But her eyes, her voice, made him feel that no matter what, he had to give it a try. Because this is what she thinks is worth doing, because she is willing to face this memory with him that he wants to forget, wants to escape, and more importantly, her heart, this love, allows him to endure the feeling of being swallowed up by darkness and face it.

Si Miyu took a long breath, took out a small, flashlight-like thing from the car, and stuffed it into Guan Cancan's hand, "If something is wrong with me for a while, or if the love is out of control and hurts you, you will directly use this to corona me." ”

Guan Cancan naturally knew that what Si Jianyu handed her at this time was an electric shock stick against wolves. And this thing was bought by her before, when she was in Vienna, and as a single mother, sometimes she needed to prepare such a thing for safety. It's just that when she returned to China, she didn't bring the stun baton back to China, but stayed directly in her apartment in Vienna.

At this moment, she could be said to have completely failed to expect that Si Jian Yu would take this out and give it to her, so that she could stun him for a while.

"But this is too ......" Guan Cancan hesitated, of course she knew that the power of this thing was not enough to kill people, but it would definitely not be good if it was electrified.

"If you don't agree, then I won't get out of the car, we'll leave now. "Si Mi Yu is categorical. He hadn't been back here for more than 20 years, and he didn't even know what it would be like to be when he actually stood with his feet in the place where the accident had happened.

Maybe it's quiet, maybe it's exciting?!

Or maybe you'll get caught up in the memories of that time and get out of control?!

And now, he just wants to make sure she's safe.

Guan Cancan could see that Si Jianyu was serious, and if she refused, then he would really leave. What he cares about now is not whether he can get out of the shadow in his heart, but her safety.

The electric shock rod in his hand, at this moment, is so heavy.

She pursed her lips, nodded, and put the stun baton in her jacket pocket, and when he saw this, he unbuckled his seat belt, opened the door and stepped out of the car.

Guan Cancan followed and got out of the car, she only knew that it was this area, but the specific location of the accident and the exact location were only known to Si Jianyu.

He walked step by step towards the specific location of the accident, as if as soon as he closed his eyes, the scene at that time would appear in front of him. After that loud bang, there was silence for the rest.

No, not without a little sound, and the sound of blood dripping.

Tick tock!

Each stroke felt like it would hit the depths of the soul.

Si Mi Yu approached the location of the car accident step by step, and as he got closer and closer, his body gradually became stiffer, and even taking a step began to become difficult.

The blood was getting cold, and his wheezing was getting thicker.

Suddenly, a hand grabbed his hand, and the warm touch eased his tense nerves. It's Canchan holding his hand!

Si Jianyu turned his head to look at Guan Cancan, and then pointed to the turn that was only five steps away from the two of them, "The car accident happened there." At that moment, for me, the world of the last second was completely different from the next. ”

Guan Cancan could feel that when he said this, Si Jianyu's hand holding her was constantly tightening.

His hand was held tightly by him, and it hurt a little, but there was still no expression on her face, and she just listened to him quietly.

Lu Lifang said, "I want Yu to tell everything he really thinks in his heart, and vent it all, because these have been buried in his heart for too long, and they have been backlogged for too long." ”

Lu Lifang also said, "Cancan, but you also have to pay attention to the fact that Yu has been in an unstable state over the years, and he has relied on psychotropic drugs to control it before, if he is allowed to return to the place where the accident occurred, he may be able to vent all those suppressed fears, but it may also make him fall into some kind of confusion, causing an unstable state, so just in case, you had better let other people follow you, and when Yu makes any inappropriate moves, you can stop it." ”

It seems that Lu Lifang and Yu are thinking of the same thing, Guan Cancan glanced at the somewhat bulging pocket, and there was still the electric shock stick in the pocket.

The reason why she didn't listen to Lu Lifang's words and let others follow them was because she felt that the Imperial Council was willing to show his vulnerability and fear in front of her, but she must not be willing to do this in front of others.

Or maybe it's also her selfishness, selfishly unwilling to let others see this side of him.

When their feet were actually standing at the corner, which was the exact location of the car accident at that time, Si Miyu's voice was gradually becoming hoarse, his wheezing sound became more and more obvious, and the fingers that grabbed her hand became more and more forceful, as if they were going to penetrate her skin and be embedded in her bones.

It hurts, it hurts, but her pain is nothing compared to the pain he once endured.

"Blood, a lot of blood, the world in my eyes, at that moment, all turned blood, I was still alive, but at that time, I felt like I was dead. Tsushimami muttered hoarsely.

The blood in front of him seemed to be getting heavier and heavier, as if all life was leaving him, his father's life, his mother's life...... In the cramped carriage, in the blood-colored carriage, he was the only one left with life.

His body couldn't move, his mother's body pressed against his body, and the temperature of his body gradually became cold, just like the blood that fell on his face and body, from warm to cold.

If he could, he would even like to die like that, with his parents.

Wouldn't that be better?

"Dead ...... Damn it, if I hadn't survived at that time, it would have been good. He muttered, a misguided glint in his eyes.

Guan Cancan was stunned?!

Death?!Did you ever think of seeking death because of your parents?!

"How can it be good!" she said, "if you die, then I won't meet you, we won't love each other, and we won't give birth to smiles." ”

"But you don't want me anymore, and you leave me. His eyes were clearly looking in her direction, but the focus was not on her face.

Guan Cancan chuckled in his heart, knowing that Si Jianyu was afraid that his thoughts at this moment would be in a state of memory again.

Back then, did her departure also deepen the shadow in his heart?!

"I didn't want you, and I didn't leave you!" Guan Cancan said loudly, because one hand had been held tightly by him, so she could only use the other hand to grab the placket of his collar and let him look at her.

"But you've all left me...... It's all gone......"

"I'm here, I've always been. Guan Cancan said, "And your parents don't want you, they love you more than anyone else, so at the end of their lives, they are protecting you with their lives!

But he didn't seem to hear her at all, and he was still immersed in his own consciousness, "Head...... It hurts...... ...... pain" His eyebrows furrowed, and he suddenly let go of her hand, which had been holding her tightly.

However, before Guan Cancan could breathe a sigh of relief, he saw Si Jianyu clutching his head desperately with both hands, as if he was about to insert his fingers deep into his skull.

If he goes on like this, he'll get hurt!

Guan Cancan didn't think about it, so he pounced, used his strength to eat, and desperately pulled away Si Jianyu's hands, but his strength was far greater than hers, and he finally pulled his fingers away from his head a little, but then, his fingers grabbed his head heavily again, scratching again and again.

Guan Cancan gritted his teeth, pulled his hand away desperately again, and then took advantage of the short time between them, suddenly let go of his hand, and at a very fast speed, he pressed his hands tightly on both sides of his temples to protect his head.

His fingers, reflexively gripping at the back of her hand.

On her fair skin, blood marks immediately appeared.

It hurts terribly!

But at this moment, she couldn't let go of her hand anyway.

"Yu, slowly and desperately come down, take a deep breath, two short and one long, and then listen to me, don't think that it will be better to die, your parents protected you and let you live in the last moment, so that you can live better for them and live happily. Those five hours are not a nightmare, but proof that your parents love you, and they are loving you with their lives, so don't hide anything, don't keep all your fears and anxieties in your heart! If you want to shout, you can cry, if you want to cry, if you miss them, say you miss them very much......"

She endured the pain and kept talking, the backs of her hands were becoming more and more painful, as if both hands were going to be scrapped, and at this moment, she just pressed numbly on his head, protecting his head and preventing him from hurting himself.

He hurts, so she hurts with him.

"Yu, your parents have always guarded you, and they have always been ...... Even if they pass away, I believe that they are still guarding you, and I will guard you together in the future! No matter what happens, I will not leave you! Don't be afraid, don't be afraid...... It doesn't hurt anymore, it doesn't hurt anymore......"

The long body shook suddenly, and her voice finally reached his ears little by little.

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