I can still remember when I first came to this island, I was very happy. I made a lot of good friends, worked hard, studied hard and got a scholarship.

But then gradually I started to be afraid of things that I had taken for granted, and I became anxious and unable to concentrate.

This state is unconscious, and I don't know if it has become like this slowly or suddenly.

But I can clearly feel that I have grown too much, at an incomprehensible pace, and then

"Broken". I blamed myself for making mistakes at work, and I realized it was time for me to take a break and quit my job.

Going to school has also become a difficult thing, not because the learning content is too difficult to keep up, but sitting in the classroom or on the way to school will make my heart beat faster, breathless, and even nauseous retching.

I happily agreed to my friend's invitation, and then the day before the appointment, I suddenly lost the courage to go out, so I prevaricated for various reasons.

。 I was acutely aware of how fearful I was of people. When I go out for a walk in the park in the middle of the night, I always come across some wild cats, and when I see a human wild cat, they will immediately run away, and I am a little similar to them.

I don't know why they fear humans, they may have been abandoned, or hurt by naughty children, or abused by twisted people.

I love these cats, I go to the convenience store to buy some cat food to visit them, some of them cautiously try to get close to the cat food in my hand, and some of them hide from a distance to observe the situation.

I simply scattered the cat food far away, and they swarmed up. After several visits, some of the kittens trusted me and even sat cross-legged on my lap.

I have a bit of a resemblance to them, and if I were to be compared to a cat, the gentleness of the leaves would be food.

It's like you give money to cats, you give them cars, beautiful women, they will all be indifferent, but if you give them food, they will cautiously approach you and trust you, and the leaves give me tenderness.

Ye Zi and I often talk about different places or regions, and the people there will be different. Ye Zi would be very excited to say what the people of this place are like, what the people of that place are like and come to ask my opinion.

What I see is often the person himself, regardless of occupation, birth, age. People often like to judge what kind of person a person is, a person who is judged to be a bad artist because of a scandal, or a stranger who is actually rated as a good person because he has done a good deed, or a person who is judged for doing a bad deed

"It turns out that he is such a person", in my opinion, these are impossible to judge. I think man is man, a very complex animal, like in "The Moon and Sixpence",

"Good and evil, meanness and greatness, can exist in a person at the same time and do not contradict each other." It's not about the good or bad of people and things, but what you believe, and that's enough.

The famous sayings and aphorisms that are widely circulated in the world, those are called great truths, and the ideas that you firmly believe in are called truths.

After listening to the big truth, I felt as if everyone was right, and everyone had some reason, so naturally I didn't know how to live.

By learning the truth and combining it with your own experience, these become valuable things for you.