196. Perhaps, it's time to give up
"Don't give up, don't leave." Ann repeated, like a thousand pounds of olives in her mouth, and her heart seemed to be pressed against a heavy mountain.
"I'm sorry, Ji Canghai, I can't give you this promise."
Ji Canghai was stunned for a moment, and his gentle eyes were instantly anxious. Afraid of what comes.
"What do you mean?"
"I've always wished I could be a focused person. Grandma's generation felt that "dreams" were sacred, and parents' generation felt that "dreams" were to be pursued hard. But now, the word "dream" seems to be very cheap, if you talk about dreams with others, others will only think that you are ridiculous, and when you talk about dreams with the public, everyone will think that this is a wave of consumption. Because there are too many choices to do in our time, if this thing hits a nail, we will change to another road, why should we be persistent when there are so many roads in the world? ”
Ji Canghai heard the retreat in An Zai's words, and she wavered. This frightened Poseidon, who was known for his calmness.
"But you're a persistent person by nature! If you are not persistent enough, you will not choose to contact Jian Hao after denying yourself countless times! If you are not persistent enough, you will not hide your identity and enter OD! If you're not persistent enough, you won't train hard every day! If you're not persistent enough, we won't play a game! An Zai, I've come this far, I'm really willing to give up... Give up all of this? ”
And I... Ji Canghai didn't dare to ask this sentence, if he didn't care about all this anymore, then what was he? He knew that in An Zai's heart, his own weight might not be comparable to those things.
"I'm so tired..."
An Zai's voice was full of exhaustion.
"I'm really tired. I didn't know how to go on. Of course I want to keep playing, how good it would be if I could just play as a professional! But it's impossible, and if I want to go back, I'll have to face a lot of things. The opinions of my teammates, the change in the way we get along, and the man behind the stabbing me again and again! I don't know who he is, but isn't his purpose clear enough? ”
"He just wanted to kick me out of the team! first revealed it to the management of the alliance and was dragged down by Jian Hao. And then it's a matter of forcing the news to you! Even if you can accept me, what about after that? He only had one last hand left, and he didn't have to think about it to know what it was. ”
"You're afraid he'll open it to the public."
"Yes."
"Are you afraid of public condemnation?"
Ann shook her head again.
"Public opinion is nothing to condemn me personally, but what do you do? From Yang Ruo to PAI, none of you can hide from it! ”
When Ji Canghai heard this, a cloud of anger erupted in his heart:
"Are we going to be afraid? Sacrificing you for something like this? Ann Re! Don't say such disappointing words! ”
An Zai was so frightened by the sudden loud voice that she couldn't help but shrink back, she really didn't have any defenses today, and the whole person was a little crispy.
Ji Canghai sensed An Zai's fear, stabilized his mood and softened his voice: "I'm sorry, I scared you?" ”
From the day they met, Ji Canghai didn't stop sneering at An again? No matter how he lost his temper, An Zai was never afraid, and Ji Canghai would never apologize to her.
It's just that it's not what it used to be.
"It's okay, get used to it."
These six words are really heartfelt. Ji Canghai thought of his former hot hand abuse cub, and he couldn't wait to beat his AOE 10,000 critical hits to the end.
"Since it's okay, don't run that far! Come here! ”
Ann rubbed her ass again.
At this time, the rain in the sky had stopped, and the two of them were drenched all over their bodies anyway, and they didn't pay so much attention to it, so they simply continued to sit in the mud pit.
"It's not just you and me. Jane Howe talked to me a lot that day, and I realized how much I was doing was involved. I'm not a fool even though I'm out of the line, and I'm not really that invulnerable. A lot of things are beyond my reach. Maybe... It is the best policy to accept it when you see it. ”
Ann relented, she was just an 18-year-old girl who had just come of age, and the pressure of the entire industry was enough to crush her into a pulp.