CHAPTER XXI

"No, she has something to do temporarily, let's go eat."

"Okay. Then I'm going to have a good meal today. How about steaks? ”

"Good. Go to the best western restaurant in the provincial capital. ”

"Don't break the bank. I know one, it tastes good and it's cheap. Just go there. ”

After work, Fu Buyi and Xiao He came to a Western restaurant. Ordered two steaks, two drinks, and a plate of salad. The fact that they get along well does not mean that the two of them are the kind of communication that they talk about. Fu Buyi is with Xiao He, and he will talk more. But most of the time it was Xiao He who initiated the topic, and it was not easy for Fu to participate. Sometimes they don't talk to either of them, they just eat. They felt that there was no need for too much verbal communication, and the act of eating together was itself an emotional exchange. can get along with Fu to this extent, and Yang Yi.

Well, something big happened today. This dinner party naturally can't get around this topic. At first, no one spoke. It was Xiao He who spoke first. "Mr. Fu, I heard everything outside the door about today's incident. I have something to say to you. Xiao He used the word "all", as if she had taken control of the overall situation.

Fu Buyi doesn't know what Xiao He wants to comfort? Or is it peace? Regulate? He only said one word: "Hmm."

"Maybe you don't like to hear what I said. No matter what I say, you must not be angry. "It seems that Xiao He is very cautious.

"Don't be angry. What can't be said among us? Fu Buyi made his attitude clear.

"I want to say, I want to say ...... Mr. Fu...... Are you really ...... Willing...... Mr. Kan ...... For you...... And give up...... So much? It is clear that Xiao He is still insisting on her caution.

Fu Buyi was stunned and stunned. He didn't expect Xiao He to say this. Xiao He didn't mention money, she replaced the word money with "so much". And Xiao He used the word "willing". Straight to the heart. This is the torture of the legendary soul. Are you willing to give it? Still reluctant to break in? Fu Buyi recalled that over the years, Kan Chuang had always respected himself. Even when you are destitute. Kan Chuang at that time, don't care if you have more money or less money, you are also a boss. Kan Chuang always respects himself. No matter how humble he is, Kan Chuang's respect for himself has allowed him to find some self-esteem more or less. This is the spiritual aspect of giving. As Fu Buyi, over the years, I have identified with Kan Chuang's personality and ability. This is one of the few people who still gives recognition for many years. Are you really willing to break through? It seems that this project is an opportunity and a dream that Kan Chuang has been waiting for for many years. Are you really willing to let Kan Chuang lose his opportunity and shatter his dreams? Fu Buyi felt that he was not thinking at this time. He's perceiving. He is perceiving Kan Chuang, perceiving the emotion he has had with Kan Chuang for many years. He's perceiving.

Next, Xiao He said again: "Mr. Fu." With what I know about you, you will feel guilty if Mr. Kan gives up on this project. You'll try to make it up. But what I want to say is, what do you think...... What do you do for him...... To make up for what he has lost ...... 'so much'? If you can't make up for it, your guilt is for life. ”

This sentence is another soul torture that hits the heart. It suddenly pierced Fu Buyi's heart. For many years, Fu Buyi has been obsessed with one thing. He really doesn't have the ability to do anything for the people around him. Loved ones, friends, lovers. He felt like he couldn't do anything for them. It was a pain in his heart. He hated himself.

"Mr. Fu, are you okay?"

"Oh, it's fine. I...... in perception. Well. ”

"Mr. Fu has become esoteric."

"Huh." Fu Buyi smiled bitterly. Then, he became serious. "Xiao He, I want to ask you something."

"So serious? That's what I can do. Xiao He had a hunch that Fu Buyi seemed to have a heavy trust.

"If in the future, I leave the company, and you, one day, are also ready to leave the company, I hope you, no, I ask you, can leave as late as possible, later. The company and the boss can't do without you. ”

When Xiao He heard this, he seemed a little lost. It seems that today's comfort, whether it is reconciliation or adjustment, has all failed. She asked Fu Buyi to say the answer in person. "Then today's matter, Mr. Fu, your final decision is ......"

"Don't get me wrong. Tomorrow, no, go back tonight, and you will call Lao Kan. Let him do it. ”

"Okay." The conflict was resolved. Xiao He smiled lightly. She didn't ask Fu Buyi why she said she would leave the company in the future.

"Mr. Fu, will you and your 'beauty' do anything for each other?"

"Don't be so absolute. 'Anything', the common people live their lives, just seek stability. ”

"So, will you do anything for love?"

"Here we go again."

"I will." Xiao He smiled lightly. "That'...... Mr. Fu, what do you think of 'love'? ”

"There is no love in this world at all. To put it bluntly, I met you, and what I wanted happened to be what you had, so I found you. ”

"Mr. Fu, we ...... The same. ”

When Lisa walked out of the office building, Fu Buyi was already waiting outside the door. "Oops, starving. Eating, walking. ”

"I've eaten it."

"Is it okay to eat with me, uncle? What to show? Who did you eat with? ”

"Secretary Xiao He."

"Oh." Lisa didn't say anything.

A hotel.

"Old man, what are you doing in the company?"

Fu Buyi told Kan Chuang about the afternoon.

"Huh? Is it so serious? And then? ”

Fu Buyi recounted eating with Xiao He and how Xiao He said.

"Hmm. No wonder he would be a secretary. It's a beautiful job. It's not so much that she persuaded you for Mr. Kan, but that she mediated the fatal contradiction between you. The latter is the most important. It not only protects the interests of Mr. Kan, but also opens your heart knot. A person's ability is often reflected in just a few sentences. This man is amazing. ”

"Hmm. She's excellent and I admire her. Fu Buyi didn't realize that he had made a mistake. You can't use the words "excellent" and "appreciated" in front of a good woman with whom she has a "special relationship".

Fu Buyi continued: "Although this matter has come to an end, I compromised. But from this, I ...... I ...... in my heart How to put it, lost. I've fallen below the line. Feeling uncomfortable. ”

"You're going to be uncomfortable for sure. I know. If Xiao He's 'reluctant or unwilling' finally made you make a decision, then the trauma after the decision has to be healed by my sister and me. Old man, do you remember our chat? At one point, we talked about 'persistence'. I once said, 'The heart is fundamental, and the brain moves with the heart'. As long as your original 'heart' is still there, even if your path deviates, you will not be too far away from your 'heart', nor will you slide to the side of 'evil'. Do you remember? So I'm going to mention a word now, 'is it worth it'? Taste it yourself. "Obviously, Lisa didn't want to say anything more. But she had to give Fu Buyi guidance.

Of course, Fu Buyi remembers that chat, and he still remembers "heart is fundamental" vividly. Combined with what Lisa had just said about "is it worth it or not", he closed his eyes. He began to ask himself. He felt that after being with Lisa for a long time, Lisa had adjusted his thinking pattern to normal, and he was not going astray. And the idea is clear. First of all, he asked himself, is there a Kan Chuang in his heart? The answer is yes. Does Kan Chuang matter in his heart? The answer is very important. Will you pay for Kan Chuang? The answer is yes. Will I pay more for Kan Chuang's dream? The answer is yes. Will you sacrifice something important for Kan Chuang? The answer is yes. Will you fall below the bottom line for Kan Chuang? This issue is stuck. I thought about it for a long time. The answer is yes. But there are preconditions, when it comes to making sure that you don't slide to the side of evil because of this, you will. The ultimate question is, is it worth it? Fu Buyi gave the answer happily, it was worth it. Those answers have already been answered. Isn't it? Fu Buyi's heart was clear. In Fu Buyi's opinion, such a big thing, in the past, he would be entangled, confused, painful, guilty, and guilty because of giving up the bottom line. And with Lisa's guidance, he can solve the problem on his own. With a flick of his fingers, the smoke vanished, and the clouds were light. Lisa really healed the psychological wounds that came with it. He didn't add anything new to the bad. He was relieved. Most crucially, he was relieved.

"I really didn't expect our conversation to come in handy again. It's providential. ”

"Oh? Providence? "Lisa seems to be a bit of a yin and yang weird.

Fu Buyi didn't hear it. "yes. Lisa, this time, thank you. ”

"Oh, thank me? That old man, I'm going to ask you, after Xiao He enlightens you, do you ...... Thank her? ”

Fu Buyi didn't realize what was happening at all, and he wouldn't know what would happen next. "Nope."

"None? I'm going to ask you again, old man. Why? Why don't you thank her, but thank me? Why? ”

"Is this the problem?"

"Isn't it?"

"What's the problem?"

"Since I asked, that's the question."

"Inexplicable."

"Is that the next step, you want to say that I am vexatious?"

"Nope. It's not Lisa, don't tease me, okay? I...... I'm a little scared, it's not fun at all. Fu Buyi saw Lisa's serious face.

"I'm not kidding you. I'm serious. Don't change the topic, you answer me, why don't you thank her? ”

"That's it...... It's natural. From the heart out...... I really want to thank you, that's all. ”

"Logically speaking, the closer and closer people are, the more polite they will naturally be avoided. From this point of view, you and Xiao He are closer and closer, can I understand it this way? Mr. Fu? ”

The tone is getting more and more wrong. Fu Buyi was really scared. He remembered the last crit. He really, really didn't want to go through it a second time.

"Lisa, don't you do that, okay? I was really scared. I don't mean anything else. You know, I ...... I'm closer to you, you know. ”

"Oh, scared? Empty heart, right? Old man, you never answered my question, why don't you thank me and I don't thank her? Why? The last "why" is another critical hit. Fu Buyi once again ushered in the onlookers of the audience.

Facts have proved that he still lacks the ability to resolve contradictions and conflicts, which is fully reflected in the two things of him and Kan Chuang, him and Lisa.

The next day, the two returned to walking side by side as usual.

"Old man, I think you're quite kind."

"Alas. Now this 'kindness' and the phrase 'you are a good person' are all swearing. ”

"Did you drink poisonous chicken soup last night?" Lisa teased.

"It is not easy for a good person to say, it seems that a good person is more likely to be favored by the victim. And good people seem to be able to become mature and strong only through suffering. In this way, it seems that the phoenix nirvana has been completed. ”

"Is this the kindness that makes the good people stronger? It seems a little cruel. ”

"I think kindness also needs to be strong. Because good people carry too many things. If you don't run a red light, you are afraid of disrupting the social order. You don't litter, you're afraid of polluting the city. Pollution is even more serious. It will affect the survival of our children and grandchildren. More seriously, it will directly cause the destruction of the earth. ”

"It's a bit of a raise, isn't it?"

"No, it's true. No way. Since you choose kindness, you have to bear all that kindness brings you. Moreover, sometimes I have to lose money, fame, opportunities, and so many. The reason why kind people give kindness is to exchange for a psychological balance for themselves. Fu Buyi said.

"Alas. Kind people. Ken puts the scales of humanity on one end to goodness and ...... on the other Most of the time there will be blood oozing. But that's what they're after. One must give something for what he is seeking. Lisa said.

"That old man, does Xiao Liangzi have any views on the nature of sex, goodness, and sexuality?"

"Of course there is. In fact, he said, this is not a question that needs to be traced back to the source at all. The creation of life itself is a random act. And some of the things that living beings carry are also randomly assigned. Or it can be said that before a person has even come into the world, he has already been impregnated with the world when he enters the womb. It doesn't matter whether the soul was pure or not. ”

The two continued walking.

"Old man, presumably Xiao Liangzi is also a kind person. Otherwise you wouldn't have befriended him for years. ”

"Hmm. I feel like I'm very similar to him. It can be said that two people are exactly the same. ”

"Understood. The man's so-called confidant plot. ”

"In the early years, like me, he was destitute and had foreign debts. I heard people say that going to sea to be a crew member earns a lot. Forced to make ends meet, he went. Every day, facing the vast sea opposite, the sea breeze brings him a sense of desolation. This isolation made him feel like he was in another world. ”

"One night, their boat docked at a pier. This marina is particularly close to the shore. And this shore is also different from other shores. There are several high-rise buildings. Same as in the bustling city center. The building's glass façade is designed as a projection screen. One moment flashing neon, the next scrolling ads. It's been a long time since I've seen this view. He stood alone at the bow of the boat and watched, watched. ”

"Why do people call fantasy and the like bubbles? After the magnificence, it will be destroyed. He was not gorgeous, but he was destroyed. These beautiful flashes in front of him are his original world. He was in that world, but he didn't own it, and it didn't belong to him. ”

He once said that dreams are the last support in a person's heart, the last ray of sunshine, and a trace of warmth. At an age, he is forced to make a living, and the chance of realizing his dream is zero. “

Those dazzling buildings represent the real world and his dreams. He wants to fit into them, he wants to have them. They were as far as he could see. But he couldn't touch it, and he couldn't reach it. Is it just the sea that keeps them in the way? No. It's reality. Brutal reality. He was desperate. He was disheartened. He cried. A man stood at the bow of the boat and cried. ”

"Age, the status quo, can no longer let you, or allow you to live in fantasies and dreams, your life is only reality. When there is only one grain of rice left in your rice bag, you have no tomorrow. Even if the sun rises tomorrow, it will be just another day for you. ”