readx; Chapter IV

Time flies, and two years have passed in the blink of an eye. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

I now think back to the stories that happened after we graduated in the winter, and it seems that the cold, like me, has the last echo in the latest season.

It was the winter of one year, it was snowing lightly outside the window, I woke up in the early morning and looked at the time at about six o'clock, turned over and was about to continue to sleep in the cage, "Ding Dong" a mobile phone rang, thinking that it was the news did not care, turned over and over and finally picked up the mobile phone, the habit of not being able to do without the mobile phone turned out to be a few years ago, hehe. I saw a QQ plus friend message, I didn't care much about it at the time, I first looked at the news, swiped Weibo, and finally clicked on QQ, at that moment, I seemed to see the sun, radiating light shining on my eyes. It's her, I'm sober in a daze, and I'm going to watch this QQ repeatedly. After more than two years of no news, she suddenly had news, how did she feel? It was like a huge stone floating on the sea for a long time and suddenly sinking. I don't remember what I was thinking at the time, but I quickly added friends and was about to send a message, so my heart calmed down, deleted it over and over again, and wrote what I wanted to say over and over again, but in the end it was not sent. No one spoke after adding, and looking at the lack of "typing" and the lack of news, I now think that it was because I didn't say it or didn't have the courage to say hello.

Maybe after a long time, the two closest people will become strangers, and I have failed.

After a day, the light snow outside the window is still intermittently non-stop, and after editing for a night, I finally posted a sentence "How are you doing?" Her immediate reply made me feel "surprised" We seem to be waiting for each other, but I don't know what to wait for, I broke the deadlock, and felt the estrangement between us, but at the end of the day, I still talked about it sparsely, talked too much uselessly, and thought of talking too little.

Each of them seems to be looking for some excuse to explain what it is? What the hell is it? I don't know. When the topic was over, I knew the conversation would stop, it was too familiar, and that's all. During the chat, he knew that I was working in the xx business hall, a small township far away from the county seat, but what I didn't expect was that the next day, she came.

At that time, I went to the business hall for a while, and just after finishing the work in hand, I looked at the door and suddenly appeared a strange and familiar figure that I had thought about for many years. Not as excited as I imagined, after meeting, stupid and stupid I turned out to be abnormal, the first sentence I remember I said very calmly "Hello" she laughed, (now I think about it I have the urge to kill myself, shouldn't I ask "Why are you here?") I couldn't cry or laugh. Her laughter amused me myself. There was no excited hugging, no warm kissing, just looking at each other stupidly, she was still the same, short hair, cute eyes and a baby face that was a little baby fat, looked at each other for a few minutes, and was finally interrupted by the customer who came in, "You sit for a while, the water dispenser is low and there are paper cups in the cupboard, and when you are thirsty, pour yourself water to drink" After the business customer left, time stood still, because she was always looking at me, I looked at her because she wanted to see this face for too long, she looked at me and said that I was fat, the atmosphere was a little turned, a little embarrassed, all nervous, now think about what are you nervous? I can't remember it at the time, and my face would become red at that time.

They learned about each other's current situation and sighed at the speed at which time flies. There seemed to be a little strangeness between us, no longer the same as when we were in school, and the cold scene again made both of us feel very uneasy and embarrassed. So I offered to take her out for a walk and see the snow. She nodded, and we walked side by side, walking on the road really didn't touch her hand intentionally, so familiar, just a little cold. I stepped into society early and my skin has become thicker, looking at her, I will also blush, take her hand, and naturally cross my hands. Maybe it's a habit.

At that time, I admitted that I was cowardly, I had no friends of the opposite sex for more than two years, and my friends suddenly saw you pulling a little girl, what do you think? I remember that I didn't answer, but turned to look at her, her eyes were still as clear as before, there were no impurities and they were still so clear, maybe I saw permission in her eyes, so I nodded vigorously, and the afterglow swept to the smile on her face, and I was happy in my heart, so I walked around the snow-covered town, I said, "Is it cold?" She shook her hand and replied "Not cold" The smile took over my face again.

At noon, my friend asked me to go over to eat together, I led her there, at the table at that time it was really customary, she didn't like to eat coriander, and I naturally picked up all the coriander into my bowl, my friend asked "haven't you seen each other for more than two years?" "yes, there was no communication tool at that time, so I haven't been in touch" I looked at him after answering the question, he looked at the coriander in my bowl with his eyes, I shook my head and smiled, what can I say?" After a hasty meal and a hello, we left, having mentioned it to them, so they knew without saying much.

She stayed until six or seven o'clock in the afternoon, the last bus was about to leave, I remember when she looked at me before leaving, and said, "I'm leaving, come back next time I'm free" I didn't say anything, I hugged her in the past, and then let go, in fact, how much I wanted to hold it quietly, not let go, but still reason defeated emotion, I said "good".

A seemingly simple hug has become a problem for my whole life.

Waving goodbye and saying goodbye, a goodbye is a year apart.

It was getting dark, I couldn't remember the time, and the door of the business hall wasn't closed, so I came home in a daze, lying on the bed, my head blank. At this time, some people may say that you are really a couple? I don't understand...

Yes, I don't understand why I didn't grasp it at that time, didn't cherish it, even if I took a small step, even if the road was paved with thorns. I'm going to blame myself now, why? Why don't I cherish it, why don't I contact her?

I don't have an answer either.

To miss is to miss.

If you don't miss it, there won't be anyone in the world who is constantly meeting.

Until she comes again, until we meet again, the story is the next winter of the following year.

Every person who is in love will say to their partner that you are always in my heart, and every person who has a crush on someone else will say that I have someone in my heart when they say no.

But I, I would say, "I can put anyone in my heart at any time, but a person who has been missing for a long time is not in my heart, but she is by my side."

I still have a cigarette, but I need to spend the night.

I still have a little love, but I still have a lifetime to live.

A habit that is used to a habit is not a bad habit.

At this point in the story, do you understand the change in my heart, and do you have some confusion and what you want to say?