430. [430] Calm down
Mu Ang's heart contracted suddenly, staring at her red and swollen eyes, "Do you really like you, I know better than you!"
"Really?" her eyes darkened, "but when you're worried about Cancan, you won't notice me at all." ”
He was suffocated, and her expression at the moment made his heart start to ache again.
"At that moment, I was really envious of Cancan, envious that she could get so much care and attention from you, but ......" she pursed her lips and lowered her eyes, "I am also lost for myself, because I know that I may never get these things that I envy." ”
Her loss, her self-deprecation, her humility, made him feel overwhelmed. He didn't know that she would be so uncomfortable at that moment.
Raising his hand, he held her face, and his fingers gently ran over her red and swollen eyes, "It's not that you can never get it, what you want, I can give it to you!"
No matter what she wants, he will give it, I just hope she doesn't show such an expression, this kind of lonely sadness, one more look, will make him hurt a little more.
She lifted her hand slightly, covering the back of his.
His hand suddenly stiffened, and the uneasiness in his heart intensified, and the calmer her expression became, the more uneasy he became. Perhaps he would rather she be crying or scolding and beating him at the moment, which is much better than this.
Her fingers gently grasped his hand, pulling her hand away from her cheek little by little, "Mu Ang, do you know? Because she will take it seriously, she will get carried away and take all his words as true, "Do you really like me, is it because I love you, I am your girlfriend, you have to like me, or even if I am just Su Ai and have no other identity, you will still like me?"
After saying these words, Su Ai let go of her fingers, crossed Mu Ang's side, and walked towards the entrance of the community.
Every step she took, she said to herself in her heart, enough, Su Ai, you are enough, even if the words Mu Ang just said are not really realizable, but it should be content, isn't it?
But why is she still so sad, so sad that she wants to cry again!
Su Ai walked briskly, and her figure quickly disappeared into the darkness.
Mu Ang, on the other hand, stood in place in a daze, looking at the direction in which Su Ai had left. Even though she was no longer visible, she was still watching.
Did she ask him to think clearly, to figure out whether he liked her or not?
So when he thinks it through, what will she do to him, will she love him again, or will she ...... He was a little afraid to think of another possibility.
The night breeze blows through the fingertips, carrying a feeling of coolness. It turned out that being let go of her hand turned out to be like this......
Sitting back in the car, Mu Ang leaned back against the seat and gently closed his eyes. With every beat of his heart, it became painful, ......and he murmured her name softly, "You love me, and you'll always love me until I fall in love with you, right?"
Once upon a time, he also needed to use such words to comfort himself, and the only thing that responded to him was the cold silence.
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On the other side, in the Si family's house, Guan Cancan came out of his daughter's room, and when he returned to the bedroom, he found Si Jianyu half lying on the bed and not sleeping yet.
"Can't sleep? I'll read you a story. As she spoke, she walked over to the bookcase, pulled out a storybook, and sat down on the bed.
Guan Cancan was about to open the storybook, and when he read the story inside, Si Jianyu took the book from her hand and put it on the bedside table next to her, then wrapped his hands around her and pulled her into his arms.
"There's no hurry. Si Jianyu said in a low voice, his lips gently pressed against Guan Cancan's neck, and kissed her silky and delicate skin.
Her body trembled slightly, only to feel her lips moving around her neck, his kiss made her gradually indulge in this feeling, and after a moment, his lips were close to her earlobe, "Cancan, do you have something to say to me?"
She suddenly came back to her senses, "It's nothing, why do you ask that?"
"I just think you seem to have something on your mind lately, that's why you asked. He smiled quietly and continued to nibble gently on her earlobe.
Her body stiffened unconsciously because of his words, and as his hand slipped into her pajamas, kneading and pinching the softness of her chest, she gasped, suppressed the feeling of being teased by him in her body, and raised her hand to grab his, "No...... Don't ......"
His hand rested on her chest, and he looked at her with a slight raised eyebrow, "What, don't you like me doing this?"
Her face was pale, "I...... It's not very comfortable, can you not ......?"
"If it's just physical discomfort, I certainly won't force you to do it. He smiled softly, took her hand, and kissed her fingertips gently, "It's just that you've been rejecting me all this time, making me think that I'm not doing something wrong with me." ”
"No!" she hurriedly denied, "Mi, you're doing well, you're really good." "It's because she hasn't done well enough, so that he hasn't really let go of the burden in his heart, so he will take medicine, and he will lead to the current result.
"Really?" he said, smiling even more intriguingly and seductively, "Say it to me again." ”
Her heart trembled, her hands wrapped around his neck, and she buried her face in his arms, "Yu, you did a good job, really, well!"
She said it over and over again, in a soft voice, as if desperately trying to soothe the uneasiness in his heart.
His eyes stared at the man in his arms with a heavy look, and the smile on the corner of his lips faded little by little.
Cancan, I hope you really think I've done a good enough job...... Graceful thin lips moved silently, and he opened his arms and hugged her tighter.
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For several days, Su Ai didn't go to Mu Ang, she hoped that he could think clearly and not be affected by her.
It turns out that the so-called psychological preparation, when you really face it, even if you are prepared to do a thousand things, you will still be so uncomfortable.
And how should she deal with this relationship, should she continue to walk? or stop there?
She is not afraid of paying, she is not afraid of waiting for a long time, but she is afraid that all her efforts, in the end, will only become a dream bubble.
She used to think that she could bear it, and if Mu Ang really didn't love her in the end, then she would definitely be able to break up with him calmly, and then stop pestering him.
But now, she wasn't so sure.
If she continues to love and falls deeper, will she still have the courage to say that she will break up? Can she really withdraw and stop pestering him, smiling and wishing him that he will find another woman he can fall in love with in the future?
She wasn't sure.
Love...... It's selfish, maybe there's really nothing wrong with that.
Colleagues in the studio sometimes joked about her and Mu Ang, laughing that she had found a golden beetle son-in-law, and she didn't have to worry about it in her life, and every time she heard this, she could only smile awkwardly.
Today, all the tunes she wrote for the idol star before were returned, and the other party made a lot of requests for revision.
Brother Guan also seemed to think that the other party was too picky, so he said to Su Ai a little apologetically, "Xiao Ai, if you don't want to revise it, I can write this instead." ”
After all, the messy requests made by the other party are almost equivalent to rewriting a new song.
"It doesn't matter, I wrote the tune, I will revise it, it is the most suitable, I have read her requirements, it is just a little troublesome, no big problem. Su Ai replied.
Brother Guan patted her on the shoulder and said some words of encouragement.
Su Ai walked out of Brother Guan's office with the music score.
As soon as I got back to my seat, a colleague came over and said, "What, Xiaoai, your song has been returned?" Hey, I'll just say, that star is very picky! It's only been a few years since she was popular, and she really made herself a superstar, and there was news breaking the news before, saying that she was a big name." ”
Another colleague also stepped forward and said, "Actually, you just need to find that star and say, you are the girlfriend of the president of M Moser Group, see if she dares to be so critical." ”
"That's it!"
"Wow, Xiao Ai, you have to do this! I really want to see the expression on that person's face at that time!"
Colleagues said gossipingly, Su Ai listened, only feeling more and more uncomfortable in her heart, but she knew that everyone had no malicious intentions, so she reluctantly raised the corners of her mouth, "I still hope that I can use my strength to make the other party speechless." If she can't find fault with her, it also represents a kind of progress. ”
"Well, that's what I said, but ......" the colleague's words were normal, paused, and did not continue.
However, Su Ai could roughly guess what the other party wanted to say. Her composition ability is average, and it is like a fantasy to want that star to not find fault with the song.
In the end, it was Yizhihua who helped Su Ai out of the siege, "Okay, okay, Xiao Ai doesn't want to rely on her boyfriend, she wants to rely on her own strength to speak, there's nothing wrong with it!
A few colleagues touched their noses and scattered.
Su Ai said to a branch of flowers, "Thank you." ”
"You're welcome. Yizhihua waved his hand, "Have you had something with Mu Ang recently, I feel that your smile these days is very reluctant." ”
Su Ai had to admire Yizhihua's keen touch, "Something happened, I plan to wait for a few days to calm down, and then face it well." ”
"Just face it! Escaping will not solve the problem. A flower came over and kissed it.
Yes, escaping can't solve the problem, and she actually understood this truth very early!
――――The tinnitus has been terrible in the past two days, especially today, my ears have been ringing in the ears, I still hurry up to huhu, everyone reads the text happily