Xiao Xu?"

After listening to my words, he straightened up, took a sip of the tea I handed over, and said quietly: "You are a woman who is extremely knowledgeable and practical, different from the jade concubine. ”

"Your Excellency is here today, isn't there something to find Xiao Xu?" I asked tentatively.

"This intelligence is also more likable than other concubines, I didn't find the wrong person. He smiled and said, "You are now a celebrity next to Your Majesty, and you spend much more time with Your Majesty than other concubines." It is natural for us slaves to always grasp the thoughts of our masters, and you should be the same. ”

"What do you mean by ......"

"Now that the prince of Fusu has been demoted to the upper county, among so many princes, His Majesty still trusts him the most. This is not a good thing for me, so I have to find a way out for my little master. Zhao Gao smiled meaningfully, "Having said that, that little master has always been obsessed with Concubine Xu." ”

I breathed a little, my face turned slightly pale, and I smiled without a smile: "Could it be ......"

"That's right, it's the eighteenth son. He put down the teacup, tapped the table lightly with his fingers that were more delicate than a woman, and said slowly and clearly: "You and I both know that with Your Majesty's current physical condition, I am afraid that it will not be able to support it for long, the mausoleum has already been repaired, and the establishment of a king is also imminent." You are Your Majesty's concubine, and you will definitely be buried at that time, but pity you for your young age, are you willing to die in the tomb?"

I frowned slightly, but didn't speak.

"If you are willing to do what I instruct, you will be a hero in the future when the eighteenth prince succeeds in the throne. In addition, the prince has affection for you, and your future status is naturally not ordinary. At that time...... "he smiled," he said, "you are more than just a little concubine. ”

For the first time in my life, I heard such rebellious words, I panicked, hurriedly knelt down, and said in a low voice: "Xiao Xu is just a woman, and the adult is too high-spirited." The affairs of the court are not for women to get involved in, let alone such a big thing as the new emperor. The kindness of the adult Xiao Xu is understood, and the adult ...... Adults better find another job......"

Zhao Gao seemed to have guessed that I would answer like this, he did not force me, but got up, slowly sorted out his slightly creased sleeves, and then retired: "It is natural for Niangniang to be so worried, but Zhao Gao thinks that you are a smart woman, but I can't accept it for a while." Zhao Gao will not force you to answer now, and the minister will come to visit in seven days. ”

I smiled bitterly, after seven days, I am afraid that it will be the last peaceful spring day of my life.

But before the seventh day, an uninvited guest came to me.

It's Hu Hai.

"Erchen has seen Concubine Xu. He bowed respectfully in front of me, but his tone was full of mockery.

I looked at him quietly and didn't speak.

Seeing that I didn't answer, he raised his head, his eyes pierced at me, and he gritted his teeth and said, "Why don't you speak? Isn't that what you expected?"

"I never expected anything. I got up and paced to the window, looked at the canary given to me by Yingzheng in the golden cage on the window, and said lightly: "I am just a dead leaf falling into the stream, and following the flow is my way of survival." ”

"Go with the flow?" he sneered, "If you really went with the flow, why didn't you agree to follow me in the first place? At that time, I would rather be a broken jade than a complete tile, so that's it. Now you have become Concubine Xu, the plaything of old things, and a dirty and lowly woman. However, none of this makes me angry, what makes me angry is that I still have affection for you like this. ”

My heart trembled, and my hand that was holding the spoon for the birds shook a few times.

There was footsteps behind me, getting closer and closer, so close that I could clearly hear the man's breath behind me.

I didn't dare to turn my head, I just clenched my hands tightly.

"Xiao Xu. He stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around me, his voice a little helpless: "It's not too late, come back to me." ”

Come back, to which home, to whom's arms?

"Son, please respect yourself. I looked at the canary in the cage, and my voice was cold: "Xiao Xu knows that his status is as low as a mustard, and he has no capital to refuse the son." But Your Highness, Xiao Xu never regrets the decision he has made. I know you want this world, and I won't stand in the way, because women shouldn't get involved in politics. However, Your Highness, Prince Fusu is someone who is respected by my good sister Dumping Xue, although I can't protect him, I can't harm him. So please also tell Lord Zhao that although the seven-day period has not yet arrived, Xiao Xu already has an answer, and he doesn't have to visit again. ”

The man behind him froze, then withdrew his hand.

"If you don't have a chance, you can't force it, just ...... That's it......," he sighed.

This was the last time I saw Hu Hai, and his back was a little depressed, just like the day I was married into Xianyang Palace.

Outside the window, a few pieces were brought to me by the wind, and I gently picked up a piece, and I sent it to the little canary's mouth, and finally let out a long sigh.

"It's all fate......"

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