When you took off your jacket impatiently and saw the lip print on the neckline of your shirt, at that moment, my forced smile instantly fell into the abyss...... I flinched, I hesitated...... Eventually, I accepted it with my softness.

As always, no warmth, the same coldness, I tried to forget what I had just seen, and gave you everything I had, but within a few minutes, you flinched. You sat in front of the computer for so long that you didn't go back to bed, and I almost despaired.

Husband, my sisters say I'm cheap, lying on the cold bed alone, but I'm still thinking about you, thinking about can you hug me?

I remember after the last visit, out of the hospital gate, I looked at the gray sky, praying to see the sun, even if it was a glimmer of light through the clouds, as long as it could shine in front of me, and finally I couldn't help but tell the sisters everything, but I wondered why I was the last one to know that you were fooling around outside. Husband, did you ever love me?

In the evening, the sisters prepared a sumptuous feast for me, and after eating beautifully, I went to the bar to go crazy. I had never been to this kind of place before, and suddenly I found that many people loved this way of life, the flickering lights, the deafening music, I don't think anyone is fuller than me, happier than me, but they can find a temporary self-forgetfulness in the dim noise. And I, now, have to muster up the courage to pick up the wine glass on the table and drink this legendary water of forgetfulness.

Husband, my head is so dizzy, I don't think the wine tastes good? Not only is it difficult to eat, but it still feels stinging in the stomach, but it also feels good to lose the center of gravity, as if there are many unfamiliar faces in front of the table. Husband, I miss you so much, are you among them?

The sisters disappeared into the colorful dance floor, and I was still sitting in place, there was a man who didn't go to dance, he sat opposite me, I quietly looked at him, husband, don't be angry, you know I've always been very curious, the other party may be thirty or forty years old, wearing a dark T-shirt, looks very strong, the complexion is a little dark and rough, but a gentle look, this is the first time I have sat alone with a strange man since I got married, I feel awkward and uncomfortable.

He seemed to be talking to me, but the music was too loud for me to hear, so he leaned into my ear and asked me why I didn't go dancing. I didn't want to answer, because I wasn't used to talking to strangers, especially strange men, but I thought it was bad, at least I didn't resent him, so I told him I wouldn't. I regretted it when I said that, and I thought it would make him think I was dirty. But why should I care what he thinks of me?

That's how we started talking, it turned out that the men tonight were friends or colleagues of my sisters, and I was somewhat relieved, but most of the time it was too noisy, and I didn't know what he said, just nodded politely and smiled.

After a while, when everyone came back, they saw us chatting and pointed at us and shouted in unison, "Oh...... It turns out that there is a reason for not dancing. ”

Looking at their strange eyes with evil smiles, I felt as if I had really done something bad, anxious and ashamed, and kept explaining. The more I argued, the more energetic everyone seemed to speak, because I had to talk with my throat, and I didn't want to fight, I looked at the other party, and he was smiling on the side, and he also catered to everyone and said that he just liked me, what's wrong? What's wrong? Husband, are people like this now? Or are they all joking?

Then the soft blues music began to play, and everyone sat together and started to play games, husband, I am so stupid, I was fined a lot of wine, listening to the emotional music, I felt happy to lose, because it can make me forget my feelings.

"Don't think about your stinky man! Called my husband all night, is it a waste of fun?! "I don't know who yelled in my ear.

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When I opened my eyes, it turned out that I crawled on the table and fell asleep, I felt a pain in my head and had no strength in my body, but my consciousness was still a little sober, I looked around, it turned out that I had changed places, it seemed to be a KTV private room.

I was startled, I don't know how I came, I checked my clothes, everything was normal, I was relieved to see that my sisters were still there, I was trying to sort out my thoughts with a puzzled face, the man I was chatting with just now took a cup of tea and handed it to me, and then sat next to me.

I awkwardly took the tea and held it in my hand, and wanted to sit back among the sisters, but this cup of tea once again set off the climax of tonight's "speed dating", everyone's jokes became more and more popular, and the topic even talked about sex, and it was very yellow, although everyone was from here, I still listened to it with a red face.