Si Jianyu's face turned even paler, and step by step, he walked to her, but in a few short steps, it seemed as if he was exhausting all the strength of his body.

"I know. He spat out those three words in a dry voice. After she left, he restored her trajectory step by step before leaving, and knew from the mouth of the ancient butler and from the mouth of Mu Ang that she had been here.

She smiled lightly, but her smile was a little ethereal, "Then you must not know what I was thinking when I was here." She had never said that to anyone because of that, but now she wanted to tell him completely.

Guan Cancan walked forward slowly, while Si Jian Yu followed behind her, she got closer and closer to the river, until her toes were only a step away from the river, he suddenly hugged her tightly from behind, "Don't!" he shouted, his arms clenched tightly, and there was a slight trembling, as if he was afraid that she would fall headlong like this.

"Don't worry, I won't jump. Guan Cancan said lightly, "I didn't jump back then, and it's even more impossible to jump now." ”

His body froze suddenly.

She raised her hand, pulled away his arms holding her little by little, turned around, and faced him, "After the car accident back then, I lost my voice, and the doctor diagnosed that I probably couldn't have any more children, at that time you and Fang Ruolan were together, I didn't blame you, after all, she is more suitable than me, her voice can make you sleep, and she can also give birth to a child for you......"

"I didn't talk to ......," he tried to explain, but her fingers pressed against his lips.

"It doesn't matter anymore. She shook her head and said, "At that time, I just thought it was ridiculous and sad, and I was desperately wondering if it was my person or my voice that you loved. I can't let you fall asleep at all when I don't have a voice, and even if you hold me at night, you still have insomnia. But in the lounge, when Fang Ruolan was reading like me before, you could close your eyes peacefully......"

She paused for a moment and continued, "Actually, you didn't need me anymore at that time, but I still felt like I was selfish again, so I came to the old mansion to find you......"

"Don't say any more!" he interrupted her, "I know, I know what you saw, and I know how you got out of there!"

"Really, then it should be the ancient butler who told you. She guessed that only the ancient butler was present at that time, "Later, I drove and came here, I kept crying, desperately trying to shout out, thinking that if I still had a voice, it would be different, but no matter how hard I tried to shout, there was no way to speak, and all I made was some meaningless broken sound." ”

Guan Cancan said, glancing at the heavy river, the memory seemed to return to that day, at that moment, he shouted hoarsely, but he couldn't even say a word, "At that time, I was standing by the river like this, my heart was in despair, I listened to the sound of the river constantly beating, as if there was a voice bewitching me, saying that as long as I jumped, I didn't have to think about anything." For a moment, I really wanted to jump like this, because that kind of despair almost crushed my whole being, and the future I had built was all crumbling. ”

There was a pain in his heart, and at this time, not only his face was pale, but even his lips were pale, without a trace of blood. At that time, was she so desperate that she wanted to jump?

And her despair was all given by him!

"Yu, that kind of despair, do you understand? It hurts to the extreme, but I don't know what to do, and everything in front of me turns black...... At that time, the only way I could live was to leave you, completely away from this despair and pain. She had never confided these words to anyone, and she thought that when she really said them, it would be painful, but surprisingly, she didn't feel anything. It's as if he's just talking about someone else's business.

The scenes of the past, when she said it, still passed in front of her, constantly reappearing, the mood at that time, she still remembers, but it is like watching a film that has been released once five years ago, just watching from the sidelines, and not blending in.

Tsushimami shook his body, his whole body almost crumbling, and his hands were clenched tightly into fists, and his nails continued to sink into the flesh of his palms, stinging his palms.

Was her departure the only way she could survive at that time? What kind of situation did he force her to at that time to let her fall to such a point?

He obviously loves her deeply, and he is obviously the most reluctant to hurt her, but on the contrary, he hurts her deeply.

In his ear, he heard her voice say, "Between us, it's over, it's over five years ago." ”

Is it over? No, it's not over...... Between him and her, it is far from over...... Si Miyu's lips trembled, and he said hoarsely, "How can it end...... Cancan, don't tell me it's over, okay......"

His face was so pale in the moonlight, and his eyes were already a begging color. His Adam's apple slid up and down, his hands wrapped around her again, his face buried in her shoulder socket, and he cried out in a low voice, "I love you...... I love you......"

"Maybe it's just your illusion, maybe you think you love me, but if the person you met first was Fang Ruolan, not me, then the person you would fall in love with might be her. She said quietly.

"No, the only person I love has always been you. ”

"But I can't believe it anymore!" she said, "and if we were to be together again, I would wonder what you love, my voice, or who I really am, and if you didn't have a voice, would you still love me, or what would happen to you if there was another person with a voice like me? I could stand up once, but not necessarily a second time." I can't bear the pain of despair a second time. ”

"But do you really think it's over?" he looked at her fixedly, "Is it true that in your heart, you can really put me down completely and don't care at all?" Okay, even if you say that you gave birth to Xiaoxiao and let Xiaoxiao have the surname Si, it's not because you love me, so what about your voice? At the beginning, when you were in a car accident, it was because I saved the wrong person, so you temporarily lost your voice, so your voice is now restored, which means that you have forgiven me, and you still love me in your heart, right?"

He asked eagerly, as if grasping at the last straw.

Guan Cancan raised his hand and suddenly stroked Si Jianyu's face, stroking along the contours of his face, his forehead, eyebrows, eyes, and the blue and black under his eyes, the high bridge of his nose, and the lip flap that had been bitten by his teeth just now...... It's like some kind of ritual.

His body froze, motionless, at the mercy of her hand.

The moonlight is boundless, and the cold wind by the river, under such a night, is getting colder and colder.

After a moment, Guan Cancan lowered his hand and said slowly in a declarative tone, "I will regain my voice, not because I forgave you, or because I still love you." Yu, between me and you, there is nothing to forgive or not forgive, it's just not suitable, and each other's misses. When I gave birth to Xiaoxiao, when Xiaoxiao reached the age when ordinary children could speak, they couldn't even pronounce the simplest 'mother'. I was anxious and scared, afraid that because I couldn't speak myself, I couldn't let Xiaoxiao speak. I tried desperately to speak, and I saw many doctors abroad, but to no avail. Until one time, I wrote a song that took us from meeting, to leaving, to laughing and laughing...... All kinds of emotions are pinned on the song, when the song is finished, I seem to have lived half of my life again, and then I said to myself in the bottom of my heart that it's time to let go, whether it's love or pain, it's time to let go. Then, amazingly, after a few days, I was able to say some simple words, and then I could say many more words until I was fully restored. ”

Her voice was so clear in the night breeze, "Mi, I can start talking again, precisely because I have completely put you down. ”

These words, every word, were like the sharpest sword, piercing into his chest fiercely, making him stagger back a step, her gaze, her tone, her expression...... In telling him, she really put him down completely.

And her voice is the biggest proof of this!

When the reunion moment, he was pleased with the recovery of her voice, but at this moment, he would rather her voice not be restored, so that at least he could still think that there was still him in her heart!

"Haha...... Haha......" His wolf smile attracted the sideways glances of some people who were still by the river, but he just looked at her as if he didn't realize it, and his face was full of pain.

Is this her answer to his proposal? is it telling him that she will never be with him?

It turned out that the punishment for him was far from over, and it turned out that her voice was the biggest sarcasm for him, "It's really funny, it turns out that it will be completely different from what I thought...... How could I be so self-righteous...... I think you can forgive me......"

His fingers dug deep into his hair, and his head ...... The nerves are all twisted together, constantly sharpened by sharp weapons, and slashed madly......