Wen Yubai knew that Xie Yanzhou's sleep quality was not good, and he seemed to be able to sleep peacefully when he was by her side for a while, but he had been seeing a doctor, although he had said that she was his medicine, and it was obvious that the effect of this medicine was very limited for him at present.

As she got better, she went out to work, and he began to sleep all night again, and after the two talked last night, she remembered that he put his arms around her and fell asleep, and after a while, she heard the slight sound of him flipping through the medicine box, and she had seen the medicine in that medicine box, paroxetine.

Medicine for panic and anxiety.

But he didn't eat much, his condition was not serious, and she had heard his special assistant mention that he was now in the withdrawal period, and tried not to take or take less of this kind of medicine.

The disease of people's emotions is very magical, and people who seem to be healthy and strong will be crushed at a certain moment, not too fragile, nor too affectionate, just a thousand miles of embankment destroyed in an anthill.

He did not receive any unconditional love, and those fearless children who were fearless in adulthood had the unreserved love given to them by their parents in their childhood, and their parents did not love them for their excellence, hard work, looks, and success, but because they were born with love.

He originally thought that he had received Wen Yubai's unreserved love for him, but he lost it, but later he understood that her love ceased to exist after she found out that he had faked the letter, and he could keep her person and sleep beside her, but he couldn't see her heart.

He felt that he had no relationship, he was content to dream in the web she weaved, but the instinctive anxiety of his body could not be suppressed, and he seemed to go back to the time when he lost her.

The only thing that calmed him down was the video room, which was full of her shadows, but she was clearly beside him.

He really wanted to hug her and watch those clips together, but looking at her tired face, he was reluctant to do so.

He hasn't filmed much of Wen Yubai, but fortunately, she likes to shoot videos very much in the past, and often sends them to him regardless of his wishes, and he has no habit of deleting records, how many times he has changed his mobile phone, and he still has many backups.

"Xie Yanzhou, take a look." The camera pans and she is standing on the balcony of the small apartment, behind the old residential community, in front of a slightly cheap billboard in a small barbershop, "You help me with this fairy stick, and when there are fireworks, I will take a picture of the fairy stick in it."

She paused, "And you."

His tone was indifferent: "Stop shooting, what's there to shoot here."

"You don't celebrate the New Year with me, why do they keep calling you to the party." She grumbled in her tone, "Speak ill of me again."

Xie Yanzhou in the video was extremely mean, as if he was going to deliberately confront her: "What did you say wrong?"

She was flipping the camera, the smile stopped on her face, her bright eyes dimmed for a moment, until the fireworks behind her illuminated the sky, she laughed again, holding a fairy stick, the light in her eyes was far brighter than the fireworks, covering up the loneliness.

"Merry Christmas, Xie Yanzhou."

「…… Don't laugh, it's ugly."

In countless sleepless nights, he watched these clips over and over again, his heart hurt so much that he had a infarction, sometimes he trembled so much that he unconsciously covered his chest, across time and space, he could also feel that Wen Yubai's disappointment in him was so little by little, he was treated a little cold by her now, and he was so uncomfortable, what about her back then?

The people around him were mean to her, and he was adding fuel to the fire.

He didn't know that he was the one who had been letting her get close between them? Didn't he know that he was in the driver's seat in the relationship? Doesn't he know that even if she is at fault, her mistakes are pitiful? He didn't know that she had been trying to warm him up with her sincerity? He didn't know, since he was with her, should he keep his distance from Wen Sui? Didn't he know that she had been bullied by Wen Sui? Does he really not know what love is?

Maybe he has always known, but he is selfish and self-deceiving, as long as he doesn't admit it, he doesn't have to take responsibility, he won't fall in love with her, he doesn't have to worry about losing her, and he is not afraid that after she knows the truth, she will leave him.

How easy it is to escape from everything, and be a giant baby who doesn't know love.

Just as he used his family and status to shirk his marriage before, in fact, he evaded his responsibilities and despised her.

After she left, he asked someone to search for images related to her, some of which she had posted on Moments, some of which were taken by others at the party, some of which she shared on other social platforms, and some of which he and she had left in person.

What surprised him the most was that in the footage that others inadvertently switched to, he was always inadvertently looking at Yuzubai, or locking his eyebrows, or staring, and when she was surrounded by other people of the opposite sex who were eyeing her, he would walk over and swear with a cold face***.

Men's instincts and bad roots, inferiority and arrogance.

It's a pity that he only slowly realized it after losing her, he read the letters she left, looked at everything empty, and tried very hard to return to normal life peacefully, but it was impossible, he often thought of her, often stunned, would go to custom diamond rings, buy jewelry, fantasize that she would come back, and would search for photos and videos related to her when she woke up with insomnia, anxiety, fear, and pain.

Her smile, eyes, tears, and voice were his soothing and painkiller.

"Tomorrow is the final exam, Xie Yanzhou, I have done the exam, can you promise me a condition? …… I recorded the evidence."

"Xie Yanzhou, you can record it for me, I want to see the state of my debate competition, and then review it."

There is also the kind of party where there are many people, she ignores his stinky face, lies on him, has to sleep, and faces his lower abdomen, his breath is burning, he pushes twice, does not push her awake, and pinchs her cheek angrily, but is photographed by someone attending the party, laughing at him also has a tender side.

There are so many memories between them, bits and pieces.

If he didn't want to, even if she stripped herself naked and forced him, he wouldn't be with her.

He wanted to vomit a little, his fingers clenched, his heart trembled slightly, this feeling was not unfamiliar, he still remembered that he vomited after eating for a while, it was her lying quietly on the hospital bed, seemingly lifeless.

Wen Yubai didn't think Xie Yanzhou was acting, did he show her? No one would have known that she would wake up at this point and come back to this room, she had been crazy in her feelings, but not like him.

He was so ruthless when he hurt people, and he still ......

She felt that she was still not ruthless enough, indifferent and ruthless enough, and the images in the video reminded her over and over again how humble she was.

She gently pushed the door open, and her voice was soft, "You're sick."