CHAPTER XXII

"About the dream of the past, Xiao Liangzi wrote a paragraph overview. I once had a dream, I couldn't remember the time, I couldn't remember the content, but it didn't matter, the important thing was that I was, I had a dream'. I never understood what it meant. Do you understand Lisa? ”

Lisa pondered. "Oh. I think I get it. This is a true portrayal of him. What he wanted to express was the sourness after the dream was shattered. Everyone has dreams, and when dreams are shattered, it is like a broken egg, and only an empty shell remains. And it doesn't matter when you have your dreams, or what your dreams are. Only this empty shell proves that your dream ever existed. And this empty shell is an integral part of your life, you can't throw it away, you can only store it in a corner. Some people will look back and find that along the way, there are empty shells of dreams behind him, and his life is built up of these empty shells. Just like Ryoko-chan. ”

"I'll tell you about a little good man. Since writing books, he has pursued literary and artistic styles everywhere. Grew long hair. It's not the same when talking to people. Once, he was chatting with a female netizen. He asked, is your sofa comfortable? If I'm comfortable, I'd like to lean on it and have a glass of red wine with you. ”

"Wow. There is ambiguity in literature and art. What did the woman say? ”

"The woman said, if I say, I don't have a sofa in my house, only a bed, will you come?"

"Wow. I have a hunch that the summit showdown is coming. The old man spoke quickly. ”

"Alas. Disappointed you again. Xiao Liangzi obviously felt that the woman was going to have a one-night stand. He was so frightened that he immediately blocked her. ”

"Hahahaha. It's overloaded. ”

"Alas. Not recognized, sales frustrated. He posted a message in the circle of friends. He said, 'It's over.' I printed that passage from Kitajima on my clothes. From now on, we will never talk about dreams again'. ”

"North Island's?"

"You posted it on Weibo. Forgot? 'Then we had dreams, about literature, about love, about traveling across the world. Now we drink late at night, and when the glasses collide, it's the sound of broken dreams.'" ”

"Alas. Forced to return to reality and continue his 'reluctance'. ”

"Having said that, at that young age, how could you forward such vicissitudes of life?"

"Do dreams have anything to do with age?"

"Lisa, do you think that many dreams are actually fulfilled with money, and some dreams are time-sensitive. Back then, I liked a foreign singer. Known as the little diva of rock and roll. Probably in 2009, she came to Shanghai and several big cities to give a few concerts. I really want to go. But you and I don't have any money. At that time, I thought, it doesn't matter, when I have money in the future, it just so happens that she will come to the concert again, and I will go to see it again. But, unfortunately, it turned out that my idea was wrong. Two years ago, I saw her online what she looks like now. Alas. What does it mean that 'since ancient times, beauties sigh in the twilight, and heroes are not allowed to see white heads'? More than ten years have passed, and there is no longer the original state. If you can continue to like her, it can only be out of the feelings that people often say now. ”

"Old man, it turns out that you are not a fan. Iron fans don't care about what you care about and what you are worried about. Do you know what iron powder is? One of my die-hard fans goes by the online name 'Dayong'. He wrote in my message, 'First of all, I'm sure I'm in love with you. After that, I don't care if you have short hair, if you're old, if you're ugly, if you're out of temperament. These have nothing to do with me. So, I think what I like is your soul. As long as your soul is there, I'll be there, always will be.'" ”

"It's so familiar with the bridges and lines. How to ...... with Xiao Liangzi's book Same? ”

"Are you trying to say ......?"

Seven o'clock in the evening. The phone rings. Fu is not easy to take a look, Yangyi? "Hello?"

"I'm divorced."

"Oh."

"Have a drink with me."

"Where?"

"Home."

Fu Buyi picked up the car keys, dressed and went out.

"Old man...... Old Fu Old Fu ...... Old...... Tutor. Lisa sent a voice.

"Lisa, I suddenly have something to do now, I just went out, I went to the provincial capital, I don't have time to talk today, let's talk tomorrow."

Lisa heard the seriousness and urgency in Fu Buyi's tone, and hurriedly asked, "What's the matter?" I can help you, I can help you, I can help you...... I can help you anyway. ”

"No, I don't. Be...... Yangyi, I'll tell you tomorrow. Drove up. ”

When she heard that she was driving, Lisa couldn't say anything, and muttered to herself: "A Yangyi is in such a hurry, when he came to see me, he was not in such a hurry, old pervert, stinky old man." Lisa suddenly felt very sour in her heart, very sour. "Am I jealous? Am I jealous? Lisa took a few large sips of water to calm herself down, and after tasting it again, her heart was still sour. I'm really jealous. Then, since they're already jealous, they can't let what I don't want to happen. You're an old man. Wait and see. Lisa secretly competed. It's time to defend something. Yes, defend.

An hour later. As soon as Fu Buyi arrived downstairs in Yangyi, he received Lisa's voice: "Old Fu, since you have come to the provincial capital, it is so late, and you are not very familiar with the road, and you may have a few drinks with friends in a while, so, then, I want to say, you definitely need a tour guide, a driver, and a substitute driver." And I, but the most beautiful substitute driver in the provincial capital, and it's free, do you have a reason to refuse my service? Old Fu ...... Old Fu Old Fu ...... Old...... Tutor. ”

Is there any reason to refuse this? No. Fu Buyi didn't think about it, sent out the location, and left a message, "Two hours later, wait downstairs, there is indeed a lack of a substitute driver." ”

"Okay." Lisa replied with only one word. And the meaning of this good word, Fu Buyi fully understands. Down-to-earth, happy, assured. This is an explanation that Fu Buyi must give to Lisa, and Lisa has fully received it. The two already have a tacit understanding.

"Welcome home, my old man. Ha ha. Yang Yi let Fu Buyi into the door. Kan Chuang bought this house five years ago. Fu Buyi is here for the first time today. Entering this mansion built on the land of the so-called provincial king, facing the decoration and furniture of this full house, Fu Buyi didn't care whether he was poor in words or whether he had seen the world. Because he didn't like this extravagant style at all. How much money you spend, I disdain, I don't want to look at it at a glance.

Yang Yi held the red wine glass in one hand and Fu Buyi in the other. For the first time in his life, he held it. This is Yang Yi's abnormal behavior. Fu is not accustomed to this kind of intimacy.

A corner, deliberately decorated in a bar style. The wine cabinet is full of famous wines, and the bar is filled with several expensive bottles of red wine. Yang Yi had already drunk a bottle. Ruddy complexion. Looks like I've drunk too much. Yang Yi filled a full cup for Fu Buyi. "Drink slowly, it's enough."

Fu Buyi drank a big glass all of a sudden. "All the formalities are done?" He had a hunch that he must reach the same level of drunkenness as Yang Yi today before he could start today's conversation, an unusual conversation.

"Hmm. I said I'm divorced, and you're calm. You already know something, right? ”

"Hmm. I've seen him with a woman, but I can't see who it is. I didn't expect ...... It's Pan Yan. ”

"It doesn't matter who it is. Isn't it? ”

"Yes."

"Yes? Husband, you mean, who is important? ”

"No, I mean, it doesn't matter who it is."

"Then you should say no. How do you say so? ”

"I mean yes, I mean, it doesn't matter who it is."

"Since you want to say that it doesn't matter, then you should answer no."

Why should I answer no? I have to answer yes to this question. ”

"I don't care, you have to answer no, no."

How could I possibly answer no! You've drunk too much, haven't you? ”

"I'm a high school Chinese teacher, are you playing word games with me? I drank too much, and I was also a Chinese teacher, in high school. You have to answer no. ”

"You are not high school, you don't speak Chinese, you are actually coquettish, you are actually coquettish with me, the first time in my life, Lao Yang, I am so unaccustomed, too awkward."

"Hahahaha." Yang Yi laughed like crazy for half a minute, and then made a coquettish appearance: "Old man, hug." Fu Buyi did not refuse. At this point he could not refuse. It was their first hug. Yangyi greedily enjoyed this warm, warm, cordial, and comfortable hug. Long.

For a long time, across the bar, the two sat looking at each other. Drinking.

"Lao Yang, this incident has really stimulated you, I can feel your fragility now. We never need to comfort each other with a hug. Isn't it? No, you don't. ”

"It's nice to have a hug between us," Yang Yi didn't want to admit her vulnerability at this point. "I just haven't had it before. Down-to-earth and warm. Why don't we hug it? Actually, I've always wanted to hug you when you're in a downturn, but your heart is refusal, and I feel it. ”

"Hmm. I'm not used to that. ”

"I, I'm really, old man, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, I've been working hard for so many years, I've been working hard, I'm trying hard, I want to bring you out of the gloom, really, I tried my best. Your heart is sealed, and even I can't get in. I, I really ......"

"You've done a lot for me, you've done a great job. You've been with me all these years, and I can't do without you, you know. ”

"I know, I know, we are there for each other, and neither of us can live without the other."

"Yes."

"But old man, really, I really don't have this ability, I don't have the ability to take you to the sun, I really don't have this ability. Can you forgive me? ”

"Alright, alright, it's okay, I know."

After calming down for a while.

"Oh, old man, how long have we known each other?"

"After our birthday in August this year, we have known each other for 44 years. From the day we were born, that moment, we knew each other. ”

"Oh, that's fast, it's been 44 years."

Yang Yi shook the red wine in the glass and fell into memory.

To say that the fate of Yang Yi and Fu Buyi is really destined from birth. The two are world friends. It's been a neighbor for decades. The two grandfathers are comrades in life and death on the battlefield. The two dads are good classmates and buddies. The two of them are even more destined. The two mothers are in the same hospital and ward for delivery. The two were born at the same time and on the same day and the same time in the same year, month, and when they grow up, they will be in the same kindergarten, at the same table, in the same elementary school, in the same junior high school, in the same cram school, in the same high school, and in the same university. After graduating from university, he stayed in the same city again. Rent in the same community, the same building, the same floor, the same household. But the relationship is extremely close.

Pause memories. Back to reality.

"Old man, you, do you think that between the two of us, there is no one who does not exist?" Yangyi's question is very sudden and weird.

"Lao Yang. What kind of logic do you have? You've drunk too much, haven't you? I don't understand. I lived for 44 years, and you suddenly told me that I didn't exist. Me, how do I go home and explain this to my mother? ”

"Maybe you don't need to explain at all. You, your cognition, your parents, everything around you, are all imagined by me. Because you don't exist, then I exist, everything is my fantasy, everything only exists in my fantasy. ”

"No, you wait. Think about it. You exist, I don't exist, you fantasize about me, we've been together for so many years. That's what it means, right? ”

"Well, or rather, you exist, I don't exist. Turn. ”

"Okay, whoever exists and who doesn't. But why? Why do you think this way? ”

"It's because of our relationship. It's been 44 years, between us, do you think it's normal between us? Is it logical? ”

"Why don't we even have logic between us? What's going on? ”

"It's been 44 years, why is there no love between men and women? Why? Our childhood sweethearts, you are not bad, and I am not bad. Our relationship is so good, we can't even compare to Kan Chuang. Why did we never think this way? Even in adolescence, when we begin to be curious and yearning for the opposite sex, we have no interest in each other's bodies at all. We didn't even feel anything for each other. ”

"Your logic is getting more and more wrong, you don't want to sleep with me, I don't want to sleep with you, this is not normal?"

"yes, that's not normal."

"No, I was watching TV the other day. My favorite scholar. He happened to talk about whether there is true pure friendship between men and women. His point of view, in the most straightforward terms, is that if two people sleep under the same bed and nothing happens, this is pure friendship between men and women. Isn't that what we're doing? Pure friendship, typical, representative. ”

"Old man, then tell me again, why? Why has Kan Chuang never eaten your vinegar? Why? ”

"When I said that, I was embarrassed. He never thought I was a rival to him, and I was never a threat to him. He never treated me like a man. ”

"I don't allow you to say that about yourself, no, never. You are in my heart, better than my husband, my everything. ”

"Good, trumps everything."