522. [522] Unreal feelings
When they were dating, the love in her eyes, the wholehearted focus, could he never have it anymore?!
Mu Ang looked at his hands in a daze, and the moonstone ring on the ring finger of his left hand was still flashing with a soft light.
The other ring is placed next to Ai, she once said that if one day, he understands his heart, then she will be willing to wear the ring, will be willing to be his wife, and accompany each other for the rest of their lives.
And now, he finally understood who he loved most in his heart, but she had forgotten what she had said at the beginning, and she would not wear the ring.
"Haha...... Ha ha...... It's me!!" Muang muttered, as if his soul had been emptied, and only his body remained.
Guan Cancan doesn't have a taste for it, too many things, mistakes, and entanglements have caused the current situation. But she couldn't do anything, and this sense of powerlessness also made her uncomfortable.
Su Ai felt that even if the door of the ward was closed, she seemed to be able to hear Mu Ang's empty laughter, and she was extremely sad.
Mu Ang doesn't love Cancan, but he falls in love with himself, no matter how you think about it, it feels so strange!
But...... The look on his face when he had said those things to her before was so genuine to tell her that they had been in love before, and that he loved her deeply.
What is in her forgotten memory?!
She desperately wanted to think about it, but as soon as she closed her eyes and tried to think hard, her head began to hurt again, warning her not to think about it anymore, and if she thought about it again, it would only hurt more.
It hurts!
And what should she do?
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When Su Ai woke up again, it was already the middle of the night. During this time, because her body had obviously recovered, she insisted that her parents go home at night to rest and not have to keep vigil for her in the hospital.
Therefore, the hospital has arranged for a special nurse to keep vigil in her ward, and if she needs anything, the nurse will help her in time.
At this time, Su Ai woke up, and as soon as the nurse who was on vigil found out, she stepped forward very responsibly and said, "Sister Su, are you going to the bathroom?" The nurse thought that she woke up in the middle of the night because she wanted to go to the toilet.
Su Ai shook her head, "No, I just can't sleep." As she spoke, she glanced at the closed door of her room, and she remembered that before she fell asleep, Muang seemed to be outside, "That...... Mr. Mu, what happened to him?" she couldn't help but ask.
The nurse said with an embarrassed face, "Mr. Mu has been outside the ward. ”
"What?" Su Ai said in surprise, "All the time?"
"Yes. ”
Su Ai looked up and looked at the wall clock hanging on the wall of the ward, and it was already more than 2 o'clock in the morning. In other words, Muang has been at the door of the ward for more than 10 hours.
"Didn't anyone persuade him to go back to rest?" asked Su Ai again.
Mrs. Si persuaded her, but Mr. Mu did not listen. The nurse replied.
Su Ai pursed her lips, and naturally knew that her parents still had prejudices against Mu Ang, and kept saying that she almost died because of Mu Ang, and these days, it was good that Mu Ang was not kept out of the ward, and of course it was impossible to persuade Mu Ang to do anything.
After thinking about it, Su Ai said to the nurse, "I want to go and see Mr. Mu, please use a wheelchair to push me out." ”
"But it's late at night, and if you go outside like this, it's easy to get cold. The nurse said.
"It's okay, just wear more clothes. Su Ai said.
So, the nurse helped Su Ai to the wheelchair and made sure that Su Ai was dressed enough, so she pushed Su Ai out of the ward.
Outside the ward, quietly, through the glass of the corridor, Su Ai could see a figure sitting on a chair outside the corridor, the cold moonlight sprinkled on his body, with an indescribable loneliness.
It was as if the whole world was left with him, and around him, it was empty.
The nurse pushed Su Ai in the direction of Mu Ang, and the more silent the place, the clearer the sound of footsteps and wheelchairs.
Mu Ang's body shook suddenly, and he slowly raised his head, as if there was a kind of disbelief in his eyes.
When the nurse pushed Su Ai and walked to Mu Ang, Su Ai said to the nurse behind her, "I want to talk to Mr. Mu alone." ”
The nurse was a little embarrassed, after all, she was responsible for taking care of Su Ai's safety, if Su Ai really had anything in case, then the responsibility would be on her shoulders at that time.
"Otherwise, you can look through the glass in the hallway. Su Ai naturally understood the nurse's worries, so she said with a broken heart.
The nurse nodded and left.
Suddenly, only Su Ai and Mu Ang were left here, and for a while, Su Ai didn't know what to say, bit her lip, and said for a long time, "Aren't you going back to rest?"
"Do you want me to go back?" he asked.
She nodded, "It's easy for you to get sick if you stay like this, and the feeling of being sick is not good." "She'll go back to the best example now.
Mu Ang lowered his eyes, half-lowered his head, and said indifferently, "If you are really sick, maybe it is not bad." ”
It's like you're giving up on yourself.
Maybe it's because she never had the memory of falling in love, the man in front of her made Su Ai feel a little strange, and it was a little different from the Mu Ang in her memory.
In her memory, that Mu Ang was always cold and cold, arrogant and noble, so that people could only look up, and she didn't even think that one day, she would chat with Mu Ang like this.
But since she saw Mu Ang in the hospital, he came out in front of her, but she was in a trance, and she saw the other side of him, he would cry, he would laugh, he would whisper, he would pick her up gently, and his face would be full of pain...... It's like, from her memory, the noble son who doesn't eat the fireworks of the world has become more and more like a person, more and more human, and more and more feel that there is no need to look up, it is possible to get closer.
Then, as if ghostly, she reached out and gently touched the hair on his forehead.
At the moment of contact, his body trembled violently.
The action of raising her hand is actually a little difficult for her, more or less, it will make her a little painful, but she feels that at this moment, the person who really hurts should be Mu Ang, if she doesn't stretch out her hand at this time, if she doesn't touch him, she feels that this man will collapse.
Her hand was very slow and gently caressing his hair, always feeling that she should say something, and his current depression was all because of her relationship.
But what should she say to him at this moment?
"I don't know why, I don't have those memories, if we really loved each other, then I think, you must be a good boyfriend. Saying that, she was a little embarrassed again, "However, for me, I always feel a very strange feeling, I never thought that one day, I would have a relationship with you as boyfriend and girlfriend, which is quite unreal." ”
"Unreal?" Muang slowly raised his head, his dark eyes staring at her without blinking.
She pursed her lips shyly, "You are talented, you are good-looking, there were a lot of girls who chased you in college back then, and I have always been quite ordinary, and there is nothing particularly outstanding." "So much so that in the four years of college, she was uninterested!
But it's not that she hasn't imagined what her boyfriend will be like, in her imagination, the other party should be a simple and honest face and a gentle person, which doesn't seem to be able to hit the pole with Mu Ang.
He lifted his hand, grabbed her hand, and pressed her hand to his cheek. His strength wasn't great, but it still hurt her a little.
It's just that at this moment, she endured the pain and didn't show it.
On the back of her hand is the temperature of his hand, and in the palm of her hand, is the temperature of his cheek.
It's just that on both sides, it's cold.
How long had he been sitting here?
"Does that sound unreal?" his voice sounded in the silence of the night.
Su Ai was stunned, at this moment, he was so real in front of her, it could be touched, "How did we start dating?" she couldn't help asking.
His eyelashes trembled, "It's by the river, my hand is injured, you took my hand and said that you must let me go to the hospital for examination, I didn't go, you are like me." His eyes were dyed with a layer of memory, and the corners of his lips were slightly raised, "I asked you if you would like to love me, and you said yes, that's it, we are dating." This memory, for him, is incomparably precious, and in the days when he couldn't find her, these memories are like fragments from a movie, constantly replaying in his mind.
Su Ai was dumbfounded when she heard this, she didn't expect that she would be so bold at that time.
"And what happened later?" she couldn't help but ask.
"Later, we interacted like ordinary people, eating together, watching TV dramas together, and going to concerts together...... You often come to my company after work, and if I'm busy, you will sit quietly and write music, or open your notebook, chat with friends, watch movies and TV dramas, etc., and ......"
As Mu Ang described it little by little, Su Ai seemed to be listening to a new story, listening to a little bit of what had happened.
Did she really experience those things with the man in front of her?
One spoke tirelessly, while the other listened attentively, and in the midst of this, her hand was still being grasped by him, clinging to his face, and the temperature of her palm was warming the temperature of his skin little by little.