The corners of An Ran's mouth slowly floated into a somewhat sad wry smile.

He should find a little girl who is really his age. Like Zhou Fanghua. Zheng Xiao. Chu Feifei is like that. Youth is just right. A girl who is in love for the first time. There is a most sincere heart. The warmest emotion. can give him the fullest. The most real. Also the purest response.

Instead of liking her like this with a tender skin. A regenerate person whose heart is already old.

She in the previous life. In fact, I have never been in love. Not even a passer-by who suspected of being a boyfriend.

When I was in school. Ignorant. Silly. Immerse yourself in romance every day. But he listened to the teacher very much. I've never thought about early love...... Of course. This may also be the reason for the lack of boys' affection. What lame teenager would like a pimple-covered face. The character is also not likable. The fat girl who doesn't have a good academic performance either.

Coming out of school. and entered society. Get to work. She wasn't a smart and clever person. Especially back then. Not even a fraction of Jiang Jieyun's guy is comparable. I grew a whole body of fat meat. It's a bit more dull. Fell awkwardly and fell countless heels along the way. Life is miserable. Where is there still room to ponder the question of men and women?

It's so easy. The work has stabilized a little. But I'm getting older day by day. Her parents also began to worry about her personal problems. What to do. Let's go on a blind date.

Blind date. It is the most depressing thing about people's self-esteem. Especially at your age. Appearance. Personal charm does not have a slight advantage in the case. Whether others look down on you. Or you don't look down on others. It's all the same result.

Others don't look down on you. is constantly eliminated with a dislike and critical eye. The bitter taste is something that cannot be described in words.

I don't look down on others. It's not a very complacent thing. Since I was introduced to each other. That must be in the eyes of others. You have a place to match. The mere thought of that is hurtful.

In such a blind date battle that keeps failing. Everybody is a loser.

In order to get rid of singleness as soon as possible. Find a family to work with. Someone to spend the rest of your life with. had to be defeated repeatedly. Repeated defeats and battles. The scars on my heart came one after another. New wounds follow old wounds. Bloody. Not so fearless. Rather, it had to be.

But even so. And to be matched. was persuaded by the people around him, both openly and secretly. Your age. Such a look. Such conditions. Just don't be too picky. Recognize reality. That's pretty much it.

Don't say that you want to find someone you love and love yourself to talk about a sweet relationship. is to find a person who is pleasing to his eyes and pleasing to his eyes, and he is seen as greedy.

It's a self-confidence that is eaten away little by little. Collapse collapse. So much so that they constantly doubt themselves. Constant crushing. Repeated disappointments. The process of despair at the end.

How can there be a woman who does not have spring. How can a woman not be affectionate.

She also had a pure and childish warm tenderness, burning like fire. I hope there is a teenager like Jiang Jieyun. Dressed in white. Coming from the spring breeze. Stand under the peach blossom tree. Leaned down and kissed her gently. I hope there is someone who really likes her. The man she also liked came to her side. You can spend time with her. Hand in hand. Spend every morning and twilight together. Never give up......

But. She poured all her patience into it. Guts. Confidence and perseverance. I waited so hard. Looking. But it always fails and fails.

The people who have been waiting for a long time never show up. And her heart has been so long. Slowly growing old in the difficult and hopeless waiting and searching. Gray. It is no longer fresh and pure.

People often like to compare women to flowers. So if a woman's heart is a bud. When they meet the object of their true affection. It will be like a flower bud blooming. Or quickly or slowly open the layers of delicate petals. and in full bloom. Fang reveals a fragile but precious flower heart protected by heavy petals. Pledge to each other.

And Enron hid that bud in his chest. From girlhood all the way to the end. There is never a chance to bloom even slightly. She didn't have a chance to touch anyone. Because there is too much self-knowledge. Knowing that your image and personality are not liked by others. Not even the thought of a crush arose. No one ever touched her. No one has ever had the slightest admiration for her......

With the passage of time. The blind date is not going well. The frustration of the world. The once delicate and innocent bud has helplessly missed the flowering period in the changes of the years. Although it has never been opened. The watery petals have been dried and wrinkled in the cold wind and rain. Withered buds cannot open. can only be tighter and condensed together. Dead guards the heart of the flower that is gradually losing its moisture.

In this way, even if she is reborn, she will come again. The appearance is naturally no different from the flower girl of the same age. Look inside. What flower girl would carry such a shriveled and wrinkled one? Hearts that are not destined to be opened again.

After being reborn. It wasn't that she hadn't thought about personal issues. Sooner or later, this issue will need to be resolved. However. But she no longer fantasizes about a young man in white. A lover who loves each other. She just wanted to find someone who was down-to-earth. Ordinary and ordinary. Be generous and tolerant. Kind and reliable ordinary man. Accompanied by the ordinary days of firewood, rice, oil and salt. There is no need for love. As long as a thin stream of water lasts. Withstood suffering. It can also withstand the wind and rain. A solid family affection that has been polished by time can be.

Love. It's too ethereal. A worldly old heart that has been broken by the wind and frost of the world has long stopped counting on those glamorous but unlasting things. Wouldn't hope. You won't be disappointed. Guarding your heart with peace of mind. An An's share for a lifetime. Even if there is a betrayal of marriage. It will only be sad. And not despairing. It's like Brother Rooster said. Safety first.

Just ask such a shrinkage. Sophisticated. How can a cowardly old heart be worthy of Jiang Jieyun's freshness and enthusiasm. The youthful affection of the brave one. Get along in the future. A constant struggle to move forward. Keep giving. One just wants to keep his heart in peace. Reluctant to give. One forward. A step back. How can two people with different directions join hands all the way to the end. Out of a world for a long time. The future of loving and knowing each other.

Emotionally. No one just gives. without asking for anything in return. At first, it may be because there is love in the heart. Constant inclusion. Keep giving. But when there is no response for a long time. When those payouts accumulate to a peak. The love in the heart will gradually turn into resentment in disappointment. Moreover. The last of the last. Those grievances have directly turned into hatred.

If. Jiang Jieyun is just her friend. His people are good. Such a camaraderie. She can give as much as she wants. But if Jiang Jieyun becomes her lover. But there was nothing she could do.

Because he is a born-again person. Not as enthusiastic as a young girl of the same age. thus not accepting Jiang Jieyun's feelings. This is not an act of selflessness. Half of this is for Jiang Jieyun's consideration. Half for myself.

Enron clearly knew that he was a pessimist. Before you do anything. Don't want to succeed. Think about failure first. Look at one thing. Always be the first to see its ugly and missing side. Ignore the beautiful and happy side of it.

In a past life. She remembers hearing such a statement. The gist of it is that a woman becomes an older unmarried young woman. The object is always not found. Can't get married. Maybe there are appearances. Temperament. Degree. Job. Family conditions. their own situation and other reasons. But one of the reasons that cannot be ignored is that some of them have the heart of a leftover woman.

The so-called "leftover woman's heart". is the lack of courage to give love. Always scared. Lose sleep over something. Maybe pride. Maybe low self-esteem. Always cowering in your own sturdy and safe shell. Don't take the slightest risk of failure. Hold on to your feelings and heart. Caution is overdone. I'm afraid of getting hurt a little.

When Enron saw this passage back then. I'm quite angry. I don't think so.

But think about it now. I think it's a bit ugly to hear. And it can be used on others accurately. But on her body. But there is a little truth to it.

Timid. Stubborn. Even selfishness. Pull and don't go. Fighting backwards guys. On the issue of love, it can't stand a little wind and grass. A little wind was blowing just now. I thought about shrinking back into my shell. Hide from the sky. Refusal to deliver trust. and refuses to take responsibility. Not to mention selfless dedication. There is no need for any test. She herself made up countless difficult and bloody plots with her idle brain. Thinking about getting out anytime and anywhere.

Just ask such a bastard. Not even herself. Knowing that the future will inevitably lead to resentment. The end of the breakup. But if you want to be cheap, you can easily accept Jiang Jieyun's feelings. It's not just harmful. And harm yourself.

Don't talk about the affection between the two who have been friends for many years. Because of the change from a close friend to a lover. In the end, there was no affection at all. Hate because of love. From a purely utilitarian point of view. Be a friend with Jiang Jieyun. is far more advantageous than being a lover who will eventually separate Lao Yan.

She has a good reputation for Jiang Jieyun's character. Be a friend. If one day. Something really happened to her or her parents. What difficulties are encountered. He will not hesitate to take the initiative to help to the end.

But if it becomes a resentful lover. No matter how deep the affection is, it will eventually be consumed. Maybe she begged for him. He wouldn't be dry. Will also try to help. But active and passive. The results of all efforts and trade-offs are absolutely different.

Friendship can be further turned into love.

But love can't take a step back. And then back to camaraderie.

As long as she takes this step towards Jiang Jieyun. Embark on the path of love. You can only move forward. And there is no way back. There is no safe passage as a way out. No matter how beautiful the scenery is along the way, it is beautiful. As a pessimist. Enron is an impossible choice.