Chapter 18 Looking back has always been bleak
What is the name of what people live in this life? For profit? How many taels of broken silver? Everyone has their own answers, but everyone has their own life trajectory, maybe it has been prescribed from birth, what kind of family and friends you have around you, what kind of family and what kind of friends you have, they affect your character, your words and deeds, and gradually form your way of behaving in the world, and your cognition also changes with the change of the group of people around you. When you read more books, walk more roads, expand the landscape, change your horizons, and improve your cognition, you may see a different sky. It's like everyone is a frog at the bottom of a well, but the size of the wellhead is not the same. Although she has experienced Ye Xingyan's life in this time and space, the reason why she has become what I can't reach in reality is because of family education and the environment of the times on the one hand, and on the other hand, she has a certain plan for her ideal life in the future. It is often said that the times create heroes, and each era will give birth to samurai with different strong or brave personalities, such as the image of soldiers with distinct personalities during the war years, and of course there will be a group of traitors who think against humanity, which is understandable. Since what kind of people should be known and what calamities should be experienced are fixed, then what are you afraid of, isn't life always a play? And what are you afraid of! I am willing to face my bad appearance in reality, and I am willing to accept that life is not as good as my olive branch, and I am willing to go back to our time and space. I told Yu Yan what I thought.
Yu Yan agreed and went back with me.
It may not be surprising to make this decision, but after all, it is easy to go from poor to rich, and from rich to poor. It takes a lot of courage to enjoy such a convenient lifestyle, and suddenly have to go back decades, but the good thing is that Iwa can finally become that handsome young man.
Yu Yan and I sat on the roof of the building, looking at the stars, thinking that I would soon say goodbye to this city, I felt that time seemed to be going faster and faster, we were breathing the air of this time and space a little freely, in fact, I was quite reluctant, I like those cold and temperatureless robots in this era, I like those ultra-thin and fine electronic products, I like my life, but... This... It's just a gift from time, thank you for this trip, I leaned on the shoulder of the rock and fell asleep. Yu Yan took advantage of my sleep to pick up my wrist and put a bracelet on me, the oval-shaped rings were staggered and arranged in order, and a very thin red silk thread passed through it and was connected to the bracelet pin, there were two small persimmons at the pin, and when they were worn on the hand, the two small persimmons happened to be side by side, which was particularly cute.
Unexpectedly, I didn't lose sleep the night before this major decision, I slept until dawn, rubbed my eyelids, looked at the house I was used to, I tried to recall in my mind what the room looked like when I first came, and tried my best to restore all the decorations, maybe she could see the same home when she came back in this time and space.
Coming to Ye Zhiyu's study, it is his habit to get up every morning to read a book, but standing at the door, I was a little hesitant, I didn't know what to say, the door of the study was hidden, and through the gap in the door, I could vaguely see that he was holding a book with his back to me, standing at the door for a long time, and finally decided to disappear quietly.
I told Mei Feng to go out as usual, Mei Feng was washing vegetables in the kitchen, and hurriedly ran out and said, "The shrimp cake made for you on the table, eat it and go out." All of a sudden, my eyes turned red, and I couldn't help but let her find out, and I said, "Okay!" ”
There was a square food warmer on the dining table, it was still steaming when it was opened, I carefully took out the shrimp cake, and took a hard bite, it was still this taste, the taste of Mei Feng, she came to me and handed me a cup of soy milk, "Na, drink it while it's hot!" I glanced at Mei Feng, she was in a beautiful mood as usual, humming a little song and going into the kitchen again, I looked at her back nostalgically and said goodbye silently.
After breakfast, I took the plate to the kitchen and said, "Mom, I'm out!" She smiled and reminded me to pay attention to safety on the road, I looked at her, and suddenly rushed up to hug her, she was a little confused by my hug, the dishes that were being washed in my hand almost fell to the ground, complaining that I was so tired and crooked for a day, I smiled and didn't speak, and looked back after walking out of the house, Ye Zhiyu was standing at the door and looked at me from afar, I especially wanted to go back and give him a big hug, but I still held back, afraid that our inappropriate behavior would disturb Mei Feng, so I turned around and walked forward without looking back.
The moment I turned my head, tears came out of my eyes, maybe we will never see each other again, I remembered the bits and pieces with them, from the beginning of the heart to acceptance, and then to dependence, in fact, I have accepted them as my parents. But life has its own place, and the family that raised me to adulthood is also cherished, but I didn't know how to go back before, but now that I have the opportunity, it's time to return to them, even if I know what kind of muddy life I will go through.
Yu Yan and I came to Professor Qin's laboratory for the last time, this time everyone was very sober, Professor Qin looked at us with a little reluctant expression, although we have known each other for less than a month, but we are also like-minded people, Professor Qin pursed his lips and said, "You really want to go back?" ”。
"Hmm." Yu Yan and I both nodded.
I asked, "Professor Qin, we are counting the time travel of the specified year, right?" ”
Professor Qin nodded and said, "Yes, what questions do you have?" ”
I said, "We'll still keep our memories when we go back, right?" ”
Professor Qin said: "Actually, I'm not sure about this question, after all, I didn't come to this plane to travel through a specified year, this is actually a new attempt for us, but I will try my best to protect your safety." ”
"Okay, thank you, Professor Qin."
"This is likely to be the last time we will get together, if you can still remember when you go back, don't forget that my name is Qin Yu."
Yu Yan and I nodded heavily and stepped forward to give him a big hug.
Professor Qin told me that Yu Yan and I were sent into the teleportation chamber, and like the last time the strange head set off, the chip embedded in the young bud cells of the persimmon tree was re-implanted into the teleportation chamber, and the start button was pressed.
Yu Yan and I stood side by side in the teleportation chamber, all the sensing elements surrounded me twice, I couldn't see Yu Yan, he couldn't see me, he couldn't move stiffly, and all my limbs touched were layers of protective armor. Suddenly, there was a sound of rain in my ears, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, I felt that the weather was crying like I was out of love, the wind was also coming to join in the fun, whirring and blowing, blowing my eyes couldn't open, suddenly the rain seemed to stop, the wind also stopped, I stared at my eyes, a white point, closer and closer, I couldn't open my eyes, for a moment, my brain was blank, and I lost consciousness.