521. [521] I don't remember
Ai remembered him, but she forgot that they loved each other?! Is this possible?
It's like the funniest joke in the world for him!
Closing his eyes, he took a deep breath, and when his eyes opened again, it was already cold, "I don't believe it." Mu Ang said coldly.
Yes, I don't believe that such an unforgettable love will be so forgotten by her.
I don't believe that the woman who is willing to love her and give her salvation and warmth will take back that love so completely.
Unless Ai told him personally, he would never believe it!
Guan Cancan knew that it was useless for him to say anything at this time, so he sat back on the chair next to him, but Mu Ang stood upright, his hands hanging down his side were clenched tightly into fists, and his nails kept pinching his palms, as if he was numbing himself with the pain.
After a long while, the door to the consultation room was opened, and the nurse pushed Su Ai out.
Guan Cancan and Su's father and Su's mother immediately stood up and surrounded them.
And when Su Ai saw Mu Ang standing in front, she pursed her lips with some uneasiness and guilt.
He was looking at her, looking at her with a focused, questioning gaze, and even as she lowered her head, she could still feel his gaze.
But when the nurse pushed her back to the ward, he didn't follow.
Su Ai breathed a sigh of relief, Mu Ang didn't follow, it's okay, at least she doesn't have to think about explaining something to him for the time being.
The doctor's diagnosis came out, because the nerves in the brain were stimulated due to falling into the sea at a high altitude, so it led to partial amnesia, in other words, it can also be said to be a self-protection mechanism of the injured person, or it was a deep desire in her heart, so she lost this part of her memory.
"Wish?" Mu Ang's face suddenly turned pale after hearing the doctor's explanation. Could it be said that forgetting the love between the two is the deepest wish of Ai?
Is he alone in what he wants to have, what he wants to remember?
Is their love painful, a burden, or a ...... for her? Is it really just out of sympathy?
"So what does it take to get her memories back?" asked Muang, staring at the doctor.
"This ...... We examined Sister Su's brain, and there was no lump or bruising, so it was difficult to take any treatment, maybe she often told her something about the part of her memory that she lost, and she could slowly wake up her memory. The human brain is very wonderful, maybe in the next second, Sister Su will recover her memory, of course, in our case, some patients may not have much reaction to this way. ”
In other words, there are some people who will not be able to recover their memories in their lifetime.
Mu Ang's body trembled, and his whole body became a little shaky. After the doctor's words, he didn't speak again, turned and walked out of the room.
Su's father and Su's mother continued to learn from the doctor about their daughter's specific situation. And Guan Cancan chased him out, ran to Mu Ang's and said, "Are you going to question Xiao Ai, losing your memory is not Xiao Ai's fault at all......
However, before she finished speaking, Mu Ang had already raised his hand, pushed her aside, and continued to walk forward.
Guan Cancan stomped his feet and continued to chase.
In this way, the two came to the door of the ward, Mu Ang had not yet spoken a word, when Mu Ang pushed the door of the ward open, Guan Cancan pulled Mu Ang tightly and said, "Don't, what Xiao Ai needs most is rest, don't affect her!"
But Guan Cancan's little strength couldn't pull Mu Ang at all.
Mu Ang walked into the hospital room, his eyes staring straight at Su Ai who was lying on the hospital bed.
Under his gaze, Su Ai only felt that her heart was beating wildly, and the feeling of uneasiness was becoming stronger and stronger.
"You guys go out first, I want to have a few words with Ai alone. Mu Ang spoke, but there was a hint of coldness in his voice.
The two nurses in the ward and Guan Cancan.
Guan Cancan hurriedly said, "Mu Ang, what do you want to do?" She was afraid that he would be stimulated by this, and for a while, he would do something to hurt Xiao Ai.
"Don't worry, I'm not going to do anything, just a few words. "Even if I hurt myself, I won't hurt her!"
Guan Cancan was stunned for a moment.
And Su Ai took a deep breath at this time and said, "That Cancan, please go out with the nurse first, Mu and I ...... Aang, let's talk about it alone. "Since this kind of thing has to be faced sooner or later, then let's face it as soon as possible, and tell him as soon as possible, her true situation.
Since Su Ai said so, Guan Cancan couldn't say anything more, nodded, and she and the two nurses left the ward. It's just that although he left the ward, Guan Cancan did not walk away, but stood at the door of the ward.
There was silence in the ward.
Mu Ang just looked at Su Ai, but did not speak. This gaze is as if it is going to look at a lifetime. In the end, it was Su Ai who broke the silence first.
"Don't you have something to ask me?" she asked.
He opened his mouth, he had too many questions to ask her before coming here, but when he really saw her, when the two of them were alone, he didn't know what to ask.
Or is he afraid to ask, afraid that if he really asks an answer he doesn't want to hear, what will he do?!
"You...... How much do you remember about me? How do you remember how we got started? Do you remember when you said you would love me? Remember when we were together, even if it was just a little bit. He asked in a hoarse voice, with a fierce longing in his eyes.
But in exchange, it was her shaking her head and the voice of "I'm sorry!"
What he wanted was never her apology, Mu Ang only felt that his heart suddenly became empty, and it was constantly falling, "So do you have feelings for me now, do you have some feelings of loving me?" he asked bitterly, as if grasping at the last straw.
Su Ai looked at Mu Ang in embarrassment, she could see that her answer should be very important to him, but for her...... Should we tell the truth? Or is it a lie?
Maybe a lie can be perfunctory for a while and make him feel better, but it can never replace the truth.
This man, did she really love him deeply? But why did she not have the slightest impression of falling in love with each other? Su Ai licked her somewhat dry lips, "I...... I don't know what happened to me and you, in my memory, you are in love with Cancan's Muang, you have done a lot of things for Cancan, and as a bystander, I have always been very moved...... As for the love you mentioned, I really ...... right now I don't feel like that. ”
Although, it may be a cruel thing to say what she really thinks, but she always feels that there will always be a day when the illusion will be exposed, and when the time comes, it may be even more cruel.
But when she finished saying this, Su Ai looked at Mu Ang's pale face, with an expression that seemed to laugh and cry, and she suddenly felt that maybe the so-called cruelty was even worse than she imagined.
Those dark and deep eyes were filled with a deep and intense pain, "bystander...... Move...... Is all that's left of me for you?" his voice sounded as if it had been run over by sand.
Su Ai only felt a stuffiness in her chest, as if she was being pressed by something.
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry......" Su Ai apologized repeatedly, facing such Mu Ang, she inexplicably felt a sense of guilt. It's as if she forgot about the love between them, which is a heinous thing.
His eyes slowly turned from pain to a kind of hollowness, as if a person had suddenly lost all his qiē.
He walked to the side of the bed step by step, raised his hand, and gently stroked her face. His fingers were trembling, and every touch only made her feel more how powerful his tremor was.
"Ai ......" he opened his thin lips with difficulty, and whispered almost like a whisper, "Don't say sorry anymore, the person I'm sorry for should be me, if it weren't for me, you wouldn't have fallen into the sea, you wouldn't have died, then you wouldn't have lost these memories." ”
After a pause, he suddenly showed her a smile that was more ugly than crying, "Is this your punishment for me?" In the end, there was nothing left......"
She didn't know how to answer him, his fingers were cold and terrible, but his voice was so cold.
An atmosphere of silence surrounds the two.
They looked at each other like this. I don't know how long it took, Mu Ang's eyes finally flashed, he slowly lowered his hand, and straightened up, "You have a good rest." ”
With these words, his steps almost staggered towards the door of the ward.
The door opened, and the two nurses re-entered the room.
And then, the door closed again.
Guan Cancan looked at Mu Ang who came out, and couldn't help but say, "Are you okay?"
Mu Ang suddenly laughed, "Haha...... What do you think is good about me? She still remembers me, remembers a qiē in ten years, but she forgets the most important days between her and me, and forgets how much she loved me!"
The moment the two looked at each other, he finally discovered what he had been ignoring all these days.
She looked at him in the eyes, before they dearly, she just treated him as a person she knew, maybe there was a trace of sympathy, sympathy for his love for Cancan, but there was absolutely no trace of love.