When I feel that if I don't write something, if I don't record something, I will forget it, and I will lose something very important, it is after I know the leaves.

Until then, I thought that no matter how much a person had an idea, it was just one person's idea, and they would not understand each other and would not be indifferent.

After getting to know Yezi, the sudden 'happiness' was very resistant to me. I will also confirm to the leaves from time to time: Can I really become happy?

These ideas are incomprehensible and even incomprehensible in the eyes of ordinary people. I said, "I'm not a singer or a poet, I should have the right to be happy."

She would answer me seriously: singers and poets also have the power to become happy. When they become happy, they just create something different.

Because they've been in pain, that's enough. There is no eternal happiness, and there is no endless suffering.

I began to accept all of this as a gift from God. One day, when I slept until one o'clock in the afternoon, the leaves suddenly came to my house.

The screeching doorbell and waking up in my sleep were all things that scared me. But when I opened the door and saw that it was a leaf, I felt a beam of light enter my room at that moment, and with that innocent round face, I said, "Morning, I brought a bento."

It was originally agreed in the message

"See you next time", but I didn't hate her sudden visit. There was even a little bit of excitement. Sleep was effectively improved also on that day.

I've asked people who seem to be happy what they think before they go to bed, and they say, "Sleep is sleeping, and you don't think about anything." "It turns out that happy people can sleep without thinking about anything.

There's no way I can't do anything and think about it, and anxiety will take over your brain. Some people will answer: when you are very sleepy, you fall asleep at once, and when you are not sleepy, you will think about what you should do on a cloudy day, or some fanciful things. "I didn't seem to be able to fall asleep immediately even though I was very sleepy, maybe because I felt guilty about having nothing to do all day, or because I regretted not being willing to sleep.

It's not like when I was a kid and I thought about being Superman or being the number one in the school and sleeping happily.

We also often talk about things when we first met, and at the beginning, when Ye Zi said that he had the opportunity to eat sushi together, I would say go, go.

But when she actually says I'm going to eat this Thursday or next Monday, I always excuse myself with various reasons: "I'll go back when winter comes, I prefer winter." ”

"Let's go back when my acne is gone, I've had some acne lately." I was embarrassed by my fear of people and the anticipation of what I would meet.

Eventually, at Ye's repeated invitation, I said let's go eat ramen on a cloudy afternoon. Ye Zi would think that I was abrupt and funny, and suddenly decided that it was a cloudy day and suddenly decided to eat ramen without asking the other person's schedule.

But Ye Zi smiled and happily agreed to me. But when I calmed down, I began to regret it, and the act of having a meal with others became a thing, just like the common belief that there are exams on cloudy days".

"The day after tomorrow to meet important customers", this is all one thing. And for me, taking out the garbage and going to the supermarket to buy groceries.

These have become

"One thing".