The cool water finally brought my brain back to its senses.

When the people around me saw my operation, their mouths opened wide in surprise, and they didn't understand why I was acting like crazy.

It's just that I don't have the energy to pay attention to it anymore at the moment, and my heart gradually sinks as I prop my hands on the edge of the pool and watch the water gradually return to calm.

Obviously, Anne already knows everything, if I don't know Anne's feelings for me, it would be fine, but I already know that Anne has been secretly loving me in my heart all these years, and now in this situation, how can I explain to her so that she can be less hurt?

I'm afraid there is no way! Seeing someone you love fall in love with someone else, how can this hurt be remedied by explanation?

Anne Anne, I used to think that I could save you from all the disasters at the cost of my life, but I did not know how I should take care of you if the root of such disasters came from me.

Thinking of this, the mood that had just calmed down became irritable again, and I tried to suppress my emotions that were about to become chaotic again, and I knew that at the moment I had to remain calm enough to deal with this matter in the most rational way.

Thinking about how much Anne has taken care of me in the years since my mother's death, especially shortly after my mother's death, when I was just a sophomore and hadn't even finished school.

Without Anne's help, I am afraid that even if I had the heart to fulfill my mother's last wish, I would not be able to do anything.

Anne not only supported me with all the tuition and living expenses for the rest of the year, but also cared about my life, and Anne's attitude towards me often made me have a kind of misunderstanding, did she reach some kind of tacit understanding with my mother, and she took over the responsibilities of mother after my mother left?

Now it seems that Anne already had a crush on me at that time, so she did not ask for anything in return for what she did to me, perhaps she thought that she gave me so unreservedly that I would finally understand her thoughts.

But she was wrong, what she didn't understand was that my heart was actually sensitive and fragile, and sensitivity came from humble self-esteem, and fragility came from inferiority itself.

She's beautiful, she's kind, she's so perfect, so perfect that I often feel ashamed of myself in my bones, so much so that the more she treats me, the more I feel that she is out of reach.

In fact, it was not that I didn't feel Anne's affection at that time, and it wasn't that I didn't want to love her with all my might!

However, I clearly know that the two of us have always been her unilateral contribution, whether emotional or material, I have almost nothing, even if I give everything I have, what can I do for her?

So then I decided that I could do anything for Anne, but not to fall in love with her, because my love would only be a shackle to her, and it would only drag down her life that should have been perfect.

But I never imagined that one day things would develop to this point!

Although I repeatedly snubbed her feelings, and even though she never received any response to her feelings for me, she did not change her original intention, and she has been using her efforts all these years, silently waiting for me to never turn back.

But just now, she saw with her own eyes the disillusionment of the hope she was waiting for, what could be more cruel than this?

Since I have inevitably caused harm to Anne, should I give an account of her dedication to me over the years, but I have nothing to repay for her affection for me, and all I can do is to repay her for her material efforts over the years.

Although I have never carefully calculated the material help that Anne has helped me for so many years, because I have no intention of repaying her with the same money, I think this kind of behavior will be a kind of harm to her, and I have long believed in my heart that we will be friends for life, and I will lose

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What I owe to her, I will pay it back in my own way, but it's definitely not money.

However, at this point, the way I wanted to repay it no longer made sense, and she probably would never accept any form of reciprocation from me when she knew that her feelings would not be reciprocated.

Even so, it seems that I can't even do this without asking for help from others.

And now the only one who can help me is probably Mu Xichun.

I hesitated for a long time, and finally took out my mobile phone and dialed Mu Xichun's number, at this moment, my heart was as desolate as a desert.

The phone was quickly connected, and I didn't wait for Mu Xichun to speak, so I opened my mouth first: "Can you lend me 100,000 yuan?" ”

"You ......"

"Please don't ask me why, can you? I'll explain it to you tomorrow! Probably because I was indifferent with a hint of sadness in my tone that made her confused, and she just wanted to ask, but I intercepted the conversation.

“…… Good! You wait for me, I'll arrange it now! After a moment of silence, Mu Xichun finally didn't ask anything.

I hung up the phone in silence and sat down on the steps with a sad thought: Anne may never think of me as a friend again, and this is the last thing I want to see in my life, and I know that I will never have a chance to pay her back......

A moment later, Mu Xichun dialed my phone.

"Things have been arranged, wait a while, finance Xiao Liu will send the money to you, you ...... Is there anything else I need to do? Mu Xichun asked with some hesitation.

She is a smart woman, she probably knows that something must have happened to me, but I don't want to say that she didn't ask, but I'm afraid that the anxiety in her heart is no less than mine, but I don't have the mood to explain to her at the moment, I can only silently say sorry while being moved in my heart!

"No, thank you, you rest early, I'll take care of everything!"

Mu Xichun hummed and saw that I hadn't followed for a long time, so he hung up the phone silently.

Twenty minutes later, Xiao Liu of the finance department hurriedly arrived, and after seeing me, he handed me a paper bag and said breathlessly: "Assistant Wei, this is the 100,000 yuan you want!" ”

I took the paper bag, thanked him, and hurried out of the community.

Xiao Liu shouted loudly behind him: "Assistant Wei, do you want me to send you?" I turned to look at him and shook my head silently, turning away with his puzzled expression.

I took a taxi to Anne's house and knocked on the door, but after waiting for a long time, I couldn't hear any movement in the room. Thinking that Anne was not at home at the moment, she hurried downstairs to her studio.

Along the way, my heart was like being eaten by ten thousand ants, and I wondered in my heart what to say to Anne when I saw her, but I didn't understand how to explain all this to her all the way, maybe everything didn't need to be said again, because the damage had already been done, and it would be futile to explain more.

The door to Anne's studio was open, and I guess I was right, but it was dark inside, and I couldn't see anything or hear a sound.

"Annie!"

I let out a tentative cry, but there was still no response from the huge studio, only my echo floating in the empty darkness.

I fumbled with the light switch next to the door, all kinds of photographic equipment, and stood silently in place, next to the photographic lamp stood a huge wedding photo, in the photo the groom gently wrapped around the bride's waist, bowed his head and kissed her neck, and the bride's face showed a happy smile.

This situation and this scene can't help but make my heart twitch violently, thinking about how many happy loves Anne has witnessed, and it is she who has frozen this happiness in her lens with her own hands. But when it was her turn, she could not see the happiness she had witnessed

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proved her happiness, her love has withered before it blossomed.

The door to her office was ajar, and the angle of the light made it impossible to see inside.

I gently pushed open the office door, just about to reach out and fumble for the switch on the wall, vaguely I suddenly saw a figure under the opposite window, after my eyes adjusted to the darkness, I finally saw the figure, the figure squatted under the window, hands around knees, buried head deep in the crook of the arm, so lonely, so sad......

Only lonely people will lick their wounds in this way, and only sad people will embrace themselves in the dark.

Seeing this scene, my heart suddenly felt like it had been pierced by a needle, and the blood dripped into my chest one by one, making my breathing almost stagnate.

Anne, my Anne, why are you so sad? Don't you understand? The man you love is not qualified to make you so sad, he is just a bastard, how can you be sad for him like this?

I had never seen Anne like this, and my heart could not help but throb and throb, as if the whole chest cavity had been filled with blood, and my heartbeat had become weak and weak, and it seemed that it would lose its beating at any moment because of the severe pain.

I walked up to Anne gently, crouched down silently, and reached out to hug her, but as soon as my hand touched her shoulder, she suddenly raised her head and pushed me away.

By the faint light of the doorway, I saw that Anne's face was covered with tears, her eyes were red, her eyelids were red and swollen, and God knows how long she had been crying before I came.

She looked at me quietly, her eyes full of despair, and in the despair was a deep sadness that I could not see.

She looked at me like this, without saying a word, and tears poured out of her eyes again.

My heart tightened tighter and tighter, like a pair of ruthless hands, tightly gripped, I reached out to help Anne wipe away her tears, but Anne pushed away violently.

She finally broke out.

"What are you doing here? Why are you coming? Are you going to see my jokes? Did you see that? Are you satisfied? Anne was so emotional that she almost yelled at me!

"Anne, I ......"

I want to explain but suddenly I don't know what to say, how do I explain? What else do I have to explain? Do you want me to tell her? I've never loved you, has it always been your wishful thinking?

"Didn't you say that no matter what happens, you will always be there for me and never leave me? Why? Why lie to me? ”

That's right, I said it, I said it all, not long ago, the scene when I said this is still vivid, when I finished saying this, Anne looked at me with teary eyes and asked, "Brother, are you telling the truth?" Will you really be there for me all the time? At that time, I nodded to her with great promise.

However, I didn't expect that it had only been a few days, and things had developed to this point.

"......" I was silent.

"For so many years, I've been standing behind you, silently following you, haven't you ever noticed?"

"I know you yearn for freedom, I know you don't want to be bound, so I have been following you silently, I just look forward to the day when you are finally tired and tired, and you can turn back by chance, and then find me behind you!"

"You always say that the world is too big, you still have a lot of places to go, a lot of things to do, but do you know that in my heart you are my world?" Anne almost yelled at me, and her words were like a sharp knife, cutting my heart in an instant.

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