Life is in the world, it is rare to be confused; Students are rarely confused at school. The real confused are mixed in the confusion, the fake confused are also mixed in the confusion, the days themselves are living in a confusion, and if you have to find meaning, it is just a whitewash of the crown in the confusion.

God knows if the little confusion is really confused or fake, saying that she is fake confused, but she occasionally says a word, there seems to be a light of wisdom shining in her little eyes, but this sparkle is fleeting, when you want to think about it carefully, she becomes ignorant again, and there is a silly smile on her round little face. I can't detect the real joy and sorrow on my face for unknown reasons, and I have a bit of "losing my heart in front of me and laughing on my back". In my freshman year, Xiao Confused was still the school committee in the class, and the school committee had the obligation to help the classmates complete their homework, at least I thought so, and my acquaintance with her was also completed through homework. "School Committee, have you finished your homework today?" "Ah, there's still homework today?" "Yes, yes!" …… From a few simple words, I knew that this girl was a ruthless person.

The beginning of the story is mostly green and bland, like flowing water, in the days, He Lai is violently agitated, the exchange of several assignments, opens the prologue of the story, we talk about music, movies, hobbies, etc., not like-minded comrades, but the expression of their own opinions, I don't agree with her point of view, she also opposes my attitude, it's strange that two opinionated people like this have similar tears - tears below the horizontal line. When I occasionally hear Guo Ding's "Mercury", I am deeply touched by the emotions behind the melody, the orbiting planets, the lonely watch, the unreachable distance, these have made my body extremely busy, and I am lonely and desolate in my heart I am caught in the torrent of emotions. At that time, there were a lot of comments at the bottom, and Ah Xiang commented in the dormitory next door, "Miyazaki said, 'I don't know why I love you, but I know that you are the reason why I don't love others, I like you, like the flower cat in the South Lane, uninhibited, like the stone bridge in the North City, extremely ancient. "Anyone can have me, but you can't, Forrest Gump. - "Forrest Gump" 206 Ah Zhi followed closely, "I don't dare to count the hexagrams, I am afraid that life is impermanent; Love is not deep, fear of heaven is ruthless. Ah Xiang said again. There are many more such comments...... Our group of classmates who have never met each other have resonated with these sentences, and this experience is beautiful. I agree that "the joys and sorrows of people are not connected", noise is inevitable, empathy is unrealistic, how can these fires in my heart be easily connected? But now that I think it's my mistake, I thought that the indifference was just to close my own heart, so I couldn't accept the undercurrent of others, how unfortunate it is to paint the ground as a prison, like a lonely island adrift on the sea of life, getting lost is inevitable, and a closed island can't have an open state. The reason why we cling to the occasional copy is because that's what we want to say.

When I went back to the dormitory that day, Xiao Mi sent me a video of "Mercury", in the carnival of my roommates, I held my mobile phone and chatted with Xiao Mi, I never told her my situation, because our emotions had already intersected in crystal silent tears. I turned my back to the wall, avoiding the occasional gaze of my roommates, the melancholy melody coming from the headphones plugged in, and I felt a lot of sadness in the process of tears dripping across my face and into the pillow towel, but it was just the norm of life, wasn't it? In the years when tears accompanied me, the little confusion was my crying friend, our emotions were deep, although we would not greet each other during the day, as if we were strangers, but at night, we would be touched by many sorrows, in the narratives of others, in the songs of others, in the stories transmitted in all media, we left our scratches. At that time, my tears were more about grieving for myself, for my loneliness, for my unfortunate situation, for the emotions that I couldn't get a response, for myself who was always alone...... As for the little confusion, but it is really crying for the misfortune of others, I remember the story that the little confusion shared with me Nankang Baiqi, I was tired to deal with it, and after understanding the general content, my reply was "The pain of others cannot be empathized with after all!" After saying goodnight to each other, I fell into a coma. But now I want to add a completely different reply: "Human life is short and insignificant, ordinary life is for development, responsibility, but sometimes ordinary development is long after all, after making the choice to interrupt their own development or abandon their own development, life itself will get great joy, and it is fortunate to enter the peach orchard in your own heart." "What most of us do is look at the peach orchard, look at the peach garden, and then follow the established arrangement. But I often wondered, "Are we really satisfied to come to the world like this?" "Some people look forward to the future, some people are nostalgic for the past, some people are careless, some people are full of worries, some people are crazy for love, some people die because of hate, people are like this, and life is like this. So, if you feel lonely and miserable, just persevere, and one day, you will become the person who laughs and tells stories to others, and then you may see countless sincere tears again.

Xiao Mi chased the stars during the epidemic, and it is easy to be cranky when he stays up a lot late, such as the problem that night (see To Xiao Mi Tu). I'm afraid only she knows how many questions are in her little brain. Xiao Confused loves music, so he chases the depth of music in his heart, likes to read some Tanmei novels, but has a lot of requirements, such as not looking at modern times, good ancient style, good writing, and the most important thing is that the writer who writes the book does not plagiarize...... When I came to school in my sophomore year, I lost the qualification to be selected because of the indulgence during the epidemic, which was expected, and I knew that there was no unsuccess in the online exam if I had the intention of cheating, but neither I nor Xiao Confused had this idea, so it was inevitable to see you in the examination room. In fact, the number of students in our class is still very large, so the examination room has almost become a class meeting. After that, we were divided into different majors, went to different classes, and there was no longer too much communication, just occasional contact, but the memories didn't disappear, did they? Maybe the memory will dissipate in the fading of time, and I will secretly record it while time is not careful, so that it may not disappear in my life.

Xiang Yang also chose another major, and the classmates who didn't communicate much before, and the relationship was limited to greetings became the best class companions, and it is worth mentioning that Xiang Yang started a new relationship in his sophomore year. The time of online classes during the epidemic is indeed a test for couples, so Xiang Yang, who came to his sophomore year, is already a ruthless killer who pulls out a knife at the speed of light, "Women will only affect the speed at which I draw a knife", "I won't be looking for a woman!" "Games are really a great pastime. As for who leads the way, of course, it is the sophomore seniors, also called volunteers, and even more called hunters. No, Xiang Yang felt that he had met love, "Brothers, I met love again", "I went to find a woman" After a long time of pick-up and drop-off, he successfully became a little milk dog again under his care, but the duration of this love was shorter, and he broke up again, Xiang Yang was completely sealed, and since then the handsome guy only exists in the rivers and lakes, and in reality there is another otaku with a belly. Cheng Nan, who went to class with Xiang Yang, was a former bad teenager, smoked, had a partner, and there were many top Bao'er in social tools, and he dyed his hair yellow from time to time, like Sao Nian in the comics. During the review of the final exam of the freshman year, the library in my district was always crowded, and the place was occupied by a large number of books, and the owner of the book may still be playing in his dreamland. But books are physical objects, and physical objects are the best way to occupy space. After I knew this situation, I carried a heavy schoolbag on my back, spanning two areas, from C to B, (Area A is in the middle), Area B is the Shaw Library, the configuration inside is much better than Area C, there is a lot of space, in short, I can find the location every time I go, and the more important reason is that Master Yi Bing is also in Area B, but often unable to approach due to busyness (her busyness), such a short distance has never been crossed, I know, this is already my greatest effort.

Of course, the memories I have about the Shaw Library are mainly related to her, she was also my high school classmate, and she had a good relationship with me at that time, of course, it is still very good now, after the college entrance examination, she went to medical school (Shao Ting is also in medical school, but they are not the same major), that time she came to visit her former classmates, (she came to our class as a cram student) stopped by to see me, many times, not to be ignored, forget is already a good friendship. My weekend time was often painful, and that morning weekend was closed to keep me away from the cannibalistic dorm because of her arrival, "Waiting is because of anticipation, and I just want to be with you this morning." "That's the conclusion I came up with while waiting for her. That sunny winter morning, I took her around the three campuses, ate her favorite hot pot, and sent her on the bus home, which was all I could do for her, but it also made her remember, many times I lost my temper because I couldn't get a response, and when I was in a bad mood, she gave me encouragement and courage, so that I could be more bold and let go, and after I picked up the pen, she often encouraged me, (blue affection) was promised to write to her, but it always did not satisfy me. A few weeks after sending her away, my third father was hospitalized near her college because of perennial drinking, and I also had the opportunity to visit her, how I treated her, and how she treated me, the only difference is that in her campus, we took a lot of photos, and the drinks were placed on the railing of the lake behind, the lake was hard ice, there was shallow snow on the ice, and the lighthouse in the distance was looking at us coldly, this is the background in the photo, and the group photo was saved in the mobile phone for a long time, After seeing each other again after a long time, I printed out the photo and gave it to her, and in the dark yellow style, we were both laughing. It's good to have you in the time of change!

Behind the Shaw Library, after a few long walks to the overpass, across the overpass, from Area B to Area A, that day I looked down by chance on the overpass, and found that there was a pair of frog couples holding hands, originally this was nothing, but the man is a man, good wow, he is honest on weekdays, the flirting sister really has a hand, I said hello to him, he also waved in response, but obviously surprised, who would have thought that I could see me across two districts. It's a pity that they broke up later, but he doesn't seem to have an impact, in fact, as long as the object changes quickly, there is no sadness and all love. In my sophomore year, I was with 206's Azhi, he watched his sister on the playground together (Xiangyang is also 206's, Xiangyang hardly goes out after the breakup, plays computer games in the dormitory, and life slips "women are trouble"), after Azhi promised to ask for WeChat for the two of us, he couldn't help it (see Shuangting Ji for details), and I also met Xi Tingting, as for whether he bloomed or not, I don't know, anyway, his circle is very deep and wide. If the rule is a circle, then Cheng Nan may always be able to wander around in the circle, and it is not for nothing that I can play with him and Xiang Yang - they are all people in the circle. As for the Shaw Library, it disappeared from memory, except for the occasional review and 41 (see 41 for details) to go to.

I thought it would be difficult for a conservative person like me to adapt to a new companion, a new class, and a new roommate, but the truth is always unexpected, and when we don't have too high expectations for life, life often returns us unexpected surprises. The situation in my dormitory (four-person dormitory) is like the Three Kingdoms, Ah Fei and Ah Qi are the Shu Kingdom, Ah Hao is the Wei State, and I am the Wu State who is silently waiting and observing. In fact, it is true, Ah Fei, Ah Qi and I are locals, Ah Hao is a foreigner, always with a kind face at the beginning, Zhengrong is always revealed after familiarity, inappropriate three views, mismatched living habits, unwilling to give in to each other's competitiveness, it is always an inevitable trend to become fire and water. I always thought that I was a high-minded spectator who could watch the changes of the wind and clouds with a cold eye, but I forgot that "useless scholars are scholars", and silent scholars are even more useless. Therefore, looking back at the difficult years in the past, I found that the cause of the disaster was more or less inseparable from myself.

In my endurance, Ah Qi went to serve as a soldier, before the divine beast (my new roommate) arrived. That is, in my sophomore year, the situation has improved for me, and Ah Fei, who is incompatible, and Ah Cui and me, who claim to be watching dramas, have formed a delicate but solid balance. After the "take-off" alliance was shattered by Ah Qi's departure, the momentum that often swallowed clouds and spitting fog became shrinking, the noise of the dormitory died, and the lights at night also knew how to get up according to people's hearts, and knew how to extinguish them on time. Poor cattle and sheep! There have been many times when I have regretted my cowardice, blamed myself, hated myself, and thought that all my sins were inexplicable debts I owed, and that the pigs in the pigsty could only be slaughtered, right? Can I perish? I'm sorry, this is what youth can't allow, silence is not a silent death, just a prelude to an outbreak, patience is not a tempering of patience, just the accumulation of transformation and leapfrogging, or the accumulation of quantity, when the quantity arrives, the qualitative opportunity will naturally come, most of the things in the world are like this, just like Wang Xiaobo described in "A Maverick Pig", the pig escapes from the pen and returns to the mountain, and it will soon grow fangs, which can not be ignored by even the most heroic hunters. And what about people? Bound by the rules and crammed and educated, we, if we see the circle and jump out of the circle, will we still be us? Poor cattle and sheep! The rules set by the capitalists are full of the flesh and blood of cattle and sheep, and behind the courage of the many people is mostly the cowardice of rabbits. "Ignorance is the greatest evil," I later reflected on the fact that this evil is more than myself, and that I should have gotten rid of it a long time ago. When I was a freshman, I endured it silently and never uttered a word to protest, because I remember that my parents said that peace was precious, and they looked down and didn't look up, including saying to my father in my freshman year; "They smoke a lot of cigarettes every day, and I smoke a lot of second-hand smoke" Let me not say, let me be patient, just like I have endured since I was a child, anyway, haven't I been smoking second-hand smoke? Father-sama, self-righteous adult! Cattle and sheep are used to it, and children with a little courage are also future cattle and sheep, "all taught by his mother!" "The feudal patriarch can't write a new world with the red flag flying, take your decay to decay safely and joyfully, don't get in the way of evolution! The so-called rules, measure the private interests behind the measurement, and know how much justice is contained, let alone fairness! Historically, such rules abound, and from a society governed by the rule of law to a society governed by the rule of law, it is necessary to quickly get rid of these people who are "dedicated to creating a world that is comfortable for themselves", or more people who will serve the people without self. So much for!

The companions were Ah Fei, Ah Zhi, Ah Xiang, me and Hu Qi (see Hu Qi for details). I don't know why I always like to be in groups when I was young, obviously the personalities of several people are not suitable, but we still have to go together, in the eyes of the rest of the class, we are a whole, but within the whole, we have a small group of individuals, relatives are far from each other, pessimism and joy are not connected, this is our group. The five of us are tired of being together every day, but the relationship has not reached the level of nothing to talk about, and I always feel that there is a slight separation in the vagueness, which is invisible, not touchable, but firmly placed among us, and the first impression of the first meeting between people has been destined to which step the relationship can go. Youth is a collective carnival, the carnival is gone, each goes to the east, people go to the tea and cool, leaving the cups and plates in a mess, this is the youth of each generation, in the dream in the future to find the scribbled messy image, now there is more of a wild song together, "I will smash the Yellow Crane Tower for you, and you will also pour Parrot Island for me." "Youth has such vitality. Before the "Takeoff" group didn't part ways, I thought Ah Fei was a complete bastard, and the incorrigible stupidity might have to accompany this guy for a lifetime, and it was really a big misfortune for the dormitory to let such a guy be the head of the dormitory, and later he was elected as a sports committee member because of his stout stature, which was really a big misfortune for the class, in short, misfortune and stupidity go hand in hand. At the beginning of my freshman year, I also talked to him, after the experience of the class assistant was over, but he never listened, after a semester of open and secret fighting, I was the only one of the four people in the dormitory who did not fail the course, I was very relieved, such a stay up late game, can the guys who don't study casually pass the 211 University exam? This kind of passage is too shameless for the teacher. At the end of the epidemic online class, Ah Fei seems to have changed after meeting in his sophomore year. Come closer, get closer, and you'll find that no matter how annoying people are, there are no perfect people, and no good people! Ah Fei is very worried about doing things, and he often worries about the outcome of things; Righteous people will be more or less unjust, but they can also uphold justice with rights, Ah Fei This is rare in my opinion, some people have power, they will not be people, such a scene is often seen in the student union, the club, "the lion-like ferocity, the rabbit's cowardice, the fox's cunning ,......" to measure people's good or bad is not just to stare at the shortcomings, but after you know that he obviously has such shortcomings, his advantages can still make you feel trusted, he can still make you trust. Ah Fei always communicates in a commanding tone, and there are not a few people he has offended for this, after all, no one likes to talk to people on high, and those who are high up are gods, and we are just ordinary people, so why bother to be gods without joy. Ah Fei may have been in love, or even unrequited love, in short, Ah Fei's life is mostly filled with boredom, he is tired of himself, so he never lets himself be alone, always playing videos, playing games, sleeping, going to class...... If people can never feel lonely, it may be the greatest luck in life, but can this be?

Ah Zhi is Xiang Yang, Cheng Nan's roommate, he has talked about the object with a girl in the class in his freshman year, and the boys who have objects are always far away from their brothers, and they have hardly communicated much in their freshman year, but every time they go back to the dormitory after the recording of my radio station's program, they can always be seen on the chairs passing by, and how much time do they spend in the night when the stars are shining to make each other happy? I don't know, but every time I leave in a hurry, I'm afraid I'll disturb them, or I'm afraid they'll find me. Ah Xiang and Ah Zhi have a very good relationship, their relationship is like me and Xiang Yang, the three of them are often tired of being together, every time I look at the three of them, I feel that we are the same, the same life, people. It's a pity that "most of the good things are not strong, and the colored clouds are easy to scatter and the glass is brittle." "Ah Zhi broke up in his sophomore year, Ah Zhi is a very strong person, with a strong sense of self-esteem,,I heard her say that she was sorry for Ah Zhi,Afterwards she always wanted to reconcile with Ah Zhi in various ways,Unfortunately,When Ah Zhi is a boy who chooses to let go,There will be no possibility of holding hands。 Later, she and Ah Chi went to class like strangers, and then each arranged their own time, and their time did not intersect for a moment; Achi also found a new object.,It's a graduate student.,Met by doing a big creation experiment.,They have a new story.,Maybe this time there will be a new ending.。 But I always remember her telling me that she was going to wait for Ah Chi to graduate school, until he got married, until ......

Ah Xiang is a social person, a pair of black glasses wearing, capable he is quite a bit of a successful person's demeanor, when we were a freshman running around for credits, he lay on the bed to sleep, when we have enough credits, he is still sleeping, in short, can not go out of the dormitory without leaving the dormitory, nothing can get him out of his bed, later, that is, now, when we are leisurely, he needs to be busy, the points that should be repaired sooner or later, pay off the debt, Ah Xiang. Ah Xiang is known as the little doctor of life, he can say a point or two of truth about the problems often encountered in daily life, and he also understands some history, I heard that he wanted to be a doctor before, but the score was not enough, so he could only come here and meet us. Ah Xiang's hands-on ability is also good, and he is ready to become a soldier after graduation, but who can be sure of the future? All we can grasp is the present.

Hu Qi wrote before, after that, he always told me that he was not cold, but just short-sighted and could not see. It is worth adding that he has love, and he is also a classmate in the previous class, when they were together, everyone was shocked, because they didn't see the match, but I don't think the match is appropriate for a long time, according to him, he is the king who took her, and with it was together, I always had doubts about this, thinking that there was a hidden secret in it, but love is so unforgettable because of the privacy of both parties, and privacy is mostly a characteristic of love. But Hu Qi's living expenses do not allow him to engage in some flower forms, but as long as she has her in her heart and him in her heart, any form is the best form. Hu Qi also has his own unique views on world affairs, and the silent person has some unique views. He told me some embarrassing things about him, but I thought it was normal, there are always indelible traces in everyone's heart, even if those traces are insignificant to others, but that is our difference, wonderful difference. Hu Qi is also my reader, and in this group of five, we have a better relationship.

Just like that, five people, living an ordinary life, honestly completing their daily tasks, going to class, eating, and going back to the dormitory, this is the life of the sophomore year. There was no skipping class, but there was no outstanding performance in school, laughing and scolding each other, but after all, they walked down. But it didn't come to the end, the innovation experiment of the junior year, due to some small contradictions, Ah Fei and Hu Qi completely broke up, Ah Zhi also started his own new story, and Ah Xiang worked hard for credits. Someone is changing, someone is waiting, someone is playing a game, thinking about something at night, and I just want to make a record, imperfection is the best perfection, I like to hear the sound of the tip of the pen scratching the paper, sand...... Sand...... I prefer to hear the voices in my memory, to be still, to listen, to remember singing, to sing songs that never end......

"The general trend of the world, together for a long time, must be divided, and for a long time, it must be united." The situation of the Three Kingdoms in our dormitory is over after all, and many people are optimistic that he has a brighter future than us before entering the school, not why, because the score line in the field is much higher than ours here, as long as you continue to work hard here, you will always have an advantage over us people, I remember that I went to ask the head teacher after the college entrance examination, and when I mentioned that I wanted to study in the local university, he was angry and scolded: "You have a brain disease?" What if other people want to go outside and can't? "I know, resources are the biggest limitation, the bicycle can never run a car, the plane is fast, 211 University is not as good as 985, but I always feel that so advocating competition, advocating the survival of the fittest regardless of the spiritual desolation of the world is something I can love, I know that his reprimand is full of life experience, experience, this is the easy way to walk, but it is not my road, the road is at the foot, as long as you have the courage, why worry about the road ahead, even if I have tasted the joys and sorrows in my future life, The wind, frost, snow and rain have all been experienced, the rest of the students are rich and rich, the spring breeze is proud, and I am alone for half my life, so what, this is my story, isn't it? So I came here, with the stubbornness of people to conquer the sky, or obsession is more appropriate, I worked really hard in my freshman year, what I gained in the busy days, what I lost I have forgotten, I only remember being forced to reluctantly admit the gap, hard work is the most basic requirement, but it is only the basic, talent, or excellent genes are the determination of success - the upper limit under the standard of the base of money status, admit that it is a slow process, confusion is a moderate movement, How long does it take to accept one's imperfections...... Ah Hao, this seed with the hope of others is extinguished in his own unruly, pursuing an unrestrained life, not abiding by school rules and discipline, not listening to lectures, maverick resisting all constraints, but never having his own beliefs, being a hero in his own heart is a price to pay, and now this price is something he can't afford, hanging countless subjects, repeating grades is the only choice, or dropping out, he chose the former. It is not only the environment that determines our fate, but more importantly, ourselves, and perhaps the only thing that universities can learn is to be responsible for ourselves.

On the day the beast came, the dormitory was in a mess, and her sister said that it was no different from a pig's nest, and in this four-person dormitory, I could only keep my place clean, but the part could not always determine the whole, it was a dirty and poor whole. In the face of unknown people, I am always a little wary, the balance is about to be gone, and I am going to draw to the unknown result, whether it is good or bad for me, who knows? The turn of the pen in reality is always more exciting than fiction. The result is good, the beast is back as a soldier, with the righteousness and boldness of the soldier brother, the generous person is always quite imposing, and the snoring at night is like thunder and the momentum is uncontrollable, which just makes it difficult for me to sleep. Mythical beasts love to drink, all kinds of red wine, white wine, wine, etc. ordered online, the name is always big, but for those of us who are forced to taste, it is mostly the taste of toothpaste and loquat dew. "Wine is less than a thousand glasses of confidants," we are not good confidants, just islands where we meet in the vast life, sleepy nights are a commemoration of a semester, I like these nights, even if tomorrow will be parting, but - cheers!

Entering the university in a daze, growing up in a daze, and growing old in a daze, there are always people who are our exclusive sobriety, and there are always some things that cannot be forgotten in the half-awake and half-dreamy dizziness, it is rare to be confused, fortunately confused!