033 Apathy
Wen Yubai woke up in the middle of the night, her back was wet with cold sweat, and she shouted, "It's Xie Yanzhou who is sorry for you...... Go find him! ”
She opened her eyes suddenly, her chest rising and falling violently, and her body trembling unconsciously.
The scene in her dream is the dirty and cold small country clinic, she lies quietly on it, waiting for the operation for a while, but it is so cold that she unconsciously curls together, the tip of her nose is full of blood, the girls who come here are basically dust girls who have accidentally gone astray, everyone's face is painful but numb, each hospital bed is only separated by a thin curtain, when she first came, she accidentally saw a red ball of flesh.
A woman greeted her: "You look so good, that man doesn't want you to have children?" ”
She replied in her heart, because she was cheap.
She remembered everything the doctor said to her.
It will be difficult for her to get pregnant again in the future, because her body is not good and the sanitary conditions here are limited.
She really didn't regret it at the beginning, she was born without expectations, what's the point, this child will not be happy when she is born, and her life will not be ruined by this child.
She didn't even think about having children, she couldn't even imagine what it would be like to be a mother and a wife.
She will never become the second Xu Yin.
The woman was still talking to her: "I haven't had surgery yet, I saved some money, I don't want to go to a big hospital to do it, you are also an adult, yesterday there was a woman here who had a heavy hemorrhage and was sent to the hospital for first aid, in fact, the small clinic is really terrible, you see these are still killed......"
The camera turned, but it was bizarre again, the child was really gone, she was entangled in the dream, and the child blamed her for being a murderer.
This is the end of the dream.
She opened her eyes to the ceiling, her lips were white, her eyelashes trembled, and a man beside her hugged her, and his body temperature was so high that he wrapped her in a quilt.
Xie Yanzhou furrowed his brows and said in a low voice, "Wait a minute." ”
Then he turned on the bedside lamp, got out of bed, went to the cupboard and took another thick quilt, and wrapped her.
He hugged her through the quilt and looked at her quietly, neither of them spoke, and when she finally stopped shaking, he asked lightly: "Is it the sequelae?" ”
He just heard her shouting, it's really her character, she doesn't suffer at all, and she has to make him go into debt in her dreams.
Wen Yubai didn't speak.
Xie Yanzhou asked again: "Do you want to drink some hot water?" ”
"No, you don't." Her voice was hoarse.
He stared at her with an unpredictable expression: "If I was in the country at the time, would you tell me?" ”
"No, it won't." She didn't have much strength, and said straightforwardly, "I said it, the ending is the same." ”
He couldn't see a trace of reluctance for life on her face, and his anger rose again, and he was pressed down by him, and he wrinkled his brows: "If I said at that time, I would be responsible." ”
Wen Yubai seemed to hear the joke, and his smile flashed: "How can you be responsible, let me give birth to that child, and then give me a sum of money to make me lose the opportunity to go to school?" Or give me a sum of money to go to a good hospital and lose that child? ”
She is calm now: "I was able to find you for a place in school, I would have not wanted that child for the opportunity to go to school, I have my life." ”
"What is your life? Is this the way it is now? Xie Yanzhou sneered lightly.
She heard his contempt for her, and she didn't get angry, but said calmly: "This is already my life after working hard." ”
"Isn't all you want is money?" His tone was cold.
Wen Yubai's chest rose and fell, and he looked up at him, there was no other emotion on his face, just calmly stating his perception of her.
Her fingers tightened, too, there was a deal between them, not to mention, she originally wanted money.
"Then do you give it?" Wen Yubai smiled.
He didn't answer positively: "Are you taking antidepressant medication?" ”
"No, that's what I ate before."
"And you're tonight?"
She was a little annoyed: "It's all said, I'm scared by you and your age, you two are not annoyed, why do you keep asking about the previous things." "She has a little red circle under her eyes.
His dark eyes were uncertain, and his thin lips moved lightly: "It turns out that you will also be afraid, I thought you killed someone, and I was not afraid at all, and I was not guilty." ”
Wen Yubai's tears fell, but he was laughing: "The person who should feel guilty the most is you, I blame my own physical health, what about you?" If there is any retribution, it is you. ”
Xie Yanzhou's face was frosty.
"For a long time, I didn't dare to see such a small child."
"What about the little sting?"
"She's a girl."
Xie Yanzhou's voice was hoarse: "Is that a boy?" ”
"Hmm." Wen Yubai was stunned, "It's your mother's favorite boy." ”
Her face became paler and paler, hugged Xie Yanzhou, and buried her head in his arms.
Xie Yanzhou heard her voice: "If I am guilty and want to go to hell, you will go to hell before me, and you are the one who is most wrong in this matter." ”
He lowered his eyelashes, his heart seemed to be being held by an invisible hand, and his breathing hurt a little.
"Little sting......" Before he could speak, she said indifferently, "Give her back to Aunt Zhang." ”
Xie Yanzhou's brows furrowed tightly: "This is a person, smelling pomelo white, not an animal, since you want to adopt ......" He had long been accustomed to her moodiness and indifference.
She didn't speak, just wept silently.
He said, "Let's not talk about it, go to sleep." ”
She still didn't say anything, but she almost didn't fall asleep again in the second half of the night, half-asleep and half-awake, and knew that Xie Yanzhou had answered a warm phone call, so she pushed her away and left the apartment.
Her heart was beating fast, her eyes were red and swollen from crying, and she was sad, yes, but this sadness that had been delayed for several years, she always had a sense of emptiness that was out of the way.
It was like another soul watching herself perform in front of Xie Yanzhou.
The next day, Wen Yubai woke up early.
Xiao Jing also woke up early, she was wearing a cute kindergarten uniform, tied a bow on her head, blinked her dark eyes, and smiled at her: "Sister Wen." ”
Wen Yubai also smiled, she walked over and touched her head, knowing that Xiao Jingyi wanted her to hug, but she didn't have the slightest desire.
She was thinking, if Xie Yanzhou really knew, Xiao Jingjing was his child, then he would know, if he wanted to snatch it, he would snatch it, what she could do and what she could hide had already been done.
Xiao Jingyi followed Xie Yanzhou, she may lack love, but the living conditions will not be bad, and she can enjoy the best education and resources.
And what she has to do now is to reduce the emotional connection between herself and the little stinger.
She thought that when she had a sufficient economic level, she would come back, and if Xiao Jingjing was willing to follow her, she would definitely fight Xie Yanzhou for custody.
Rushing now is tantamount to hitting a stone with an egg.