As soon as Zhang Hengye recited the incantation, my sense of loss came to my heart, because Xu Shaohan would never appear in the home that he was about to return to.

"Close your eyes."

Zhang Hengye said, a strong white light flashed, but I didn't listen to him.

I opened my eyes wide to accept the light, hoping to be burned to the point of blindness by the light as before, maybe then I would not feel sad about the place where I had been with Xu Shaohan.

In the light, my body continued to sink until I landed.

When my feet touched the ground, my eyes were still white, but they quickly returned to normal.

When you don't want to go blind but you accidentally go blind, you want to go blind but you can't get what you want.

Zhang Hengye took me directly to the living room, looking at everything in the living room, thinking of Xu Shaohan's words and deeds, my heart was like a knife, and my breathing was heavy.

"Brother Shaohan......"

Finally, I looked at the kitchen door and cried, Xu Shaohan used to be busy in that room until there were many more dishes on the table, but now ......

"Why don't you go to Kyoto, stay with me during this time, and I'll play games with you." Zhang Hengye said.

I ignored him, wiped my tears and went to the wine cabinet, where there was still a few red wines that he liked to drink, and a few cigarettes that he liked to smoke.

"You can't drink." Zhang Hengye reminded.

I poured a bottle of wine into the goblet, and said while shaking the glass: "The emperor said that his child is not so fragile, just a few glasses of wine, and the god fetus can bear it." ”

"You!"

I looked at Zhang Hengye while raising my head and drinking the wine in the glass, Zhang Hengye walked over quickly and took the wine glass from my hand, and said: "Even if you can't hurt the fetus, don't drink it, draw the knife and cut off the water, the water will flow more, and the glass will be more sorrowful, haven't you heard of this sentence?" ”

I just picked up the bottle and poured a big sip into my stomach, and said with a wry smile: "I've heard of it, but so what? A lot of people have heard it, but they do it anyway. There is wine today, drunk today, and sorrow tomorrow comes. ”

Zhang Hengye sighed and returned the wine glass to me, but I felt that it was more convenient not to use the wine glass, so I drank directly to the bottle.

"How can such a good wine drink like you? It's too wasteful, if Xu Shaohan knows under the spring, he will be distressed. Zhang Hengye said.

"Then how can he drink it without feeling distressed?" I asked.

"Of course, you can taste it slowly, and the red wine will not taste until you have woken up."

I took another sip and said, "Taste it slowly?" When can you get drunk slowly? I just wanted to get drunk. ”

Zhang Hengye shook his head helplessly, and said, "Actually, you don't have to drink if you want to get drunk, it's better for me to cast a spell to let you sleep for a while." ”

"No need. I'm fine, you go first. ”

"Oh, that's driving me away! I will show you a hand, and by the way, I will drink with you and taste some of the wine that Shaohan treasured. ”

Zhang Hengye turned around and went into the kitchen, and saw a figure busy in the kitchen, which couldn't help but remind me of Xu Shaohan again, so I took one sip after another, and the wine in the bottle quickly bottomed out.

……

"Brother Shaohan, what did you cook delicious today?"

"Dead girl, you can call me brother at this time!"

……

Memories emerged one scene after another, Xu Shaohan's face and voice lingered in my mind, and my tears and the red wine flowing from my mouth and face were mixed together, all the way to the depths of my neck.

After a while, Zhang Hengye walked out with a meal, and under the hazy tears in his eyes, his figure was somewhat similar to Xu Shaohan, but he was thinner.

"Lu Yanxi, drink less, come over and eat something." Zhang Hengye said.

I picked up another bottle of red wine and took it to the table and sat down.

Zhang Hengye stood up and snatched the red wine from my hand, and I was dissatisfied: "What are you doing?" ”

He poured the wine and said: "Drinking red wine requires a sense of ritual, no matter how much you want to get drunk at the moment, don't pull the bottle and, that would be too unladylike." ”

"Was I a lady before?" I asked.

Zhang Hengye replied: "Before...... It used to be okay, but you did look a little ...... like that."

"Maybe you'll see me like that in the future." I said.

Zhang Hengye poured the wine, raised his glass and said, "Okay, Lu Yanxi, I hope you will come out of the shadows as soon as possible and return to the sun." ”

I raised my glass and touched it with him, saying, "I like to be in the shadows." ”

With that, I just raised my head and drank the wine dry.

Zhang Hengye took a sip and said, "How about tasting the dishes I made." ”

I picked up the chopsticks and took a bite, and the taste of this dish was almost the same as that made by Xu Shaohan!

"This? ...... you cooked."

Before I finished my words, Zhang Hengye smiled: "Do you want to ask why the dishes I cook are so similar to the dishes made by Xu Shaohan?" ”

I nodded, and Zhang Hengye continued: "I also tasted the dishes that Xu Shaohan cooked for you last time, so I can roughly master his cooking techniques and heat control. ”

"That's ...... so"

I took another bite of the dish and put it in my mouth, the taste of this dish was very similar, but after all, it was not made by Xu Shaohan himself, I could no longer eat the food he made by himself, thinking of this, my tears fell again, and big drops flowed into the plate.

"Lu Yanxi, it hurts you to cry at every turn, don't forget that you are pregnant now." Zhang Hengye reminded.

I ignored him, wiped my tears and continued to eat, but it was easy to put in my mouth, but it was especially difficult to swallow.

"Hey...... As for it? I've lived so long, and I've experienced more life and death than you, and if I were as fragile as you, I would have cried to death. Zhang Hengye said.

I forcibly swallowed the food in my mouth and said, "That's because your heart is too cold, and only cold-hearted people want to be immortals, and cold-hearted people can become immortals, and you people are like this." ”

"You were a god before, and you were vulnerable back then." Zhang Hengye replied.

I sneered and said, "I'm a god, I'm just a pet." ”

"Don't you get into the horns? Even if it's a pet, it's the emperor's pet, and how many people in this world can't be the emperor's pet! ”

Zhang Hengye said, I looked up at him indifferently, he probably realized that he had said the wrong thing, and said again: "Although you are a pet, you later became the emperor!" ”

I was silent for a while, and then said, "I never cared about the emperor or anything. ”

"Then you only care about Xu Shaohan?" Zhang Hengye asked.

I shook my head and said, "No, I don't just care about Xu Shaohan, I also care about how I should live next." Zhang Hengye, how should I live? ”