Mo Qingqian subconsciously bit her lip, and at that moment, she felt that the blood on her body was about to fade. It's obviously the middle of summer, there is no wind, but it still feels cold and biting, and the cold is from the heart, from the bones. All the disguises were seen through, and it was as embarrassing as being naked to her. The world is still so cruel that it doesn't leave her a little hope.

She raised the corners of her mouth at Yun Peichen: "Doctor, it's late." ”

Yun Peichen is such a smart person, of course he understands what Mo Qingqian means. He opened his mouth but was silent, and only said: "Yes, it's late, then, I'll go first......"

Mo Qing nodded expressionlessly.

Yun Peichen can be called a step at a time, he thought that she had accepted him, was no longer so defensive and dodged him, no longer desperately lengthened their distance, and distanced their relationship, but it seemed that he was just thinking too much. But why? She is obviously not a guarded person, and she communicates very happily with the people she just met, calling her brother and brother, why is she like this now?

In the past, she was so smart and clever, and her whole body was full of aura, especially the pair of watery black eyes like grapes, and she should become a bright and moving girl when she grows up. But why, now he is like an old man who has run out of oil, his eyes are full of tiredness, and even the occasional childishness is just a gesture?

How did she end up like this? His star shouldn't be like this.

He went to ask the dean's grandmother, but the dean's grandmother still refused to tell her anything about the past seven years. She just kept sighing and told him not to rush to recognize her, saying that she hadn't forgiven him yet.

He knew that his stars had always held grudges, but it didn't matter, he could wait, even if it took his life to repay that year, that day.

When Yun Peichen walked to the door, he suddenly remembered the remaining porridge on the kitchen countertop, and hesitated to remind Mo Qingqian: "That, there is still some porridge in the pot, if you can't finish it, you can put it up, and if you don't want to cook tomorrow morning, you can still heat it up." ”

Mo Qingqian didn't look back, only said lightly: "Got it, thank you." ”

It wasn't until he heard the sound of the door being gently closed, until the next door was opened, and until he couldn't hear any more sound, that Mo Qingqian got up and locked the door as usual, hung up the anti-leeching chain, turned on the radio, and turned on the sound to the maximum. After a series of movements, she sat on the couch and didn't know what to do.

She stared at the bowl of vegetable porridge until her eyes were sour, and then she finally made a decision, picked up the bowl and drank it in one gulp, after all, this was the only warmth and kindness that this cold and lonely night gave her. But it didn't take long for my stomach to tumble and vomit all over the toilet.

Mo Qing looked at himself in the mirror, like looking at a stranger, although his eyebrows and eyes could vaguely see what he used to be, but it was no longer the feeling he once had. She knew that she had changed, changed so much, that she could never get back the self she used to be, and she had to forget what she was like.

Once, so far away and so strange. She remembered that she had a past, but did she have a future? Will there be light in the future?

"You don't deserve it!" Mo Qing's shallow and angry voice echoed in the bathroom, and the eyes reflected in the mirror were red, but no tears fell.

"How do people like you deserve a future! How to deserve to have sunshine! Go back, into the darkness that belongs to you! Get out! ”

She screamed hoarsely, suddenly grabbed the bottle of the fragrance and slammed it into the mirror, the splattered glass shards mercilessly sliced across her face, the snaking blood stains looking very hideous, but she didn't feel the pain.

That's right, my heart is numb, can I still feel pain?

After a long time, Mo Qing shivered and stroked "her" face, there was no temperature, even the bright red blood was cold, the same as "her" heart.

"You say, you're already so embarrassed, why do you still live in this world? There are so many people in this world, but no one really cares about you and cares about you, don't you feel pathetic? ”

"She" didn't answer, but shed a few tears, mixed with blood and water slowly flowing.

"Today, the sun in my life is gone...... The sun I had so much to look forward to...... My world is really only dark......" Mo Qingqian smiled bitterly at "her", and "she" was the same.

"It's just that I don't regret it, he is the only sun in the sky, the brightest star in the night sky, he should shine in the vast sky, and he should not be contaminated by me and degenerate into a small and ordinary dust. Even if one day, he really falls, it should become the brightest meteor, crossing the sky, leaving the most shining figure, to surprise everyone, that is his fate. ”

But what about her fate? What is the tragic end of her fate?

"What does my liking mean to him?" Mo Qing lowered her eyes and murmured, as if she was just saying it to herself, "Such a cheap feeling, don't ...... it"

She stroked the corners of "her" mouth with a smile, the eight teeth were perfect smiles, although it was not a charming smile, but at least it looked quite comfortable.

"She" used this laugh I don't know how many people she deceived and how many scenes she coped with, but today someone actually called "her" to laugh if she didn't want to laugh? It's ridiculous! What does he know? What does he understand? And what does he know?

He doesn't understand anything, he doesn't understand anything, he doesn't understand anything, he just opens his mouth and says such things, he is self-righteous! But there is one thing, he is really not wrong, she really no one cares.

Mo Qing was tired, leaning against the cold wall and slowly sliding to the ground, with a "click", the blood on his face fell to the ground and shattered his bones, like a broken lotus flower.

She was really tired, her heart was tired, and she closed her eyes and didn't want to open them again. She didn't want to hide anymore, and the voice of someone was always in her ears - "Give up when you're exhausted, I don't care about your departure......"

Yes, no matter how you hide, you can't hide, you can't escape, she is like a funny clown, crying, even bleeding, the people in the audience don't care, some people will clap their hands, because she still has a funny smile on her face, who will pay attention or care, will a clown be sad and tearful, sad and heartbroken?

She should have left a long time ago, long before she came into this world, and it shouldn't be too late, right?

Will I be at night, but if I really did it immediately, would you shed a few tears for me? Forget it, you just have to smile......

Mo Qingqian slowly opened his eyes, and what he saw within his vision was a piece of white, the long-lost sunlight sprinkled softly on his face, not dazzling but very warm, maybe this is what heaven looks like.

But how did she come to heaven? She has done a lot of evil, and she should go to the eighteenth layer of hell! But there is no such sunshine in hell...... It is really unfair that she did not feel too much sunlight in her life, but she will still fall into darkness forever after death.

Mo Qing was thinking nonsense, and suddenly heard a soft sound of "squeak", and she was not surprised when she saw that the person who came did not have wings. Hearing that soft sound, she knew that this was not some kind of heaven, nor was it hell, it was still that cold world, and she was a little lost.

To her surprise, the angel in white saw her expression and looked very happy, as if he had known her for a long time.

"You can be considered awake, now Dr. Yun's heart can finally fall."

Hearing her words, Mo Qingqian understood, it turned out that she was not so excited because of her. She just said, but she hasn't come for two or three months, how can this service attitude be so good, and there are personal factors mixed in with the daring feelings.

Mo Qingqian sat up from the hospital bed, the sunlight outside just passed through the window, sprinkling warmly on her, it seemed that the weather was very good today.

The angel in white walked over, holding iodophor and cotton balls in his hand, Mo Qingqian suddenly remembered what happened yesterday, and reached out to touch his face.

The angel in white pounced and grabbed her hand: "Hey, this can't be touched, just stitches, four stitches!" ”

She seemed to care more about the party than Mo Qingqian, and while holding iodophor to disinfect her, she kept chattering: "I don't know how you got it, what a beautiful face, now it's all wounded, what a pity if it leaves a scar!" ”

Mo Qing glanced at her slightly, with a white melon seed face, a little baby fat, a pair of watery eyes under the curved eyebrows, eyes that seemed to be talking, a small and round nose, and a mouth that kept talking.

She was dressed in a white nurse's uniform, not like an angel, but like a chirping little white finch, and the name of the little white finch was Yan Zike.

"You're a volunteer?" Mo Qing glanced at the sign on her chest.

"Yes, but don't worry, although I'm not a nurse, I can still do a good job in the little thing of medicine, you believe me!" Obsidian-like eyes gleamed with pleading.

Mo Qing smiled lightly: "It's okay, I believe in you, you can continue." ”

Yanzi was very happy, but he didn't grasp the strength well for a while, and Mo Qingqian gasped in pain.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Yan Zike hurriedly got up and bowed to Mo Qingqian, and explained apologetically, "I've been volunteering in the hospital for so long, and no one is willing to let me help them, you're the first, I'm so excited, thank you!" ”

She bowed solemnly to Mo Qingqian again, which made Mo Qingqian a little overwhelmed, she didn't believe in her much, she just didn't care, she didn't deserve her so much gratitude.

"Are you Dr. Yun's girlfriend?" Yan Zike asked suddenly.

Mo Qingqian didn't understand why she asked such a question, so she only glanced at her lightly.

But Yanzi still didn't know it, and said to himself: "You don't know how panicked the expression on Dr. Yun's face was when he brought you in, it's the first time I've seen him so scared and nervous, he should like you very much, right?" ”

"You think too much, he and I are just ordinary neighbors."

Yun Peichen happened to walk in at this time, and after hearing this, he lowered his head a little sadly. Ordinary neighbors, not even friends, is that just like that in her heart?