Nan Sheng was silent.

Zhao Yang got up and opened the drawer, flipped through it twice casually and asked, "Is there still a lighter at home?" ”

Nan Sheng ignored it.

"Fanfan, you find a lighter for Dad."

"The child is asleep." Nan Sheng couldn't help but glare at him.

"Then you can get me a lighter."

"You're a bit of a shame like this."

"Dead skin and dead face, in front of you, I have nothing to disguise." Zhao Yang took the lighter handed by Nan Sheng: "We have known each other since we were sixteen years old, and we have spent more time with each other than with our parents, and no one knows who." Zhao Yang said: "You say, how did we come to this point?" ”

"Why did you marry me in the first place?"

"I want to take care of you." Zhao Yang took a puff of cigarette: "We met at the age of sixteen, we were together at the age of eighteen, and we have been through ups and downs for several years, we have done what we should do and what we shouldn't do." Anyway, I'm responsible for you. ”

"Responsible? And now? Nan Sheng smiled: "You don't have to be responsible now, right?" ”

"It's not that I'm not responsible, I just want to do it differently. Nansheng, I never said that I don't care about you, I don't care about children. Even if we get divorced, I will protect you and take care of you, and I will not let people bully you. ”

"The junior has bullied me like this, and I haven't seen you protect me. On the contrary, I only saw you protecting the mistress and helping the mistress bully me together. ”

"That's not bullying! Besides, how did people bully her, but it was you, who texted and scolded her every now and then, but they didn't reply. ”

"It's not that she didn't reply, but with your gun, she doesn't have to return." Nan Sheng said: "You men really can't tell who is green tea?" ”

"I know, I know she did it on purpose, but I didn't say anything about you." Zhao Yang's voice was a little hoarse: "Do you remember my cousin who died young?" He was in his thirties when he died. When I went to see him in Beijing, I suddenly figured out a lot of things. This voice is too short, I don't want to be so muddy, I want to find a woman I really like, I really love to spend with her, even if I can't find it, I don't want to make do with your marriage anymore. ”

"Nansheng, I think it's okay, it's unfair to me, and it's not fair to you."

"Someone you really love? Then your love comes really casually, and you have to change to a true love every few years. ”

"I know you're sarcastic about me, and I know that the relationship between me and them isn't necessarily real love, at best, it's love. But love is the foundation of love, and I thought, maybe there can be love. Zhao Yang's eyes were empty: "Speaking of which, I also wonder, why are all the women I like, one or two-"

"Any woman who is a little educated and a little bit of three-mindedness will not get together with a married man. Those who can come together with you can only be this kind of woman who has no three views, lacks education, and has a chaotic private life. So it's not that all you meet is this kind of woman, but you can only meet this kind of woman. ”

"Maybe you're right." Zhao Yang sighed: "But what can I do now?" Wrong and wrong, there is no turning back. ”

"There's no turning back."

"You say, why can't I love you?" Zhao Yang looked at Nan Sheng: "How good it is for me to fall in love with you, we can live a happy life." Nan Sheng, let me tell you something from my heart, you are a very good woman, and I am very relieved when I am with you. But what to do? I don't love you, I can't control myself. ”

"Maybe it's not that you don't love, but that your love for us is not so strong. From the very beginning of your marriage, you have been wandering, wandering, turning back one step at a time. You don't really love others, you just don't want to spend the rest of your life with me that much, and these actions of yours just leave a gap in our marriage. You always want to peek into the outside world through these cracks, and want to see if you can find someone better than me, more suitable, and more worthy of your love. ”

Nan Sheng looked at the crystal chandelier, raised his right hand, and half-squinted his eyes to look at the light between his fingers: "But how can there be such a perfect person in this world." Perfect love, perfect marriage, will always exist only in people's fantasies. All seemingly perfect love is a two-way rush with all your heart, and all seemingly perfect marriages are extremely giving and tolerant, and no one can always ask for it. ”

"What is a two-way street? In my understanding, going both ways means working together, living together, and taking care of the family together. ”

"Yes, you're right, everyone wants such a simple two-way rush, but Zhao Yang, the kind you said, needs strong support and a stable rear. Marriage is not only love, but also firewood, rice, oil and salt, as well as chicken and dogs, these things must be handled by someone, and the person responsible for dealing with these things is bound to lag behind the person who focuses on his career. ”

"The ancients said that the male protagonist is outside and the female protagonist is inside, not only the literal meaning, but also the meaning of mutual tolerance and mutual understanding. Women must understand the hard work of men working outside, and men must also understand that it is not easy for women to pay for the family. ”

"I don't understand you, don't I tolerate you? On the contrary, you are always critical of me, disgusted with me, which is not good, and which is not good. ”

"Understand? Inclusive? Your so-called understanding and tolerance, like your family, are only based on words. You say it's not easy for me, but when you get home, you can't pick and choose, and you won't help at all. Nan Sheng shook his head: "You have been working outside for six days, and I have been busy at home for six days, there is nothing wrong with you wanting to rest on the weekend, I think it is unforgivable to rest." ”

"I didn't say I wouldn't let you rest."

"You said, you said let me rest, but how can I rest?" Nan Sheng asked rhetorically: "Seven days a week, I fetch water for six days, and the rest of the weekend, I ask you to help me go downstairs to fetch buckets of water, and you say that I will treat you as a servant." Seven days a week, I have to cook with my children six days a week, and I am very busy. Finally, on the weekend, I asked you to take care of the children, let me cook a meal in peace, you said the children didn't let you take them, you said you wanted to play games. I wanted to clean my house thoroughly over the weekend, and you said I was deliberately pretending to be diligent when you returned. ”

Nan Sheng smiled bitterly: "Zhao Yang, have you tried to live a life of one delay and two?" Do you know how difficult it is to completely clean up a home in a one-to-two situation? Maybe while I was washing the toilet, my son crawled into the kitchen. Maybe when I was cleaning the hood, he touched the power in the house. ”

"Why don't you just put him in a relatively safe place?"

This marriage