CHAPTER XXIII

The two took a big sip at the same time.

"Old man, then tell me again, our personalities are opposite, why are two completely opposite people together? Why get along? How did you get to where you are today? Why have we been together for 44 years? Why? Why? ”

"It's like we've never thought about these questions. It's so natural, and it's logical to be together. ”

"Look, there's a flaw, it's been 44 years, and I don't want to think about why we're together? Why can we be together? ”

"Why do you think about this? The moment we were born together, I felt that our hearts were connected and our souls were tied together. It's like twins. We're together. ”

"Twins? We? Is it affection? ”

"Perhaps. The phrase you shout the most, 'He's my brother', may be branded in our subconscious. Or perhaps, that sentence has become a psychological hint, subtly, turning us into a family relationship without blood. Or perhaps, when the soul is tied together, it is the existence that transcends family affection. Remember those homes we shared? ”

The two clinked glasses, drank the wine, and entered the memories together.

Since childhood, Fu is not easy to be introverted, withdrawn, and cowardly. Yang Yi is outgoing, cheerful, and strong. Fu Buyi likes to be alone and in a daze. Yang Yi likes games and sports. Fu Buyi has almost no friends, and almost everyone in Yangyi's school is her friend.

Since childhood, the cowardly Fu Buyi has always been bullied, and at this time, Yang Yi will always shout the slogan that made her famous as early as kindergarten: Don't bully him, he is my brother. It was a slogan that resounded over all the schools they attended. Because of this, Yang Yi has been sought after by countless boys as a chivalrous goddess.

Since childhood, they have loved to be together. When they were toddlers, they sat in a small cart together and were pushed out into the yard by their parents to bask in the sun. When they were a little older, they played with sand and pebbles together. When they arrived at the kindergarten, they had to eat next to each other and sleep next to each other. You must be in the same class and table after school. After entering puberty, the teachers of junior high school and high school once suspected that they were in early love. Interview both parents. The parents of both parties vouched for their personalities, and the relationship between the two was normal. And the teacher didn't notice any sneaky misdeeds, so he gave up.

Since childhood, they have felt that there is an invisible home between them that belongs only to them. And their respective homes are just their respective rooms in this invisible home. And as long as the two of them stay together, no matter where it is, it is their invisible home.

"Master, hug."

Fu Buyi walked over, Yang Yi hugged his waist with both hands, and his face was pressed against Fu Buyi's chest. You can hear your heartbeat. Rubbing his forehead against his chest a few times, "That's good." She muttered. Two lines of tears welled up.

"Old man, if there is one person between us who does not exist, I hope it is me, and you have to live well."

"Stop talking stupid. Now, we are two living flesh hugging each other. How could one fantasize about the other? I think that our relationship, the most accurate way to say it, is that we are part of each other's bodies. It's time for you to re-perceive the world. ”

"Oh, old man, snot rubbed on your clothes."

"It's fine."

"Hmm." Yang Yi simply pulled up the corner of Fu Buyi's clothes and wiped all the tears, snot, and residual makeup on it. Then with a smile on the corner of his mouth, he closed his eyes, and put his face on Fu Buyi's chest again, listening to his heartbeat. She's down-to-earth. "Warm." She muttered to herself.

If the element of "warmth" is missing, what will become of human emotions? Will there still be true feelings, family affection, friendship, and love? Will there still be such a thing as "love"?

Fu is not easy to understand, but he understands everything. Yang Yi's series of seemingly unreasonable and excessive actions, she is showing weakness in this way, and she is showing her vulnerability in this way. She was looking for support and reassurance in this way. She was in front of him, she couldn't cry, she couldn't break down. At the beginning, she fell out of love, she quarreled with her boyfriend, she was unhappy at work, and she couldn't show her vulnerability in a normal way. Because she represents strength in his life, she is his support. When she falls, so does he.

"Lao Yang, you are so strong, nothing can break you, not before, not now. Tomorrow you will be fine, trust me. Don't hide yourself, I'm also your dependence, let me be your dependence. I couldn't do anything for you before, but now I can. I will protect you, give you comfort, give you warmth, and give you security. ”

Yang Yi wiped her tears. "Actually, I don't hate him. My thinking might be a little shocking, illogical, or something. I would say that now, in fact, it is time for a change. He needs to change, I need to change, and you need to change. His relationship with me needs to change, my relationship with you needs to change, in short, everything needs to change. You know what I mean? ”

"I don't understand it at all." Fu Buyi was confused.

"It's okay if you don't understand. But I must make my point. First of all, he, forget it, don't mention him. Let him explain it to you himself. Next, I, I'm going to change, I'm getting older, it's time to change. In other words, a different way of living. So I made a decision. ”

"Resigned."

"That's right."

"Because he's playing online games, you can't face your profession anymore. Again, you want to start a new life. ”

"All right. You know me. And I'm going to ......"

"Travel the world."

"That's right, old man, the person who knows me best. So, I'm leaving you. ”

"It's just a trip, what does it mean to leave?"

"It's going to travel and it's leaving. It's time for change between us. You also feel that today is not normal, right? ”

"Hmm. Everything is weird. ”

"Yes, the first time we hugged, the first time we chatted for so long, the first time I coquettished you, the first time I hugged you and cried. This is the harbinger of change. Because you are the variable of our fate, you have changed, everything has changed. ”

"I don't understand."

"Old man, you have changed, your whole state is completely different. Do you know how much you have said in these meetings? More than these 44 years combined. And, most crucially, once upon a time, when I was vulnerable, I could clearly feel that you were also vulnerable, that you were affected by my emotions, and that my emotions would be magnified ten times by you. That's why I never dare to show vulnerability or negative emotions in front of you. But, today, at this moment, old man, when I can't hide my vulnerability, you are not a little fragile, you are very strong, but you are comforting me, and you are saying that you want to give me a sense of security. Oh my God, I never expected you to say that. Maybe it's because of your strength that I can be vulnerable. I don't need to hold it hard, so I can be coquettish, I can hold you and cry, I can release myself. Everything is different. There is a force in your heart that is supporting you, and that is not what I gave you, I have never seen it. Who changed you? Yang Yi said seriously.

"You and I both know that. It's Lisa. You don't even know the old man, I have already given up on you, I thought no one would change you. If I can't do it, no one can do it. I didn't expect it, I didn't expect it, Lisa, it's Lisa. I'm happy for you, old man. She's really the one who can save you, she's really the one who can take you out into the sun. ”

"Maybe the purpose of your existence is to sustain me, not to change me. But you are stubborn in trying to change me. You've strayed from what it was. You're a misalignment of roles. ”

"Sort of. I just wanted to do a little more for you. I'm so happy, old man, I'm really happy for you. I can walk away in peace, really. ”

"Why are you leaving, I've changed, I've changed, I've changed?"

"Old man, is that writer friend of yours okay? How long has it been since you got in touch? ”

"It's been a long time."

"Sometimes, a person appears in another person's life with some meaning. When he loses the meaning of appearing. He'll leave. ”

"What do you mean? What does he mean to me? Why has he lost his meaning? How do you know? You...... Know him? ”

"I don't know. But we know each other's existence. I think I'm the same as him. What I want to say is that it is because of the appearance of Lisa that it has changed you, and at the same time changed our destiny. I'm also losing the meaning of my appearance. ”

"Putting aside Xiao Liangzi, you, me, Lisa, the relationship between us is different, and it is not a wife and a concubine. Why can't they coexist? Compared to you, Kan Chuang and I can coexist. And for me, you and Lisa can't coexist? What kind of logic do you have? ”

"Then old man, you think like this, if you exist, I don't exist. Then I was imagined by you, and the marriage relationship between me and Kan Chuang was also imagined by you. The so-called coexistence of you and Kan Chuang is also your fantasy. That makes sense. Isn't it? ”

"Are you sure Kan Chuang exists? What about Pan Yan? Does Pan Yancun exist? What about the relationship between them? Does it exist? What about me? What about my relationship with Pan Yan? What about my relationship with them? Does it exist? "What underpins the world is our perceptions. Yang Yi was revising his cognition. His perception of the world is skewed. The result is doomed to the collapse of the world. "Oh my God, Lao Yang, I ......" Fu Bu is not easy to collapse.

"My old man, I was confused. Forget it. Listen to me, Lao Fu, me and Lisa, there is no coexistence, only substitution. Do you know how I felt when I first met her and shook hands for the first time? Repulsion. At that time, I thought she would be the junior between me and Lao Kan. Even if not, between you and me, she and I are repulsive. Remember my last words, old man, remember, if you are happy, I will leave, if you are not happy, I will come back. Remember? ”

"How could I be willing to let you leave me? I don't want you to leave me. It's been 44 years. I...... If it weren't for you...... I can't lose you, I ...... Don't...... Then I ...... "What Fu Buyi wants to say is, if I leave Lisa, you won't leave?" Then I'm willing to pay this price in exchange for you. But he couldn't say it, he couldn't say it. Not only is this sentence unspeakable, at this time, what Fu Buyi wants to express is his feelings for Yangyi, 44 years of emotion, dependence, reluctance, pain, and so on. But, at this time, he couldn't say anything. He wanted to express his sadness, but he didn't seem to be as sad as he thought. Could it be that Lisa cast a spell on me in order to get me? That's. Who is he? As for it? Besides, is there magic in the world? Exercise. So why? Why is this happening? He even felt terrible. The scary thing is that he feels that his affection for Yang Yi is draining. Little by little, it is draining, it is lost, it is disappearing. Why? What's wrong? Just because of Lisa's appearance, he has become unkind? Love the new and hate the old? Faithless? No. Definitely not. These are the wrong words. It's not like that. He Fu Buyi is not that kind of person. Never. He didn't allow himself to become like that. He is a person who upholds, persists, and persists, because he is not easy. He felt like he had lost his original self. He was confused. His perception is confused.

No. Wrong. He was manipulated. Yes. A mysterious force is manipulating him. Manipulating his thoughts, emotions, words and deeds, everything about him. He couldn't get back to his old self. He was manipulated. And what controls him is the ray of sunshine in his heart. It's squeezing out Yangyi. That's right, squeeze Yang Yi out of his world. It is guiding, it wants him to accept, it is forced to accept what is in front of him. Yes, forced to accept. He was powerless to change, powerless to resist. He succumbed. He complied.

Yang Yi, who was connected with his heart, clearly felt Fu Buyi's inner fluctuations. "Old man, you've already sensed something, haven't you?"

"No, no." Fu Buyi didn't dare to admit it. He felt that his admission at this time meant a betrayal of Yang Yi and a betrayal of these 44 years of emotion. But he could only be forced to obey the power of his heart unconditionally. "Hmm. Well, I listen to you, and I believe you. Well, I'm going to do what I'm supposed to do. ”

"You mean ......"

"Hmm."

"No, old man, my hunch is that what you did was wrong, really."

"Maybe there is no right or wrong in life, it's just that the result doesn't meet our expectations, what do you say?"

"Alas, it's not so much that I'm used to you, it's better to say that I have never been able to persuade you, remember when I was against you marrying your ex-wife? You don't listen. That was my hunch. ”

"Hehe, when it comes to hunches, it seems like yours is right every time, and mine is wrong. I have a hunch that you will be admitted to the police academy when you grow up, and I have a hunch that you and Kan Chuang will be happy. Alas. ”

"As you said, there is no right or wrong in life, every regret is an unmet life expectation, nothing more."

Alas. Life expectations. Will my life expectations be met? Fu is not easy to sigh. "Free and easy as you. Lao Yang. ”

"I don't want you to do stupid things for me."

"It's because of you, not for you."

"Spiritual cleanliness at work?"

"Hmm."

"You've got one less friend. No, it's two, and Pan Yan. ”

"I don't care if it's one or two less. No longer friends. ”

"Alas. Look, I still can't change you. ”

"Huh. You're the role misalignment. ”

"Old man, have you finished drinking? Is the old narrative finished? It's not early, it's time to set off. "Lisa sent a message.

"Let her pick you up. Our little ones are in a hurry. It's time for you to go. ”

Fu Buyi sent Lisa the house number and left a message, "Come pick me up." ”

Ding-dong, Lisa is here.

"Little friend, it's all over Zhao." Yang Yi pointed up and down Fu Buyi with his hand as he spoke, meaning that I didn't touch him, nothing happened.

The clever Lisa knows it all. "After putting my label on it, I won't borrow it."

"Hahahaha. Okay, our kids are going to make a move. Why don't you label him tonight and make him your person. ”

The embarrassment was big, and he dug a pit by himself and fell into it by himself. Lisa's face flushed with shame, and she frowned and said, "Farewell." Holding Fu Buyi and running out.

“Lisa。” Yang Yi stopped her. Yang Yi's hand rested on Lisa's shoulder. "Old man, he ...... Need you. Then he gave Lisa a heavy squeeze on the shoulder and helped them open the door.

"Oh." Lisa's understanding is that Fu Buyi has drunk too much and needs to be taken care of.