Chapter 7: The Restraint of Life and Death
He Xi stared at Jin Xi's collarbone in surprise, not knowing how to react for a while, and after a long time, He Xi looked at Jin Xi and shook his head, with an expression of "Don't tease me". Jin Xi looked at He Xi seriously, without explaining too much, holding He Xi's wrist, and gently pressing his palm on the red heart on his chest, He Xi immediately felt the unusual heat and the strong heartbeat. At this moment, He Xi suddenly felt dizzy, and the young child's voice sounded in his mind, "If you leave her, she will die", he withdrew his hand suddenly, his eyes were bloodshot, and he held his head and shouted: "Who are you?" Who is it? Who's going to die, ahγγγγγγ Jin Xi got up and pressed He Xi's shoulder: "You calm down, the sea, you look at me, look at me." He Xi was a little out of control, he wanted to think as hard as he could, but it was always blank, the voice echoed in his ears over and over again, she looked at Jin Xi's "heart", unable to connect herself with reality, he broke free of Jin Xi's hands, shook his feet, knocked down the chair behind him, and then kept retreating, and then retreated, Jin Xi stepped forward to support He Xi, but was pushed to the ground by He Xi, the pain made it difficult for her to get up for a while, and the moment He Xi ran to the terrace, he fell. The explosive headache and tearing heartache, as well as a strong sense of suffocation, made He Xi curl up on the ground and tremble, Jin Xi stood up with difficulty, ran to the terrace, and out of nowhere the strength came from, helped He Xi to sit up, and He Xi fell into Jin Xi's arms. Jin Xi was just about to confirm He Xi's consciousness, but he saw that the white bathrobe on his chest had been soaked with blood, it was too bad, Jin Xi thought to himself, opened his clothes, and sure enough, those lightning-like wounds cracked. Jin Xi hurriedly held down the wound and shouted, "The sea, how are you?" Open your eyes and wake up quicklyγγγγγγ It seemed to hear Jin Xi's shout, He Xi slowly opened his eyes, and his breathing gradually smoothed out, he leaned on Jin Xi, his ears were just on the blood red at the collarbone, and he heard two heartbeats of different frequencies, a sense of security surrounded him in an instant, He Xi involuntarily hugged Jin Xi, and Jin Xi also felt the warmth in his heart again.
Until the wound stopped bleeding and He Xi's consciousness regained clarity, the two stood up with each other, facing the sea. The afternoon sun is blazing, the sea breeze is salty and wet, the weather at this time is excellent, the sky is blue and the sea is blue, Jin Xi looked at the sea in the distance, and her heart was full of sadness, she thought: "Mom, today's sea is so beautiful, are you taking a walk?" "Do you want to go for a walk?" He Xi next to him suddenly made a weak voice, which startled Jin Xi, and Jin Xi was stunned for a few seconds and replied: "Oh, don't go, you need to rest, and so do I." β
After continuing to finish lunch, the two walked into the room, Jin Xi helped He Xi lie down, then sat on the edge of the bed and said, "Sleep, you have shed too much blood, you need to recuperate." He Xi looked at Jin Xi, slowly walked to the side, leaving half of the position, and then said, "You can lie down too, your face is not good-looking." Jin Xi felt his tired body, nodded, first helped He Xi clean up the blood stains on his chest, and then lay beside him, pressing his palm on He Xi's wound, He Xi clenched Jin Xi's other hand, not only were they not shy and embarrassed, but they felt that it was very safe.
In a smooth breath, the two of them entered the dream at the same time.
He Xi's dream: Picture 1, the sharp grinding sound when braking, a truck overturned and apples rolling to the ground, a flash of white, Jin Xi in a daze on the hospital bed; Picture 2, in front of the tombstone, Jin Xi is crying, putting the ashes into a porcelain vase printed with lilies, another flash white, Jin Xi and a person are packing items in the room; In the third picture, Jin Xi kept drinking in a room, and then flashed white, Jin Xi ran on the beach with a backpack and called her mother, and finally disappeared into the distance. After that, there are some fragmentary fragments that can't be connected, but they are all pictures of Jin Xi.
Jin Xi's dream: On the sunny beach, Jin Xi was lying on her mother's lap, her mother was holding a parasol, the sea breeze was slightly blowing sticky and sleepy, her mother stroked Jin Xi's hair, smiling, Jin Xi said, "Mom, comfortable, right?" Mom nodded. Jin Xi got up, helped his mother to tread the waves on the beach, ran forward like a child, turned around, his mother stood in the distance and smiled and waved to himself, Jin Xi ran to his mother, but found that he couldn't get close, the harder he ran, the farther his mother was from him, and his mother's words sounded in his ears: "Jin Xi, don't worry about me, I'm fine, go for a walk, you have to take care of yourself and eat on time." Also, be brave enough to love, love yourself, and love the people around you. "Don't, Mom, wait for me, let's go together, where are you going?" Jin Xi couldn't catch up with her mother no matter what, so she looked at her mother's smile and disappeared little by little.
He Xi woke up, turned his head to face Jin Xi, Jin Xi was still in a dream at this time, tears soaked the pillow, he couldn't stop sobbing, and whispered to his mother, He Xi gently wiped the tears from the corners of Jin Xi's eyes, and he also left tears empathically. He thought back to his fragmentary dreams, which contained Jin Xi, but it seemed like his own experience, but if it was, why couldn't he remember who he was, why was he here? At this time, Jin Xi opened her eyes, and He Xi looked at each other, she couldn't calm her sad emotions for a while, she cried, He Xi took Jin Xi into her arms, and whispered: "It's okay, I'm here!" Hearing these four words, Jin Xi seemed to release his long-suppressed feelings, buried his head in He Xi's chest, and cried. Since the loss of her loved ones, Jin Xi doesn't even seem to have the object to cry about, facing empty rooms and piles of wine bottles every day, enclosing herself in an invisible box, outsiders can't come in, and she doesn't go out, what she thinks about every day is to take her mother to see the sea and go to her mother, and a sudden hug seems to restore her reality perception after a few months, and reacts instinctively, which is not a good start for Jin Xi.
Jin Xi cried for a long, long time, and He Xi's tight hug made her feel great warmth and comfort. After calming himself, Jin Xi sat up and looked at He Xi with red and swollen eyes, a little overwhelmed, a little shy, and a little inexplicably nervous. He Xi also slowly got up and leaned against the head of the bed, looking at the woman who had just been stormy. Jin Xi's heart deer was generally uncontrollable, and quickly looked away, fixed on He Xi's chest, the blood stains had dried up and turned dark red, but the wound had already healed, she looked at the fist-sized marks that spread out like lightning, and thought to herself, I have inexplicably become the scepter of life and death of the man in front of me, and the door of life that I don't want to interfere with is the door of death that I am trying to go to, how is it good, Jin Xi's face is embarrassed.
"Without you, I would have diedγγγγγγ" He Xi's sudden words shocked Jin Xi, and Jin Xi thought of the young child's voice, 'If you leave him, he will die', "Youγγγγγγ How...... Jin Xi suddenly lost the ability to organize language.
He Xi opened the placket to reveal the mark of his heart, and with the other hand, he opened Jin Xi's collar to reveal a blood-red "heart", and said weakly: "My heart is with you, if you die, I won't be able to live." Maybe it's a curse, though I don't believe it eitherγγγγγγ But I don't want to die, I don't know who I am, even if it's for me, don't you want to do stupid things anymore? β
He Xi pulled out the "necklace" on Jin Xi's chest and continued: "Your mother, I must not want you to do something stupid. β
"Youγγγγγγ How do you know thisγγγγγγ How do you know I'm going to γγγγγγ Jin Xi clenched the porcelain vase on his chest and looked at He Xi with wide eyes.
He Xi was a little dizzy because of blood loss, closed his eyes and recovered, and then said: "I saw it, in a dream, I saw a car accident, I saw you in front of the tombstone, you kept crying, and you kept drinkingγγγγγγ And also...... Yes...... The strong dizziness made He Xi feel like the world was spinning, and he leaned his head on the head of the bed, Jin Xi hurriedly supported He Xi and leaned on his shoulder, gently massaging the acupuncture points behind He Xi's ears. He Xi hugged Jin Xi and continued: "Now, you have me by your side, so for my sake, don't end yourself, okay." Jin Xi didn't answer, He Xi didn't expect an answer, although he didn't know who he was, but this magical adventure was indeed happening to him, and the young child's voice seemed to have a clear answer. The lives of the two people are connected like magic, if you leave Jin Xi, although He Xi will definitely die, but Jin Xi will not live if she wants to end her life, so it is 'you leave her, she will die'; One doesn't want to die and doesn't want to watch others die, the other wants to die but doesn't want others to die because of him, this is a life-and-death constraint, either two defeats or a win-win situation.
He Xi felt better, held Jin Xi's shoulders with both hands, looked at her sincerely, and pleaded: "Help me, I want to know who I am, there must be a way to solve our situation, let's find it together, don't leave me." Jin Xi looked at He Xi's expectant eyes and nodded lightly. The two of them snuggled up to each other, Jin Xi's ear was attached to He Xi's left chest, but she couldn't feel He Xi's heartbeat, because of excessive blood loss, He Xi's body was a little cold and shivering, Jin Xi turned up the temperature of the air conditioner, and pulled the quilt upward, one arm wrapped around He Xi's body, giving him warmth, and He Xi also took the opportunity to hold Jin Xi in his arms. This is the mutual support of two life forms, mutual distress, although there is no language communication at the moment, but it is also full of yearning for the unknown future.
When dinner time came, He Xi no longer dragged the corner of Jin Xi's clothes, and the two of them naturally held hands and opened the door. Dinner was Western-style, with plates and bowls of different shapes filled two food trucks, and one of them even had a small freezer box on it, which looked like two ice cream desserts. The two came to the table and sat down, Jin Xi casually opened two lids, one was salmon and vegetable salad, and the other was noodles.
"Western food, that's not how it is eaten." He Xi smiled, opened each lid and looked at it, and finally selected two identical plates and put them in front of Jin Xi and his own table.
"What is this?" Jin Xi looked at the two delicate things in the center of the plate, one of which seemed to be beef.
"It's an appetizer, foie gras soaked in beef tenderloin." He Xi helped Jin Xi set up the knife and fork and said with a smile.
"Oh, what a big plate, hehe!" Jin Xi picked up all the food he could see with a fork and ate it in one bite, thinking in his heart, he was so exquisite, he said that high-end food is for taste, but he didn't care if he was full, it was really true, Mom, you should taste it too. Jin Xi tasted it carefully, feeling the mellow aroma of the foie gras after melting in his mouth, but he turned his head sideways and saw He Xi looking at himself smiling, such a charming smile, Jin Xi saw it for the first time, although He Xi's face was not good, but it did not affect the charm of the sword eyebrows, bright eyes and bright teeth, and the high bridge of the nose, Jin Xi was also the first time to really look at the man in front of him, and suddenly felt that his cheeks were hot, and his heartbeat was much faster.
"What are you laughing at, eat it, that γγγγγγ I haven't eaten this kind of Western food, and I don't use a knife and fork much, so γγγγγγ Not very used to γγγγγγ Jin Xi bowed his head embarrassedly and explained.
"You like to eat sugar cakes, don't you?" He Xi said with a smile.
"How do you know I'm eating sugar pancakes? You...... Jin Xi looked at He Xi in surprise.
"I saw it, in a dream." He Xi said softly, sending a small piece of food into his mouth. Jin Xi lowered her head, thinking of her mother, sugar baked cakes are her mother's favorite food, and then she turned her mind, looked at He Xi and said, "How can you dream of my past, should I say, what I have experienced?" β
"Well, I thought it was incredible at first, there are many pictures of you in my dreams, maybe γγγγγγ" He Xi looked at Jin Xi's chest: "Maybe my heart is in your body, and it has the power of empathy, or is it a memory?" β
Jin Xi was silent, sighing at this magic-like situation.
"Come on, let's have soup!" He Xi put a tomato soup in front of Jin Xi.
"Oh, this is a plate or a bowl, it's so thickγγγγγγ" Jin Xi said in his mouth, but his heart read: "I just ate a bite of something and drank soup, and the high-end hotel is not very good, so I can't eat enough." β
"There's more to come, eat it, you'll be full." He Xi's smile became brighter and brighter, his eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and his eyes revealed love. Jin Xi was shocked, he didn't think he knew everything, this was outrageous, and he couldn't help but shiver.
After that, it was sweet and sour salmon with vegetable salad rolls, Jin Xi picked up the fork and forked it full of food and put it in his mouth, and looked sideways at He Xi, but he was very gentlemanly and particular, and there were doubts in his heart.
The main course is Wellington steak, He Xi lifted the heavy lid, felt the temperature of the steak with the palm of his hand and said: "After a long time, it may not taste the best, the puff pastry is a little soft, but it's okay." Then the knife and fork were used to cut the steak into small pieces suitable for the mouth, placed it in front of Jin Xi's table, and began to cut his own part, eating while cutting, and nodded after savoring it: "The quality of the beef is quite good." β
Jin Xi looked at He Xi, holding his chin in his left hand to make a thinking motion, He Xi glanced at it and asked, "Why are you stunned?" Eat it quickly, it won't taste good if it's cold. β
"How do you know so well?" Jin Xi spoke.
"What's clear?" He Xi asked while eating.
"How to eat, what to eat, the name of the dish, whether the meat is good or not, whether the heat is enough, how do you know all this? Do you have anything in mind? Jin Xi stared at He Xi waiting for an answer.
"I γγγγγγ This one...... I do not know...... It's just the feelingγγγγγγ Yes...... As soon as he thought hard, He Xi had a headache.
"Don't think about it, don't think about it, don't worry, you'll recover, maybe, you're a rich man, you used to eat these all the time, or maybe, you're a Western cook, hahahaγγγγγγ" Jin Xi said jokingly, which also relieved He Xi's discomfort, and the two continued to eat happily.
Then there is fried pasta with black pepper beef tenderloin, and the dessert is a Chinese cookie with vanilla ice cream and mint jelly in the freezer, which He Xi said is placed in the freezer to prevent the ice cream from melting, but the taste of the cookie may be reduced. And Jin Xi felt delicious no matter what the taste was or not, and in the end, a six-inch European cake ended the delicious dinner. Jin Xi felt that he was full, and patted his stomach very satisfied, He Xi next to him lightly brushed the broken hair in front of Jin Xi's forehead behind his ears, and the two looked at each other and smiled.